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she's an electronic baby.

electronics attract her.

hps, laptops, remote controls.

she'll make her way towards them.

not her toys.

her electronics.

or rather mine.

its so freaking dangerous. but she keeps crawling towards them

i see an engineer.


i just did an econs essay. my 2nd for the day. kewl.

i feel so guilty for slacking so much these past few weeks. i'm going to catch up. though there no work. so like it feels weird. like i have to find my own work.

but since i just did essays, i shall blog guiltlessly for awhile.

school's great.

i really need to thank elfie one day.

he looks out for me.

its really a gd thing he's in my class. i need someone who understands what i'm going through without me having to say anything.

he's like a brother. irritating but yet there.

like tough love.

anyways, i'm happy.!

my favourite boys are back in school!!

alvin and especially qashrul.

ohkay i dont feel happy they have to repeat. but i feel happy to see them!

they're so so awesome!

gosh soccer boys! MY soccer boys. (:

deedee's going to taiwan today.

sads.

but my soccer boys! gosh! school just got a whole lot better. (:


ohkay i'm so going back.

to work.

rarr!! i've been slacking since like exams ended!!!

i'm gonna pull a nighter today.

rarr....

i'm rarring too much.

results were ohkay.

i can do better.

so tonight

its on~!

haha vivian u better stay up!

but i'll understand if u need to sleep

i always do right

hahahah!

i watched an episode of the OC today on star world... omg i miss seth and summer....

awwwww....

i want someone like that!!!!

i'll love u forever!!! hahahah!

they're so sweet.....

i was like that once too.

i miss that feeling.

anyways.

i love my school. haha random.

i just had to say that.

and im not the bimbo.

come on...

k i'm like blogging so in a rush. i wanna get down to doing work. so maybe later when i feel less guilty i'll come and update in a more detailed fashion. muachxh!

every little thing that you do,
baby i'm amazed by you.


cry cry cry

the day of the tears.

we will cry.

its cleansing.

cry.

someone take care of me.


confused.

should i go take mc? or not.

my college allows one day without reason to skip school.

should i save it for an emergency and just take mc now?

but im lazy. and going to the doctor sucks alone.

but i should save it for a rainy day right? plus theres a billion clinics around my house. and the polyclinic is just across the road.

damn im lazy.

oh yeah i woke up late today (:

k tts nothing to smile about. ):

haha.

woke at 10.

i dont think i heard my alarm.

ughs. now i feel so irritated.

i went to college yesterday, but none of the results were ready.

today they're out, but my stupid teacher dont want to release mine to my friends.

wth.

so its like another damn day without my results.

its like im fated not to get it back.

fate fell short this time your smile fades in the summer place your hand in mine i'll leave when i wanna.

i'll see how.

whether to take mc or not.

i'll SEE how.

travis!!!!!!! yay!

im gna find pictures of him now!

not that i dont have thousands already.

but its rekindled love!

hahaha


i'm happy im happy im happy im happy!!!!




















































































































oh by the way i officially designed my class shirt.

yeah developed that doodle the class loved so much.

i love u guys

(:





happy easter everyone! (:

my easter was great.

didnt start out that nicely though, i woke up late for mass. haha. when i got there church was jammed pack. but i managed to get in and i met my bro.

yeah we went church together, delilah and parents were going for the later mass.

we met aunty evie and aaron then we took a cab down to bras basah for lunch and some steamboat place.

aaron and vicente were mad. kept putting soy sauce in their soup. omg and i thought i was the salt addict.

ate till we were like damn full, then we walked to lavender station.

haha damn funny. saw all these thai workers on picnics. and saw thai make-shift pasar malam. weird. seriously. its like the lucky plaza of thais.

anywaays, we took a train to white sands, aunty evie got off at tampines the rest of us carried on. aaron was gonna cut his hair, and i wanted to buy chocolate for my class (:

damn it has been a DAMN long time since i went grocery shopping.

but it was with vicente today. i bought chocolate and stuff, then we walked around white sands and i bought wristbands... its pretty. (:

lucky today vicente was nice enough to not hurry me and actually let me take my time to choose the wristbands. haha. i couldnt make up my mind!!

i miss shopping. i miss grocery shopping.

i want to do it again (:

send me an angel. (:

oh did i mention we all wore red today?? scarrrryyyy... then this family came in the train all blue.

and then we got purple!!! hahahah!

aite so im freestylin to the sounds of step up2 in my room.

haha. nah, just low by flo rida.

like seriously its addictive! i jumped on my bed and nearly hit the ceiling fan. rarr!

k vivian's sort of dance is getting addictive.

i watched step up 2 today.

the first one was better. seriously.

but the nerd guy is hawwt.

i want a nerd.

a cute one of course.

a quirky cute sweet one.

SOMEONE CALL SETH COHEN PRONTO!

hahas.

in muah dreams

but seriously this song is keeping me up. its freaking 6am man!

rarr!!!

but i'm enjoying myself.

i've been having grey's anatomy marathon the whole weekend. yup i took a leaf out of vivian's book.

yes~! i'm slacking!! tonight's my last night to stay up and SLACCK! tomorrow's easter sunday. ohkay actually it already is. hahah!

and monday school starts. results!! rarrr!!!!

nvm, i'll just go to maq's after school and play the drums.

i hold it american style. but i started off with the french way. but he told me to do it american. better.

there's german too.

cool hhuh?

(:

i need to sleep!!! mass tomorrow. should i watch another episode?? hahaha....

i wna daannceeee >.<


addiction, no matter how much it hurts you, you will come back for more.

addiction, always ends bad.

addiction, you will never give it up, because giving it up hurts so much more.

i walk around with a lost look all the time.

unfocused.

searching for something that might lodge her mind back into place.

the feeling's quite uncomfortable.

i have to multi-task doing whatever i'm doing, heading wherever, and yet float in the parallel of my mind.


this is weird.

i never felt this before, but i sure witnessed it happen among my classmates who are close friends but it has never happened to me and now that it did it feels weird.

its something new.

it kinda sucks but at the same time it feels quite nice.

im new to this.

im so so new to this.

its kind of exciting.

(:


yay someone called me little girl.

haha cheap thrills.


k i'm slacking now.

i think.

it feels so weird!

i need to do something.

like i donno.. something!

so weird not doing anything.

omg scary.

today was the last paper. (: whoohoo.

and i threw it away.

remember i didnt study?

plus today i woke up kinda late so i had to totally rush for the paper. ughs so irritating.

so when the paper started i totally didnt have the mood to do. the first question was so irritating. (i had 3 essays to write in 2 hours) it wasnt hard but just very hard to decipher. so i was already so turned off by that stupid question, i took like an hour plus to write it.. like slowly... cos i so had no mood. i even dream awhile... stoned.... drink water....

then when i had less than an hour to write the other two essays, i realised omg. these questions are not that hard!

but then i didnt have enough time.

gosh how dumb of me man.

but seriously i'm like that. if i have no mood to do the paper i just wont do it. then later i'll regret cos the paper would actually be doable. just that i had no mood. ugsh!

nvm all bad feelings were lost when i went for my first drumming lesson!!! (=

yayyyyyy!!!!! maq's such a good teacher really. i learnt so so so much.

and now i finally have a pair of vaters. VATERS!! haha for so long i've been hearing about them but never got one.

now i do! (:

but i cant use them cos apparently my hands are too small. ):

so i gotta use jazz sticks which are thinner. and lighter.

i learnt sooo much today! i can hold a traditional rock beat now. i think. hahah!

so hard to coordinate. but it was fun laughing at how lousy i was! hahah! i didnt know it got down to the smallest details on how to hold the sticks man. harder than i thought.

and now, i'm one step closer on fulfilling my new years resolution which was to learn the drums. something new. since vivian's like learning so much nonsense. like jap and all. lol! i realise how i diss a lot of the things vivian likes on my blog.

hahaha she's so gonna kill me.

oh and by the way vivian, according to your blog, u trusted that i'd be smart enough to understand ur jap words. omg i dont!!! that means im dumb!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

or maybe its just the jap thats dumb! hah!

anywayss! all thanks to maq i noe something new today. (: cant wait for my next lesson.

ohoh i actually know how to play to ldn. so funnn!!!!

ohkay so now that my exams over, i'm going to SLACK! tonight, slack marathon!!! but then im having a headache.... :( damnit....

i need to buy easter eggs!!! (:


screwed.

tts wad i am.

i hvnt studied a shit for history.

i have no mood.

sick of studying.

plus im sick and everything, makes things worse.

i'm going to do the math.

case one

• wake up with adequate sleep
• go to college and greet friends very happily
• go to class and actually enjoy it with friends
• spend breaks eating happily with friends or studying constructively
• have the focus to study after school constructively
• go home and care for delilah happily
• be able to prioritise and do work without obstruction
• spend time studying.

case two

• have no mood to go to school, rush to get ready, having to iron and pack stuff last minute cos the night before had been wasted
• go to college with a fucked up mood till everyone thinks ure sick
• dread class, be unfocused with the phone.
• spend breaks on the stupid phone
• waste time after school unconstructively
• go home late and be distracted the whole time, feeling like shit.
• dont study but sleep late.
• work piles up.

first i want to say one thing. i'm trying to avoid it as much as possible right now cos at this moment all i feel is irkiness and disgust for the way things are.

second, i've been doubting the use of education lately. i see everyone else who hasnt got much education, but they're doing so well. they're making quite a lot of money just working like ordinary people, and even take up courses that sound very professional.

so i'm like asking myself, is this huge amount of effort like worth anything more? cos if i'm going to just end up like the rest then i also dont want to stress out so much and do so much.

it'll suck if at the end of the day i'm just ordinary.

i'm confused. somehow i see it as the world is changing and no one's poor anymore. everyone's getting somewhat same and well to do.

so whats the point of education?

k something just struck me. which i think is the answer i was looking for.

maybe i'll earn more even though i work less hours. u think?

k but before i can dream about earning money i need to actually get there.

and the process sux! ughs!

tomorrow is my last paper. history. and i am SO NOT READY!

kkk i gta start studying. but my head is pain!!! i have a headache!!!! argh!!!!

nvm! one more day to go! i can do this! hahaha! who am i kidding. gosh stupid headache!

easter is on sunday. i'm going to buy eggs for everyone! (=

and after my As, i'm going to learn ballroom dancing.

even tho people like vivian who are so in would say its old and boring.

i like it cos its classy and victorian. HAH!

hahaha.


believe it.

i've been doing math since 9am.

that makes it 12 hours.

delilah went to the aunts' place today.

so i was solo at home with math.

i want exams to end soon.

not so the stress will go away. but cos i feel useless. like i didnt do enough to prepare.

i had one week, and now its like last minute then i'm doing so much. should have spread out more.

nevermind. on the bright side, i'll take it as a test-how-my-brain-can-do-it-without-studying exam. then i can gauge my natural smartness without studying. then see how much i have to study to be good.

dumb logic.

anyways todays mood is mid with depression and objectivity.

not really a happy day. just neutral.

i did something fun though.

i practised stage performance-ing. haha. with the gala and brush. and now i'm all set to join live the dream. HAHAHAH!

yeah numbers does something to ur sanity.

but i wont be going anywhere near singing as long as my voice remains this way.

yeah i lost my voice on saturday and it has yet to return to me.

i did another fun thing today as well.

i threw down paper helicopters with my brother from my bedroom window.

they actually spin.

its so pretty.


so i'm feeling gay. suddenly listening to go my own way from hsm. its like i hate that whole stupid trilogy-to-be. yes fans kill me. haha! but i find it corny... but somehow the song now is like complimenting the mood i'm in now, so wadevs! if the shoe fits. (:

today was ki paper 1. the HARD one. i think what was harder was sustaining the 3 hours with the exam mood. yes people. exam mood. its the feeling of heightened attention when you write an essay, writing consistently and fast during the time given.

the problem was that today 3 hours was too long for the exam mood to even exist. so i was feeling so dead and sianed. seriously!! till there's no mood to write at all! gosh i think i'm gonna screw that paper up. they really should lessen the time.

that would make us write.

anyways, i cant take it. 15 mins ago marked like 5 hours straight reading history.

it was torturous!!! but i forced myself to read the stupid notes cos i feel so annoyed with myself that i wasted a lot of time today after the exam.

so i'm going to stay up all night. yes! thon!! haha! vivian please come back online!!

yeah she's online but not thereee hellooooo!!!!

oh yeah i have no school tomorrow cos no papers that i sit for falls tomorrow. the shit starts on wednesday.

kay i spose tts all.

changed.

i dont recognise at all.

it hurts.

i'm disappointed.

i thought u'd know better.

its alright, continue to let me down.

painful but.

i'll move along faster.


i hate this i hate this i hate this! i hate it when THIS happens. FUCKING FUCKING HATE IT!

FUCK!


so today i nearly lost my eyesight.

its freaking me out.

hahas. i should go now. plus there's someone i need to wake at 5am.

though i think to accomplish that would be a miracle.

love ur eyes kay?

what are we living for? in other words, what's this life, and whatever we are doing, for? in less than 80 years we're going to be buried. then its all over. everyone's going to die. so why are we living for?

the simple man will say live for God. live for the goodness.

but then a man of reason will always be able to question this good. what is the basis of this good? there is always doubt. how can we be certain of this good?

then the time comes to evaluate what we are really talking about.

the nature of good cannot be explained through reason for it lies beyond the realms of rationalism.

if the good has a cause, it is no longer the good; if it has a consequence - a reward- it is also not the good. therefore the good is outside the chain of causes and effects.

and that is why, we should not doubt good.

just a little philosophy for today. (: inspired by leo tolstoy. hehe. i did the simplifying and everything cos if i were to copy word for word from his works, itll be very complicated.

is my version understandable? hahas.

i think its a very nice piece.

oh wells. home again. and i've just been thinking. time is something i dont have. especially compared to other As students. damnit... how to study.

so i gotta like use every single second i have. and not take breaks unless i really really have to.

discipline.


i hate daytime. somehow i dont want it to come. i will miss the night. the night that i've just spent thonning, at home of course.
















































vivian just did this for me... i think its so damn smart how she connected everything! haha!! my stupid brain will never think of the connections. lol... they are like yummy.... esp the 2nd from the left. wow.... he does that eyebrow thing in most photos that they take. love u!


i'm like listening to collide by howie day.

its funny cos i actually hate that song. ever since it became like famous a few years ago.

i never ever ever liked it. hated the tune, hated the stupid background vocals.

but somehow it came into my head like a few moments ago, so i decided to really listen to it physically.

and its giving my goosebumps.

i still hate the lyrics tho.

so remember how i said i hate thonning?

yeah its a stupid waste of freaking time. but i think that's what i've been doing since yesterday.

stuck in my room. just thonning.

yesterday wanted to do work, but somehow i didnt have the stupid mood to. so i ended up just stonning at my laptop, feeling all shit in bed.

and i fell asleep like that.

and awoke today feeling more crappy. and lethargic. and pissed at the fact i wasted so much time.

time.

yeah so i kicked my ass today and started to do work.

stuck in my room once again, doing work... reading notes... doing an essay outline... reading more notes.

in fact after blogging i'm going to go back to work.

thonning. hahah. theres a liverpool match in 15 mins. maybe i'll watch it.

exams next week. i must ace them.

i feel like i'm living in my room.

u know i felt so retarded at myself for not doing anything productive since holidays started, i decided to not go jamming today and instead stay home in my room.

wasnt that bad actually. the weather was wet and nice.

cold actually. whole day. damn cold. in fact i'm wearing my hoodie yet again. and its still cold.

but its ohkay. i'm liking it. i can get used to this.

hot weather please dont come!

but then again its fine. remember i said the sun's my friend now? haha.

i got some fresh air just now. i went over to steve's for a drink. just one pint.

see i told u. i can hold my liquor. i appreciate it.

but when i'm feeling depressed and shit thats a different story altogether.

like sunday.

oh fuck sunday.

i think i made vivian cry.

im so so so so sorry.

i think i was so damn depressed to the point tt all my troubles came out.

whatever the case is, please dont feel like shit or anythign for not being with me physically.

u are seriously already the better than the best. and i love you for whatever you do.

and i hate myself for making you feel that way.


leave me alone just leave me alone!

the people i want are gone and the people i detest being around are here!


im feeling like shit. the reality has stricked and i feel useless and stagnant and like my life is in crisis.

i feel like there's no hope. i hate being alone.

it really feels that way.

i feel so disabled.

and whats more, i feel miserable.

i miss those times like hell. why did it have to go.

but then i would rather wish for it to have not happened at all to begin with.

then there would be nothing to miss.


the weather's really cold. the fan's off my window's shut. i'm using my pullover and yet i still shiver.

its that cold. and maybe my emotions are making me feel more chilly.

i'm going to start work in 4mins.

study. my exams start next week.

i cannot slacken.

yesterday sucked.

so pissed with myself.

so so pissed with myself.

i need to move on.

which i will do.

and now i dont have a phone.

but steve's gonna take care of that.

i need a phone.

but strangely right now the reality of it hasn't hit me yet.

yeah the phone problem's like really small right now. i'm still trying to recover from last night's trauma.

but my work.

that cannot be compensated.

i cannot fall back.

no i shan't.

sighs.

last night was an opener.

i realised so much about the people around me.

i suppose that's the good part of a sucky night.

made me realise and know more.

funny how even though i was wasted i actually remember.

i hate my memory sometimes.

but i guess u'll never find louiza wasted till she's collapsed and knocked out.

that's not me.

but still yesterday sucked.

but like i said was good too. told me a lot.

gosh i'm so longwinded.

k lets start with the lessons.

i learnt that some people will go through it with you. every step of the way. and suffer the exact same amount of shit with you. just to accompany you through the hellhole. anytime, anywhere. they are there. to them, that's their responsibility. and that's a true brother.

i learnt that some people will not give up on you. no matter what. they will keep calling. they wont give up. even though you're not yourself. even though you've made a thousand mistakes in your life. they will be there to give you the support. the love. the care. the everything. they just keep calling.

i learnt that some people will always be near, though far. they watch from the distance, and sprint across to catch you before you hit rockbottom. and they drag u up again. these are the people who will save you when no one seems to be there. these people take their time. but you know they love you. they are the distant watchers.

then i also learnt that the world isn't nice.

i learnt that some people are surfacial. they dont think deep. they dont wonder about consequences. they just act when the moment comes. that may be a good thing, but most of the time it isnt. the consequences and implications hurt sometimes. sometimes you wonder what they really want. i said no. i said no.

i learnt that when the tough gets going, the selfish one takes off. i learnt that its these tough trying moments where you see how much someone is willing to do for you. and you will see that they care and do only what's comfortable for them. they will not leave the zone of comfort for u. so no matter what they've been saying, it will all crumble at times like this. and this people are not vivian cheryl karl steve.

to the four of you, i love you.


ohkay seriously. she's damn cranky. its not funny anymore.

its damn frustrating and tiring.

but thats not the worse part.

the most frustrating and annoying thing is, i want to rebel but i cant.

let me explain.

i want to GET OUT of here cos they're pissing me off.

but i cant. not cos i have delilah and i need to take care of her.

i cant cos i know i got exams to study for and i cant waste the time.

HOW FAGGORT IS THAT.

and now they probably think i'm not rebeling cos they have ultimate power over me and their policies are working.

UGHS!

k i shant let my ego get a hold of me.

think whatever, i dont care.

i know what it really is.

what's frustrating me is the fact that i can no longer afford time.

TIME.

time for anything, which includes time to be stupid and waste more time.

how ironic is that?

the funny thing is, i know i wont be able to survive without all this, even though it SUCKS TO THE CORE.

i already feel nuts cos of the cranky thing.

imagine if things were worse.

ughs. i'll just shoot myself.

why why why was i so dumb.

why why why!


k delilah's finally asleep. she was damn cranky today.



damn tiring to the soul.

plus everyone at home being fuckers.

well except vicente maybe.

ughs.

i feel fucking useless.


i reallyy really cant take it

im like losing it


i'm like so pissed.

i hate it when i feel like this.

i fucking fucking hate it.

its here again. and its gonna come again and again and again.

fuck.

uyrhghsx!

ffark


boys grow up.

they do more stuff.

you can't grow up that way.

you skip it altogether.

you do it when you can.

most of the time you cant.

so don't exert and impose anything.

that's the way it is.

that's the way it is.




i fell asleep on the laptop.

woke up feeling like fuck.

but i missed that feeling.

i love that feeling.

i want to do it again.

but no.

work starts today.

all

over

again.


so i'm feeling nice, and gradually getting tired.

but i still want to chat some more.

yup i'm under the covers in the cold night with my laptop on the bed.

so so nice.

feels like camping.


finally. its like friday. its half past 10 now at night, and i'm just savouring every moment of relaxing.

yup taking part of the night off. maybe later i'll start differentiating.

can't stay off work too long.

exams ended at around 5 today but i've only started to be really free like now. since then i've been taking care of delilah and vicente and doing loads of stuff in the house.

dang i feel so tired. maybe i should give myself a well deserved rest. aka sleep like hell.

so today i had two exams, econs and ki. with 4 and a half hours between the two, i actually got down to some fun stuff. yup after the econs paper i was like relieved cos the stress of mugging for nights had finally passed. since the ki paper was paper 2 and not the damn difficult paper one, i thought i'd give myself a break.

so i met steve and he bought me lunch. haha! we went to tm. omg! going there made me realise how long i've been away from the world man. study study study... gosh they renovated the place till its like actually nice! gave me the urge to once again shop. rarr! i started dragging him everywhere. charles and keith... fox... levis... a lot more. then i realised oh gosh he's not my bf he might be bored. so i had to cut it short. plus i didnt want to fall into the temptation of actually shopping ah. so i didnt.

but i bought stuff for my hair tho! (: quite happy.

hmm on the other hand, i do have the right to drag him around. i'm his headgirl. :p

so finally i was like so damn hungry. so he bought me long john silver's. then he had to go work so we splitted at the train station.

yup work. admire that guy man. he's like so damn hardworking. admire karl too. both hardworking people.

in that case, i just admire young people who bother to go and get jobs.

especially steve ah. with his stupid background. he actually did change a hell lot.

i decided to go back to school and prepare for the next exam. i went to the library where i found my lvly classmates, sat down and read the papers.

did u know yesterday some dude got shot by the police?

kewl shit man. didnt know singapore actually got down to action.

anyways, after awhile i got scolding from sean (ki classmate) for reading papers when YOU HAVE A KI EXAM IN AN HOUR!!! BLEAH!!

haha so i grabbed some random book from the shelves and sat with my KI class who happened to be in the library.

and we started "studying"

HAHA i love them ah! so funny! talk a lot of rubbish with them. and they like making fun of me! see see! again u noe! im the bimbo again.

the irony was that they were studying my essay as model answer for the exam.

HAH! wad bimbo!

=p

but i really do feel threatened. they're really damn smart. like naturally. my batch most of us had to work our way up.

so anywaayys, i think i'll be joining song fest. (:

love my ki people! : sei an, wai wan, steph, naf, even wei jei. he's so funny! with his china fantasies.

and naf asked me to join her group for dance fest. gosh! i heard they're really good! they won last year.

somehow, i love school these days. (:

so after school, i went home. and played with del. busy busy till like now.

and results came out today!

and that will be me next year.

i wanna be a rockstar.


so i'm sitting here waiting for files to be done with transfers.

then i'm gonna hit the sack i suppose.

no time to even chat.

what perfect timing. mitch just comes when i'm like already about to go.

oh wells.

priority.

work.

friday friday friday.

so after the files.

i'll be gone.

ho humms.... lets blog randomly for awhile. to kill the time while waiting for the files.

i was feeling a bit sad today.

the usual dose of sadness i spose.

songfest.

coming soon in college.

and like for the first time i actually bother about school events man.

wondering if i should join.

but i cant find a guitarist. elfie says maybe i should play.

i got no time to practise.

maybe i'll join the solo.

maybe.

just maybe.

like if my classmates force me to.

they're so funny.

they signed me up for prom.

they put my name down for anything.

i love them. (:

so ya. maybe solo.

but then i find it so dumb singing to some crap track.

maybe i'll play the piano.

or the guitar.

or wadevers.

or maybe i just wont join to save the embarrassment.

but maybe i should?

if i do it'll be to tell the whole school how great my class is.

haha.

yeah tts how nice they are. i'm willing to sacrifice my social grace and totally disgrace myself on stage.

or alternatively, jun hui and i can join and do our stupid rap on stage like we planned.

then we'll go down in history as the spastics.

our partnership is called F.A.T.


i'm like telling myself.

friday friday friday

then some of the stress will be gone.

i have 2 major exams on friday. econs n ki. n i need to ace them.

i just need to.

friday's also the last day of term. then one wk holiday.

not like its a long break, plus with all the extra tutorials and work. but at least it takes a bit of the pressure off for awhile.

stupid part is the moment term starts again, i have exams awaiting me.

exams that i once again have to ace.

see the word isnt pass.

its ace.

today i ended school at nearly 7. tts like 12 hours in school.

that is so damn sad.

n i gotta jump back to work soon. like after i take care of delilah awhile.

sighs.

i neeed no distraction! till friday! not one bit.

i want to ace the test.