title: bedrest
date: Saturday, August 25, 2007
feeling the most comfortable i've felt in days and nights and that itself is not that comfortable.
been so down with pains the whole week, i hardly had energy or ability to do any work. totally sucks. and last night i didnt sleep at all. couldnt. too pain and uncomfy.
so bad that i went doc this morning. to find out i need to rest more.
so i went home straight after to spend the whole day in bed sleeping.
i feel much better now but not that fully recovered yet. still a bit of lingering pains, and easily breathless but i dont feel like sleeping again. so thats why i decided to come online awhile.
please make me feel betterrr...
title: uncomfy....
date: Wednesday, August 22, 2007
yawns. just woke up not too long ago. around 2.30pm.... feeling really deadish. well that's all i've been feeling these days anyway. been so unproductive lately. health not letting me do much. yesterday was the worst. sighs... now i'm just sitting here, doing some research. someone make life better?oh the only good thing's the weather.
title: yawnssssss
date: Monday, August 20, 2007
k i've hit like 1000 words of the stupid thesis.... so boring.... and i think i'm screwed cos its supposed to be 3000 and i'm barely halfway with what i wanna write. doom doom doom....
and i'm sad. cos i think i'm writing crap. *sobs
and i didnt meet him today. yesss its getting so damn typical of my weekdays. hardly any time together. either work or tired. )= can A levels just be over???
or maybe one day i'll just go live there. with him i mean. but then that'll be so sad cos when he goes school i'll be alone.
life sucks right.
totally.
but i love the weather though! (=
guess who
title: waiting
date:
hey. waiting for darls to come online now. he wants to send me some 3D animation thing he did for school.
loving the weather by the way. cold and dark and WET again! (=
gotta do IS the whole day today.
ironic. i woke up at like 3.
title: first step
date: Sunday, August 19, 2007
k i'm done with my first paragraph of the introduction.
took so long cos i was so pissed just now. my stupid sister lent her friend the 6th book. MY BOOK. was fucking pissed just now.
but i decided to cool down.... as long as i get it back by tomorrow.
so i did the first paragraph. on to the next.
ughs....
title: accomplishment?
date: Saturday, August 18, 2007
hello. yes remember how last night i wanted to do my outline for the project?
well i didnt.
slept at 4 something after watching the devil wears prada. i am hopeless.
and today i woke up at 2 something.
seriously my life's doomed.
but on the bright side, i just finished my outline! yay. like at least there's some guideline now for me to follow.
but on the dark side, i still have to write the damn thesis out. and i'm trying to do it by tonight so tomorrow, i can go to ikea courts and giant with peace of mind.
yes out with baby. finally! after soooo long. havent gone out for like ages cos of my health. i seriously hope that tomorrow i'm fine. obviously i wont be fulfilling the vivo plan any time soon. )=
today didnt go out again. sads!!! means no baby. but he came down today and bought me milk and butter biscuits. =)
and i loved the weather again!!! yup!! cold and dark and WET!!!! yayish!!! i really hope tomorrow's like this again.
okie that's all for now.
title: its time
date:
okieokieokie!!! i'm gonna start now!
baby's sleeping already. i'll start now okay?
title: so dead!!!!!
date: Friday, August 17, 2007
rarrr!!!! i'm screwed. i feel so stagnated!!!! i cant do my philo project at all!!! cos i am stupid and i have no idea how to. writer's block! i'm suffering from that. i didnt accomplish anything the WHOLE day!! how useless can one get. and this stupid thing is totally stagnating my work as a whole cos its due pretty soon so without it done i cant do any other stuff! its bugging me!!! i wish it'll just do itself and fuck off really.
at 11 i'm gonna watch tv. some movie's on and baby wants me to see it. yup gonna see it cos i know even if i tried doing my stupid work nothing's gonna happen. seriously! how the hell does one write a thesis anyway.... that's it i'm totally doomed. should have just took general paper. even literature sounds more friendly now. gosh...
*air wick just sprayed* breathe!!!!!!
and today i didnt see babes again. ughs! cos i cant go anywhere. i might get too exhausted. seriously its irritating. so i was stuck at home the whole day again.
but thankfully the weather was kind and it was rather cold the whole day.
had chocolate craving again just now while i was frustrating over my unaccomplishments of the day. and babes was nice enough to come all the way here with chocolate. how sweet right... sighs... i'm lucky.
k i promise that after the movie, i'll get started on my ki. yup, at least get the outline done.
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title: rainy
date:
its so rainy. loves.
im feeling all cold and lazy.
woke up at 1 plus, lazed around, ate lunch, and now lazy again.
(=
hopefully the stupid sun wont shine.
title: you couldnt wait for something new, and yesterday i thought of you
date:
just past 1am. revised my micro notes n read some article on religious fundamentalism. i know its not enough.but oh wells. i'm quite hungry. =/i'll go make hot chocolate.
title: chocolate croissant
date: Thursday, August 16, 2007
today is so econs. so econs ends here for today. later i gotta really start my philo project. received ki teacher's hp & philo. but already finished researching through it. remember i ordered it? yup. all that's needed for it has been done like 2 weeks ago.
am i supposed to feel happy? not really though... cos the real writing of the thesis hasnt begun. *groansx*
once again i didnt see baby today. mainly nowhere near to go and cant go far cos i got no energy.
cant wait for sunday. no chance of going vivo though... too far. instead i hope to go ikea. yeah total shift of plans from vivo. but oh wells i think i'll just die in the process of going there if i tried.
so going to ikea will be to smell wood! (=
and after that i wanna go courts. to smell furniture.
and after that i wanna go giant. to smell its "new" smell. haha.
hopefully all goes well and my health doesnt fail me again.
title: slow
date: Wednesday, August 15, 2007
the weather really sucks today. its really very hot, humid wadever and my aircon's still not fixed. in fact today i woke up cos the sunlight was burning me. felt so cheated today. the sky actually became damn grey. but just when one would think rain was gonna fall, it cleared up and returned to its hot sickly light blue.
havent been blogging these days cos when i'm not caught up with work, i am suffering from lack of energy. in fact right now i'm reading my microecons notes and i'm blogging as means to take a breather from all the crap i'm trying to digest. my microecons sucks big time. all thanks to the fact that last year i was slacking and didnt give a shit about econs. the result? serious torture trying to revise. but nvm at least now i know something.
didnt go anywhere special lately, really getting more exhausting to move around. even sunday's plans to go vivo was cancelled. boo hoo.... didnt get to smell the railway. and metro finally closed down. double sadness. no leather to smell.
but it was survivable i guess. watched rush hour 3 at least.
and it looks like i'm not gonna be going anywhere far anytime soon. sighs. ytd the only place i went to was loyang point which is like a 5 min walk away... went there for an hour or so to stretch my legs... and today loyang point again. ate ice kachang with baby. seriously its a damn long time since i ate it.
after today, i dont have the mood to step out again. why? the hungry ghost festival has begun and the moment i step out of my house, i can smell the sickly odours of burning. yeap sick carbon dioxide and soot.
and as we all know, i cant really afford to smell dirty air right now. not that i'll ever want to anyway.
martin stayed at home in the afternoon today and made paper airplanes. to fly from my 12-storey place. sweet kid.
and i took an hour off stuff today to bake cookies for him.
and his jujubee instincts asked for it when he came. -_-
so much for the surprise. but nvm glad he liked it.
its a reward for him for being ever so nice.
title: heat and chocolate
date: Saturday, August 11, 2007
almost 7.30pm now. been in bed the whole day, drifting in and out of sleep. weather was horrid. even the fan pointed directly at me at full speed couldnt save me. so i had to lie in bed all disgusting and sticky. really need to get my aircon fixed asap, especially during this period of fucked up weather.
obviously, didnt do any work today. dont think i even can. things turned for the worst.
chocolate is my friend right now. chomp chomp...
so is ice.
i really dont need this. this is the worst i've ever felt since like forever.
since like forever.
title: one minute rain
date:
i hate the way i woke up today. mother banging on my door to shove clothes in my cupboard. after that those idiotic siblings started screaming and shouting, being so damn inconsiderate. i was like forced to wake up despite getting to sleep only at 5.30am. after opening my eyes & realising i wouldnt get anymore peace, my mind swiftly remembered last night. and then i felt more shitty again.
had to literally drag myself out of bed to bathe and after lunch, i just mooped around... eating some jelly my father bought. i have no mood to do anything. i have no mood to study. even though i know i should.
it rained today. for like a second. and now its hot again. this cycle really sucks.
i'm not gonna study today. i dont even think i'll accomplish anything even if i sat with work in front of me. i'll just wait, for god knows wad. maybe for me to feel better, maybe for me to feel too fucked and suddenly realise i should do work and actually get down to do it.
all i know is that i feel like shit.
and my aircon is still spoil.
and i dont know where the hell he is. did he wake up yet? is he even out?
and i'm gonna not care. i'm just gonna rot here.
fuck it all.
title: rarr!!!
date:
i'm so pissed!
stupid aircon not working! and the weather fucking sucks!
i'm doing my econs! but i've given up.
the heat just fucking sucks!
goodnite
title: sighs
date: Friday, August 10, 2007
i am feeling totally gross. i've just read like whatever's relevant to my philo project from the bk i ordered. came in 2 days ago. ultimate boredom. u wld think doing a thesis on harry potter was fun, but the research phase just sucks. thank gosh i didnt choose a more boring topic. if harry potter can become this boring, wonder what something like politics will bring. ughs. i think i'll just die.
totally feeling lost right now. no idea what to do next. time is 6pm. i know i have work but i feel somehow energyless... i dont think its cos i'm lazy. its something else. been feeling it more quite recently. how the hell am i supposed to survive and study for As. i totally wonder.
i dont even feel like going out. or rather, i know i cant. its getting damn damn exhausting. so all i do is stay home and feel like shit.
shit cos i cant even study or do anything without discomfort.
and for the first time in my life, even slacking makes me feel like shit.
i seriously dunno what my life wants me to do.
i want sunday to come. cos there's church. so even though i dont wanna go out there's a thing i have to attend to. then hopefully can go vivo. i want to smell the mrt.
actually its more like smell the underground. i love it! its my smell to look forward to this week.
hmm i donno wad to do!!!!!!!!!!
i think i shall do some econs. yup. im sick of hist and ki.
i'm gonna eat noodles first.
title: i hate dis
date: Tuesday, August 07, 2007
omg tts it. i still cant finish my stupid essay. since 4pm ok! fuck.i'm going nuts. i think i need a break.i'm gonna eat ice cream
title: i hate today
date:
today is a disgusting day. hot and disgusting. and i've been in my room 95% of the time, trying to do my hist hw.
trying cos today i just have no mood to do work. totally sucks.
i'm gonna get milk.
martin dont piss me off.
title: minute of the day
date:
havent got time for an elab post, but i thought i blog just to keep check of my days.
weather, sucks today. big time. feeling so sticky and yucky the whole day. cold baths dont work. and i think my aircon is dying. ya somehow not that cold anymore.
read essential parts of hp & philosophy. just ordered another book from kino, coming in on friday.
read hist lect notes regarding end of cw. hopefully i can do an essay by tonight.
for now, i'm gonna take a break. have some noodles or something. read the papers awhile.
it helps to be in touch with outside.
title: anna sui
date: Monday, August 06, 2007
suddenly i have this thing for anna sui.
i've always been using its products tho, now i'm using the dolly body lotion. but only today i suddenly felt attracted to its aura while walking at isetan. strange. had a desire for its mirror today. martin wanted to buy but i snapped out of the trance and refused. strange strange strange.
anyway! today was oh so nice! (= went to church as usual, and as usual cos i'm always late, we had to stand again. bummer! i'll try to be early next week! promise! it was so tiring!! i was like dying... then finally after holy communion i cldnt take it anymore i went downstairs to sit near the cafeteria. martin went to buy minute maid for me and we just rested there awhile, reluctant to go out cos the weather was FUCKING HOT! ya seriously it was like burning la! so sad!
so we sat there... laughing and being idiots as usual. we were joking abt somethg really dumb. cant remember. but oh wells, helped to push away the heat.
then we finally decided to make our way to tm. but oh no we were not gna walk there. like please the sun was like planning to kill ppl. so we took a bus. n guess wad sort of bus.
the non-aircon one ok! i thought it was extinct already la.
when we saw the bus martin was like oh no i'm not taking that bus. but i totally didnt want to wait at the stupid hot bus stop so we just took it. and suffered. while it stopped at traffic lights the blardee heatwaves practically baked us.
after lunch, went walking around. wanted to catch movie but there was nthg nice... so basically did window shopping.
gawsh i love metro. k i'm weird.. i used to hate it. big time. but now tt its closing down and everythg's everywhere, i love it! i've been looking forward all week while staying at home doing my stupid work to go there today on sunday after church to smell leather!!
yup told u i'm weird. but i like the smell of leather. and now that all the bags and wallets are everywhere, the smell is like
waow............... (=
and baby was the one who got me into all this smelling business. just last month i realised i had a nose. haha. yup. he made some comment about the smell of the air around him one night and since then, i've been sniffing a lot. right now, i'm happily sniffing my auto air wick in my room. it sprays air freshener like every half and hour and everytime it does, i'll go sniff sniff sniff sniff very frantically trying to smell it all in. its always been there, but only now i'm actually sniffing.
see weird.
k back to my story, we went metro, & suddenly i wanted to buy a wallet. cos currently we dont have one. k its more like we have a lot but we lazy to carry so for the past few months we've been dumping our ezlinks, atm cards and cash into my hp pouch which is not being used for my hp. so ya wanted to buy wallet.
went around sniffing wallets(cos of the leather) and getting weird stares at the same time. lol. but then i realised tt there were brands that existed that had really weird names. like b-yes??! and gxoyuurxz or somethg. like the only ok brand i saw was pocillini. k anyway, after like choosing for soo long, we decided not to buy any.
-_-
cos we saw tt one wallet printed the brand upside down and our reaction was like ohkay.... so we figured it was too gross already. so we didnt buy.
so we went to walk around somemore.... going to tm.... looking at stuff. i really love window shopping with baby. its like fun, making comments on stuff.... esp since coincidently i dunoo its either he has the same taste as me if he was a girl, or he knows what i really go for. love him ALOT!
and we drank lots of water today. <---- random comment.
n i bought facial cotton <---- another random comment.
and baby went to try on these pair of LEE jeans that really looks gd on him.
only its girls.
but its hot.
maybe i'll get it for him.
after awhile, we went to isetan. and guess wad baby bought for me like so out of the blue?
A WALLET!
and not some !@#@# brand or somethg. GUESS. so i'm happy. like suddenly buy. but i feel guilty too cos i always tell him not to waste money on me.
but he said i'm his princess and i deserve the best of everything. the sweetest thing anyone ever said to me.
so while i was happy happy happy with my wallet, sitting down at some place, admiring it (and sniffing it), these two Christians came along and asked us if there was anything we wanted to pray for cos they were holding this event and would like to pray for us.
so we had to write some stuff on the paper.... and after that they said a prayer for each of us.
ok i was pretty weirded out. honestly. there were a few instances when i kinda wanted to laugh. then when they went off, i looked at baby. and he said that he was actually touched by some stuff that they said.
and i realised then that babes had really matured.
and i love him for that.
our last stop was ntuc. yup grocery shopping with baby! bought me cereal. some strawberry oatmeal thing. i decided to be healthy! i hardly eat these oaty nonsense kay. was never brought up to. but i think i shld be healthy! and babes bought unhealthy things like seaweed and he even wanted chipster. he made the old aunty promoter laugh by talking in his stupid chinese gangster way.
AUNTI! NO CHHHIIIPSTERR ARH!?? WAREE UR CHEEPSSSTER!?!
damn lame la but my baby wad. hahaha.
went home, and before that got for baby his chipsmore first. with free mug! with a pic of the angry chip!
and today was vicente's bday! yes my beloved bro's bday. instead of going restaurant like always, daddy cooked crabs! two diff dishes! ya crabs are vicente's fav. so me and vicente sat down and ate like so much for dinner. and had jelly after that.
watched ugly betty with martin as usual.
then now he went to sleep. while i'm gonna stay awake to try do work. but now i'm caught up with vivian and cher on msn. whoopsx!
took a pic of my nice wallet. then i tot, wad the hell. lets take a pic of all my stuffed friends! all also from martin. (=
sorry babes ur girl is such a baby.
title: i hate the weather
date: Wednesday, August 01, 2007
omg yayness. finally! finally i have read ALL my lecture notes on SEA nationalism for the 1st time in my life. yup. its supposed to be a last yr thing but last year i was still playing around and not giving a damn. and since i totally hate SEA hist, i cancelled it out of my syllabus.however, becoming more educationally aware this year, it is vital that i know that crappy topic. and so i have forced myself to read my notes! (= a very very tiring feat that i've accomplished after days of forcing myself to sit in front of my oh-so-thick notes.but nvm at least now i know something about this part of the world, or rather its history. so now i can finally, after being tempted countless times, sit down and blog!ohkay. firstly, i hate the weather. yes it sux! i woke up and it was hot like shit! totally not a comfort to the aches i was feeling in both calves. its so pain okay. i can hardly walk properly. then the weather seemingly started becoming cooler. but its such a cheater! it will suddenly rain, then stop! then rain.... then stop! like i was so pissed!! i'm here reading my stupid notes next to the window and the dramatic changes in weather is totally damn irritating. and news flash. today is vivian's bday. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIAN!!! although i know i wished you already at 12am, nvm lets make it public. lol. cant wait to see u and cheryl on saturday. it'll be awesome. i cant wait to rate harry potter by myself. majority's telling me it really sucked but who cares? we'll go see it for ourselves!and sadly today, no jujubee. )= yup whole day we didnt meet. why? cos i had stupid notes to read and my legs were too pain to transport me anywhere. on top of it all, singapore just sucks! no nice place to go. everywhere gets boring after awhile. and everyday we get so ewwish trying to decide where to go. i kinda have a craving for the caramel milk frappe from mc cafe... but sadly i also have a damn painful cough. \=mmm... this feeling is nice. like i just got through a whole load of shit.(aka my hist notes) but this feeling cant stay long. i still got LOTS of work to do if i wanna keep up with school and do more to finally ace that stupid A levels. and my philo project is just screaming for attention in my head but right now i'm just mentally blocking it out.just ordered harry potter and philosophy from kino. hopefully it comes by friday... i have this shit thing i need to hand in preferably on monday.... my 1st draft. dang... the time of actual writing has come. ew ew ew.but who cares! before i look at the other pieces of shit i have to accomplish, i shall take a nice long bath that i so deserve.ciaozx!
