title: so now we know
date: Sunday, January 21, 2007
another week's gone by, lots happened this week. for starters, my parents left for malaysia on tuesday so since then i've been alone with joana and vicente. and one more thing i've yet to understand, is it just me or is school a bit slackier? i think its just me slacking. slacking cos i got lots on my mind.
events, events. lets see. anything to highlight? i stepped down from student council. not the way i would have liked it though. i always thought it'll be rad to get fired after screwing up morning announcements big time.
im actually glad i'm gone. reynolds have stepped down and that seriously gives me more reason to leave. he's the only one with sense in there. and the new teachers who have stepped up are so fucked up. i'm seriously relieved i dont have to see them and i'm leaving the moment they arrive. and its not like i love the people in there as well.
on a grateful note, its good council's over. i now have more time for my studies and for other stuff. yup i have to work really hard this year. i dont know how i'm gonna achieve this heavy hefty feat but i choose to be optimistic because i have martin with me. anything's possible.
well thats the only significant shit in my school life to take note of. changes in studies arent exactly significant.
the rest are all out-of-college, most of which can only be revealed later.
by the way, i went to fetch martin from school on wednesday! i felt so proud of myself that i could travel so far to angmokio on my own. i was soo happy to see him! yay! the bus ride was long though. disgustingly long. but i read my philo book and just thought of him all the time to keep my spirits up. (=
today martin and i went to loyang point macs to study. well he was forcing me to study at least. then we searched the net on my laptop, spent quality time together! and got reallly happy. i love my life. but unfortunately dint really accomplish anything academically. haha.
these days we've been spending lots of time together, despite school and stuff. thanks baby for being there for me. i really needed you. and you were there.
what's more, martin's been taking real care of vicente these days. cos vicente's usually bored and alone at home these days, martin will go play with my bro soccer.... and today even played airplanes. babes i love u! you take care of everything! especially me!
and lastly, i miss vivian a lot. its weird not having to see her for a damn long time, and not having to communicate much. i'm sorry girl if i talk less with you these days. lots of stuff's been happening. and at night on msn i'm just too tired to keep up with conversations i'll fall asleep out of exhaustion.
dont think i'm trying to neglect you and distant myself. i promise i'll make it up to you as soon as i can. till then i hope you understand. and i hope that your new friends in school can keep you happy till i'm done. but always remember, i'll be here if you need me. i love you.
i love you martin.
title: martin rocks!
date: Saturday, January 13, 2007
today after his jamming martin came to pick me up from my house to bring me go study. (he really cares about my education, unlike some people) i so dint know what to wear! dont know why like all of a sudden dont know even though got so much choices.
so anyway finally i went down to meet him. and he looked so happy to see me. gawsh... he's the best boyfriend on earth man. the last one i had always looked like as though the world's gonna end everytime he saw me. my baby is so different. he hugs me and sweeps me off my feet until i laugh.
then he calmed down and asked "why you look so hot today?" (=
cos i dint know what to wear. so i think i overdressed. hehe....
in the bus to airport, he realised he left his ipod at the studio. oh gawd! i was so scared for him! we quickly alighted and took a bus to tampines. but on the way he told me not to worry as long as it wasnt me he lost. aww.
AND WE FOUND IT!!! YAY!!!! HAHAHA! BABES! NEXT TIME BE CAREFUL OKAY!!!!
we finally went to airport.... in the bus he hugged me all the way there... i miss it so badly. its been so long since he hugged me for so long in the bus. the whole week has been school days and like my school is so near home that its impossible to spend time together. thanks for hugging me so tightly....
at airport, went to macs cos babes was hungry.... then we did only a bit of work cos there wasnt much time. then had to go home.
in the bus i met christopher. had a talk with him.... then sent martin home.
hanged out with him awhile, hugged and stuff... so niceexz.... then i went home... met a snail on the way.
after bathing, i talked to martin. put him to sleep as usual.... cute little boy. now i'm here.
title: alone at home! yada ya da ya!
date:
heex! hie! im home alone noww... somehow i'm happy. (= cos i finished my history tutorial on time! and tts a first okay! and later i get to see martin! he went jamming. i want chocolate... i shall ask him later.
i so so wanna work hard for once this year. i hope laziness doesnt catch up with me. cos A levels end of year... i dont want to be scared last minute.
study study...
title: that thing you do
date:
so i was talking to martin on the phone and i was reading to him an email i received recently. purple's the mail, red's our conversation...
Every girl dreams that one day, she wil lfind a guy that does these things for her.Even the smallest action can have THE BIGGEST impact in someone's life.GIVE HER ONE OF YOUR T-SHIRTS TO SLEEP IN. (m: yup i do that)LEAVE HER CUTE TEXT MESSAGES.(m: i do that)KISS HER IN FR0NT 0F Y0UR FRIENDS.(m: i want to but you dont let me. L: that was last time. now you do i dont push you away.)TRUST HER 0VER EVERY0NE ELSE.(m: yup i do)TELL HER SHE L00KS BEAUTIFUL.(m: you're beautiful)L00K HER IN THE EYE WHEN Y0U TALK T0 HER.(m: i do)LET HER MESS WITH Y0UR HAIR.(m: what hair?)MESS WITH HER HAIR.(m: yes i do)JUST WALK AR0UND WITH HER.(m: yup)F0RGIVE HER F0R HER MISTAKES.(m: as always)L00K AT HER LIKES SHE'S THE 0NLY GIRLY0U SEE.(m: yup)TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAYS ST0P.(m: but you dont laugh even when i tickle you... L: haha quite true)H0LD HER HAND EVEN WHEN Y0U AREAROUND Y0UR FRIENDS.(m: yes)WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT Y0U TELL HER Y0U L0VE HER.(m: no i say i'm sorry then i love you)LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN Y0UR ARMS.(m: yup)GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER.(m: yup)TEASE HER & LET HER TEASE Y0U BACK. (m: yup)STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHES SIcK.(L: what nonsense the guy should ask the girl go sleep)wATCH HER FAV0RITE M0VIE WITH her(m:yup) KISS HER F0REHEAD.(M:YUP...)GIVE HER THE W0RLD.(m: huh? what worm.....OH WORLD!!! I THOUGHT WHAT WORM SIAL.... ya ya i do)WRITE HER LETTERS.(m:yees)LET HER WEAR Y0UR CL0THES.(SWEATSHIRTS)(m:yup)WHEN SHES SAD, HANG 0UT WITH HER.(m: only when she's sad??)LET HER KN0W SHE'S IMP0RTANT.(m: you know you're important i dont have to say it)LET HER TAKE ALL THE PH0T0S 0F Y0U SHE WANTS.(m: ya! even the nonsense ones!)KISS HER IN THE RAIN.(m: yes)CALL HER EVERY NIGHT.(m: yes)AND WHEN Y0U FALL IN L0VE WITH HER,TELL HER.AND WHEN Y0U D0 TELL HER. L0VE HER LIKEY0U NEVERL0VED BEF0RE.L: yay. oh and babes... =DM: ya?L: i want somemore of ur shirts to sleep in. very fun. (=M: ohkay... i go find for you big shirts kay?gawd i'm soo soo happy with life! loves!
title: lets reflect and remember that two weeks of shit are over.
date: Friday, January 12, 2007
thank God its friday. of the 2nd week of school. which means no more dumb tests, not that i really studied for any of them but at least i dont have to feel the guilt of not doing so anymore.
the start of school was okay i guess. got a pretty lax timetable. actually too lax. cos there's so many freakin breaks! i'm not asking for more lessons but cant you guys just shift all in the morning so i can go home early instead of growing old in school? like seriously man... talk about wasting time.
first week was orientation for the j1s. recognized some kcians coming in. =) orientation was not too bad and not as boring as i expected it to be. mainly cos we were the ones in charge and the best part of all, banned from class for 3 days. so it was sweet.
and of course at the end of the 3 days we had orientation night. theme was pirate. i tried to accomplish that but i'm not quite sure if i succeeded. but nethertheless, the night of performances and entertainment was really quite interesting and entertaining. especially since my fellow councillors and i had the best seats, right smack in the middle of the hall. hah.
there was actually a rock performance at the end of it all with moshing. at first when i saw moshing i was like zz... wad sort of mosh can a jc do? but though the majority were pretty unmoving, a few guys and i were like going crazy and being all retarded. and i felt more annoyed when i saw kartik, plus i wasnt exactly having a good day. so totally lost myself in the crowd. but it was cool.
then this week was the week for tests cos i dint take mine on the first week. hmm come to think of it the week went by pretty quickly. BECAUSE THERE'S SO MANY FREAKING BREAKS! oh yeah@! so much that peijin and i forgot how the canteen food tasted like. cos we've been going to macs at n2 for our breaks. yup rain or shine, gate open or gate close. just walk out only. school is so boring.
and obviously not forgetting my baby.... martin. he's been sending me to school almost everyday bringing breakfast most of the time. sooo sweet of him. he totally ensures that i'm not late, waking me up everyday at like 6am. omg he's such a sweetheart.
yesterday he came my house to eat tomyum noodles with me. then we watched tv with my brother. so nice right! ><
and everyday after school he brings me go buy bubble tea then walk home...
and he carries my school bag.
yes i literally go to school like that
title: i love martin ya really yes seriously shitting u nope not lying
date: Tuesday, January 02, 2007
damnit. tomorrow school starts. i gotta go school at like freakin 6.45am cos council got the orientation to organize. thats like so freakin early man. i never ever go to school at that time man. its even like considered lucky if i'm ever on time. but you know what, i got a feeling this year i'll be pretty much on time cos martin's kinda gonna make sure i go school and stuff. i kinda cant wait for the year to progress. cos martin's gonna be there every step of the way.today was nice. spent most of the day with martin. now at his house. love him..
today must sleep early.
dratzx.
title: beginning ~ martin + resolutions
date:
i am dreading the new year. to me, its just a drag. a fucking long year of school, with A levels to make things more shitty, and a year of possible sadness once again. (as you guys know, 2006 was a fucked up year for me)
i seriously just couldnt feel the same happiness that others around me felt when welcoming the new year. i actually dreaded the countdown. 2006 was such a waste of time seriously.
but somehow, im not feeling that bad anymore. any guesses why? its cos i got martin with me. he totally gives me hope of a better year. i'm so glad i'm starting the year with him. and he's positive we're going to end the year together as well. and hopefully our lives. (not like kill each other but be together forever)
he's totally understanding and totally trying to make me feel better. i can so tell. he tolerates and just listens as i blabbed on and on about how i dont want the year to start cos its going to be sucky. and despite my negativity, he continually assures me that the year will be a great one with him around.... somehow, i get the feeling he might be right.
he's so sweet, he actually went along with my resolutions thingy. its this thing where i made the both of us do resolutions for ourselves and each other. i love him a lot. he actually bothered to listen to me and do with me.
sometimes he reminds me of travis barker. like in meet the barkers, travis always goes along with whatever shanna wants to do. but of course my martin is better than travis. know why? cos unlike travis, he doesnt look bored. he actually makes me feel loved every second of the way, giving me encouragement and positivity about the year. GAWSH I LOVE YOU! one of my resolutions was not to be lazy. and so, i'm pretty proud of myself cos i just for once in like a month, organized my schedule for college. everything's like really complicated cos council is like in charge of orientation. together with all the exams i have coming up, events are like all smashed together and mail has been coming in to my college account like water. all this while i've refused to open any of all this cos of the tons of shit i would have to do. but finally i organized everything. just finished, at like 2am.
there's something that's upsetting me though. i havent studied a shit for the exams that greet me on the first few days of school. im so screwed. i was supposed to prove to the authorities that i can score so that they will allow me to continue taking philosophy. but i just suck even more now cos i dint even do any work. damnit. not forgetting all the assignments i have to do... fuck. im so so screwed. and now even if i wanna study last minute its kind of hard because i have orientation to be in charge of and that's gonna take hell of a lot of time.
i hope i survive this tide.
i hope i manage to keep my resolutions.
i love martin.
