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i felt like answering a friendster bulletin, but without posting it. so i decided to exploit my blog.
yes i'm not asleep yet. ugsh!

1) Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirt
single

2) Are you happy with that ?
yes

3) Would you still kiss your ex?
depends on which one.

4) Have you ever been heart broken?
yes

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is oK?
no

6 ) Do you love the person your with right now?
with no one. (:

7) Have you ever talked about marriage? With whom?
yes. bryan, martin.

8 ) Do you want children?
yes

9) How many?
one

10) If someone liked you right now (not your boyfriend/girlfriend ), would you want them to tell you?
depends

11) Do you want someone you cant have?
i want someone, but i haven't tried having him yet.

12) Have you ever been in love?
yes

13) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
yes

14) Do you believe that you can change for someone?
depends on what i'm changing

15) Is it a good day?
yes

16) Have you ever broken a heart before?
yes

17) Does your ex still have feelings for you?
yes

18.) Do you still have feelings for your ex?
feelings of regret. for each of them. in one way or the other.

19) Do you believe in long distance relationship?
yes

omg tts all..... ughss..... k i should slp now.

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louiza is 10% near breakdown

fida.
she lent me ah-long pte ltd. and as a result, resparked my fetish that has remained dormant for quite awhile.

what fetish?
the gangster ahbeng.
think, mark lee.

yes people of that calibre. =/ omgg ahr!! hahs.

i have a thing for guys like that, the act fierce kind, gangsterissh loud sort. i dont think i'll actually date a real gangster ahbeng, but they're nice to watch and grin about.

HAHA. yes the people i tell this to think i'm nuts and crazy.

i have a friend like that.
talks that way, walks that way, acts that way, skinny, even looks a bit markleeish, but younger and maybe a bit better looking.
he is even an ex-gangster. with stupid gang tattoo on his ankle.
so cos he's just a friend i obviously dont feel anything, but sometimes i'll just watch amused.

say it all together, "louiza u are nuts!"

but having him as a friend is cool. his gangsterness secures loyalty. hahhs. and fun to drink with. being around a chao ahbeng means i get to be loud and unladylike. which is therapeutic for stress.

anyywayys, to get to something more realistic, here's the thing.

i will never really date a gangster ahbeng.

and if readers remember, i dropped the weakness for emo stpats guys and am now on to cute geeks. (think seth cohen)

so lets combine the two.

i'll be ecstatic to have a cute hot damn smart good guy who happens to be chinese as my bf, and to tease me and make me blush he acts all ahbeng and gangsterish.

wow. *louiza dreams*

OK SNAP OUT!

hahahh! sorry for the rubbishy post about my fantasies. BORRRINGG i noe yes.

but i think its just the time. its late (aka2am) and lately i think i have the tendency to get high and start talking rubbish when i'm exhausted.

just ask cheryl, that day i was inventing instant faces at 3am

then at 4am i was talking to my parents about raising funds for my funeral.

and now, i'm exposing my explicit thoughts.

everyone should just stop reading my blog seriously. hahh. u're bound to go nuts.

hey! but its not my fault. this whole thing came into discussion, cos i just so happened to finish watching ahlong pte ltd with my bro.

yes! i forced him to watch with me.
FOR THE 2ND TIME!!

hahahh yes altogether now "louiza u are craZay!"

shoot me.

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just when i was ready to bow to hopelessness,

i come home and find light!

omg im happy!

and also we should all sleep at 1-4pm.

Labels: brain food, eyecandy

she fucking makes math not fun.

but thats not gna make me fall out of love with it.

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she wants to hear she's beautiful.
she's beautiful.

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you're a starr, the way you are.

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people go psycho sometimes.


LOUIZA IS A BIG FAT SLACKERR!!!!

HMMPH!

oh and hidafi is flufi

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just took a walk with the boys of the family to the shopp!

hahas. dad let us buy anything we wanted. not like that helped. he's super quick in doing things so we only had like 10secs to choose??! hahahahs. so i grabbed a cereal.

oh wells. Bye!

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louiza is 5% near breakdown.

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and for this, i push on.

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louiza is 10% near breakdown.

and thats cos i noe that there's a lot of work that i've been delaying due to my sianness today.

but guess wad? its worth it! cos now i feel much better. revitalised and fresher.

just got back from the beach, gonna bathe now. and do work.

ciao.

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louiza is 20% near breakdown.

cos i'm so sianed with math. and my grasp on stupid C&R is so airy-fairy. its not like concrete. the way i want it to be. damn... i shouldnt have missed math on wed.

i have to nail that damn test. so many damn math tests this year man. i just had one like before term ended, and now another one next week.

sian.

he said, "go whack them!"
grinning, she said, "ohkay!"

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louiza is 30% near breakdown.

i have a headache, and its quite bad. ):

my bro bought me chocolate. how sweet right?

and portugal vs germany later.

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slack day.

i've been pretty much not in the mood to do work today, so after the test, after totally having no mood to do ANYTHING, i came home.

so the whole day has been just relaxing... chilling... pretty cool.

i even had a bacardi. so i'm pretty content.

not exactly REALLY HAPPY, but content.

so i'm gonna watch dirty sexy money with vicente shortly, and the oc after that, and then we'll see what else the night brings.

maybe, just maybe, if i'm feeling better, i'll do some math.

just maybe.

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im like sad. seriously.

sighs.


so not studying.

exam in less than 7hrs.

its the louiza bad habit.
a day before the test, i have no mood to study.

damn
boys bc and elfie not going for the test.
shit.... makes me feel like not going even more

italy vs france later.

i cant watch cos i need to sleep

but by the looks of it, i think i'll still be awake. -_-

that sucks.

been hanging out with vicente for the past 234423 hrs. like juliet and jeremy darling!!!

so no mood to study! and im the least prepared.

and i'm listening to the girlfriend remix over and over again.

yes i'm going psycho.

someone kill me.

oh kungfu panda wasnt bad.

and i LOVE star movies.

Labels: blood ties, Dirty $exy Money, futball

kay gna write an essay now, but i totally have to blog first.

Spain played an awesome game again!

and omg i officially love david villa. he totally saved the day at the last min! literally!!!! omg! whoo!! quart-finals! here we go!

and he's so cute!! he's like kind! after the match he pakored (or however u spell that) over the barrier into the audience and like interacted with the people. so nice!!! so sweet!!!

ahhhhhh!!!!!! hahahahah!!!! he's like the nicer sweeter version of christiano ronaldo. i think. hahah.

he's good! last match 3 goals. today one saving one. rarr!!!!

soccer rox.

i tink i want a villa jersey. shall ask daddy.

hahah but i feel like im betraying portugal. hahah!

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draconian - decribing a law/ method that is unreasonably severe [formal language]

pertains to Draco the famous lawgiver of Athens 621b.c.
they say that his set of laws, the Draconian Code, was so severe than it was written in blood. cool huh.

appealing to vivian?

(:

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aplenty - abundant.

its an old english word

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lodestar - the guiding factor.

omg i swear there are many cool words.

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i have to record down today cos its nice. but i'll do it fast cos i need to jump to work. i'm way behind time.

anyways louiza is 5% near breakdown and that is a scare.
MEANS I'M NOT WORKING HARD ENOUGH!!!

kk quick post!

so keywords.

9th month

cake as usual

vicente and i hangout

jeremy and juliet darling

and i saw HIM! a him. who used to like me. or rather, maybe still liking me. i dont know. but I WAS SO CAUGHT OFFGUARD! rarr! like i was dressed in shit clothes cos it was only downstairs. specs and everything! ): he's cute. good boy looks.

k study!

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ipso facto - hence by reasoning.

AWESOME.

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i feel like such a slob. i just woke up like not too long ago. just finished my plate of lunch. but that's not the reason why i'm blogging.

as usual i had my laptop in front of me again. yes i check my mail and the necessary regular stuff online while i eat cos that saves me time. since i'm like busy.com i cant even have free time to really check my mail and all. so i multi-task. eat and com.

and so i received an email that looked rather queer. it was from the admin of some online diary.

i was like confused.

i opened it, to be told that i havent been updating my diary since 2004, and to be reminded that its still there.

so then it started to vaguely form in my mind that yeah.. i do remember a brief period of time when i used to flirt with an online diary.

then i tried to log in, but obviously i didnt know my password.

there was an option which said, "send password to email"

so out of curiousity, i chose that.

and this system is brilliant in its uniqueness.
instead of asking to reset the password, like what most online organisations would do, it actually sends u your exact password.

so i got mine.

and it was.

mrsgoh

first thing that came into my mind was,
why would i put a teacher's name as my password?

then i realised.

it was bryan's sirname.

then as the memories got clearer in my mind, i realised that he was the only boyfriend i've ever had, that got his sirname regularly used by me.
yup, when i was with him, even in school i'll write my name as louiza goh.

sweet childhood love.

i'm sorry.

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oh the annoyance




armani exchange hotness.

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NICE MATCH.

there was a hat trick.

i officially love david villa.

and the stupid refs dont wanna give him the ball even tho he scored 3 goals. stupid shit.

nvm. i love spain,

Tomorrow portugal.

do me proud.

oh.

4-1.

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louiza is 0% near breakdown.

and that worries me. i feel like i'm slacking too much. today wasnt really a stress day.

maybe cos i went out with the family in the early afternoon, and after coming home alone to write an essay in the afternoon, i basically just basked in the emptiness of the house, relaxing after the essay.

i ate tons of chips.
i think its time i take a stand and cut down. so unhealthy.
k i shall!

but tomorrow i'm going breakfast with cheryl. yes our new improvised coffee bean breakfast. so THAT better be healthy. but i insist on coffee! hahas.

oh shiat my throat feels pain. must be the coke. ughs. k i shall drink water after blogging this.

anywayys. now is half time. spain vs russia.
omg spain is totally rocking shit!!!! damn damn exciting match. i was like planning to sleep if the match was boring. so i can invest on energy cos i'm meeting cheryl at 5.30am. (yes gassps) but the match is WAY TOO GOOD!!! right now the score is 2 nil to spain. omg i love spain. i decided that i love them now. like they are like portugal. even the jersey looks like portugal's. BUT NOTHING DEFEATS MY LOVE FOR PORTUGAL. omg but spain totally rocks.
oh and its raining. as in here and there. here as in singapore and there as in europe!
they are playing in the rain!!! hahaha i was telling elfie how cool it was. like same same. and he said i was mad.

but seriously, thanks elfie. i so love that guy. hahahs. guess wad he did for me today. he talked to me on the phone about my newest crush! hahahh!! k more like i went on and on and on and on. and he was like listening to my rants. i TOTALLY appreciate that. despite the scoldings and badmouthing. he's so nice. always there for me to rant to. (:
of course i do my part too ohkay! i listen to his rants too! we're like both ranters.

omg the match started already. damnit half time not long enough to blog. i'm gna go now! bye!

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parkinsons makes her cough. hahahhs



cheryl
louiza
louiza


cheryl's dream home interior
yeah when do i play?
the haunting of the cam whore
converse


oh yes! i just read cher's blog and i need to advertise.

ahem!

HAMSTERS UP FOR ADOPTION!!!!!

BABIES

CUTE

SO IF YOU HAVE TIME TO TAKE CARE OF A PET, LIKE U NOE, NOT STUDYING CURRENTLY, SLACKING,

SHARE UR TIME WITH A HAMSTER.

;P

TAG IF U'RE INTERESTED.

DANG I SOUND LIKE A MIDDLE MAN.

but srsly, save my cheryl from overcrowding. she didnt take my advice on birth control.

ho-hum.

but anyways, who am i to condemn the hamsters.

HAHAHAHA!

k i shall stop making fun of myself. i srsly think its the caffeine.

HAMSTERS!!!!!!

CUTE HAMSTERS!!!!!

LET MUAH NOE ALRIGHT!

CIAO~

oh do spread the word too.

HAMSTER!!!!

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louiza is 10% near breakdown.

and thats cos she knows she's behind deadlines.

ohkay i just finished watching the holland italy match.
DAMN EXCITING! better than the stupid france romania match i ditched. seriously i think italy totally think they're champs, dn need to play hard. i dont like holland!!! ): sad man. 3 nil. pick up the pace italians!!! i love ur food!!
hahahs but the portugese will win tho.

yes i'm still up, i think i drank too much coffee. i shall sleep now though, gotta wake up for lunch function tomorrow. ugwhs.

WORK!!!!

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i have needs.

and right now i have a damn damn big one.

i NEED someone whom i can be egoistic to.
i need someone who will laugh and tolerate my egoistic self-praises.
i need someone who will support my storytelling of my great self achievements.

i am not an egoistic person.
to the world.
only cos i've always had an outlet to spill everything on.

and right now, when everthing's going great and everything. i have a lot! of things i wanna talk about.
but i want to hold it all in, cos i'm not egoistic.

but its so darn exciting and fun to me.

i need an outlet before i burst.

hahhs.

yes go ahead laugh at me.

but im naturally attention-seeking.

yes, louiza's bf must be ready to shower her with tons of affection and spoilings.

but screw the bf part, thats not the issue here.

i need the OUTLET!

and that itself, is hard to find.

No one out there i'm really comfortable with to the point i can ego on and on without feeling guilt about boasting.

the closest i've had all these years apart from bfs is cheryl. hahahs.
cos we're always comparing how GREAT we are. since small.

omg. outlet. outlet outlet.

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strange. karl calls and suddenly starts asking about my sch work.

perculiar.

then again, whilst i was in NUS he was calling about my results too.

oh wells.

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this is gna be fastt! lots of work.

ytd b'fast with cher.

IMPROVEMENT ON PLAN: next time brkfst at coffee bean k?

eurocup.

fallacy.

i love alex.

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louiza is 50% near breakdown.

very very exhausted. so i'm gonna sleep soon. i need the rest since i'm gonna be waking up early tomorrow again.

breakfast with cheryls!

more like supper. i doubt the damn sun will be up.

BUT SO FUN!!! i love early early mornings. like so cold and mysterious and exciting and and and and .... hahaha i can go on and on and on. (:

ohkays i'm gonna make this short again.

CK
Charles and keith
topshop
billabong

everyone conked out

i'm going to control.

i need books which stupid kino doesnt sell.
i'm going back to NUS asap when i'm free to read read read.

justin
leaf entertainer
bryan

giant squid
snape
building

preparation.

ohkay thats it!

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louiza is 70% near breakdown.

and that is a gd thing, thanks to dad. if not it would have been higher.

anyways its nearly 4.30am and i have to wake up soon so i'll do my blog in keywords just for my memoirs sake.

mom
dirty sexy money

deck 5b
3 hours
elfie
qashrul

ALONE
realisation.
ALONE

force to be strong

psycho

daddy
connection

i love u.and always will.
mama too.

CK
MANGO

cold

glances on the train.

cube-like thingys

my superpower.

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its quite touching when bro leaves after u shout for him to get out.

hahah. maybe i'm just a softie.

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louiza is 30% near breakdown.

no worries tho, most of that comes from my headache. it was effing pain just now, its getting better now but its still EFFING PAIN. ok wth.

anyways i shall make this short cos i wna jump back on sched asap.

i decided to make my intelligent getaways a tad exciting by embarking on a daily style statement. to blend in, yet hotterr.

hahahhs i shant say too much. dont wanna jinx it.

its all so darn exciting.

SHHHH!!!! NO NO NO. NOT gonna talk. even you cher and viv. NO! NO ONE IS TO SAY A DARN WORD!!!! ON MY TAG! OHKAY~!

yes. u can see i dont want to risk anything.

but wells for memoirs sake, here's the lineup of today's wardrobe.

CK
Mango
charles&keith

there.
done it.
full stop.
end of story.

anyways wanna give a shout out to my girl vivian.
whoo!! someone ah!
hahahh!

coolest kids on the block aye.

oh note to self: STOP DAYDREAMING ABOUT HIM!!!!
ughss can guys stop existing at least till As are over?
or wait correction.
can CUTE HOT guys stop existing at least till As are over?

then i can get distracted willingly.
now its like ughs!
and i so dont wanna ignore, cos then it'll be like wasted hotness.
so just cease to exist.
pause for a few months.

=/

k louiza's crazy.

oh shit headache.

Bye!

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louiza is 20% near breakdown

so today i flew solo.

and i understand now how everyone just wouldnt appreciate, wouldnt want to help,
they just take.

i am an intern.
and during surgery today, the patient had a complication.
and everyone gave up hope.

i saw the procedure being done before.

i took the reigns.

alone.
no one else wanted to be involved.

and all was well.

but it was hard.

very tiring indeed.

well at least at the end of the day, it meant everything to the patient.

ok.

basically i'm exhausted.

now i'm gonna do work-related stuff.

oh by the way people.
what u're seeing now.
is nothing.

really.

its nothing.

u ain't seen nothing yet.

;)

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louiza is 0% near breakdown

baby hibernation. hahaha

delilah slept for like 6 hours straight since 5. just woke up at like 11.30pm.

so cute. hahaha

now mom feeding her.

oh cheryl and i have more plans. breakfast day.

so now there's clarke quay plan, reading plan and breakfast plan.

woo!

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secret valentine,
We'll write a song
that turns out the lights
when both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
don't waste your time
speed up your breathing
just close your eyes
we'll hope it's not for nothing at all

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