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sighs... once again i'm stuck in college, free for like 2 fucking hours. time now is like 1pm, free until 1.50pm. its so stupid you know. i have to wait like for 2 freaking hours just for one stupid useless period of malay. i would gladly go home but no, the stupid gates have to close.

i could be doing something more productive, like maybe studying for the history faculty test i have tomorrow, or the MOE ki exam i have later. but seriously, i have no damn mood to. the negative vibes i keep getting from this devil's playground just makes me want to do nothing but stone and wait till i can escape to the outside world.

can i say this one more time? i really hate my timetable. there's really nothing good about it because though i have many breaks, i cant get out of this place and that totally sucks cos there's like nothing to do here and this place is hardly condusive to study.

i have no damn mood for anything. thinking about my day already makes me cringe. after this at 1.50pm i have malay and STRAIGHT after that i have 3 hours of exam. ki. which i didnt even study for. which i just remembered about today. so i end school at 5.30pm. gawsh how depressing can that be.

understand why i have no mood to study?

my day hasnt been exactly wonderful either. today i came to school so freakin early. i guess i didnt want martin to wait, i wanted to be early. i came to school and i was like the first person in my class to arrive. wtf.

then i realised i didnt bring my thermometer. today was check-your-temperature day. i think for sars. or bird flu. or wadever. but i didint bring and they wanted us to share thermometer. peijin and i found it rather gross so in the end we just made up our temperature.

stood up the whole of history tutorial. didnt have mc. friday i didnt come to school cos i thought it was a waste of time if i did cos it was all about chinese new year celebrations. oh and didnt take faculty test so im taking it tomorrow. yay me...

back to now, i'm having a freaking long break. so not enjoying it. so not. just now i had a fucking long break too. felt like shit. felt like puking and all. went to sleep at some bench with peijin. but it was so damn uncomfortable and the environment was so damn noisy. there were people actually shouting and screaming. wad a damn great condusive place.

i miss yesterday. went out with vivian and martin. it was so damn awesome. like so much happened but i'm too lazy to type it down now. cos its really a lot. maybe vivian blogged about it. i'll go see now. (=


ewwshhh had such a lethargic day!! bleahxz!! i hate every physical feeling in me!!! its like i feel tired no matter how long i slept, i feel like puking whenever i eat something sick, i have NO ENERGY to do anything!! and i definitely dont feel like studying. i hope this feeling like either wears off or i get used to it cos its doing me no good.
KARTIK SUCKS
i feel soo sad and ewwish!! and martin didnt meet me today he went to some relative's house for CNY. my family went also. but i didnt go. cos like i said i feel SO LIFELESS and ENERGYLESS!!!! arghhhh!!!!
KARTIK SUCKS
tomorrow i meeting vivian. i cant wait honestly, been looking forward to meeting for a damn long time.... but i cant help feeling weak and unwilling to go..... stupid no energy..... ARGH!!!!
KARTIK SUCKS
oh i talking to martin nowwww........ he's not talking to me cos i ask him to shut up. still silent.... now he says hi. he asked who i talking to, cos obviously i'm talking as i type. haha. wad a cutie.
KARTIK SUCKS
by the way people, i DO NOT delete posts. cos that will so defeat the purpose of blogging in the first place. and my time is like so precious so if u turn up on this blog u must have pissed the shit out of me so its only ur fault. and i am not obligated to reply at my tagbox so you can just go talk to urself. it has unlimited space. otherwise dont bother visiting my blog. thank you. muackx!
KARTIK SUCKS
I AM NOT EGO!!!!!


kartik's been talking to me all day. its hair-raising, the things he says. so honestly, kartik please stop. below is the conversation i had with him, or rather him talking to himself. yup i didnt bother to reply, naturally... but i thought it would be interesting to see what would be my replies if i actually did. my parts are in red, but yup didnt reply him cos i wasnt that bothered to. but here's to you all how lame and senseless he is.

17/02/2007
16:57:28
she proved any dick will do..
hi
17/02/2007
16:57:32
she proved any dick will do..
how have u been louiza
great without you
17/02/2007
17:09:41
liverpool to crush barca?
hey
17/02/2007
17:09:41
liverpool to crush barca?
sorry
17/02/2007
17:09:41
liverpool to crush barca?
i cant teach u
wasnt hoping for that
17/02/2007
17:09:41
liverpool to crush barca?
now
17/02/2007
17:09:50
liverpool to crush barca?
i am so worried for u lar
i'm so touched about ur care and concern
17/02/2007
17:09:52
liverpool to crush barca?
can u cope?
no i'm dying, please help me. give me your guidance as without it i'll fail A levels
17/02/2007
17:10:33
liverpool to crush barca?
i guess u are busy?
nope i just dont wanna talk to you.
17/02/2007
18:11:53
liverpool to crush barca?
louiza
17/02/2007
18:11:53
liverpool to crush barca?
i am sorry
17/02/2007
18:11:56
liverpool to crush barca?
please answer me lar
17/02/2007
18:12:00
liverpool to crush barca?
i will be gone soon
YAY
17/02/2007
18:12:04
liverpool to crush barca?
i really love u alot still
puke....
17/02/2007
18:12:07
liverpool to crush barca?
please answer me at least
er... why?
17/02/2007
18:12:17
liverpool to crush barca?
i will be gone soon
YAY
17/02/2007
18:12:23
liverpool to crush barca?
going to aussie next week
17/02/2007
18:12:32
liverpool to crush barca?
will come back in end of march and fo army
17/02/2007
18:12:34
liverpool to crush barca?
u know why
no
17/02/2007
18:12:47
liverpool to crush barca?
cause my parents wanna check out adelaide and migrate there after my army
ok
17/02/2007
18:12:55
liverpool to crush barca?
let me talk to u one last time lar louiza
no
17/02/2007
18:13:03
liverpool to crush barca?
i have been hiding my feelings for so long
how sad
17/02/2007
18:13:05
liverpool to crush barca?
please lou
please dont call me that
17/02/2007
18:13:07
liverpool to crush barca?
answer me
no... yawn...
17/02/2007
18:13:13
liverpool to crush barca?
all i ask is just to answer me
all i want is for you to go to australia
17/02/2007
18:15:37
liverpool to crush barca?
i am really sorry to have hurt u so much
ok...
17/02/2007
18:15:40
liverpool to crush barca?
just once
17/02/2007
18:15:41
liverpool to crush barca?
lou
cringe**
17/02/2007
18:16:06
liverpool to crush barca?
i promise i will be gone
yes please keep that promise
17/02/2007
18:16:13
liverpool to crush barca?
i wanna pay for ur tuition fees baby
yes i'm so poor i beg at orchard whenever i'm free.
17/02/2007
18:16:14
liverpool to crush barca?
please
17/02/2007
18:16:14
liverpool to crush barca?
dear
I AM NOT YOUR DEAR!


today is one valentine's day i've never had, and i'm pretty sure i'm not gonna forget it in a long time. time check, 11am. didnt go to school today. too drained emotionally and physically to wake up and study. coincidently martin didnt go school too. he's still sleeping though.

the worst has finally passed.
i love my family....
of course we feel really relieved.
i love my mom and dad....
so, *sighs of relief*.... looks out window..... today's valentine's day. plans? hmm nothing special. been too busy with more important stuff. one thing's for sure, martin loves me. thats all i need really....

later he's going for his appt.... maybe after that we'll eat dinner somewhere. i want swensons. ice cream makes me happy.

this year's going to be harder than i thought. but i'll push through. because, the worst has already passed....


and i'll so never get bored of saying that. seriously i envy vivian on how she can go school and actually like it. i guess its the people. like the people there seem friendly. the people here are like just so shitty and bitchy. well i guess its partly my fault for going on with that kartik and so ruining my reputation. bleahx. oh wells.

i'm in school now. the library. and no, i didnt suddenly love school and its facilities. just to update a bit on my school life, they now have this stupid policy where all the gates are closed till 1pm. so that means i cant get out of school. even though i have like 2 hour breaks. how fucked is that? the school is so not a hang out place. how can the people who stay back willingly for fun stand it?? ugh!!

im free till like almost 2 until i have econs. this is like my second long break of the day. wad the fuck. i have a history test on wednesday so i tried to start studying for it but seriously man that miss cheng's notes suck to the core. read the first page and i already felt like dying. so that's why i decided to borrow the stupid coms

and the only reason why i'm willing to use the coms here is because they actually just got new ones. like they've been using prehistoric ones since the beginning of time. (or at least since i came)

so now im chatting with baby and blogging. ooh did i tell y'all i'm engaged to him? yup. louiza liu. hmm...

lets talk about what happened today.

i came to school late. but before 8.30 so i had to enter college through the foyer. (yes new school policy again. after 2 times late, you get to do cwo) lucky this is like my 2nd time cos if it was my 3rd or something i would have just gone home. really. thats so kc-fied.

had history tutorial. ............ she's going to give peijin and i an article on why we shouldnt isolate ourselves. yay us.

math next. boringgg.

then hungry, break time for like 1.5 hours. gate fucking closed. so i didnt have a choice. we made our way to the sucky canteen to eat sucky food, chicken rice to be exact. i bet i'll die one of these days thanks to the crap they're feeding us. i pity the teachers.

suddenly, both philo teachers start calling. one section of my proposal was like wrong. so i had to like come up to the library and fix it. stress. but at least ryan was online to company me.

then had math lecture. wads wrong with the stupid lecturer??? like he keeps saying ok? ok? ok? ok? ok? so irritating. i felt like just pulling out the microphone. then peijin and i thought of how retarded it would be if the ok was changed to fuck. so it'll be like "fuck now we going back to the last question" lesley counted the times he said ok and it hit like 110 times. wad a loser.

then last part some idiots pissed the other teacher off, this old lady and she literally SCREAMED ON THE MIC!!! ahhh so pain ok!!!! worse than any hardcore gig i've been to. so high-pitched and freaky. the glass was like gonna break. then she said "if i die! you are the cause of it!!" sighs... i pity her. those stupid people la. but come one you dont have to scream on the mic right? i mean its a mic!!

then now i'm here. -_- class starts in 5 mins. shit. all the way till 3.10. then i get to see baby.

school really sucks.


suddenly i love the song sunburn by muse. i hate the band, or at least dint feel there was anything worth listening to from their albums. until i went to debbie's blog like today and found the song there actually quite nice. the piano and drums are awesome in the arrangement. i actually went to learn a bit of the piano part today.

suddenly i want to play music. i want to learn the guitar riffs from the song martin gave me, i want to learn the muse song, i want to play and play till i feel sick of instruments... but i have no freakin time! must start doing work! must rest and take care of my health. sighs. giving up a lot man. but its so worth it.

once again, i would love to update on my life so far, but i cant spare the time so i'll just talk about what happened today.

today baby wanted to bring me out but i wanted to stay home to study. (which i dint do a good job with) i woke at 6am to do my philosophy proposal. after that was done at 9am, i went to sleep.

woke at 1130... watched a bit of tv with my bro. and then it was decided i shall stay home to start work. i love martin!

had my now-regular afternoon nap then woke up to read fucking boring history notes. miss cheng's middle east notes suck. it puts u to sleep.

baby went to skate. i was in my room studying and i looked down once and saw him doing this funny dance thingy. so cute!!!! like baby!!!

that vicente went down to take money from him -_- to buy mamee for us!! then we ate mamee while watching tv.

we made chocolate!! me and bro.

watched tv.

and i miss boyfriend.

arghsxc! i wanna stay with u lar!


its been like so fucking long since i blogged!!!! its not that i have the time now i just wanted to rest awhile after researching and working on my philosophy report since morning. after this i'm gonna bathe and meet baby at 2.30pm. we going to raffles city. and like he's gonna carry my stuff again as usual. i LOVE HIM TO BITTZZZ!

well a lot of stuff's been happening the past few weeks. which mainly explains why i never had time to blog. i would so love to update on my life but i'm gonna use this post instead to blab about my cute crazy husband-to-be.

i swear he's like the best! cant wait for everything to be settled so we can really live happily ever after. oh and valentine's day is like coming. but i dunno wad to do.... sighs. never really thought about it cos like every day's valentine's day to me. cos he's so nice! he's so one-in-100-million. tell me where can a girl find a guy that makes breakfast for her everyday without fail? see wad i mean? :) and love love love!!!! ><

but sometimes he bullies me and make me frown. but i noe he's just playing then he'll swirl me round and tell me i'm his baby. hahahha. ZORTAN!!!! lol.... and this year's gonna be different for the both of us. cant wait for our lives to begin. yay!!!!

later we going town, i'm gonna buy him some nonsense for his sch. dunno wad marker and wad shit. but i just like to see him smile. that's the main objective really. he's SOO CUTETE!!!! everytime after school want to show me the notes he copy but i act like i dont care.

okie i think i better go now cos i think i'm gonna be late to meet him.

ZORTAN!!!!

i love november/ axel