title: what happened?
date: Monday, September 25, 2006
what did you do dear
oh my what did you do
sleepless nights
hunger pangs
and now
pain of scars
oh my what did you do
what were you thinking dear
your mind's ne'er at peace
floating thoughts
dense with fret
you lost your gift
concentration and strength
and now
open to pain
pain of the heart
what were you thinking dear
title: <3
date: Saturday, September 23, 2006
When a girl misses you, she's afraid to see how your new girl looks,
she's dreading the fact that you're not hers anymore.
When you break a girl's heart,
she still feels it when bumping heads 3 years later.
When a girl just stares deep into your eyes,
she's HOPING that you're hers and only hers (it shows how much she cares: eyes never lie)When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her mind.
When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers, "I'm fine",
after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine.
When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are so wonderful.
When a girl lays her head on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl calls you everyday,
she is seeking for your attention.
When a girl wants to see you everyday,
she wants to be pampered.
When a girl says, "I'll love you forever",
she means it.
When a girl says that she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says, "I miss you",
no one in this world can miss you more than that.
title: i think i'll change my ways. tomorrow's a brand new day.
date:
today's nicer... just now went out for sort of dinner with kartik after his tuition. but dere was liverpool match which kartik just had to watch so we went back quite early. hmmz. now i'm gonna start my ki hw... and i plan to study! yay. haha.
title: when you gonna give it up to me?
date:
nearly 5 now. feeling better compared to the past few days. after this i going to do my ki hw which was like due so damn long ago... ok la not long ago. like ytd. haha. yea finally feel better to do my work. got back not long ago from meeting kartik. thgs are much better. but ya. one more and i'm finish. =( cos i'll just dieee.
title: immediate feelings
date: Friday, September 22, 2006
physical. i'm breathing heavily. i taking fast deep breaths. my palms are sweaty and cold. my feet are cold. yet i'm sweating. i'm crying. i'm hungry. i dint eat properly. whole day. gastric is coming. just now i had diorheaa. i feel feverish.
emotional. my mind is heavy. i'm going crazy. i'm so sad. i crying. my chest is so heavy. i cant be in peace. i'm indecisive. damn sad. suicidal. i'm about to say goodbye. blood sounds relieving. i cant move on. i cant concentrate on anything. i want to smile. i want someone to make things all right. i want to cry and be taken care off. but now i feel mistreated. i feel abused.i feel alone. i feel abandoned. i feel emo.
title: bk at compass point
date:
hmm i'm now here at bk at compass point.... and i'm with vivian! yup. and marilyn and ivann just left. before that norman left. so its just me darling now. so wad am i doing here so far? well i was hibernating at home for the past few days. so vivian forced me to come out meet her at cp. well it was damn hard to get me out cos that meant i gotta get out of bed. finally did and now i'm here studying. well at least trying to... haha. most of the time they are just talking crap and me and vivian went to go food shopping.haha.damn fun. fuck... i so dowan go home... cos i'll be sad again.. and alone... and i'll start to think... fuck...
title: rhapsody of elf and his angel
date:
the elf was young
he had an angel
the angel was a wee bit older
but she knew she could fall on him
the elf treasured her
everything he had was hers
and a lot more
he felt it was his duty to make her smile eternal
when it faded he blamed only himself
so anything it took
he did
the elf gave her nothing but the best
whatever the angel needed
she got more
he made sure she walked on diamonds
while others were walking on stone
whilst she slept in his caress
he would stroke her long hair ever so gently
to make sure it didnt fall upon her face
the angel was his first priority
nothing was above his prize
not even the elf
he would always be behind her
even if it meant pushing important things behind him
the elf made the angel feel like as though she could fly
she was always allowed to be better than him
the elf could run faster than anyone
but she could always win
he did not ask for anything
her presence was all he wanted
to see her laugh
to watch her play
to make sure she didnt run away.
so thats the life he gave her
and bitter truth it was her first
the carefree nature
the impossible worries
he gave it all to her
the angel was stupid
she didnt realise
what a gift she had
while he loved her
she loved him to
but it was beyond his compare
so now he's gone
she's all alone
seeking
searching to find
happiness
again
and
her
lost
eternal
smile.
title: they see me rollin
date:
haha. life FUCKING SUX MAN!!!! i never go sch since monday and u noe wad its not to study at home. lol. its to be fucking emo!!! everythg is letting me down in life. fuck studies im so stupid, fuck family everyone doesnt understand me. and fuck u-noe-who for fucking me up. argh. life is a bitch!!! i being emo at home. i feel like when i broke up with augustine sia.. haha. like today i stayed in bed till 5pm and u noe wad. the time now is 12am i dint eat lunch dint eat dinner. haha. i rock rite'? fuck la i dowan go sch tmr. quit only la. chao chee bye.
title: they see me rollin
date:
haha. life FUCKING SUX MAN!!!! i never go sch since monday and u noe wad its not to study at home. lol. its to be fucking emo!!! everythg is letting me down in life. fuck studies im so stupid, fuck family everyone doesnt understand me. and fuck u-noe-who for fucking me up. argh. life is a bitch!!! i being emo at home. i feel like when i broke up with augustine sia.. haha. like today i stayed in bed till 5pm and u noe wad. the time now is 12am i dint eat lunch dint eat dinner. haha. i rock rite'? fuck la i dowan go sch tmr. quit only la. chao chee bye.
title: who's to say wad has been will never be
date: Wednesday, September 20, 2006
11am. dint go sch. but going later. promos are finally here. mt exams later at 1.30. and i only started studying today. wanted to study last night but as usual i fell asleep. ytd skipped a lot of lessons. dint blog for a long time cos life was being an extra bitch these past few days. actually it still is but oh well i gotta push it aside at times. well i wanted to wake up at 7 to start studying. but in the end started only at 8.30.. and had a one hour break too. lol... malay is so fucking boring man. this is the first time i studying for malay. malay b somemore... my cikgu gave us all the passages from which a few will come out... so i was like trying to interpret them.. so damn boring. so i was listening to indie the whole time while i studied to keep myself awake. yea indie rocks man. after today, i plan to mug.
ya right.
title: emo
date: Monday, September 18, 2006
just got back from sch.yup again. went back at 1.30 for math extra class. everyone was surprised to see me there cos i think the last time i actually went was a thousand yrs ago. well it was partly cos i noe koh was hinting to me today abt being lazy n not bothering to turn up(last wk he also directly told peijin and me dat we skip all his math extra classes) but also cos i wanted to take down the answers for integration tutorial. i am in serious shit. my lecture notes are empty cos i never go lectures, i dont do tutorials, and unlike everyone else, i dont have tuition. so i finally sensed a bit of urgency and need to go for class today. it was so damn boring. i was counting down the minutes to the end. and going there, i was nothing but clueless. i suck. hah.then xiao hui and i were like talking abt arts and science stream discrimination. seriously its damn retarded. we were both getting irritated and frustrated with ppl keep saying "we're arts so we are less inclined mathematically" so in other words means we are stupid is it? we were like so irritated cos both of us were from the top science class in sec sch. learning all 3 pure sciences and both A and E math. and i personally felt damn insulted cos even though yes i noe i'm slacking now and not performing well. but dats cos i'm slacking! my capabilities are waay higher. i'm just damn lazy and not bothered about sch. and coming from the science class, i could have definitely gotten into science stream if i wanted to. but i dint want to. cos i was more interested in history. so does my preference make me inferior to a science geek? and for ur information all those ppl out there who think arts ppl are not cut out for H2 math, i've been scoring high As for math for as long as i can remember. seriously the next person who tells it to my face dat arts is inferior to science, or arts cant do math, i am gonna fuck the person up.
title: shortest day in sch ever_
date:
yep time now, 0945. left sch at 9. can u believe it? just went to sch to show face to mr koh. dint go lit lect dint go pe. hais... i feel sorry for the pe teacher. he's so nice. and always having plans for our class but like ppl like me and peijin always skip. peijin so evil. she laugh at him. =( haha but its not like as though i go anyway. lol. i think peijin and i never been to a rugby class at all. sighx... i'll go after promos k? if i come sch. cos i plan on ponning. haha...so walked out at 9... at the bus stop i met this 70yrold lady... and she started talking to me. u noe about wad? she was telling me how successful her children were. her 3rd son was the first scholar in sg to hv a doctrate... 2nd one going to do doctrate finished masters... then her daughter or wad like got recommendation by a prefessor in some university to be a professional english person... hmms... then she was telling me about her grandchildren...abt how smart they were as well... her youngest, this pri6 boy got 100/100 for math 2 terms in a row and was approached by hwachong. she sounded really proud, saying that now her income is all giro. dun need ask, the children will give. then she can travel all around the world cos her son will pay. she will eat at the world's best restaurants. oh well there's nothing to not be proud of. i understand why she wants to tell the whole world. her children are so damn successful. any mother will be damn proud. she told me that to her as a mother, education is the most important thing. if they dont study she will cry. well that made me understand kartik's mother's perspective more deeply for the first time. i now understand which direction she's coming from. so i really do understand the pressure kartik's under. but really, i dont see that as an excuse for my tears. but yes darling, i understand u completely. if only u could understand me as well.if someone said three years from nowyou'll be long gone.i'll stand up and punch them outcos they're all wrong.i know bettercos u said foreverand everwho knew?
title: ive.never.been.this.scared.in.a.long.time.
date:
i am damn scared.
i dont noe wad tmr will bring
my promos is in 3 days
yet i know nothing
sch is boring me
so much that i dont even take it seriously anymore.
what do i take more seriously?
my stupid love life
and my sleep
my love life is constantly down
i love this guy
so why do i cry at night?
i did something wrong.
it burdens me within
i'm hoping to get it cleared asap.
then
expectations
service learning is going nowhere
i cant organse things like this
because 90% of me is slack and dont care
i noe i'm being selfish to my class
but sometimes i dont feel supported
not by them
by my friends
who are also slackers
so i get influenced
and dive back to my own bleak sadist world.
so yes
i am scared
but wads more scary is
i carry this load
this heavy load
everyday
and no one on earth
knows fully the load i carry.
is that normal?
or is that me.
title: if god is a dj life is a dancefloor love is the rythm u are the music
date: Saturday, September 16, 2006
im bored with the limited font that this blog has. and i'm bored of my skin... gonna change when i'm free.. and i'm bored of life. i'm so lousy. so far i only did one lit outline. fuck! wad the hell am i doing here blogging and slacking?! ahhh!!!!!kk going to do!!! i'm so scared! im a loser man!
title: lost in europhia
date:
groggy i feel. just woke up half an hour ago... at 1.30pm. wanted to study whole night last night. but guess wad, i chose the bed instead. read anas' blog. she described it as an addiction. lol. i tink for me its more.. its almost a way of life. haha. well at least i feel all charged cos the whole week in sch was so fucking tiring... ant the lack of sleep i had really contributed. so now i'm faced with another day in life which sucks. haha..., so wat shld i do today? shld i start studying? see even now i'm contemplating.... i suck la. haha. nvm i shall wait for my mother to come back and see whether she bought for me lunch. den i eat den study. yupyup. oh no but gotta bathe first. haha. excuses excuses. last night was a really cold night. i was in my soccer socks! heex so long since i wore them. augustine bought them for me for cold nights. haha. i want more.. ok i shall start my day now.. maybe bathe...
title: who knew
date: Friday, September 15, 2006
finally blogging again after so long. well the reason for not doing so is cos the whole week i've been feeling either really fucking sad or just too tired cos of fucking sch. yea fuckking sch. thank God the week has come to an end. and wads more depressing, is that its only the 1st week... 9 more wks to go in tt stupid jail. seriously my 1 wk feels like 1 month. maybe cos many thgs happened also to tire me out emotionally. oh well. no use recounting events. too many. lets just review aspects in my life shall we?ok since sch is like the shittiest thing ever lets get it over and done with. sch is getting stricter with the drawstring issue. well i'm only weary of koh since he's my cg tutor and i'm his rep. other than that i dont really give a shit. just play cat and mouse. had been pro in that since sec sch. and sch is as boring as usual... and yea. study wise, louiza still has yet to realise the importance of studying. yup. i've been slacking the whole fucking week. shit la. never have enough slp at night cos of issues and cos of chatting then i'll go sch all shagged and i'll slp in class. and dont do stupid tutorials. (math and econs. hist and ki are my reasons for going sch...) so that means i'm really far far behind. and u noe wad, i'm still procrastinating on starting to study for promos. seriously. i havent started serious work yet. i really need to wake up. i need to set priorities right. practical priorities. and invest in the right things, just like wad vivian said. i think it'll be kinda impossible for me to score As. so my aim is to at least pass everything. louiza... wad are u doing to ur life man... next issue... hmm life? life sucks. always does. when it look like its all fine, it fucks u up and makes u the saddest human on earth. and here's a confession. i did somethg really bad. and i dunno how to resolve it. i'm just playing the situation by ear. hopefully it resolves soon.kay i guess i better go. got ppl to call.
title: if 6 was 9
date: Monday, September 11, 2006
i gotta say one thing first. I LOVE TRAVIS BARKER!!! kay having said dat, haha. lets start blogging. well just now, i was planning to study until like 4 then go sch for council meeting. but wad happened was, i was having stomache and dieorheaa remember? so i decided to lie in bed and study. but then, i guess econs was too boring for me, cos then i fell asleep. ya. and woke up at like 4.30 when kartik called after his paper. and i tell u i was feeling soo shitty. my eyes were like so stiff and dry cos i slpt with contacts, and i was in my PE attire still... gross man. so i took a bathe then started on my work. i really wanted to do econs hw. but i cldnt find my paper. seriously i searched throught everythg for like almost half an hour. so really its not my fault miss tan if tmr i go to ur class empty-handed. so instead i did my philosophy... researched on the just war theory. quite interesting at first, until my hand got tired of writing. and of course in between i had my usual digressions of watching a bit of tv... then eating... people. this yr is like the first time in my life i'm reading so much! so much of boring shit dat is... sometimes i regret not taking science. just a little bit. cos they dont have to read read read. econs, read. ki, read. lit, read. hist, read. i think the worst is like ki and hist. hmm well then again, i dont regret taking arts. i like it more than boring formulae. and its like the whole world takes science. its like so uniform. just look at the numbers. so ya my philosophy on life, being different. i guess thats a plus. well just gonna rant on somemore until top model starts...k lets talk about... hmm... blink! yea! kay i so love blink 182. and i think travis and tom are super hot. i dunno who's hotter cos i love them both! but i hate mark. cos he doesnt look at gd. haha. but according to vivian she says that between mark and tom, tom is the arrogant shit head while mark is the nice one always reaching out to fans. hmm i wonder. but anyway he's still hot! i think its cos of his hair and his sad look. like now his hair is no longer emo cut so he looks rather shitty. and like travis! omg i've been loving him since day 1. he is so cute. he's so handsome his eyebrows are so hot and his tattoos are cool and the best of all... HIS MOHAWK!! its the hottest mohawk on earth! and he is so pro at the drums. he's like one of the fastest drummers in the world. and he's so sweet, the way he takes care of his kids and stuff. gawd i love him! and hopefully he loves me too. haha. i can dream right? louiza<3travis+tom
title: 1st day of school
date:
is pretty darn short. time now, 11am. yep. i walked out of sch again. only attended one lesson, math. wanted to attend lit lecture but peijin got caught by the stupid principal for her drawstring. (i ran to escape in the art room) so the principal kept hunting her down making sure she take out the drawstring... before leaving... then i waited for peijin to put back the drawstring. it was a freaking long process man i tell u. and its damn painful.. yep i helped her do some. so in the end dint go lit.. and the pe teacher is so poor thing. he had plans and all for a very nice pe lesson and yet he had to wait so long for ppl to come. (but me and peijin were like the first.) but then when we finally were walking out to the courts the sun was damn hot so me and peijin decided to go home. LOL. so ya. i feel sorry for the pe teacher... but anyway i was having a really really bad stomache... dunno why. fuck i can feel it again. so i went home.
sorry kartik for not waiting for u. its his prelims today... wanted to wait till 1130 cos he free after that but i was wondering whether i should cos peijin also said that he might not be able to concentrate studying for his chem paper in the afternoon. but wad really made me go home is that i had a fucking painful stomache. when i came home i spent like 15mins sitting dere... in pain as shit just came out. LOL sorry for the explicit description.
today i talked to anas. well mainly she talked to me first. about why i never go lit lect and all. then again later before we were leaving sch she talked to me. so ya. i feel pretty gd abt us talking again. one step at a time.
talking about friendship... hui yu just msged me... asking abt our lost friendship. wow.. .after so long. hmm wonder wad to tell her... and wonder how she noe my number.
and today he came over to my bus stop... with milk and cake. well he looked exceptionally hot today. i shall try to give him more space and allowance... cos of his As...
title: 2am and she calls me cos i'm still awake...
date: Sunday, September 10, 2006
2.30am now... been reading the stupid history shit since 11pm. its like the first work i've done the whole day since waking up at 3.30... yep... after bathing i slacked then went to meet kartik... slacked awhile then i went home and watched tv... watched the liverpool match 1st half then watched monster-in-law. then only started studying... ya... shit man. sch is like starting... eeee....fuck sia... FUCK FUCK FUCK.
title: bleahhs....
date: Saturday, September 09, 2006
eeee... i feel horrible... just woke up an hour ago... which was like 3.30pm. i feel so lethargic and gross now... no mood to do anythg. dint even bathe yet. just had my lunch and watched tv awhile den came in my room to hibernate more.. ee... on the aircon and sitting here with chanel blogging... so disgusting.. lol. since morning ppl been waking me up. but i was determined to stick my lazy arse in bed. vicente and dad were making like so much noise, i just closed my door and went back to slp... senthil kept msging me. i got angry and told him to stop it... haha... kartik called. i just said i slping. last night i slept while reading that boring history readings. feeling really sianed... and omggg sch starts in like less than 48 hours la... like wtf. i so dowan go la.. and now evelyn just msged everyone saying that stupid mr lee wants his stupid lit journals by monday. and i never bothered updating mine. gawd.. the last time i checked peijin dint even have one. argh.. dun care la. i so dowan go back to sch... sch sucks. useless boring lessons, i dont even learn much, maybe except hist and ki. those are like the only lessons i really bother going sch for. but oh well i really miss peijin, so she'll be the one who makes it all better for me at sch. and of course kartik, if he decides not to be a jerk in sch. but arghh he ends his sch term early cos of A lvls. leaving me to perish... in that... stupid... boring... twinketown... bleahx.
title: yay! 2 days straight happiness! ><
date: Friday, September 08, 2006
yea the drilling made me go nutssZ!!!! so i had my lunch and escaped to kartik's house. went there... and we went crazy... yea.. haha i still dunno wad exactly happened.... we started fighting... wreslting... den throwing pillows and started chasing each other round the room. and that goon was jumping from bed to bed and i was laughing trying to catch him. cos i wanted to tickle him cos he's a very ticklish person. and he started jumping on the bed and i was like chasing him trying to catch him. and i guess i won!! hahaha cos i kinda sprained his wrist. lol. after pinning him down dunno wad happen. i tink i was too strong. lol. den bandaged his hand with his tie.. damn cute la. haha. so fun. started studying.. yep.. read thru miss cheng's stupid thick readings on coldwar. but its quite interesting la. once u get the hang of it... then dat boi finished a few chaps of chem so tested him... then i fell asleep. yea. then his mom came home... studied abit more... but too awkward so we chaoed... he walked me home... on the way all of a sudden he dragged me up a damn steep hill. dint want to but dat person can run damn fast so i cldnt stop if not i'll fall down. argh... then spent some time tgt downstairs. he really surprised me. suddenly spending time with me. i'm like really happy... then brought me to my door kay cos i tink got alot of contruction ppl. and luckily i went out. cos i saw that the stupid construction ppl moved their work directly outside my door. so phew. dint hv to drive myself nuts during he day. kartik thanks for putting in effort to change though u were damn naughty today.i'm really happier.i love u. 
my fashion directing rocks ah... see we were downstairs and i decided to use the handsome dude as my model. i directed where to look, wad angle, and the position of the jacket... i rule. fashion rules more.
title: argh!!!! i'm so pissedd!!!
date:
yaaa!!! i'm so pissed!!!! the fuckers upstairs woke me up. i live like on the highest floor but at like 9am some idiots were drilling upstairs doing some shit renovation. fuck man! i so cldnt sleep la and i slept last night at 330am. damn pissed off. they were like so not stopping in the end i had to get up. and now they're still drilling. like so many of them. all the stupid noise is driving me nuts! i wanna go up dere and kill dem sia.
title: i love today.
date:
hehe gotta make this quick. its like 315am and i'm here doing this... gotta slp soon cos kartik wants me to wake him up at 7. well i dont think i accomplished a lot today academically but i'm sure a load happier. well today finally got out of my room at like 2pm and had my lunch and bath. then kartik came over to bring me to his house. so sweet first time he actually bothers to bring me over. so had someone to walk with in the freaking hot sun. went his house awhile... chilled... then went to loyang point to study. studying was so nice. took this really cosyfied corner at the newly renovated macs and studied.. well i was bored at times and i entertained myself by playing around with kartik, irritating him and stuff. i must say that his tolerance level has increased significantly and thats a gd thing. so ya. yay. managed to absorb the first chap of econs. haha.yea first chap. pathetic. but at least its a start. not bad really. then at like nine, kartik walked me home.
i took dis photo just now at macs and it reminded me of adam brody whom i love!!!! kk... look at the smile.. the eye expression and the hair.
title: on an on... reckless abandon... something's wrong.... this is gonna shock them... nothing to... hold on to.... we'll use this song.... to lead u on.
date: Thursday, September 07, 2006
i have loads of time to spare now to blog cos i'm hiding in my room. yup. i dont wanna come out cos then i'll have to face the cold silent treatment of my parents (particularly my dad). why? cos last night i came back late. since 1.30am i've been hiding in my room. lolx... dont ask me when i'm gonna get out. but i guess it'll be after i fold that everlasting mountain of clothes and of course, after blogging. so lets just recap the days that went by. sorry if its a bit vague... kinda forgot stuff.on tuesday, remember i did that plan thingy? well writing the plan was tiring enough. made me damn mentally drained. lol. dont ask me why. i guess i really have a phobia of studying. so for the rest of the day i just did some light reading of history and at 1230 watched my OC. wanted to start reading that stupid great expectations novel after the show but i ended up chatting online with vivian! and we ended up hunting for tom delonge's blog add. haha. started with me coming across travis barker's blog... then she found mark's. so we were like collecting blink 182!! had sch at 8 the next morning. but u noe wad time i slept? 3am!! whoohoo!on wednesday... hey! dat was ytd! kay hmm... went to sch at 8 to meet my ki ppl. mr tan paid for cab to republic poly at stupid malaysia! ok la woodlands. i tell u the stupid thg was boring. i dint really learn anything really. just a load of shit on platypus. then as usual, ki teachers have the habit of abandoning us at unknown places after bringing us there. the other time it was stupid hwa chong, now woodlands. so after class i was stranded with nandhini and jean... we were like walking in the hot sun... in malaysia. i felt so sian. then we walked to the stupid mrt. i saw dat woodlands was like wayyyyyy across the board from airport(where i was supposed to meet vivian) so i was like fuck. i'm so not going to take mrt. bus was definitely no no. so i msged senthil and acted pitiful den he came from redhill to fetch me. haha. but he got lost!!! so had to wait a while for him... after that he drove me to airport. where i waited for vivian!!! met russelle there too. then at bk there was this stupid manager who wasnt acting like a manager. he was like scolding me and vivian for studying when we were not even studying. then he took some ppl's bags and notes and threw them on the floor. so me and vivian decided to migrate to terminal 1 but before that we did somethg... which i cant reveal in case we get identified. so we went to t1 and saw iskandar. we studied there.. lol studied. i was decorating vivian's foolscap and we were listening blink. damn fun... after that went home.. bathed. then senz picked me up go eat late night ice cream at swensons airport. i was like fuck sia wad if they recognise me. so i just kept low. and steven my last time manager was like serving me la. quite weird. but lucky the waiters were like new so i dint noe them. after ice cream took a drive down to east coast beach to lac awhile... i was like irritating senthil and bullying him. i tink he got quite sad. cos i was like saying dat he tinnk he very president all etc. hahas. but hey i can tell ppl i bullied sp's ex president. haha. after dat came home... and came into my room. and i'm still here.
title: plan for today.
date: Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Hey ppl... just woke up. feeling really stupid and useless. stayed up till 4am to do hist work which was due today. but my lazy ass dint wake up for sch. so right now i'm feeling pretty lost with myself because i was supposed to meet vivian to study, but i guess now its going to be cancelled... hAis!!! i'm so screwed! life cant be like dis! argh.... i feel so lost and unfocused.3pm... half of the day is gone already. wads the use of living man... kk i shall come up with a list....- now, go bathe and eat lunch... all until 4.
- after lunch, make my bed, clear my desk get ready for real work.
- check out promo dates. its time to get back to reality. i dont even noe when my exams are...
- after recording dates, plan a study timetable.
- can take a small break after planning. to psyche myself for the real deal.
- do today's planned work.
- maybe fold my mountain of clothes...
kay. then once 1-6 has been done, i can do wadever i want! =) to top it up, i can watch OC tonight! yay!
now lets see wad i can actually accomplish...
emo guys kissing is so hawwttt!!!
title: a nice publication
date: Monday, September 04, 2006
kartik is my babyi love kartik a lot.
i protect him like a child
i make sure i'm there to hold him tight when he cries
i dont care what others think
i dont care if they hate me
but i care if they hate him
cos they're bullying him
and i'll protect him
i will make sure they not bully him again
kartik is now very stress
i wanna be there for him
i want to show him he's not alone
he might not see me there
but rest assured i always am
maybe i'm not doing enough
i hope he understands,
i'm after all just a 16 yr old girl
but i love my kartik a lot
he's the one who i give everything to
just to see him smile
is priceless
if u all hate him
i'll love him
if u all push him
i'll carry him
if u call him names
i'll call him my own
and if kartik ever cries
u better run
title: white eyeshadow
date: Saturday, September 02, 2006
time check- 4.30pm.. just came home from godma's b'day lunch at marine cove.... really full. and i miss kartik. been trying to get him since morning.... but cldnt remember his house number. so kept calling wrong ppl. thats why had to come home with family after the lunch. had no hp so not able to contact the world. well lunch was ok... cept that the aunties kept asking me :so who u with now? indian guy ah? den they were making fun of me... saying i change change all... lol. quite funny la. so i'm like sooo bored now.... i finally called kartik's correct number... but he's out for tuition... hopefully he calls me after that... wanna meet him. >< hais... so bored. shld hv gone out wif aaron. he's so handsome now. lol. we'll look good tgt. but oh well. he's only my cousin. kay kartik's calling. ciaosz!
