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so cute. baby is sleeping now. he just fell asleep on the phone like 15mins ago. yup i'm damn busy now with work but i really have to blog about this cos its so adorable. i bought him a novel today, THE BRIDGE TO TERABITHIA. and like after reading for so long he was finally tired so he called to say good night, and ended up sleeping on the phone.

baby you know you were talking nonsense? like literally another language for awhile. and best part is, i started talking nonsense too and u actually replied. hahaha.

then you started talking english again, about this esplanade girl. you telling your friend she's single. so cuteee. you thought i was your friend. then i ask you who you love? esplanade girl ah? then you started whining and saying you love louiza. aww....

then you started reciting your school timetable. random but haha. cute.

then i let you sleep in peace. i love you darls.

i'm gonna eat butter cookies with hot chocolate now, then carry on reading my hist notes.

after which i'll join baby in lala land.


yay~! i love the weather these past 2 weeks. its been on my side. totally dark, cloudy, rainy and best part COLD! really makes me happy when things are down. ironic right, since people associate sadness with rain. it actually makes me happy. im weird.



net's lagging like hell. i guess its cos of the weather. woke up at like 1.30pm. had a niceee longg well deserved sleep. and i woke to the cold cold cold weather and rain. tts the best way to wake up.



darls gave me an idea. hot chocolate. so niceee. so i just asked my father to buy hot chocolate. the cadbury's one. yay.



i've been so tired lately. with school and with work. didnt have the time to blog. baby and my anniversary was on thursday but because of my stupid work, we couldnt go anywhere. )= i didnt go to school on thursday cos i wasnt feeling well. i stayed home the whole day to do my philosophy presentation. the one on harry potter. remember? (= martin even made the layout for my presentation so i didnt have to use those lame ones they have on microsoft.



but darls was so nice. at like 7.40pm after i was done with the presentation, we went to the nearby supermarket. -_-' not your average anniversary getaway. it was so nice la! bought a lot of stuff and shopping was damn funny, making fun of all the stuff they had there. i seriously cant remember a shit of the lame stuff we came up with. all i know was that we were laughing like hell.



though we had to go back like in an hour's time, it was like so nice laughing, buying stuff, drinking bubble tea and eating the new twisty's chipster. the new gang for twisty's. haha. damn lame.

well i'm gonna head out of here. gonna bathe. then eat lunch, then... call baby!


she made leaving me look easy
wish she made it look a little harder



daddy can you faster skate and come home.... )= i need you nowww!!!!!

my highlighter finish, and also people are talking bad about me.... )=

but i know i wouldnt let you bash him up no matter how tempting that is.

yup we must be mature.

but its very very hard! like for examples, i cant concentrate on my work. i've been staring at the same page of history notes for an hour, unable to read a single word without my mind drifting off. sighs.... stuff people do actually have very very nasty impacts. )=

how can people be so mean and actually go around telling many many tables? and somemore i thought he was a friendly person.

but nevermind we shall stay strong. all i need is your love everyday, and i'll be very happy in college looking forward to meet you afterwards.

hey! you call me already. k bye! i gonna talk to you now! muacksx!

by the way, today i heard some guy actually confronted that mean man and told him to stop gossiping. it seems like nothing but it means a lot to me.

thank you whoever you are. (=


hey, i'm in college now. decided to bring chanel along so i could complete my hist assignment which is due tmr during the endless amount of breaks i have. but before i can totally concentrate on doing it, there's something i need to blog about. sadly i cant say its about a very respectable person but nethertheless, it is significant that i recognise the day he may find out that i'm not affected one bit by his attempts to make life hell for me.

yes, until today i have always thought affectionately of him. as an honorable acquaintance, a friendly face, and easily communicative too. and yes, i have heard stuff about him, being a user of friends just to gain popularity, like hanging out with certain people just cos he wants to be known. i've heard his obsession with fame is so passionate that he have displayed signs of jealousy and desperation whenever he didnt get prominent roles. (for example, didnt get to be leading emcee.) yes, i've heard a lot. word does go around. but still, i chose to not change my perspective of him. he remained that friendly person. at least till today.

well i'm not going to waste time rambling about his unfortunate shortcomings as a human being. yup, word will travel eventually and i've always dreaded that day. but i've also heard from my friends again that you were announcing it to the whole world. the effects speak for themselves. yup, even people i dont know know. so yes, i dont discredit you for talking. humans are sadly like that. i pity you for the fact that you are so desperate for attention that you are willing to compromise compassion for others and tell tables about me.

my mindset has changed, i am not going to display negative effects from your actions, i only hope the people you call friends will trust you to the end.


im done with my stupid history sbq!! yay!! now to call baby.


finished notes, on to sbq. hopefully now im smart enough to answer it.


k i just finished the stupid sgc contributions part mr koh's been bugging the class for for ages. now, i shall read hist notes so i can do my sbq.


slacking. ___thats what i've been doing for the past few days. i feel so useless now. so tts why i decided to start doing work not too long ago. so i accesed to my school online acct to get all the work downloaded.

but nooooooo, things had to screw up and not work. ya the stupid website's not allowing me to connect to it.

after trying for countless times, i have officially given up and have come here to blog.

today, well lets see. i woke up like awesomely late. at like nearly 3. and after dragging myself out of bed i went to eat lunch. but after lunch i was still too tired so i went back to sleep. until like 5. wad a lazy bum right.

i'm so sorry martin for not spending the whole day with u like u wanted. i dont know why i'm like so tired. sorry sorry sorry.

so instead, today we went to walk the dog in the evening, and had dinner together at central. and today, the dog kept barking at a stupid chihuahua who was barking too. so it was rather embarrassing for awhile. but its okay cos i think the owners there already used to us.

i feel so.... ewwish and lethargic. but i gotta force myself to do work. that's like more ewwish. so i think i shall stay on my bed whilst i do work.

today the lady at the dinner place called martin tau. see my boy so cute and handsome that other girls all like. wahh... she lucky i'm ok with her ah... and she quite friendly to us. if she flirt flirt ah, dats it!

but what to do, not her fault la... who can resist my jujubee

JUJUBEE!!!! that's martin. he is a JUJUBEE!


i just got home. from movies. went to watch transformers at century sq. like finally. i've been wanting to bring baby to watch it like since it came out but i havent had the time cos i was either piled with school work, or at school, or no time. so yeah. i'm happy that i managed to catch it. today is like the 1st day in weeks that i dont have urgent assignments. so though i have to study, i decided to push that aside for awhile. (=

movie-wise, it was better than expected. im not reallly a fan of transformers. never even watched the cartoon cos i found it lame. but the movie was nice. and cutely funny. now i suddenly like yellow cars. thanks baby for watching with me.

the weather's really kind these days. either its raining or its cool and dark. my kind of weather. helps me get on with life happily. but today was madness. heavy rain sun heavy rain sun. ughs.... it was so disgusting okay. in school, i totally couldnt study. or concentrate. or anything. the stupid climate wasnt there. like i had so many breaks as usual but i found myself just stoning or suffering with stomachache. i was hungry but my school food sucks. in the end, i just gave up and lied down on the bench, msging baby.

ya i must hv looked pretty weird collapsed on the bench but seriously, i was feeling so fucked up i dint really give a shit about passers-by.

i was also feeling so SAD that on top of the sucky weather, i had to stay back all the way till 4.30 for KI. so u noe what i did, i was seriously feeling so damn shitty that i decided not to go KI. after all i also had a killer stomachache. i thought i'd do better to go home.

good luck must have been on my side cos when KI was like about to start i received a msg from nandhini that tutorial was cancelled. so great! but it didnt really matter cos i was already home, resting in bed.

so that was basically the highlights of my day.

i really really really miss spending time with babes. like ya we see each other daily but its so not enough. in the mornings when he send me to school its always so rushed and after school i'm always too tired. and at night there's no time. so i really really cant wait for everything to be over. i think this end of the year will be a nice time. (=

by the way u looked hot today. i noe u dressed up for me.

see he smiling already.


k im like done with another essay. and blogger's still not letting me title my post.

gonna call baby now.


ok weird. blogger isnt allowing me to insert a title. -_- whatever.

anyways, today was AWESOME. like firstly, i woke up at 7.40am to pee. kay thats not the awesome part but the thing is, it was raining like hell!! like WHOOOOSHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn loud one! damn heavy one. the sort i LOVE! >< so after peeing i happily snuggled back in bed in the cold rain atmosphere. i switched off the aircon to enjoy the rain! yay!

i guess cos of the rain, the whole day wasnt that hot. so that's happiness number two. woke up at like 1.30, my stupid brother woke me up. irritating shit. came in my room and made a hell lot of noise. on purpose somemore. oh wells anyways, i decided to get up cos i didnt want to stay in bed too long. it gives me that lethargic crappy ew ew feeling.

had a nice lunch and at like 3 martin forced me out of my relaxing time on the bed to go study. ughs... that totally sucked. i was so damn lazy. but finally he got me out of bed. and we made our way to downtown east. and i brought mister yeti along.

but unfortunately we didnt get to go downtown. cos some idiot was like gnawing on my nail. and i was fighting him off in the bus. that we both forgot to press the bell. the next bus stop was like so damn far away. so we had to walk to the interchange and take a bus to downtown. lucky the weather wasnt hot. if not i would have committed murder.

finally when we got to downtown, we decided to go bk cos martin didnt eat much of a lunch. started on writing an econs essay, and took like 2 hours plus to finish it kay. cos of so much disturbances. like martin in particular being an idiot with mr yeti.

but he's damn cute playing with the bear. so adorable. especially when he hugs it..... awww.... hahaha... k i shant embarrass anyone.

anyways, i completed one essay at least. that's a good thing. and after this, i shall write another.

love love.


gna stop reading notes now... eyes itching.... good nite.

i love vivian.


just ate maggie mee as a treat to doing work.... talked to martin awhile... now gonna read econs model essays.... later.


time now, 2.30am. just finished writing an econs essay.
now calling baby.


time now, 125am and im done with my history hw so that makes me feel better. k now, i shall be even better and go forth and do econs.


i hate wasting a day. it makes me feel so useless and unaccomplished. so tonight i'm going to do work. till late. to make up for the stupid wastage. someone please punish me for wasting time. time is precious. not to be played around with.

tonight's schedule
bathe
eat
work

k. so now its time to bathe. i shall not waste time, i shall bathe this instance. now.


round and round and round here we go again

i didnt go school today. wasnt feeling well.
woke up at 1.30
but my day started officially at 3.
i hate the feeling
of wasting time
but it sucks
i have no mood to do my work
i havent eaten lunch
i have no mood for that too
someone understand
i hate days that start off like this
makes me feel hell of a bum
which i dont want to be
not cos its stupid
cos it feels disgusting
to be alive and not do anything useful
but what to do i have no mood
so someone help
tell me how?

i feel so crap
like last time
cant do anything
just stay in bed and rot
but i dont want to do that again
please please please
i think i shall kick myself in the butt and force myself to do something
ya that should do.


just finished doing my hist homework so i thought i'd blog awhile. after all i dont think i can continue my work just yet without feeling pains. zzz....

wells he bought me a pen and a notebook too. like how thoughtful. i never thought he'd notice that my book was running out of pages. but that's not the point. he got me dat bear!!! that's the highlight!!!!! yayyy!!! and HE named it mr. yeti. but i hate the name cos its like bigfoot's name but this bear doesnt like his big feet that's why he's sad and friendless and i'm here to love him. martin also. but he should stop calling him yeti....

yup i've always loved this bear!!!! yay!!! only nice bears catch my attention okay. and this is NICE! but he really shouldnt have.... cos niceness are also expensive.... but that makes 3! YAY so far martin bought me 3 nice bears already.

went to my house for lunch, watched tv together. i like doing that together. but martin looked bored during the show.... i sad.... now i think i'm too boring. but oh wells. please say i'm not?????

remember the guy's name? GAH! HAHAHAHHAHA.....

unfortunately, i had to go back to school for ki. brought the yeti along!!! after school i took bus to bedok to meet baby even though he said no. then we went to bedok interchange to buy chocolate and potato sticks which baby now likes. haha.

then we took bus home, making fun of ESCAPE! pronounced as as-khah-peyy.

today was an awesome awesome day and i really really love martin for sticking to me even when things are difficult for the both of us. thanks so so much. muacks muacks muacks!

today is so sucky! the weather sucks BIG time! ITS BLARDEE HOT! i've been suffering in school, and now suffering at home. yep it sucks. took a cold bath and the water was more like lukewarm. such a sucky feeling. and then i was like so tired from school so i decided to lie in bed awhile.

kept drifting in and out of sleep, COS OF THE STUPID HEAT. even when the fan was directly blowing at me, i still felt so damn dry. i would switch on the aircon but no 1, the windows that's so high up is open and my father's not around to close them for me. no 2, aircon will make me feel drier. rarr....

so like now, i am still feeling dry and hot. its so damn irritating. i cant find the zest or energy to start on any work. i just feel like withering up to dieeee.....


The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. Life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A death. What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, spend your last nine months floating . . . then finish off as an orgasm.

haha