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ANOTHER GIRL ANOTHER PLANET

i'll make ur dreams come true.

(:

wheee! its 2am and im so hyped!

i can practicaly run now!

whoos!


quickie before i start doing work.

tomorrow's monday, the weekend totally felt like a quick breath. but its alright, the week shall be a very productive one.

more productive than last week.

last night i didnt really get down to doing work. i somehow couldnt concentrate or focus.

i spent like the time chatting to my girls and like listening music and like blogging.

so ya i'm feeling guilty enough to get down to real work.

reverse psychology really helps.

anyways, today was the last day of our community service.

i'm gonna miss the old folks, and most of all i'm gonna miss being led around the west, walking with my boys.

especially elfie. gosh. you have no idea how much u mean to me.

k that sounds gay.

ahem* but thanks for lookin after me and watching out for me. thanks for tolerating my whining all the time.

ice cream rox. (:

today we got the class shirt. i'll take a pic of it soon. today i sang for the folks. today j-entertainer sent me home.

today was and is nice.

to you: i'm disappointed. as a friend i am. as anything more, i'm not really bothered to argue with u.


louiza joseph
still louiza joseph
heeex







im chilling now on the bed with delilah.

yes! finally i got chanel back!

using her now.

unfortunately, its a clean slate. yup all my data's gone. my 100000 songs and 100000 pictures.

ohkay maybe thats an exaggeration. but it was really a lot!

well look on the bright side, all the things i've been procrastinating from deleting are deleted.

actually the dude was like wanting to lend me my hard disk to take out the data myself, but i had to still return it to him so i thought screw it.

i can begin anew!

and next year when i buy my tablet, it'll be an even cleaner slate.

yay.

today was weather was super hot. yet i had to go down to jurong to collect chanel.

the west.

i seem to be going there very frequently recently.

first it was the waterhub excursion with my class at jurong, then it was community service at clementi, then it was sending chanel to jurong, then today collecting her.

and tomorrow i'll be heading down to clementi again for community service.

RARR!

but my class are very very nice people. so that's what's kinda making me look forward to going.

plus i think j entertainer will be sending me home from there.

even better. (:

he lives in the west, so all these west ventures of mine has made it easier to meet him.

so today he came all the way down to pasir ris to accompany me to acer to get chanel.

yayy! he followed me there previously too.

it was really hot but oh wells we survived.

we decided to watch a movie after that, the hottie and the nottie.

ohkay the storyline was generally nice though the ending SUCKED

but paris couldnt act for shit!

ughs!!!!

we watched at jurong. and finally i saw the ice skating rink that cheryl's always been going to.

its super small!! compared to the kallang one.

after the movie we took a bus down to clementi to eat lunch.

YES THE DISGUSTING CLEMENTI!
hahaha elfie will have a second round of whining tomorrow.

but lunch was nice with the absolutely nice company.

cabbed down with him to hougang where he was going to have a match, then i continued cabbing back to pasir ris.

i really really appreciate the company SO SO much! without it, i think i would have never gotten down to sending chanel for servicing. yeah. jurong so damn effing far!!!

thanks j! and yeah we're both members of the bunny clan! whoo!

i havent blogged in ages cos i've been super busy with work and everything!

but loads has happened. unfortunately i cant update it all cos its just too much and i cant remember, or really take the time to organise everything.

delilah's already climbing on top of me, making it damn hard to type.

rarr!!!!

i have pictures from my hp though!

i'll post them when i have the time.

love y'all!! byeeee!


i realise that not everyone is perfect.

that even the person you thought that will accomodate u fully, do their best to grant u any wish, might just let u down by not even bothering.

yeah.

that sucks.

thats frustrating.



oh and he's like derek.


Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that
You made room for me but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands

I'm unusually hard to hold on to
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one,
you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I'm gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today

I learned the hard way
That they all say things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry
Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too

I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one,
you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I'm gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today

Promise me that you'll leave the light on
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone'
cause I believe there's a way you can love me because I say

I won't write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one,
you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
make or break in this

Is that why you wanted a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one,
you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If your heart is nowhere in it
I don't want it for a minute
Babe, I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that there's a reason to write you a love song today


i don't know what i want.

when i see you, i want your attention.
when i get it, i want you to go away.

when the others are around you, i want to show them you're mine.
when you leave them, i want you to leave me.

when i think about you, i want to meet you.
when i'm next to you, i want to leave.

when i look at you, i want to touch you.
when i kiss you, i want to stop.

when you do things that are minorly irritating, i demand that you correct it straightaway for me.
when you do that, i wish i didnt bother to begin with.

when i'm far, i want to go near.
when i get near, i want you far.

seriously i feel so traumatised.

sighs.

you're looking at the meredith grey of reality.


the aunties just left.

they brought hailey over.

well this time cynthia and tim didnt come.

somehow i felt a bit more comfortable.

anyways.

i'm taking a break from studying econs.

well i dont know if its really studyin.

i was reading.

and writing down what i read.

is that studying?

its a new method for me.

oh wells.

later i'm going to college with dad.

parent teacher meeting.

i'll blog about how it went later.

joana's quite irritating.

haha.

anyway school today was awesome.

it was the usual, ouh i wrote an essay for malay on soccer and how its my family's fav sport.

and i scored v high!!!

well B syllabus.

so its not that great.

by the way B syllabus is for losers and stupid ppl like me.

so yeah.

econs was fun.

the econs dept started this stupid thing a month ago.

every friday they would give us a model essay to memorise during the weekend and on monday we'll have to write it out.

i think its cos many people failed the exams so they're getting desperate for us to know something that they resort to memory.

so the thing is, i dont think most people bother to memorise.

for me, i do actually want to memorise it but i just dont have the time.

and also i'm a bit lazy.

hahaha ohkay i'll admit maybe a bit more of the latter.

well so i started to memorise it 15 mins before tutorial. at the same time laughing around with qashrul.

so obviously i didnt accomplish much.

but then in class, my photographic memory took play!!

and it was so funny!!!!

irritated elfie like hell!!! hahah!!! he started cursing at me for producing 4 pages worth of 93% exact words.

omg u should have seen how pissed he was.

hahah!!! so funny!!!!

i actually finished it 15 mins early.

he too.

but only cos he had nothing more to write.

LOL!

i'm so glad im in the same class as him. seriously.

anyways after that i had philo session with mr tan, seian, sean.

damn fun!!!!

mr tan has a degree in linguistics so we started talking about pronunciations and stuff.

i seeriously didnt know algae was pronounced. LG.

or fungus, FUN G.

and a lot more u know!

cool cool!!!

then after 1.5 hrs of funness, i talked to qash awhile then i went home.

did work.... and now i'm here.

i missed ryan. and today he came to my house.

yay.


just got back from church.

waiting for mom to leave for church so vicente and i can eeat lunch and watch enchanted loudly.

courtesy of youm.

haha.

so i thought i'd come here and waste time.

i want to play the drums again today!!!!!

but i got work.

so i'm contemplating like hell....

ohkay she's gone! bye!


vivian always asks me everyday

how are you today?

today if she asks, i will tell her for the first time in weeks,

today's great.

it really is.

the time's 10.30pm. i'm sitting here in the sibling's room alone using the com.

yeah chanel is still down. i'm going to send her for servicing tomorrow after mass.

the family's outside playing with delilah. i think getting cake ready.

yea we celebrate delilah's bday every month.

hahahahh!!!!

i'm listening to james taylor.

songs like these makes me get goosebumps in a good way.

they're old. but the most genuine.

maybe i'll put up one or two over here.

its the songs that i'd love to make love to.

hahas. k info's a bit explicit.

but i dont mean it in a raunchy way.

i'm referring to making love.

not plain old sex.

i'm referring to affection with love.

i'm referring to the sort that brings tears into your eyes when u realise u're with the person that means the most to u.

and that moment is just beautiful.

anyways, i finally finished my long history essay.

what happened to days when essays were long when it was 3 pages?

so today, i decided to take a break.

at 3 i left for youm's.

how nice he lives only 3 stops away.

i learnt more stuff on the drums today!

and of course wad was funnest was when we started playing songs.

hahahahh!!! today was way back into love and low.

very funny!!!!!! especially the low!! like i would be lost, cos travis is like so damn fast and confusing!!! then youm will like come in and hit for me. hahahah!!!!!

then i'll try to do the very complicated fills.

so funny!!!!!

made a fool out of myself.

anyways, way back into love was funny too!

hahahah apparently i play too softly

hmmph!

i DONT WANT TO WHACK THE CYMBALS LOUDLY!!! SO POOR THING WHAT DID THEY EVER DO TO U??? WHACK SO HARD.....

then youm will whack for me when i whack soft. then i'll get angry! rarr!

hahahh!

sorry if i'm so darn lousy.

but i feel quite proud of myself(:

see my new year's resolution is being fulfilled more and more.

ouh i got travis barker's sticks!

thanks youm!!!!

now i just need my own set.

then i had to rush home at 5. :(

dad had to go church.

well anyways, played with delilah for most of the day.

mirrors are her best friends!!! just like her mom!

hahahah!

she actually smiles and laughs at the mirror. and touch her reflection.

so cuteeeeeee....

and now i'm here.... my life feels good.

even though the moment may come to an end.

i love this moment.


just registered in my mind that its finally friday.

not that work ever stops but well, i dont know. fridays are supposed to be good?

this week has been really busy. damn damn busy. i havent had time to do my homework. so the history essay i was supposed to hand in like on tues is still half done.

busy and tiring.

tonight i'm going to finish that, and i'm going to start on math.

and if i feel that i've done enough, i might go out tomorrow.

might.

one question tho.

with who?

vivian and cheryl are going to the beach to exercise in the morning.

i dont mind going but the thing is. its like morning. morning. and that might be hard since i'm like going to sleep late tonight. so while waking up early might be a problem, having the energy to exercise might be all the more impossible.

so i dont know.

they're going to cycle or blade.

if i go i'm going to do neither.

i'm going to run.

i havent ran in ages! well except for the stupid PE lessons in school. but the most we run is like 1.6km.

so yeah if i go tomorrow, i will run.

to do that i need energy. so i dont know really.

maybe i'll wake up late and go out in the afternoon.

we'll see what comes along.

but work is priority.

ouh vicente just left for tuition. so im alone with delilah.

i styled his hair.

whoo!!! yeah

remember how i love to dress bfs up and do their hair etc.

so i guess my bro's hair became my playground.

u should see.

so damn nice!!!! i shall post up pictures when i can.

my fucking laptop is screwed.

damn thing cant log on to the net.

yeah i'm using my bro's com typing this.

sighs no choice i think i'll really have to send my laptop for servicing this time.

maybe that's what i'll do tomorrow!

its seriously seriously screwed.

whatever the case is, im determined to make tomorrow a nice day.

the whole week has been sucking shit.


fuck u and ur mom.


life's hard.

that's all i have to say.

but life's better when i dont talk to u.

cos then i dont see myself getting hurt.

because of u, i'm scared.

because of u, i'm hurting others.

because of u, i cant be friendly with others.
cos i dont want to hurt them
cos i know i will hurt them in the end.
cos i cant give them what they want.

shit. i feel like i'm stuck in seattle grace.


stupid friendster is not allowing me to post bulletins.

yes apparently i've reached the daily max of posts.

yeah i'm posting and doing stupid Q&A.

i dont really do that u know.

in fact i think the last i did was 3 years ago.

but i'm feeling relaly like fuck today.

everything fucking sucks

i have no mood to do anything.

i'm just stoning.

so i decided to stone at friendster

and ended up doing stupid bulletins.

and a lot.

and now they're not allowing me.

i'm going to continue here.

i dont care.

so here it goes.

1. How many months are there until your birthday?
7

2. Have you gotten gum stuck in yourhair?
No

3.When was the last time you got straight A’s?
never. the trend was always tainted by my stupid malay

4. Where is your sister right now?
in her room.

5. Is your handwriting large, tiny, or pretty normal?
large and definitely not normal

6. Are you currently listening to a song?
no

7. Do you have a cell phone?
yes

8. Do you own any kind of yellow clothing?
yeah

10. How many piercings do you have?
3

11. What time is it?
ten to 1am

12.What color are your eyes?
brown

13. How are you today?
fucked up

14. How long does it take you to shower?
15 mins.

Do you wear your seatbelt in thecar?
Sometimes

16. What jewelry do you wear all the time?
Earings

18.Do you believe in aliens?
Nope

19. Any siblings?
Yeah

20. What are you doing tomorrow?
being louiza

21. Tell me a story about a scar you have
why should i.

How long is your hair?
below shoulders.

What school do you go to
tpjc

25. What are you allergic to?
nothing

26. Can others make you cry easily?
Yeah

27. Whos house did you last go to?
youm

28. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
daddy.

Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?
my uni

What are your favorite color(s)?
pink black brown

38. Do you know anyone who lives in another state?
Yep

39. Are you easily confused?
no.

How has the past week been?
fucked.

Do you like anyone at the moment?
yeah

43.What made you happy today?
school.

Do you like thunderstorms?
yeah

45. Do you watch Hannah Montana?
yes.

When’s the last time you cried?\
5pm.

What’s the weather like right now?
hot.

What color is your hair brush?
grey

. Do you trust others easily?
no


i did not ask u to fall for me.

all of u!

so stop making me feel like the bad one when i reject u!

rarr!

except u of course... (:


ouh! i remember one thing!
and i suddenly decided to get a tattoo.

of those wings!!! omgs its so sexy.

but then i was thinking if i wear cocktail dresses with barebacks... it might not look nice.

and today elfie said that if i got wings like that then when i wore sleeveless it will poke out and wont be nice.

plus he said that'll make me look hooker.

but that he dont mind fucking angel hookers.

-_-

eww.

and also i wna be a lawyer.... so wont look nice...

and what if i become a model? (dreaming already... louiza u can shut up now)

even worse.

so then at the end i decided.

no tattoo.

:/

sad me.

but

if i ever got one,

it will be the very exact same wings.

i promise.


i'm overloaded. i cant think i can do anything i just cant study.

its like, my brain doesnt want to absorb. its like so damn full and stagnant now.

totally not working.

i spent like 3 hours in the library today trying to read my history notes.

i accomplished less than what should have gotten in with 3 hours. ugsh!!! i hate this feeling!

and i got 2 essays due tomorrow!

i think i need to take a breather

stop and stare.

not that i havent been doing that for the past few hours. but stop and stare and like really stop and stare. without the notion of having to do work burdening me.

k. i shall take a break. from now till night. of course by taking care of delilah.and tonight i will really do work.

start focusing.

ouh did i tell u.

dad bought a plane.

a model of the A380. and omg its so cute!!!

its 80 bucks.

its cute.

its like my new pet. i took pictures of it.

i will post them up soon.

i actually have a lot to blog about u know.... i've been thinking a lot recently. but like now, nothing seems to be recollecting in my mind.

so when i think i'll post again.

am i wrong to only want what's perfect in my eyes?

i think after all i've been through, i deserve to only want that.






rarr!!

i fell asleep at 3 something and woke at 11.

ohkay i woke at 8 but i was too sleepy so i went back to sleep.

now im awake and ready to do MORE work!

rarr!!!

gosh i sound like such a freaky nerd!

hahahah. well i only got till like 4 to do potential work? then its delilah for the rest of the day.

so cant waste time.

and i gotta be positive about it cos if not i'll be so ughs to do work.

and i sacrificed going out today. :\

not that i would have much time out if i did, so staying at home was the better option to me.

anyways, its alright that i fell asleep cos like i did accomplish quite a lot. so its all hood!

"all hood" is snoop dogg's version of "all good"

hahahah.. i learnt that in his reality show, the fatherhood. its like travis' meet the barkers

i dont think they've started airing it here in sg but i was following the series in the states.

so damn funny!!!! seriously. hahahh!

ouh talking about fathers. today is daddy's birthday.

so happy birthday to the fathership!

tho i'm not a huge fan at the moment.

hmmph!

alright back to werrkk.

p.s. dammn i still owe pictures


rar rar rar!

rarrr!

(:

im like doing work. philo at the mo. :/

of course with lovely ppl online.

and im sick of deleting.

ouh by the way, did u know that its not worth arguing with people who have their own set of logic?

its like even whales know when they are constrained and that there exists so much more to what they know now.

but goldfish will forever think "the world = their fishbowl" and thats it. tts wad they know, and ignore the rest. like narrow.

anyways, i so need to post picturess! but i dont hv time! rarr!!

kkkk after this ki shit thing.


Hey

feeling like shit. i've been feeling like shit for a month now, but it intensified yesterday.

well u know like its a stagnant shit feeling that's at the back of ur mind and once in awhile it just intensifies and fucks u up.

yeah yesterday was one of those days.

its really really hard. and its only getting harder.

but u know what, this time, i didnt even think of calling you.

i'm learning to stand on my own. to stumble and stand on my own.

thats the only good thing.

but still my problem is not solved. and i dont think it ever will be, till i show them the outcome.

i will pull through. i will.

anyways, i'm going to do lots of work today. yes, friday.

fridays used to be happy days to go out and enjoy.

now fridays are used for work consolidation.

which is good.

miss tan my dearest ex-econs teacher was so shocked at my B for math.

thats gonna be an A. just wait...

so will be my other subjects.

not sure about philo, but i'll try a B for that.

scholar papers are hard to ace.

i went lunch with youm. learnt a lot about the muslims. (; i like to learn new things.

and he can actually peel prawns perfectly. wow. with fork and spoon.

so obviously mine was peeled for me. i hated how the prawns were presented. with shells and everything. i told vivian before. i hate it!! its like dead bodies, dead corpses spread out on my noodles.

EW.

ughs!

thinking of the eyeballs just makes me cringe.

ouh i'm listening to baby love again. its such a sweet song.

sighs.

and last night! i went dinnerr with the entertainer. (:

swensons and i was bitching about the stupid manager who was my supervisor while i was working at swensons 2 years ago. hahahah!! i was bitching and bitching.

Lol! and the entertainer well, just entertained my rants.

haaha... tts why i like u! haha every prob i have is like so easily "understood" by u.

its like i can dump any prob on u. even though u dont really understand, u make me feel like u do.

ahaah. wad a contradiction. anyways. i miss working there with debbie.

we were paris and nicole.

ALWAYS GETTING INTO TROUBLE WITH THAT STUPID BITCH IRENE! hahahhaha

see why i was bitching about her yesterday even though its been years??

haha she gave us hell cos she hated us to the MAX! haha.

so

we'll see how much i accomplish today.

(:


heys.

the weather's experiencing a transition right now. it was really hot like all day and an hour ago it has started to get darker.

i love the weather today.

its like a combo of both things that i like.

i like the sun now remember?

yup had PE today and i ran with sheryl in the sun. hahahah!

we took our time to run. yup! i dont run fast if its just running for fun. i think vivian and cheryl should know perfectly well.

hahah. so we had to run 4 rounds. the last round, she was tired so we started walking and then there was this soccer ball on the field. so i ran towards it and started playing soccer.

hahahh!! i love my field! its a new synthetic field. smells of nice rubber!

so i was dribbling dribbling then she came and joined me then we were like retards kicking the ball in the middle of the field while classes were all around us on the tracks having PE.

hahahahh!!! got noticed by people around pretty fast. girls on the field. hahah!! we abandoned our volleyball. the teacher taught we were still running! hahahh!

then we had to get back to stupid volley ball after awhile so. -_-! hmpph!

then the day went on... hot hot hot!!! the auditorium's aircon was down so math lecture was ughs!

stuffy.

but then i got out and enjoyed fresh sun after that! hahah!

then philo class! haha! we divided into dudettes and dudes to evaluate an essay each group.

then the dudes were like arguing with the teacher trying to prove their point! the girls were like bitching... gossiping... and naf and i were cam whoring! hahahh!H Damn hilarious! then miss quek came and was like HAVE U ALL DONE?!??

hahahah! i love u guys. (:

i'll post picturess tonight!

i think i'm going dinner with J the louiza entertainer. he's coming down to pasir ris.

sighs. dinner only.

so short time.

seriously i cant wait for myself to have more than just a few hours free. then i can meet cheryl and vivian.

oh gosh guys please dont think i'm neglecting u guys...

i hope u guys still love me. =(


i'm going to bathe soon, but i want to blog first now that the day has just ended and is still fully in my mind.

today in school for an april fools prank, certain classes took part in the underground april freeze. meaning after morning assembly before being dismisses we froze at certain positions for a few minutes, making the whole school go "huh???"

haha i was suppose to too but it was just too hilarious. so i snapped pictures instead and i'll post it up soon.

during PE today i challenged the teacher to standing broad jump.

he won me! he had 21somethg. i had 197cm.

omg he would have bought me ice cream. then i would have asked him to buy for the whole class.

hahah! but it was good fun. everyone was entertained.

then during break today, someone started proposing to me. telling me the benefits of marrying him. hahahh!! its damn amusing and funny.

he was saying all these things about how he'll be a pilot and bring back 20k. give me servants and a landed property.... hahahh!! it was damn funny! he also said how marrying him will give me an advantage in the law industry...

then he said how he'll listen to me and he dont mind being henpecked. omg!!! such a sweet talker! hahah! i was laughing my ass off!

hilarious!

then i was like would u still want me to work even though u're earning 20k?

then he said yeah of course i support workfare.

then i said ohkay then i hate u already. cos i'm very lazy and u asking me to work is like slavedriving. i would rather just go shopping and be a tai tai.

then he made a quick fast move and saved himself by saying ya la thats wad i meant! shopping is work wad!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

then the laughter came again!

and thats just an example of the sweet talking i got.

hahaha! its all so corny and sweet to the point u wna puke and just squeeze him.

hahahah! but its hilarious! it sure kept me entertained throughout the rest of the day.

then i went home for lunch and in the afternoon, i went to the airport to study with debbie and qashrul!

we should do it more often (:

went to tampines after that to return steve his sim card. thanks bro.

then i went home. (:

when thoughts flood me, i get sad.
but not wanting to hear her cry,
i force myself to be sane.


drinking coffee now.

got back from college not too long ago.

had like 3 hours of history. today is such a history day, pun intended.

spent an hour in the library chatting with qash after history.

boy, that hour is not enough.

the past sucks, dont you think? but he's a nice figment from history. and for that i'm happy.

after all, its all history.

p.s.m. travis is so cute. (: he's like the smallest. hahah...