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today, is tough.

for some reason.

i'm not going to act like it was all good. or fine.

i just suddenly want to rest awhile.

relax.

and even when i could, the day was so tough that even sitting down and watching tv didnt feel as relaxing as it usually is.

i felt so wound up.

i think i only started to feel more calm when i sat down with dad to eat.

today, is tough.

i'm going to sleep.

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so guess what.

i fell aslp in the afternoon reading stupid powerpoint slides.

woke up feeling like fuck lethargic again. like yesterday.

so guess wad. clearly its not more productive than yesterday.

someone shoot me.

by the way, i'm watching tv now.

again.

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i am 70% near breakdown

Labels: 70%

louiza is 70% near breakdown.

and that is a gd thing, thanks to dad. if not it would have been higher.

anyways its nearly 4.30am and i have to wake up soon so i'll do my blog in keywords just for my memoirs sake.

mom
dirty sexy money

deck 5b
3 hours
elfie
qashrul

ALONE
realisation.
ALONE

force to be strong

psycho

daddy
connection

i love u.and always will.
mama too.

CK
MANGO

cold

glances on the train.

cube-like thingys

my superpower.

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louiza is 70% near breakdown

still feeling like puking

seriously last night was ewwish and it split over to today. so it was like a hangover.

k my mind just went blank for a few secs

i cant focus on words longer than 10secs, it makes me giddy and i feel like puking.

and my hands still feel a bit numb.

so last night's sleep wasnt really what u would call a good rest.

my mind's too busted.

anyways, moving on the the real post.

(:

here's a way to debate with someone who's not willing to change his/her mindset.

switch yours.
to the individual's context.

and argue with logic from there.

so using his/her context, he or she wont be able to deny the logic, since its in his/her mindset.

yup.

but of course u must be arguing for a TRUE cause first.
no point arguing for something that's false. it wont work that way.

this procedure is mainly to convince the other party.

try it.

i did today. (:

k anyways today i went to school like an ultimate zombie.

i tried to relax, like not think. but the passing of tutorials forced me to think.

like for eg start of the day i had to present a math question on the board. then i had countless questions from the people around me as the day passed.
obviously wouldnt turn down helping others. also since tomorrow is math test day. and i love math. so yeah.
sorry isaac about not really answering your econs. takes more brain power, which i couldnt give. math is more natural u see. and i really really couldnt look at words any more.

i hope it doesnt affect my history. i have a test on friday.

i need to learn to not think so much. like even when i'm not doing work, i must learn not to think of other stuff.

i need to learn how to be totally blank.

and somehow i'm becoming more objective and outright.
i think.
and is it scary?
i dont know.
like i would rather not beat around the bush, i would rather know things now. here and now.

maybe its cos i dont have the time to beat around the bush, even though it may make things interesting.

does that make me a boring person?

i dont know,

but yeah

bear with me ohkay?

try to be straightforward with me, it'll make my life so much easier, cos i really got too much other stuff to handle.

straightfoward will simplify brain processing.

straightforward is good.

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