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mark hoppus calls it year spaceship. =/ i'm just gonna call it the adventure.

anywayss, here's to 2010. i've always detested new years. seriously. whats so fun about going to school the next day? of living through the crappy long opening months of jan, feb, march, april, may? of christmas ending? my favourite months were always october, november, december. and they always will be.

plus this year, holidays were pretty short for me. december was too short. after all school ended on the 11th... so thats like half a month gone already. ugh. then christmas came so fast, it was all really a blur.

nevertheless, i have to say that hands down last night was like the BEST new years in my entire life. seriously. and credits would have to go to rudy of course. first thing we did at 0000 was walk off from a bar with our glasses. his from vodka, and mine from wine. and those glasses stayed with us all the way till clarke quay. hahah. from city hall. hilarious.

2009 was party year. had so much fun, especially since after As. lived it. party, drinks, friends, out out out! family, girls, guys, school. it was awesome. i love 2009 really.

i'm gonna call 2010 the adventure. cos who knows where i'll end up and the end of next year? great! (:

2008 was the year of self-discovery. i worked towards the As, and just really spent the year taking care of myself since this was the period i stayed single for longest. i made real friendships, and had many nice people around me, helping me along the way. i learnt a lot about myself.

2009, party year.

and 2010, is gonna be the adventure. i cant wait.

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headache.

killer thursday has ended.

and baby made it much nicer by bringing me out for a while after his work.

i have a headache.

i haven’t seen him in a week. can u believe it?! ONE WEEK!!!!

 

today i tasted heaven once again.

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i haven't slept. since 10 am yesterday morning.

that means, i've officially been awake for 36 hours. and counting.

but surprisingly, today, i'm not having one of those headaches i usually get whenever i don't sleep.

amazing.

maybe cos i've been too active and busy to let the fatigue sink in.

or maybe it's just cos kuga's in my life.

i pretty much stayed home all day yesterday. with family... ate... biscuits... did a bit of housework... set myself up a tumblr. only cause vivian's look so pretty. it's so not popular in singapore.

nevertheless, THANK YOU VIVIAN for quelling my stupidity. i know i kept whining over and over again about how i'm so damn confused and totally dont understand anything.

THANK YOU.

so anyone who's curious, you can check me out at www.frenchkisses.tumblr.com

where i try to be as creative as vivian.

hopefully i'm diligent enough.

oh guess what! i've linked the rss feed of my twitter to my tumblr. so now my tweets also get shown on my tumblr. just in case i'm too stupid to make my tumblr look nice, at least there's something there.

SEE VIVIAN. I MERGED MY BELOVED TWITTER WITH TUMBLR. hehee. but my twitter still remains though. at http://twitter.com/louizastarr i'm still there. tweeting about the air i breathe.

yes i know i'm lame.

but also obsessed with perfection.. and "taking down things"

apart from displays of creativity, i'm also using my tumblr as like a place to note the status of my relationship. i like to go back and observe the changes. good or bad.

are you starting to get the whole "taking down things" obsession now? haha.

don't say i didnt warn you.

anyhows.

in the evening, delilah daddy and i went to white sands to get some food. got like SO MUCH of kfc.

at night, i met kuga at 12 plus.

brought him to watch TRANSFORMERS!

but he fell asleep like during the last hour. (stubborn boy that didnt want to listen to me. i told you that you'll be to too tired to meet after work)

never mind. that didn't stop that silly boy from proclaiming at work that MY GIRLFRIEND BROUGHT ME TO SEE TRANSFORMERS LAST NIGHT!!!!

i give that movie 5/5.

then we walked home... i came home at like 7.

didn't really sleep because at 9 i had to make my way to tpjc to collect my A level cert... to pass to Broward College.

yup! i'm an undergraduate there now.

went to college to give the cert... then walked so much around cbd doing american banking. the weather was effing hot. i was shiny in sweat. and i was wearing a tube.

okay maybe the jeans didnt help.

and the fact that the whole get up was black.

ANYWAY, at 2, i made my way to tanglin to see baby!! by the way, i dont work there anymore. since sunday.

brought him out to lunch.

macs. as usual.

had fun amusing him with my personal notebook and my academic stuff.

and and and we had a really really funny conversation. i think i'll use tumblr to post it.

so go check it out kay!!! at www.frenchkisses.tumblr.com

:D

baby started work at 4 again. so he walked me to the station... where we spent the last 15 minutes just standing at the corner and talking like we always do.

and baby kept amusing me with his fierce face. making me giggle and go all shy and everything.

then he had to go. but he made me walk at the side where he could see my through the glass panel. haha. sweetness you.

then i went to college to sign a couple of documents.

THEN, my day got better.

vivian and i started a text marathon.

and she made me smile throughout the journey back to pasir ris. despite how my feet were hurting and my hair so messy and i felt so dirrty after the long long afternoon.

where the next shocker happened.

i passed the new coffee club where they were apparently hiring.

feeling all tired, i just randomly walked in.

and 10 minutes later, i'm an employee.

yes i'm shocked too.

i start on the 6th. cheer for me yeah!

i know baby is cheering for me. (: thanks for the support.

then i went home. like finally.

and had like hours of talk with daddy. (:

ate, play and now i'm here.

OKAY OFF TO DO THAT CONVERSATION.

go see! (:

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they always say the best philosophy to living is live life as if it was your last day.

and i always thought, how cliche.

anyway, let me begin by blogging about yesterday. my day ended at 5 am this morning. so naturally i was too tired to blog if i was going to blog lucidly.

as usual, i reported to work at 11 sunday morning. worked with eloisa and muraly. and aunty.

by an unexpected string of events, yesterday turned out to by my last day working there.

and no, whilst working, i had no clue of that.

it was fixated in my mind that the following day - monday - aka today, was going to be my last day.

i had it all planned out.

i would relish everything i did, every detail, soak in every bit of environment. and most importantly, say an appreciative goodbye to EVERYONE i knew. because really, if there's anything i enjoyed very much from that place, was the friendships i've made with everyone.

so, no. because i didn't know that it was my last day, i didnt get to do all that.

and now, leaving that place, i feel like a significant part of me is heavy.

i guess that normal. the nostalgic immediate phase when one leaves an association, school, etc.

but i was lucky.

firstly, pardon the outright manner, i have good memory.

so, i can recall almost everything that happened yesterday. they're still fresh in my mind.

and secondly, most dearly, yesterday for almost 2 hours, i got to work with both thana and kuga.

thats like the dream team. minus selvam. but he also came up for a bit.

well, i couldnt have asked for anything more as a last day that i wasn't even aware of.

it was SUPER fun.

thana and i were fighting fighting as usual.

kuga was being his cute self, entertaining our nonsense.

and operation was so smooth.

i was inside the bar, and kuga outside.

he took orders and ran the items. i did the drinks. thana the food.

and i moved so fast, thana kept making fun of me.

but the 3 of us handled everything.

NO JAM.

and i'm very proud of that.

so i didn't know it was my last day, thana didn't get to make for me a fluffy. (go to mc cafe and order a fluffy. you'll know what i mean.)

BUT, most fortunately, thana made me an AWESOME (as usual) sandwich. and if that's the last food of his i'm going to eat for a long time, then i cant be any happier.

and at 5, i walked off, not taking the trouble to really say bye to everyone. because they were busy handling new orders, and i had no idea i was never going to walk there as barista/waitress ever ever again.

(okay suddenly my breathing's getting heavy and painful)

 

*takes a few deep breaths

 

moving on,

it was later in the evening. 10pm, that muraly called and told me he shifted the roster around. which meant i didnt need to come in for work today. (monday)

and so then it hit me, that i didn't have the last day i wanted.

and i was pretty bummed about that.

but it was even later that night, that my two favourite boys decided to show up!

yup! thana and kuga came down!

and i don't know whether it was cos they knew i was sad, but either ways, i was EXTREMELY happy!

from my place, we walked to the pond. where we had drinks and talked.

and the WHOLE time thana and i were bickering and fighting as usual. sometimes people at work find it hard to believe we're best friends.

and everytime at work when we fight, eloisa will scold us.

haha.

anyways, we had some fries and burger too.

it was really peaceful. we were like the only ones there.

then we took the long route home.

talked along the way....

i really felt extremely happy upon going home. like even though they ended late, they took the trouble to come over.

i entered my house beaming like a crazy person.

and so, the saying goes live life as if it was your last day.

i finally realize how precious that saying is. cliche is but miles away.

and i did tell my boys, that i really felt down that i hadn't known my last day had passed. i didn't get to do the things i wanted. didn't get to say goodbye.

and then baby said, it's never too late to go back and change that.

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we don't need to go that far, let's hold on to where we are. if it's real, we'll make it through. cos all i need is you.

tomorrow's mother's day. and vivian just reminded me that i'm a mom too.

honestly didnt really occur to me.

let's see how many people remember that.

if you know what i mean.

hmmm.

so, sacrifice.

yeah i think so.

character development?

i think so.

i hope so.

how to cope?

elfy says i still have phobia.

yeah i know.

i'm halfway preparing to bolt as it is.

i dont want pain.

i hate bothering my brain.

think think think.

bleah.

don't worry. nothing that bad.

and maybe that's cos i'm not allowing it to be that bad.

cos of the "phobia"

bleah.

ah wells. lets see how things go.

i'm still waiting for the sign on which path my life will take.

is the freaking sign even going to come?

so... mother's day huh.

sacrifice.

who's gonna even give me credit?

maybe that's why i actually forgot that this day's actually for me too.

=/

so mind-boggling.

why cant i just sit and talk to you.

can i be busy with work.

SIGN AGAIN.

rarh.

yes i'm crazy.

this is so weird.

i'm not normal.

ughhh.

never mind. think, character development character development.

and there are WORSE out there.

*comfort.... k now i sound like cheryl in her blog. with all that finding comfort thingys.

never mind now's just the beginning.

bigger picture bigger picture.

lets take a look at what's passed so far.

saturday

kuga started work at 6. i had no mood to go work. but he came to singapore super early. and surprised me otw to work. i start at 11. so he brought me to work... and waited for me to end at 3. then brought me home.

sunday

kuga started work at 10. i went to work super early. at like 9 plus. bought us breakfast. started work early with him.

super busy day. CHAOS.

went to tangles after work. thana made me a nice sandwich.

monday

worked with kuga again.

rushed home in cab... it's the day i saw cheryl.

tuesday

worked with kuga. this time whole day.

but our breaks were different.

i ate a lot.

people kept giving me food.

stewards gave me some chicken dish and rice...

then i went up, thana gave me a ham sandwich.

then i went down, sat with selvam, susan, rose ann, that guy.

more food. some chinese pastry thing. quite nice to chew.

then thana came down, and selvam, i and him were table top talking. for the rest of my break. happiest time of the day for me. selvam's really nice.

dream team. haha. minus kuga. who wasn't on break.

5, went up. worked with christina for almost 2 hours.

kuga bought me chicken rice during his break.

so i went to eat again... this time sat with indra and the handsome manager.

also fun.

but doesnt beat the dream team.

worked with thana at night. awesomeness.

did closing with lots of his help...

went home together... bus didnt stop at his house. haha!

thats for bullying me.

carried on going home.

kuga was at my house.

wow.

hung out for awhile...

went home.

wednesday

worked with kuga again.

at 3 he brought me home.

at macs at white sands.

thursday

worked with kuga again.

friday

didnt work with kuga. worked with muraly.

saturday (today)

worked with kuga, but he started at 12.

talked to elfy otw to work. he made me happy.

after work, we ate macs at shaw.

then i went home, he went back to work.

LJ

so, sacrifice?

envy?

tolerance?

character development.

let's see how long i can live like this.

why i've been working with him so much?

eloisa, whom i always work with, is on leave.

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i've been busy the past few days, and too exhausted to blog down the happenings. but really, i have to. lest i forget. and i really don't want to. past few days have been awesome, not a surprising occurrence of life lately. simply cos life's been great for me.

and i'm very thankful for that.

anyhow, let's recall.

friday

i went to work, was quite an exceptionally challenging day. nevertheless, i escaped unscathed.

after work, went to the airport with vicente and delilah.

went to visit daddy... and later mummy...

we all went home together.

then at night, i couldnt sleep. i had a lot on my mind, and also credits are due the coffee i had at the airport.

usually coffee doesnt keep me up, unless i want to stay up. yeah i have mastered psychological power over coffee. but i guess i was just thinking too much and inevitably, my body kept me up. thanks to my preoccupied mind.

so i gave up at around 3am, and decided to watch some tv.

after several shows, i was still wide awake.

then JAVE called! super sweet of him, to accompany me.

and as usual, talking with him is superbly fun.

talked about work and everything. but then i'm sad. cos he just quit. like on thursday. ):

we will miss you.

(saturday)

he talked to me till 5 plus. nearly 6.

THEN! couga called!

and surprised me outside my door with a gigantic bear! (may take picture soon)

i went out, and, surprise number two!

downstairs was thana!!!

bestest friend at the deli!

i felt so so happy!

couga brought him cos he knew that me seeing thana would cheer me up. how selfless right.

we talked till like 7 plus. then thana left cos he starts work at 10.

couga brought me to eat breakfast.

then i went home, he waited for me to get ready, then brought me to work!

and i worked with thana!!!

awesome awesome. damn damn fun. time literally flies when i work with him. work was much better than the previous day.

but today i had to clean out the wine shelves. i feel like i inhaled a hell lot of dust.

but it was okay. i got to read red wine bottle labels. (i not impartially hastily wiped the white wine bottles. i have some prejudice against them.)

my hands were so so dusty and i worked on the task for hours. dying hungry. but i was glad that thana was around. he took care of me.

he made for me bite-size sandwiches and fed them to me. (:

after work, i went home.

then daddy and i went to church.

at hai sing.

haha how funny.

both of us fell asleep.

vicente joined us MUCH later.

then after mass we walked to ntuc downtown east. bought stuff, then vi and i went central for awhile while daddy went home first.

evening, had a dinner party.

daddy's friends came.

watched soccer...

the night was good.

and the days were better. (:

and now, i'm off today, AND tomorrow.

and i'm hoping to see my girls on tuesday. is everyone free?

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went work late.

worked at deli alone. really proud of myself. i handled the crowd all by myself!

couga put his shirt in my locker today. so i was surprised in the morning!

haha. wore his shirt today. nice. >.<

talked with thana behind today about serious stuff. it was nice. i'm glad he talked to me.

he made me a sandwich that was nice as usual.

then from 3 to 4, i had the time of my life. working with the dream team. full attendance.

damn chaotic, but damn fun.

then i left, to go to church.

in church, missed couga. so took out his shirt to wear.

went back to pasir ris, went out with vicente and delilah.

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brace self for trying times.

worked with thana today. (:

and selvam came back!

we are all finally back. (:

i want to work in churchill once before i leave.

and i'm still working on my bar skills. (:

the boy has carefree fun with her. he takes care of her and gives her whatever makes her smile.

that guy talks to her, and tells her stories cos she likes to listen. he leads and guides, he also takes care of her.

but that man watches from the background. ensuring she's happy and safe amidst the fun she has with the others. he's happy when she's smiling, and he softens to do things that little girls love just to make her happy.

and she is content. playing among the fields, she loves how they make her smile. how they make her happy. and she loves how at the end of it all, she has a fierce figure to giggle at, a strong hand to hold hers, and bring her back home.

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"louiza, I don't want to die for you. I want to live for you."

i am seriously having awesome days. thanks to family and work people.

today was yet another damn awesome day. so i'm going to account it again.

yes blog again. cos whilst i'm having this lucky streak of awesome days, i want to really really relish how awesome this multitudes of hat tricks are.

it's like being on a constant high.without the sucky hangovers.

today, well the wee hours of the day started awesome. phone call with BOTH thana and lion!

then, guess who brought me to work today? LION!

so fun. funnest trip to work ever!

and of course, when captain brings you to work, you will arrive early.

haha! so today's one of the rare days i was exceptionally early.

THEN! thana gave me koko krunch for breakfast! ok seriously he's the cutest.

worked worked.. etc...

then thana arrived at work, made me a sandwich... then i ended work at 3.

had to go to church for Good Friday, so i couldnt stay longer. but neither could i leave just yet cos it started to rain really really heavily.

but at 4 it was still raining, ):

LIKE HELL.

lion was to end at 5. so he couldn't do much to save me.

but i really wanted to leave, i didnt want to be late for church that started at 5.

so i left.

and regretted leaving. or at least not taking a cab. cos i was too lazy to walk to the taxi stand which was quite far away from the lockers.

1 minute into walking out of the club, 2 trucks had passed me by, and splashed like EFFING a lot of rain on me.

i was soaked to the skin.

seriously.

but i didnt want to turn back to the club cos i was already running late for church. and i doubt i would have been able to really fix matters significantly. cos i dont keep clothes in my locker. or towels and what not.

so i kept walking.

my boots were SOAKED to the point i couldn't possibly wear them anymore. i could hear the squish squish sounds and splat splat effects whenever i stepped. the fur was really soaked.

my stockings were SOAKED with dunno what kind of water from the side of the road.

i felt DAMN depressed.

but really, i couldnt wear my boots.

so i went into far east which was the nearest shopping centre, and i quickly bought the first pair of shoes i saw. and took out my stockings. the salesgirl was really nice. she helped me with my wet stuff... gave me plastic bags and tissue...

then, it was back out into the rain to get to orchard station. ):

and the rain wasnt any lighter. but i had to get a move on. cos by that time it was already like 4.30.

sad.

trained to tampines, went to church. rather late. ):

then church ended. and decided to meet lion! since he would have ended already.

so i trained to orchard, and met him!

we had macs cos i wanted, went to watch knowing. but i think i was more like looking throughout the movie. ahah!

then! we walked back to the club! to pass thana something.

SO I GOT TO SEE THANA! YAY! and eloisa!

then i took the bus home. i will ask lion to concentrate and think more.

and now, i'm eating muffin.

i cant wait for work tomorrow!

WORKING WITH THANA!

another boost of exhilaration.

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there's this magical period, when the children are asleep, and mom and dad are slowing down for the day, when i enjoy the night and do whatever i want.

usually happens on nights before my off days.

and it usually encompasses watching a hell lot of tv, a hell lot of movies, (there was a night like this when i watched sweeney todd with jave), eat a hell lot of snacks, surf a hell lot of the World Wide Wizarding Web. and just chill out.

so last night i took a break from all the uni stress.

and it was nice.

watched a lot of tv, talked a lot of phone.

i was pigging out on the couch with digestive biscuits and red wine.

and zomg i've discovered that's such a wonderful combi.

leaves a coconuty feeling in your mouth. 

i think i'll go try it again after this.

i fell asleep on the couch at 6am ):

would have loved for my night to turn to sunrise but i guess i was just too tired. havent really been getting much sleep of late. it was fun whilst it lasted though.

anyways, i'm alone at home with delilah now. off today. maybe i'll be going out with dad later. get some stuff.

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easier to swallow. if you want something smooth instead of the aggressive jacob's creek.

today wasn't that great either... things cant really compare to the happiness of the previous days before yesterday. i don't feel like going work later. i want to finish my uni things. ughs.

work was okay. i only perked up when thana came.

i've come to realize he's really really a true friend and i will do anything i can for him.

but then i ended soon after... so i left.

then just had my usual day. filled with stress from reading.

then, the dream team came down to pasir ris.

with a bottle of hardys merlot and SWENSONS ICE CREAM!!!!

omg that made me loads happier.

thanks for taking care of me lion. i appreciate it.

then talked to jave on the phone. really really fun talking to that guy. we both miss selvam very much.

and now, i'm feeling much better.

but i'm wondering, should i sleep?

i frankly dont feel like it.

ok 5am still talking to jave.

 

6.30! hahaha. gangster.

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i feel much better.

vicente bought for me kfc, cut for me cake, we talked, had fun.

he doesnt judge.

and i owe him a lot for what he did yesterday.

he did a lot that didnt get me into more trouble.

and i've been chatting with bryan. he's been my solace companion throughout my stay here in "suspension dimension".

the only human company i dont mind at the moment.

he doesnt remind me of things i want to get away from. or reality.

comforting how he reminds me of a past. a nice one.

so that made me feel better too.

vicente and bryan.

then there's lion.

he's not having a good day at work too. but its comforting to know i'm on his mind as much as he is in mine.

and thana.

he texted me.

my best friendd of the deli.

made me smile too.

okay and as for the family, i guess it's something i will have to deal with later.

and i will. and we'll work things out cos we always do.

and i'll go back to loving them.

okay its half past 3. it's time for me to walk back outside.

to the life i have,

the good life i have.

the one i wont exchange anything for. regardless of the times i leap over to the greener pasture for a visit.

because this life, made me who i am today. and i am proud of that.

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have to blog about the past 48 hours. cos i've been experiencing non-stop happiness.

alright, actually i'm always happy with my position in life. but the kind of happiness i've been enjoying the past 48 hours have been exceptionally different. it has been one long nice exhilarating ride.

okay! so here's how it went. (sorry to bore)

yesterrday, it was work in the morning as usual with elois. wasn't as dyingbusy as the previous day. (wednesday when we were dying and thana was already dead) so it was pretty nice. and i was looking forward to 3. cos i was gonna meet lion who decided to come early.

3 came, but i decided to stay longer and help out. cos jave who was to take over me, was going to be late. elois went break, and SELVAM CAME! louiza loves working with him. :)))) superr fun. (omg i work with him later!!)

so see, even though i wasn't going for the long-awaited meeting with lion and had to work, things continued to be fun.

work work till like 5, then rushed out to see lion who was so patiently waiting outside wisma. i really really felt guilty. but he was really really understanding. telling me that i did what i had to do... etc. did i mention he looked really really nice? (but then i destroyed his nice shirt later on - to be elaborated later)

lion started work at 6. so it was really horrid that we had little time to spend. HOWEVER, the little time was spent really nicely.

we walked.

like a longer route back to the club. and talked. then parted. and earlier, selvam had told me that they were planning a session out after work to surprise jave for his birthday. i wasnt quite sure whether i wanted to go, since it would be really late at like 11 plus when they ended work and i'll be tired from the early day i had.

so to solve the dilemma in the short run, i decided to spend time shopping. till i figured out what to do.

trained to city hall (louiza's fav place to shop hardcore). went to peninsular after so damn long. all the punkrockish days flashed back. SOME OF THE THINGS STILL LOOKED REALLY NICE TO ME!!! HAHAHA.

then walked to marina,

shopped.

then suntec,

shopped.

long story short, i ended shopping at like 10 plus. with lots of stuff to carry.

so i was at this point already more inclined to just go home. since i didnt want to heave my stuff everywhere, i was already on the east-west line, and i was REALLY exhausted from all the walking.

but then, a quiet small part of me was just begging to scream out go meet them!!!! you're already out its going to be funn!!! and lion was also calling and encouraging me to go.

so, whattheheck. i jumped on the train towards jurong east.

i was walking really slowly and zombiefied by the time i reached orchard. walked to starbucks to try revive and calm my senses with a long black whilst i wait for the party to arrive. yeah the dilemma was still racing in my mind. and i wanted to calm things down with familiar comfort.

which came really effectively. i got my long black for free!!

the niceness of the staff there just uplifted my senses and made me cheery. so that helped a lot.

lion came at like 11 plus to get me, then we walked to the meeting place. balcony at the heeran. (a place i personally been hating since sec days) and lion was really nice! did stuff he always vowed and argued with me against. carrying girl's things. that was really really sweet.

we got there first, ordered some food, then shortly, the rest came. thana arun selvam. then real madness began.

i dont know how to describe what happened thereafter, but i can say one thing. selvam has officially become a drinking buddy of mine. if not for his diabetes, we would have continuously bought each other rounds.

and i kept "cheers"ing with iced water. hahahaa. i had a cocktail and two vodka pours in front of me, but i kept irritating them, especially selvam, with my water antics. damn funny. CHEERS TO JAVE IN SPIRIT!

he became "gone" quite shortly after that. i was high. and lion, didnt drink much even though i know he could. said he wanted to stay sober just in case he needed to take care of me. but i keep insisting i can go home myself.

it was really really fun. before long, it was 3 plus. thana and arun decided to bring the spaced selvam back to the club to sleep. lion and i stayed cos i was happily eating ice from a big jug. this part i was high already.

after that, we left. i insisted we walk towards the club. cos i was concerned about selvam. but i dont know if what i really did was walk. i remember walking crookedly and thanking lion for being so nice to me even though he doesnt like being nice.

then the real funn began when we walked past the 24-hour swensons and suddenly i randomly say, "i feel like eating ice cream..."

before i could register things, i was scooted inside and i was blurrishly pointing out all the ice cream i supposedly "loved to have when i was working at swensons"

the reaction i got was just too nice.

i got everything i pointed out.

then it all came, and i was happily eating ice cream!!! at 4 am. and i even messaged my dad "hey i'm having ice cream". needless to say, i was high.

after that, my highness started to depreciate... i realized in disbelief the magnitude of my dessert impulses. but it was fun!! i so wanna do that again.

we walked, sat, and took cab to my place.

in the cab, i dont know what happened. but when i woke up at the highway entering pasir ris, i found that both of us were sprawled dead on the back seat. thats how exhausted we were.

then walked home, and i reached at like 5 plus. just died on bed

WOKE UP AT 8 PLUS, charge to work!

why charged? cos today was a rare time when i get to work with lion. our schedules are almost never together. cos we used to fight too much.

so i went early! i wore specs. eyes too dry from the late night with contacts. (faced lots of questions today!)

anyways, work didnt feel like work. HONESTLY. it felt more like a post-party chillout session.

fridays are always busy at our deli.

BUT TODAY, i can count the orders with one hand!!!

THAT BADD!!! i mean good!!!!

hahahaa. it was really quiet and relaxed. and we got to talk and spend more time together. and this is the first time i'm working with him and we didnt argue once. so it felt really really weird for me.

in a nice kinda way. i could get used to it.

he was really helpful too. more than usual. instead of just letting me do everything.

everything was so so sooo awesomely classic.

thana came, my half-half buddy and now best friend at deli! yay!! he's working with me again tomorrow.

then 3 came so damn fast. i seriously think i was enjoying too much. time flew. reiteration. 100% DIDNT FEEL LIKE WORK TODAY.

had to go home. walked out with archerl. had a nice chat on the way. then kuga came out of nowhere and acoompanied me all the way to pasir ris. even though he started 2nd shift at 6.

then i came home, played with del the whole day..

and now i'm done with the awesome post.

p.s. home team? today i was too tired to dress up for work, i wore fbt shorts and a police dryfit shirt. i was walking to work when a prison van drove past the sidewalk. and both of them saluted at me.

how camaraderie of them.

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time check, 5am. nothing less than i expected, today was awesome. i have pictures, but i can't seem to find my cable to connect my cam to my laptop. i think that's a sign that i should really get down to university applications. since i've gotten the results, i haven't started making choices. it's been more than a week. i ought to get started, which is why i took at off for tomorrow (technically today). i'll stay in my room the whole day and weigh my choices.

bearing the plausible sign in mind, i will not blog so elaborately.

today, went church at 6.45am... went to get my long black and a yoghurt drink at N2... came home... got ready for work, and then left.

worked till 3 plus. the lion cub is confusing. (lj)

rained... so i took a cab to dhoby gaut... had a nice chat with the taxi driver. whole of orchard was jammed. took like 5 mins just to cross one traffic. he was really nice though.

did errands, raced to vivo.

met girls.

ate, walked.

hours at starbucks.

trained to orchard.

picked hadyy.

had cookies (:

went home. (1am)

bathed... blah...

3am: watched Sweeney Todd with Jave. fun fun!

and now, i'm here. but i ought to sleep soon.

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just casually having a long black from Mc Cafe' now. conclusion, it sucks. not strong enough for me. but i had to get my caffeine shots and it was the only option for me on the way home from church.

i went for 6.45am mass, and now i'll have to get ready for work soon.

an adventure awaits, i see vi and cher later. (: been so busy with work and delilah, we haven't met in ages! so that's something to look forward to.

still enjoying the morning chills. hopefully wont get hot later? =/

anyways, yesterday i watched stardust again. on hbo. when it came out, i was in the states. that's where i first watched it. i didnt want to actually. i didnt think it would be nice. but cheryl was gushing on and on about how great it was and how many times she watched it and about tristan yadahyadah. so i decided to give it a shot. well, and also there was nothing else nicer to watch. haha.

but i didnt regret my choice. it was AWESOME. superbly awesome. i give it like 10/10.

so watching it yesterday made me feel all american all over again. hey wait a min, i'm actually kinda american anyways. haha.

but still, it's a nice feeling and i cant wait to get back. hopefully this year? but daddy wants to go BORING sydney to see his friends. yes sydney is boring... but i guess the friends part is nice. oh wells anything for daddy.

okay! long black's done, and i'm running late, i'll catch you later. ciao!

Love,Louiza.

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11pm. raining superbly heavily. all cozy in bed. covers up to my knees. laptop on my lap. reading the news.

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Agenda for next week: Thy shalt live on Desperate Housewives alone

Agenda for now: Thy shall not perform miracles for no reason

Thought for now: I think I throw money around too blatantly

want to watch october road now. but at the moment, it is on pause cos i wanna blog first before i forget about what i want to blog about.

number one on the list, my new toner smells of vodka. random fact.

and then number two, the most important. (:

i just came back not too long ago from a Macdonald fest with daddy del and vicente. SUPER FUN. and one vital thing i've learnt.

SUDDENLY I LIKE FILLET O FISH BURGER.

first time eating. i always thought it was a lame burger. but today i decided to get it. cos it looks lame. hahaha. cos the main reason we went there was to eat the FRIES. so i just got a lame burger.

WE BOUGHT LOTS OF FRIES.

and i love family time like that. super fun.

bought and bought and bought.

WHO WANTS TO GO FRIES FEST WITH ME???? :D

then dad even bought fries to cook at home. yes i love my dad.

and another thing.

thank you russell for being so concerned about me. (:

and lastly,

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THANA TOMORROW!!! yes i'll scream it from the mountain tops. that boy is adorable.

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Nothing feels wrong

when down goes up.

Nothing feels wrong, too,

when neutrality sings.

But

Nothing feels right

when up goes down.

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today, is tough.

for some reason.

i'm not going to act like it was all good. or fine.

i just suddenly want to rest awhile.

relax.

and even when i could, the day was so tough that even sitting down and watching tv didnt feel as relaxing as it usually is.

i felt so wound up.

i think i only started to feel more calm when i sat down with dad to eat.

today, is tough.

i'm going to sleep.

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• during AFC, govt slashed CPF contributions by 10%
• i think debates in parliaments are actually quite fun...
• i feel like going to the total def thing. (not elaborating here) but it'll be so cute! crazy talk thank you to you.
• omg this is super cute. german troops are going to france to make friends with the french troops! and it'll be like the first time since WWII. so cute right! and this is to like enhanch friendship between the two countries since the Franco-German brigade was set up. and guess when it was set up. 1989! haha. im such a history freak.
• malfeasance - misconduct, especially by public official

fyi, all the stuff i write in bullets are the stuff i write whilst reading the news. it's like that for every post.  (:

okay well. now i'm just sitting in my dining room having coffee and thinking about recent events.

yesterday was a weird day. weird in a sense, doesnt feel like it existed. in a sense, didnt feel like a DAY

maybe cos the night following the morning, i didnt sleep a wink. thanks to a certain girl. but hey, apart from being traumatized, (YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO TELL PEOPLE WHY I WAS TRAUMATIZED UNDERSTAND!) it was really nice. what's nicer was the morning though.

without sleeping, i went over to tpjc to do a favour for miss quek. (love love!) then spent the whole morning and early afternoon with rudy.

needless to say, by the time i got home, i was effing sleepy. i practically just floated through the rest of the day. then slept early, and didnt read news. so it felt like a half-day to me. not a real day.

well at least i had my sleep, and i'm all better today. (: even managed to study the news. see! *points upwards.

anyways, i realize that i have a VERY low sex drive. yes, unbelievable i know. you people are probably going like "oh then why you have delilah and blahblahblah." but seriously, hahaha. it's actually true and the CONTRAST has come to light very recently. hmmmmsss..... hahahahah.

yeah i think i wont die without sex. and for a reason only elfy and rudy knows, i am actually scared of vaginal penetration. (pardon the crudeness. haha) and no, it's not cos i'm scared of getting pregnant again. i'm scared of sex toys and the finger. hahahaha. can't believe i'm saying all this. but yeah. they dont give out sperm.

want to know something random? i haven't had sex for at least 1 and a half years now.

but, i can't live without what elfy tells me malays call the manja-ing. to me, its just the cute and cuddlies! awww. hahaha. means hugs and kisses. and snuggles and curls and patting. (not petting k. patting. like pat pat on my head kind. and ruffle my hair)

yeah well i'm weird that way.

ah wells enough of the sex talk.

with all the university options coming in, i'm actually hoping my immigration gets cleared before aug or sept... then i can do my uni in the states... that would be nice.

 

that greek guy is hot but pity all the english he speaks is "hey baby".

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