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so those are captures of the aftermath of writing. reminds me of my thesis days in As. the harry potter book. well, today i have another addition to the collection. haha. aztec human sacrifice rituals. soo, if you have no life and want to do some reading, come ask me for a copy. (:

anywayy, the past 28 hours was hellish seriously. research paper and law finals. but i had D on the same boat with me. so i'm cool (: quite fun actually

the song of the 28 hours was Daniel Bedingfield - Gotta get thro this. Hha. over and over and over again man. i'm saving that for future chiong-ing sessions.

today was interesting cos i encountered the big 3, and the other 3.

the big 3 refers to the awesomely smart sexy professors. haha. i'm sorry pardon my explicit opinion. i just really admire smart people.

took the train with THE lance today. and actually texted denny about it. cos inside joke, i'm lance and he's lance impersonator. so actually having THE REAL LANCE right in front of me while i was rushing to absorb my freaking law book was VERY unnerving. i kinda gave up just about at city hall.

omg lawyers. > <

then at school saw tad, but didnt go follow for smoke cos i was really scared about law, so went to panic-study with denny.

and we saw tad and lance talking and walking together and for like 10 seconds we both just stared at the two of them. LOL. damn funny.

but hotness honestly.

the test wasn't so bad. i hope. > <

then after class, talked to mr ethan moore about class and everything. i seriously enjoyed his classes so, thats something i'm definitely gonna miss. all the philo and stuff. he's one smart guy.

then, denny boy and i went home. he grabbed some yoghurt thingy before. then home!~

and thats the end of the big 3. gosh awesome.

then, comes the other 3.

today something weird happened. i spoke to 3 of my exes.

thats it.

haha.

ciao

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just showered, after like coming home.

lots of work to do.

i’m gonna camp in my room the whole day to finish it.

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Baby and shakespeare.

 

(louiza and kuga sees couple wearing identical teeshirts.)

kuga : do you like wearing same stuff like that?

louiza : hmm... not say i like or don't like. i'm neutral. if it happens, i think it's cute. but don't worry i won't force you to do anything.

kuga : for me it's not whether i like or don't like. it's what you like. then i'll do.

louiza : hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

 

haven't blogged in a while. haven't really used the computer lately. been either out late, or catching up on sleep. kuga's been amazing to me - as always.

late night suppers... dates... even though he's like super exhausted after working till late.

ILOVEYOUBABY.

being the nice nice awesome gentleman.

 

like yesterday, we worked at terrace again. second time as non-enemy.

and he called me baby!! haha like while working!! like in front of everyone. even manager.

like "baby can you help me do blahblahblah..."

made me really really smile!!

then when i asked "okayy now what you want me to do?"

then he says "do whatever you want."

made me feel so so so special. even though we were at work.

 

and he's so sexy. how he's like in-charge and everything...

and so strong. so sexy and tall carrying the super big tray.

 

haha okay i sound crazy.

 

and how he calls me the captain. - "anything let louiza handle. she's the captain."

and give me authority to let people go toilet.

hehehex.

even though i'm just a lousy part-timer.

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today's first day of kuga's leave

yesterday, went to work late. then muraly couldn't go meeting. =/

after work went home with susan and wendy.

asam girls. haha. we kept eating asam while walking to the station.

went home, took care of delilah, watched a bit of transformers. (:

at 12 plus, kuga came over. brought me to macs... where i showed him my blog. (this one)

and the conversations i had with vi and cher about him. (super embarrassing.)

i love you baby and you're the best for me. no one else.

at like 2.30, we walked home. which was nice. cos baby kept TALKING AND TALKING.

and i kept smiling cos i love to hear him speak. it's the only thing i wanted to ever do when i just met him. well, except of course, not the rubbish attitudes he was giving me at that time.

so i just kept soaking in the conversations, looking at him... doing my darnest to remember every detail of him. as i wouldn't be seeing this boy until tuesday. he's going to KL to visit his family. who are really nice people, from the conversations i've had with them over the phone.

"it's like now i'm walking. i don't know if i'm going to fall down over there. but i'm still going to carry on walking." - kuga, upon my question of how he knows i'm worth it.

so i reached home at like 3.15am. kuga kept asking me to inform my dad where i was. something i dont normally do. but i guess its good. cos then when i came home i didn't get any of the usual nagging.

i did research after bathing. and slept at like 5.30. woke up at 1.30. so i'm glad i had 8 hours of sleep. (:

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the weather is SO so hot!

anyways, for record's sake. saturday was i'm sorry thank you day for thana and i. and kuga decided to come and EXTRA also. haha.

nahh he's just cute.

sunday, i did opening all by myself! in the dark. seriously. i feel so proud of myself.

actually, i was supposed to start work only at 11. but i decided to surprise baby who was doing opening at 10.

i came at 9.30 and did opening all by myself!!

first time! *feels proud.

after work, he brought me home. (: then went back for second shift. i love him.

last night talked to elfy.

today, i worked with him again. went to work early as well. we worked with aunty today. very fun for some reason.

after work, as he didn't have any break, i walked to macs to buy him food, then after passing it back to him, i went home.

at home, i had a damn long phone conversation with dad. not unusual. but yeah, awesome just the same.

and now, i'm just waiting to hear from kuga.

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at 9am, i was certain that i was going to have a sucky day.

i talked to kuga till like 6 plus. he said so so many nice things. today's our one month. and things had a funny way of happening.

at 9 am i was sad. and unable to call kuga, i called elfy. who was so nice to entertain my emoness despite being in the middle of a jungle. thank you thank you.

and at like 10 plus, baby called!! and really cleared my emoness and muddled thoughts. so by 11, i felt a bit better.

there was hope for the day.

i spent the rest of the morning watching cartoons with delilah and snacking. fyi to you guys, she's feeling much better from the fever she's been having past couple of days.

at this point of the day, i was neutrally content.

but what made me REALLY REALLY happy, was that as soon as he could, kuga called me again. and spoke to me for nearly an hour from malaysia. and made sure i was smiling and cheery before he hung up to have lunch.

he worked at 2.

i'm off today.

i had lunch that parents bought back, whilst surfing the net. things were rather relaxing today. watched a bit of tv too...

i had a productive day. cleaned room... folded my clothes... ironed my uniform... even helped daddy with the laundry.

not a bad day.

dinner was lamb steak.

thennn!!! THANASKODI AND BABY CAME TO MY HOUSE AFTER WORK!!!!

thanaskodi!!!! was so so happy to see him after so so long.

):

then they brought me to mac donalds. at white sands.

we were the only ones in the bus there. and thana and i were squabbling as usual. SUPER FUN! whilst kuga took care of me as usual.

squabbling didnt stop at macs. where kuga had to end up doing the ordering cos the two of us were too busy fighting. haha!

eating also compromised of arguing. i think we miss each other too much already. haha.

and my kuga actually fell asleep while we were arguing.

macs at night is nice. rather tranquil patrons around.

at 1.30am, we decided to leave cos someone was like dying already.

cabbed to my place, thana took the stuffs for the bike. kuga sent me up.

and i got to french kiss my baby after SO long. but pity it was like only a few minutes.

went home, and washed up... talked to parents. and now i'm here.

so,

what irony.

at 9am i thought my day was going to suck.

at 2am, i'm wishing i could play it all over again.

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today, is day one of thana's leave.

i went to work, to work with not nice person again... zzz...never mind. the rest of the people were really nice.

i handled almost an hour of chaos.

really proud of myself...

then kuga came and made me happy... then i went home after work.

that's all for work today i guess.

then at home, in the evening went to mass with vicente...

then we went to eat like a hell lot.

didnt know my brother actually has manners. waited for my food to come after so many years before he started to eat.

then we also bought chocolate to eat in the bus on the way home.

(:

thats family for the day....

now on to the main feature.

thanaskodi.

he really made me happy the whole day.

like i was really dreading going to work... working with not nice person... and not having kuga around in the morning.. and thana in malaysia...

but he called me like almost at every point of the day!! from malaysia!

and reallly made me happy.

really.

it's like you're not gone.

(:

thanks.

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just had supper.

started at 3.

before that, talked to kuga for two hours.

i feel sad.

thana's leave starts today. ):

won't be seeing him for a week.

won't be talking to him for a week. ):

and i've grown so accustomed to talking to him on the phone almost everyday.

and also conferencing with him and kuga. the funness. the chaos. priceless.

work's stupid these days in the morning. don't really like who i work with in the morning past couple of days. but i'm trying to belt it in.

i think i'm doing fine.

and either ways, when thana comes, then kuga, they never fail to make me feel loads better.

but i guess for the next week to come, i'll only be relying on boyfriend.

which is awesome!

selvam's going on leave too... he taught me how to set the terrace!! (:

boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend. i miss you.

k wait. need to message him.

k done.

now, my number two. thanaskodi.

okay done.

now back to kuga starr.

okay done. now back to blogging.

so yeah, gonna miss the absentees.

and i love kuga. how he trusts me so much...

LJ.

he's MY man.

p.s. feels guilty that cos of me he waited 1 and a half hours at the roadside.

today, went out with vicente and delilah. we seem to do that a lot often.

fun.

and yeah supper.

daddy put out for me as usual. (: even though he was super tired.

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awesome awesome awesome day yet again.

morning worked with eloisa and raja... but then, at 2, thanaskodi came!! and i set the high-tea for him. (:

made him happy. and he called me cleverr. haha. (:

then kuga came!

but i went for break.

hung out at the cafeteria with the handsome manager, indra and the barman. talked and talked about stuff... soccer.. malaysia... roller coasters. hahaa. damn funny.

then, at 4, selvam appeared!!! the member of the dream team that has been so MIA for so long.

so the prior party took their leave, and i was left with selvam. and we talked and talked about cake. haha.

i had break till 6 you see.

then the best part.

thana came at 5!!!

so it was like suddenly so damn fun. hahaa. being with them is awesome. those two. always fighting. much to my amusement.

then, 6 came. i went back to work. set terrace for kuga. i think i did quite a good job. (: all by myself.

but then baby came to help me either ways. even though it was his break. haha.

first time i worked at terrace with kuga as a non-enemy.

yup last i worked with him there, we were still fighting non-stop. and today's work was nice. despite having a retarded headache that maintained itself throughout.

was really hungry... thana really took care of me.

then, after work, thana and i took a cab home. i dropped him at his place...

and at my place, kuga surprised me by turning up! hahaa.

i miss that boy so so so much.

came home at 1.30am... talked to thana till 3! then went to bathe.... and now i'm still awake... dont wanna sleep... ):

but i guess i have to. gotta wake up for college day.

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worked with eloisa and raja today. and sy.

then at 2, thana came...

then kuga...

i scalded my hand with hot water...

had briefing at 3...

then went to tangles to visit thana.

which was awesome.

LJ

oh i cabbed to work today. couldnt wake up.

and last night, had so many conferences with kuga and thana.

damn funny and chaotic. many a time, things were so incomprehensible. cos all three of us were talking - or rather shouting - our own kind of things at the same time.

thana: louiza starr maria alexandra joseph!! louiza starr maria alexandra joseph!!! louiza starr maria alexandra joseph!!!

kuga: can i say something? i want to say something first! i want to say something! can i say something!?!

louiza: can you two keep quiet?!! shhhh!!! wait wait!!! one by one!! hahaha! i dont understand!

now play the manuscript simultaneously.

result: chaos.

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super fun. i just finished like almost half an hour of conferencing with thanaskodi and kuga! (; (:

super super fun! i love them really.

anyway, today at work, worked with christina.

then stayed longer with muraly and kuga.

then, kuga brought me to mac donalds!

okay i'm going to clear out my bag.

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midnight went to costa sands to pass jave and friends some tools to fix their mahjong table.

morning, went to work SUPER EARLY. one hour earlier. to surprise kuga baby.

dream team working. THANA and baby.

SUPER FUN. but today had lots of irritating interruptions. but dont worry. johnny and i are good friends. (;

thana was super nice to me today. (:

after work, baby brought me home.

anndd now i was planning to sleep at 12.

but baby called.

then thana called.

then baby called again.

and for a few minutes, we all conferenced!

then i continued talking to thana. who apparently gets jealous easily too. hahaa.

and then, i said goodbye. and now i'm here to record all the happiness down.

and, today at work i was chef. can u please pass the captain's order!

and now i think i want to watch grey's anatomy.

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superbly happy!!!

yes as you know, i was dying for most of the evening in bed thanks to tabasco... BUT! guess what took the pain away?!

thanaskodi!

my bestest friend in deli.

he called and we talked like a lot! and he really cheered me up. as usual. (:

talked about so much! about my merajukness, (i'm still tanglin's baby! yess!) about the dream team, about funness! yup the fun we 4 get into... haha indescribable high.

so really, then he asked me how's my stomach. and... the pain was so minimal! hahaa.! wow amazing.

he has this charm that makes me smile regardless. and the mischief we two get into... haha. priceless.

i still remember, when i was a bit upset with kuga, he actually brought thana down to my house at 5 plus in the morning cos he knew me seeing thana would make me smile.

that boyy... really selfless of him.

kay now i'm missing kuga even more. cos i'm so in love with how he takes care of me and my feelings. he completes everything in life.

LJ

i am going to write him a letter. now.

and thats the end of mother's day.

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we don't need to go that far, let's hold on to where we are. if it's real, we'll make it through. cos all i need is you.

tomorrow's mother's day. and vivian just reminded me that i'm a mom too.

honestly didnt really occur to me.

let's see how many people remember that.

if you know what i mean.

hmmm.

so, sacrifice.

yeah i think so.

character development?

i think so.

i hope so.

how to cope?

elfy says i still have phobia.

yeah i know.

i'm halfway preparing to bolt as it is.

i dont want pain.

i hate bothering my brain.

think think think.

bleah.

don't worry. nothing that bad.

and maybe that's cos i'm not allowing it to be that bad.

cos of the "phobia"

bleah.

ah wells. lets see how things go.

i'm still waiting for the sign on which path my life will take.

is the freaking sign even going to come?

so... mother's day huh.

sacrifice.

who's gonna even give me credit?

maybe that's why i actually forgot that this day's actually for me too.

=/

so mind-boggling.

why cant i just sit and talk to you.

can i be busy with work.

SIGN AGAIN.

rarh.

yes i'm crazy.

this is so weird.

i'm not normal.

ughhh.

never mind. think, character development character development.

and there are WORSE out there.

*comfort.... k now i sound like cheryl in her blog. with all that finding comfort thingys.

never mind now's just the beginning.

bigger picture bigger picture.

lets take a look at what's passed so far.

saturday

kuga started work at 6. i had no mood to go work. but he came to singapore super early. and surprised me otw to work. i start at 11. so he brought me to work... and waited for me to end at 3. then brought me home.

sunday

kuga started work at 10. i went to work super early. at like 9 plus. bought us breakfast. started work early with him.

super busy day. CHAOS.

went to tangles after work. thana made me a nice sandwich.

monday

worked with kuga again.

rushed home in cab... it's the day i saw cheryl.

tuesday

worked with kuga. this time whole day.

but our breaks were different.

i ate a lot.

people kept giving me food.

stewards gave me some chicken dish and rice...

then i went up, thana gave me a ham sandwich.

then i went down, sat with selvam, susan, rose ann, that guy.

more food. some chinese pastry thing. quite nice to chew.

then thana came down, and selvam, i and him were table top talking. for the rest of my break. happiest time of the day for me. selvam's really nice.

dream team. haha. minus kuga. who wasn't on break.

5, went up. worked with christina for almost 2 hours.

kuga bought me chicken rice during his break.

so i went to eat again... this time sat with indra and the handsome manager.

also fun.

but doesnt beat the dream team.

worked with thana at night. awesomeness.

did closing with lots of his help...

went home together... bus didnt stop at his house. haha!

thats for bullying me.

carried on going home.

kuga was at my house.

wow.

hung out for awhile...

went home.

wednesday

worked with kuga again.

at 3 he brought me home.

at macs at white sands.

thursday

worked with kuga again.

friday

didnt work with kuga. worked with muraly.

saturday (today)

worked with kuga, but he started at 12.

talked to elfy otw to work. he made me happy.

after work, we ate macs at shaw.

then i went home, he went back to work.

LJ

so, sacrifice?

envy?

tolerance?

character development.

let's see how long i can live like this.

why i've been working with him so much?

eloisa, whom i always work with, is on leave.

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trying hard to recall the magic.

Sunday

read a lot of news...

watched a lot of lipstick jungle.

and i vaguely remember the conversation, but i remember i was whining for hours on the phone in the wee hours of the morning to kuga; being petty about something. don't even know what it was. thats how dumb and whiny i was being. haha.

but one thing i definitely remember, was not once did kuga get annoyed. or put down the phone. despite being all tired from work.

and i felt really bad after the call and my sense kicked in. that i kept him from sleep. haha..

so i apologized profusely, and i got scolding for apologizing.

and i got rewarded with a breakfast date. with the dream team. so at 4 plus, i went to sleep contented, anticipating dawn. and regretting the useless long phone call. cos i could have gotten more sleep. instead of acting like a fool.

but it's okay i like. (:

Monday

supposed to leave house at 7. but ended up leaving at 8. cos i couldn't really wake up. no surprise to that.

trained to orchard to meet the dream team before they start work at 11.

yes, i was off.

got there, and found only my boy waiting for me.

apparently the rest died and couldnt wake up. did i mention that the dream team went to bed around the same time? so means they were indirectly kept up by me also. haha!

kuga and i went for breakfast at borders.

and i was happy.

havent spent time with each other since...

hey wait. not that long ago. the last time we were alone was like the previous day he came down with the bear. and we also had breakfast. (hey i didnt realize that!)

never mind, i think i just miss him a lot. that's why seems like ages.

and yeah breakfast was nice! i shall go there again. i ordered this hell of a lot of bread thingy. and made a huge mess eating. haha!

and kuga took care of me... wiping my mouth.. dusting my dress. taking my hair out of my face.

he ordered this omelette thing. and fed me a lot. haha. and yes yes compared table tops. my bread was toasted okay! and the plate was so far away. obviously will have bread crumbs.

okay i was lazy to rearrange the table.

but eventually he also did that for me.

seriously how does he tolerate such a useless person like me? so troublesome.

and this is coming from the guy i used to fight with. the same guy who vowed he hates doing things for girls.

now the most amazing guy i know. after God and daddy.

before my brother.

haha.

anywayyyy, after that, he went to work, i trained to tampines. to visit my girl at TP.

bought her a rose as testimony of my undying love.

and i met her, bf, and a pleasant individual known as shir, and other people who came and went.

they were doing tutorials, and i was stealing vi's stationary (as usual) and drawing. and i was missing kuga, so i wrote him a daily letter then and there. happy to be able to give him something the very next day at work.

and tp coffee sucks.

vi's class started at 2, so i made my way to the library to catch up on the news, and waited for russell.

and headaches ensued.

met, haha. then we went to tampines1.

got a decent coffee (finally)

but i was acting all crazy - sorry for that russell - that was the headache acting.

total 4 cups on this day.

but after that nice coffee, headache was still there (although a little elevated) so i concluded that it's there probably cos i didnt sleep much.

went to bakerzin for dessert. which was awesome. really. i shall go there again as well.

then something happened. to make me ecstatic! despite the shitty headache.

kuga called and asked me to go to work!!!!

i was like WOW okay!

but then i let it slip that i was suffering from a retarded headache. and at that moment regretted. cos then he started saying things like okay then never mind dont come. stay there.

but then louiza whined... and louiza always gets. (:

so, soon after, i made my way home to get my stuffs. russell was nice enough to accompany me home. (:

and i really did enjoy the afternoon of tea. (:

okayy so then! i ironed my uni, (picked out kuga's big shirt) freshened up, and left.

at orchard before walking to the club, i bought for selvam kfc. i heart dream team (;!

then, started work! which was fun! the dream team was around. full attendance. awesome stuff.

night after work wasn't that nice. solely cos i chose to feel ughish.

slept in bus...

house door was locked...

no one could hear me...

hp batt died....

had to walk to 7eleven to use the lan line to call daddy...

then walk back whilst feeling like crap.

so i bought vodka and drank it all the way back.

to numb the dread of having to walk back feeling like crap.

exactly like that time when i had to go work with NONE of the dream team around. NOT EVEN IN SINGAPORE. i intoxicated myself with red wine before work. and yes elfy, stupid thing to do. felt like puking in the train. not nice thing to feel in the morning. 

anywayyyy, i think i slept at nearly 5. talked to jave on the phone telling him why i felt like crap.

made me feel a lot better. well talking to him's always fun regardless.

oh and in my highness, i spammed kuga a lot with text messages. about why i was sad.

rather unreasonable reasons i must admit.

next day.

Tuesday

selvam day! i got to work with selvam!

awesomeness.

oh, i fell down. like after a gazillion years. outside the locker room, some person moped the floor and put too much soap. freaking slippery.

i fell down. on fours. so i wasn't hurt like on my head or something.

BUT, my left wrist was bruised. like blue black.

damn freaking pain.

whole time at work damn hard to work. left hand's my tray carrier.

so i had to work with right. and i vowed to raja that confirm i will drop the tray today. first time in my life.

but hey, whole time i didnt! (:

okay i owe it a lot to the fact that selvam did almost all of the carrying.

and i wanted to work whole day again. cos dream team would be around.

but those dream team people HAD to tell kuga that i fell down and injured my tray carrying wrist.

Dr. Selvam then took some bandage and mummified my wrist.

and then kuga was like no no no dont work again.

but then, i managed to convince MANAGEMENT!

HAH!

so i got to work!!!

:D

from 3 plus to 5, i sat at the cafeteria and wrote kuga his daily letter whilst drinking chicken soup. (: nice.

then at 5, kuga went off for break. so he brought me to far east to eat! (:

damn damn nice.

then brought me back to work... he started at 6, but i still had an hour to go.

went back to cafeteria to read philosophy, but then i really really missed him, so i decided to go work early! HAHA.

we both drew for each other! which is something new cos he doesnt usually draw. (:

work was damn damn fun.

after work, DREAM TEAM and i went out for dinner!! and newton!

damn damn fun.

and thana really took care of me. like i wanted to drink beer but he really didnt allow. i was quite shocked actually.

but really it was DAMN nice!

then kuga brought me home.

we took a long walk at pasir ris, i told him everything, and then, i became his girlfriend at 2.30.

because he's so amazing to me.

and wow, i still cant believe i got through what i've been avoiding. without any wounds.

amazing.

i underestimated him.

the post-lovey dovey conversation went something like this:

(louiza glances at her watch and heaves a conclusive sigh.)

louiza: *sigh... so. 29th april, 2.30am... 29th april.... okay....

kuga: yeah. wolverine come out today.

 

MAJOR -_-'''

DOT DOT DOT.

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haha. kuga says the darnest things. thats why i love him. yes dear, i laugh not cos u said something stupid. cos u said something darn adorable.

wednesday

kuga brought me home from work!!!!

thursday

WENT HOME WITH THANA!!!!!

really, i love kuga. and the way he treats me.

and now talking on the phone with him for hours!

 

more darnest things

love is about sacrifice.... i gotta sacrifice some stuff for you... EH NO WAIT. i dont like the word "sacrifice". i want to change. love is about doing what you want... i want to do stuff for you.

 

i have to trust you first. only when i trust you, then you will trust me.

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i've been busy the past few days, and too exhausted to blog down the happenings. but really, i have to. lest i forget. and i really don't want to. past few days have been awesome, not a surprising occurrence of life lately. simply cos life's been great for me.

and i'm very thankful for that.

anyhow, let's recall.

friday

i went to work, was quite an exceptionally challenging day. nevertheless, i escaped unscathed.

after work, went to the airport with vicente and delilah.

went to visit daddy... and later mummy...

we all went home together.

then at night, i couldnt sleep. i had a lot on my mind, and also credits are due the coffee i had at the airport.

usually coffee doesnt keep me up, unless i want to stay up. yeah i have mastered psychological power over coffee. but i guess i was just thinking too much and inevitably, my body kept me up. thanks to my preoccupied mind.

so i gave up at around 3am, and decided to watch some tv.

after several shows, i was still wide awake.

then JAVE called! super sweet of him, to accompany me.

and as usual, talking with him is superbly fun.

talked about work and everything. but then i'm sad. cos he just quit. like on thursday. ):

we will miss you.

(saturday)

he talked to me till 5 plus. nearly 6.

THEN! couga called!

and surprised me outside my door with a gigantic bear! (may take picture soon)

i went out, and, surprise number two!

downstairs was thana!!!

bestest friend at the deli!

i felt so so happy!

couga brought him cos he knew that me seeing thana would cheer me up. how selfless right.

we talked till like 7 plus. then thana left cos he starts work at 10.

couga brought me to eat breakfast.

then i went home, he waited for me to get ready, then brought me to work!

and i worked with thana!!!

awesome awesome. damn damn fun. time literally flies when i work with him. work was much better than the previous day.

but today i had to clean out the wine shelves. i feel like i inhaled a hell lot of dust.

but it was okay. i got to read red wine bottle labels. (i not impartially hastily wiped the white wine bottles. i have some prejudice against them.)

my hands were so so dusty and i worked on the task for hours. dying hungry. but i was glad that thana was around. he took care of me.

he made for me bite-size sandwiches and fed them to me. (:

after work, i went home.

then daddy and i went to church.

at hai sing.

haha how funny.

both of us fell asleep.

vicente joined us MUCH later.

then after mass we walked to ntuc downtown east. bought stuff, then vi and i went central for awhile while daddy went home first.

evening, had a dinner party.

daddy's friends came.

watched soccer...

the night was good.

and the days were better. (:

and now, i'm off today, AND tomorrow.

and i'm hoping to see my girls on tuesday. is everyone free?

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worked with nolisa and raja... okay quite fun. but a lot of drama. and tension.

take away stuff... order stuff...

think the happy thing while working was the encounters with the sous chef. haha. he's really funny. and nice.

asking me to cook breakfast for him today. cos he doesnt know how to cook hot food. only cake.

how noble. haha.

after work, walked to starbucks to get a cookie for couga.

then went home...

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i was too exhausted to blog last night about the day i had, so today it's going to be about two days.

yesterday's work was nice! thana and selvam. the combo i really love. thana was damn damn nice! he prepared for me coffee and a sandwich before i even arrived so that i was all set for breakfast when i came. he is so so sweet!

and selvam as usual was really nice to me. taking care of me... i love working with them. time literally FLIES. playing around with thana is funnesst!

BUT, there was a catch. of which even i cant really figure out.

despite loving the people i was around, when 3 was approaching (my knock-off hour) i somehow started to be less hyper. became rather quiet... even thana and selvam were asking me why i was sad all of a sudden. and i'm pretty sure it had to do a lot with the fact that couga was to start work only at 7. and since i end at 3, that meant our paths wouldn't be crossing.

and what's worst, he lost his phone so i can't contact him. last i heard from him, was at 12am the night before.

so i was feeling rather low. but the question is, why/???

seriously i didnt want to feel that way. but i just couldn't help myself. like i felt empty without at least one couga encounter in a day. i guess it's cos i've been seeing him everyday recently.

so dreadfully, i trudged out of the club at 3.15...

weather was damn hot, and i was just rather listless.

THEN! from the distance, not too far out of the club, i saw jave walking towards me. (he starts at 3) AND someone was walking next to him. someone really familiar. someone i was hoping to hear from the entire morning.

my first reaction was what the... cos honestly i found the prospect of him coming to work more that 4 hours earlier all the way from malaysia in the evil heat rather maddening.

BUT, it really was him!!!!

and i was stunned!

like stunned!

my mood shifted 180 degs.

i was still stunned on the spot when they reached me. i faintly said bye to jave, and couga took my bag, took my hand, and led me out of my spot of confusion.

we ate at macs, (: walked around to look for a teddy bear for me, (: but didnt buy cos none were nice. ): walked around MORE. then went to this peranakan coffee place at wisma. rather quaint and nice. i think i want to go there again.

then, we parted so he could get to work.

i went home, and spent 3 hours in the toilet. bathing, and untangling my hair. for months i've been adorning the messy hair look. which means i haven't brushed my hair in a long time, as i was aiming for the volume and messiness. and the tousles.

but yesterday, i had enough. my messy hair was out of control, so armed with hair supplies, i conquered the mess. (:

then at night, i had a heart-to-heart phone call with couga. which ended officially at 4.

today

scheduled to work with selvam again! so i was hyped for work.

at 8 plus, i get a call from couga. he's at the train station waiting for me. to bring me to work.

zomg. and he actually starts at 3.and he came all the way to pasir ris.

that boyy....

don't know why i deserve all this also...

but there is something very awesome about the captain bringing you to work. hha.

went into the locker room to change. then went up to the cafe to start work.... saw selvam there... and guess who else??

couga!

he like went up earlier than me to shock the hell out of me, and then asked selvam to go for break.

so he took over selvam's shift and worked with me!

hahahaa!!! awesomeness!

oh and earlier in the morning, he gave me his new captain card key for the register. (he lost his old one ages back) so i was like captain!

and his name on the new card was k u g a starr.

hahahah. damn cute really.

so i was like swiping the card over and over again today. like i kept logging out just so i could log in and swipe! haha.

after my work at 3, he brought me home. like all the way.

and i feel very very bad at this point. cos, he had to go back at 6.

okay, going to write the daily louiza letter, then sleep.

i have a plan for tomorrow.

louiza misses thana. louiza loves how couga lets her play.

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thana made me sandwich again, lion came 1 hour early, worked with isa today.

selvam came. tomorrow working with him! (: and thana! i cant wait for that really.

i love that combo.

helped jave to pass stuff to eva.

and

joke of the day. i'm having a runny nose. so i blow into tissues.

delilah took my prada handkerchief that i hardly touch, and blew her nose into it. -_-.

monkey see, monkey do.

hello hello hello, k u g a starr.

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2.30... got back not too long ago. bathed... think i'll have a late night tonight. feel like watching tv later. and snacking. (:

worked today. rained on the way there. but lucky i had the umbrella that security alfie gave me. (: not elfy. Alfie. but elfy, if you're reading this, dont worry. you're still the best elfy to me.

work was slow moving for some reason... maybe cos lion was off today. nothing to look forward to. BUT! at 2, thana came! and i was hyped! (:

but he had to go tangles soon after... oh wells. but i visited him later on after i knocked off.

scones were scary looking today.

then, at 3, guess who called me!

lion was coming all the way down to meet me. (: from malaysia!

he insisted even though i was insisting that he stayed home and rest.

while waiting, i went to laundry to change my uniform... the lady saw my order pad.. that i drew lion's name on it. rather embarrassing. haha.

then met lion at starbucks.

we walked a lot today. cant really describe what we did. cos we did a lot. and i tend to forget the world whenever he's around. we ate swensons though. (:

and went to acidbar for awhile...

then muffin and coffee...

we walked a lot in between. right up till 12 am.

one thing's for sure, we talked a lot. and i told him about my life.

not all, but in general.

and he's still optimistic.

for now i guess.

otw home, i talked to thana on the phone.

life is amazing.

to rudy: i am considering. but there is still much to clarify.

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