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one part of me hates when you sleep. cos then i'm alone.

but the bigger part of me doesn't mind. cos when you wake up, i know i'm going to get extra attention. (:

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Regarding what aspect on valentine's day? Sorry my mind only answers specific questions. All part of my psychotic perfectionist attitude. Thats why tad and I get along.

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hello. you have a library too.

xoxo

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What you do to me, it scares me a little you know? But I like it.

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you’re the only human that could ever make listen to trance, and actually kind of like it. i hate you for that.

i think it’s safe to say that yesterday i went to 3 clubs.

 

Alcohol doesn’t make me do stupid things. It only makes me do things that I usually would have thought twice about.

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hello sadness.

remember me?

it’s been so long since we last met like this.

and i cherish the times you were not around.

i have to admit, i forgot the immensity of your power.

i forgot how you could just overwhelm my being, no matter how hard i try to ignore and push you away.

your cold heavy iron fingers have the ability to creep into my chest and pull every part of my body towards it, weighing me down, stopping me from doing anything else, and forcing me to just curl up in defeat shivering from your cold.

and the more i tried to pull away, the stronger your grip got on me. till it becomes hard to breathe. till all i can manage are short painful breathes.

i forgot it all. for 24 turns of the calendar, you have spared me.

but no worries, you have given me a strong reminder.

your presence so firm, that now i forget the happiness i felt after you left, the strength i had.

now i’m weak in your mercy, and yes i’m fighting.

but of course, you’re unforgiving. the more i fight the more you tug.

so lets make a deal, for old times’ sake.

i’m not gonna fight you, i’m not gonna resist. i’m not gonna avoid, or pretend you don’t exist.

no, you’re too smart for that.

i’m just going to accept you, like a long lost friend.

and i am going to live with you as i go about my life.

i have no energy to force you away, or sustain the increase of pain that you respond with.

so lets leave it on this level, let’s be companions in silence.

i’ll be patient, i’ll breathe easy.

i’ll wait till you get bored of me and till you go away.

sadness, oh sadness. welcome to my life.

i hope you enjoy your stay.

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it was yet another prenatal appointment. 7 days to due date. i was having real cramps all night before, but i guessed that was normal at the stage i was.

whilst waiting for our turn, we made plans to eat at pasta mania. our favourite pizza, and you promised to get me the italian soda i loved so much. whilst waiting, i leaned on you and scratched you continuously as the pain kept coming. but we took it once again as “normal”. you assured me that we would get some prescription to make it go away.

our turn came, and it turns out that i wasn’t having the normal cramps. they were contractions. i was in labour. half an hour later, we’re in the labour ward. ahead of us, was six hours which eventually changed our lives. or at least, it changed mine.

 

 

occasionally, i think of the day that delilah was born. but on her birthday, that thought is evident. and today, i thought of that lunch. the pasta mania lunch that never was.

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you're so far away, in the capital of another country.

but still, you can make my heart race, and my lungs gasp for air.

i never ever touched myself, but over the phone, you touch me like as if you're here.

and i still think the age gap is so damn sexy.

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i had an awesome day today.

honestly everything went so great, i can't really find an imperfection in anything.

anyway, time now is 4.25am so i'm going to make this quick.

i gotta try to sleep asap cos tomorrow there's a lunch party at aunty evie's place.

looks like i can't watch ice age 2 today.

i watched ice age last night. (:

for kuga of course. cos he wants me to bring him to ice age 3. and i want to know everything about the series first before i watch it.

if not for kuga, i wouldnt even have anything to do with the series. since the first movie, it never managed to even get a silver of my attention. and now i'm so enthusiastically rushing to watch it.

-_-

the things love does to you.

but i must say, i'm pretty impressed. it wasn't too bad. in fact, i think i actually like it. which is so contrary to what i was predicting. A BORING MOVIE. like chicken little. which i must say i give 2/5.

so for ice age, i give it 5/5.

and i'm officially in love with diego. he's so cool and fierce.

and his fangs are like wow.

so i was like all gushing over diego last night, feeling sad that he didn't exist. then i realized, I HAVE MY OWN LION!

then i felt much better. haha.

 

anyway, back to today's story, i went to church with parents.

then, trained to orchard where i was supposed to meet thanaskodi and kuga for their break.

i was early, so i decided to shop at borders.

after meeting up, we ate and mac donalds...

then kuga and i left thana there. we went for our alone time.

(:

 

was raining really heavily so subsequently, we were virtually trapped in wisma/ngee ann. for like more than an hour.

couldnt go anywhere else without risking the downpour. i wanted to go to paragon. but there was just no way. it was raining like mad.

 

nevertheless, i was not bored for a second. being stuck with kuga is fun. he bought me a cranberry bun! hehe. and for some reason, we kept browsing aldo outlets.

i think it's a sign. haha.

 

finally, i got sick of wisma. the downpour had succumbed to rain. (yes still raining)

we had one hour to go before kuga had to get back to work.

thats when i gave up.

screw this, i'm going to walk in the rain. out of here.

 

so we walked out, with no destination in mind.

laughing and playing as we walked. (me shielding myself with a stupid small plastic bag. that of the cranberry bun)

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then halfway still in the rain, kuga wanted ice cream, and i felt the comforting urge for a long black. so i brought him to my usual tcc haunt, and ordered him a double scoop of chocolate ice cream with whipped cream. he was soo cute eating ice cream like that. haha.

 

finally, he had to get back. (it was still raining.) i went back to tanglin too. cos i wanted to get some stuff from my locker.

soo, after kissing him goodbye outside the locker rooms and then parting ways, i took my shoe bag from my locker, and made my way to the gates of tanglin.

 

i was about to cross the gates, when i noticed a familiar shape sitting at the far end of the yard. where people usually hung out during their breaks.

i walked over to investigate and was so damn happy when my beliefs were confirmed. that it was thana!

 

so i talked to him, then ashraf came, talked to him too. then thanaskodi got really jealous about that and actually went one corner to sulk. so cute.

then i left soon after cos someone i didnt want to see came.

 

then, i realized i lost my ipod.

it had been in my front pocket of my jeans the whole day. and i reckon it fell out as kuga and i were walking around town.

with orchard being so crowded on sundays, i knew i would have no chance of finding it even if i tried. i wouldn't even know where to start looking.

so with a sense of retirement, i accepted that fate, and just made my way to the station. was feeling rather useless. sick of losing valuables.

surprisingly though, i didn't really feel damn depressed. i was just exhausted from the occurrence of yet another loss. but i wasn't like sad sad.

 

and then, i realized why.

i had too good of a day to be really sad over this.

and then i realized another thing.

the last time i lost my mp3, i too had a damn nice day. which couldn't allow me to feel a tad sad over the loss. refer to the post on 24th may last year.

 

so i guess, it was a good time to lose a valuable. when i'm happy.

it would have sucked a hell lot more if i lost it on a retarded day in which everything was going wrong.

so i guess, i was marginally lucky.

 

things got a lot lighter in the train on the way home, when thanaskodi called me and started complaining that he didn't like how i kept talking to ashraf. hahaa. that boy. he made me laugh so hard, it was literally impossible to feel anything negative.

 

at home, had dinner with mummy, vicente and delilah.

after delilah had had her bath, we coloured together in her new colouring book. (: funnn

 

then she slept, at like 1 am.

then thanaskodi called, and made me happy some more!

fyi, he had compliments today from customers. really proud of him.

 

he made me happy, and actually said my hair was nice today. very pretty. (:

 

then, i finished up reading One Fifth Avenue. i give it 5/5

 

and now, i'm going to wash my face, and finally sleep.

good night world.

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6.30am. i'm waiting for 7.30. to wake baby up. cos he works at 10.

we talked practically the whole night.

yeah not all, but practically.

we started around 10?

then at 1, he "disappeared" and was absent for 3 hours.

valid reason though.

but as usual, i got all sulky when calls finally resumed at 4am.

but baby's really really the MOST patient ever.

MOST patient. really.

i told him before, if i were him, i already would have killed me. the louiza.

 

anyway, tonight was the first time i got angry.

no it wasn't cos i had to wait 3 hours.

it was something else.

and i'm still feeling sorry for being angry. i'm not the kind of person that gets angry. in fact, i rarely lose my temper.

at anyone.

so to do that to baby, well now i feel bad.

 

one day, i'm going to lose kuga.

why?

cos i'm such a brat.

i don't know why he's so damn patient with me. really

and i'm really becoming convinced it's cos he's older. like, not bothered anymore to engage in petty petty rubbish.

like when you're older, takes more to piss you off.

notice that?

like parents, no matter how you whine and complain about them, they will just be steadfast about their decision, while keeping a cool head.

 

kay kuga's not that old. he's 24.

but i think he's mature. he's gone through a lot. living by himself, since like 18 or 19.

 

let's hope he's got the unconditional love of a parent.

otherwise, i think i am going to lose him.

(:

 

anyway, all's settled. so now i'm just waiting for 7.30. ho humm...

 

we talked about his family! here's the conversation. GO READ!! VERY FUNNY!

at my tumblr www.frenchkisses.tumblr.com

 

anywayyy, thana came back today!!!

and we had a threesome again!!!!

on the phone of course. our signature conference filled with ultimate chaos and 100% funny hysteria.

 

okayy 40 mins to go.

 

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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let me share something with you guys.

something that happened to me today.

something that will probably show you guys the kind of person i am. more specifically, the kind of girlfriend i am.

but more importantly, this event made me realize a lot about kuga. and the kind of boyfriend he is.

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okay so, last night, i didn't talk to kuga after he went back to his house in malaysia.

because apparently, he cleaned his house after arriving home from work, and then was too tired he fell right to sleep.

he did text me though, that he was tired.

then i think he KO-ed.

 

so, louiza's not used to this. cos every night, kuga says good night.

but oh wells, i decided to be reasonable. to not pout, or sulk. i was understanding.

 

you might be thinking, "so why is it a big deal?"

 

reason being, i like to be spoilt like that.

AND ALSO, by some unfortunate coincidence, this wasn't the first time. for the past couple of nights, i had not really gotten regular calls after his work at night because friends have been needing his help with errands and stuff.

and no! i never once felt sulky about that. cos his friends are also my friends. and i'm glad baby's really helpful.

nevertheless, after consecutive nights, the trend of absent communication gets noticed and the pout ability in me gets somewhat triggered.

BUT DESPITE THAT, see! i was understanding. didn't sulk.

instead, i watched movies all night, (chick-flicks) while hugging the big bear he gave me.

 

 

BUT THIS MORNING, his call at 10am woke me up. and while i was still half-asleep, i recalled him talking very sleepily, then suddenly, he just hung up! after saying he has a very bad headache, he'll call me back.

okay, maybe it was because i was sleepy, so my reason wasn't functioning. but at that moment, i began to pout!

yes, his headache might have been really genuine. but i guess, i let the spoilt monster in me take over at that moment.

don't get me wrong, i never ever doubted his love.

it's just the unreasonable brat in me.

 

 

so, at that moment, i started to plot.

plot a plan!

like in my mind were these thoughts. (in no particular order)

why on earth am i waiting for him to call me!

he only calls when he wants to! and i have to wait wait wait wait! (totally not true, but at 10am after only 3 hours of sleep, i was convinced this was the ultimate truth)

he's forgotten me, and i DON'T LIKE THIS!

i dont want to be vulnerable! like the weak one! waiting and waiting and waiting. and being all affected!

CONCLUSION : I AM GOING TO BE STRONG! AND NOT ALLOW THIS WEAKNESS TO ENSUE!

 

 

as u can see, it was all rubbish.

number one, i don't really wait long for him.

number two, even if i have to wait, it's always for a legitimate reason. and he always gets to me as soon as he can.

 

but still, i was already sulking and pouting. so i wanted to RISE UP and be strong and not allow my mood to be determined by whether his calls came or not.

 

so the plan was this.

for the whole day, whenever he calls, i'll say "I'M BUSY! I CAN'T TALK NOW!"

and then say bye.

 

you guys can even refer to my tumblr. cos thats where i updated on the progress of THE PLAN.

 

 

at first, it was very effective.

 

he called one hour later, and i said i was BUSY! and it caught him offguard.

 

but i hated doing it - as i knew i would the moment i started plotting. cos it's painful putting down the phone on my baby.

i always relish every second i get to talk to him on the phone. and now to charge in the opposite direction, was REALLY REALLY sad. ):

 

then he began calling again and again at intervals...

and i said the same thing!

and actually from the first call, he already knew something was up, cos "louiza never says she's busy except if she's bathing. but that one also, u will pick and let me know."

 

so i was glad. the plan was WORKING.

 

and it did for the hours to come. till like 4 plus.

i let my sad emotion waver my determination to be focused on the call routine.

 

i was missing him badly, so i talked more.

then when i realized i was flirting with the ENEMY, i quickly said BYE! and hung up!

 

and vowed to be stronger at the next encounter. (i actually posted about this on tumblr)

 

 

but all this time, baby was such a sweetie and a gentleman. apologizing and already guessing it was about the lack of calls.

 

and i just kept responding this in a whiny , "no, no need to apologize! you don't like to talk to me right?! so never mind! i will relieve you of that burden!" 

 

 

however, the plan finally failed. at 6.45 during his break.

he had gotten hold of me on the phone, and was explaining.

saying that, he really couldn't call, (something i already accepted as true. cos the hours awoke my reason. but i just wanted to see where this plan was going to go. for fun.) that he will improve on calling me, and that it wasn't a burden to contact me... he always tries his best to keep in touch with me.

even at work, he uses the tactics i used to employ to text him.

 

and THIS IS THE FALLEN MOMENT WHEN I LET THE PLAN DIE.

cos, then i excitedly went on and on about how i evaded the system... how i could text him. the tricks i used... where i hid my phone... where I hid to text him..

THEN, he said this. "yeah... i know... it must be so hard for you to lie and put down the phone on me... the whole day... i'm sorry baby."

 

 

and i was speechless.

"what do you mean?" i said, thinking it must be impossible.

then he said, "i know how you always love talking to me... you never say you're busy, you wait up for me to call you, and at work, you do everything to get me... so i know now, you're wanting to show me how you're all merajuk (malay for sulking)... and you're making yourself say you're busy. i know it makes you sad to have to put the phone down."

 

"and i can tell how hard it is."

 

and all i could say was. "omg. how could you have known."

 

cos, that was exactly what i was feeling. and i felt so touched.

here's a guy who, instead of getting annoyed, or just apologizing for his part, he was actually thinking about my real intentions, and my feelings. while i was conspiring to prove a point.

 

and despite knowing all this, he was still humouring me by apologizing.

 

then i pouted and whined, "i don't like this!  you ruined my plan!! " ):

 

and then he said, "haha. baby... baby louiza. you are childish, sweet, and nice. anger is not in you. so next time you want to act, please act more realistically. just now, you let yourself slip. you talked to me. then when you realized you were not in the correct direction, you suddenly said you're busy. soo cute la you."

 

 

"next time, if i know you're doing all this, i will come to your house and talk to you. so you don't need to hang up saying you're busy."

 

:(

 

see how silly i was.

 

i think it's the fact his older. like cheryl and i talked about.

more calm. so i can be the frisky terrier. while, he, the calm Doberman.

 

or maybe it's just me.

sometimes i really underestimate him.

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anyway just for memory's sake.

today i had a lunch at my place so relatives came, and i blackjacked for a couple of hours.

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i've got afghanistan on my table... iran... um, north korea... and now there's this what... H1N1? so, if there's really nothing wrong with the healthcare system, i wouldn't be touching it.

 

watched obama live on youtube regarding his healthcare plans. once again, felt like an economics lecture.

but i really admire him.

he's very sensitive. to the needs of others, addresses specific problems that the general don't see... whether he's successful, i'm not quite sure. since i've been away from news (deliberately) for such a long time. but i really like the way he speaks.

plus, i'll say it a million times, he's handsome.

haha.

told kuga already.

 

it's almost 5.30am now. just finished watching My Sassy Girl. i give it a 3/5.

speaking about movies, i HAVE to watch ice age 1 and 2 asap.

not cos i love the series. no, in fact i have zero interest in it.

BUT, now, i have 100% interest.

why? cos kuga asked me to bring him to ice age 3.

and perfectionist, must-be-in-order louiza will have to watch 1 and 2 first. even though i hear it's not like a continuing thingy.

 

anywayy, i watched my sassy girl alone, on the couch hugging the big bear kuga bought me in april. (:

i seriously love being pampered by him.

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i'm happy. just watched My Wife and Kids with parents whilst having a cup of long black.

my first coffee in over 2 weeks.

mainly cos my home stock finished and i've been too lazy to get some. and i stopped working at the coffee heaven.

don't get me wrong, i didnt suddenly arise from the lazy stupor. baby got me a big bottle of my favourite German coffee.

yupp, before the comedy, i had just come up from meeting thanaskodi and kuga.

(okay that was weird. calling him kuga. these days he's just baby to me. using that name's weird. haha.)

after work, thanaskodi wanted to buy some stuff cos he's going to thailand for a holiday tomorrow. till friday. WILL MISS HIM.

anyways, kuga baby was nice to accompany him.

and after that, both of them came over. (:

baby bought me lots of stuff. like all of a sudden! heex.

including my coffee, and favourite dark chocolate.

and he also bought me a new bracelet!

the few i always wear broke last week. ):

after like one and a half years.

but i love the new one baby bought me.

 

 

when he does stuff like this, i just can't believe how sensitive he is to me. i mean like. when i just met him, he was a total pain in the flesh. totally rude, insensitive and introverted. and at that time, sensitivity was a total impossibility in my opinion.

and now, he's taking me on his lap and speaking softly into my ear, putting bracelets on my wrists, arranging strands of my hair that strayed.

i feel like a pet. (:

 

 

anyway, couple of months back, i recall blogging about the qualities that dumbledore and ms quek shared. 15th January 2009 that which i admire, but didnt have the courage to undertake.

but last night, kuga really talked to me. and i realize, he also displays these qualities..

and i realize, i can be this way. it's not as impossible as i think it is.

simply by not worrying so much about the future.

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kuga came by after work.

we went to downtown to get my coffee, but everything was close. of all the days.

so we walked home, and got coffee on the way...

then we talked at the park awhile. lucky we didnt go for a movie. kuga was like already drifting in and out of sleep just sitting there.

so we continued our conversation via international calling.

and just ended, at 5.30am.

now i'm just enjoying the company of vivian and ben online.

today, sunday, parents, vicente and i went for mass. then after mass, we had lunch at century square...

okay my post is all over the place, i think i shall sleep soon.

 

lovebite 14th June...

 

it's very cozy having a man in my life. one that really knows how to take care of me.

today i got scolding. for always asking him to leave. because he says he'll stay no matter what he has to go through.

but the scolding was in a nice gentlemanly way. (:

 

sadness is like rubbish that we have to throw away.

 

cute, baby, like small girl.

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i stayed home all day today... missing kuga.

reading.

was in bed a lot.

daydreaming about you.

just spent his break time talking on the phone.

i am going to watch casanova tonight.

 

you take your time with me.

you make me feel special, how you want everything to be perfect for me.

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they always say the best philosophy to living is live life as if it was your last day.

and i always thought, how cliche.

anyway, let me begin by blogging about yesterday. my day ended at 5 am this morning. so naturally i was too tired to blog if i was going to blog lucidly.

as usual, i reported to work at 11 sunday morning. worked with eloisa and muraly. and aunty.

by an unexpected string of events, yesterday turned out to by my last day working there.

and no, whilst working, i had no clue of that.

it was fixated in my mind that the following day - monday - aka today, was going to be my last day.

i had it all planned out.

i would relish everything i did, every detail, soak in every bit of environment. and most importantly, say an appreciative goodbye to EVERYONE i knew. because really, if there's anything i enjoyed very much from that place, was the friendships i've made with everyone.

so, no. because i didn't know that it was my last day, i didnt get to do all that.

and now, leaving that place, i feel like a significant part of me is heavy.

i guess that normal. the nostalgic immediate phase when one leaves an association, school, etc.

but i was lucky.

firstly, pardon the outright manner, i have good memory.

so, i can recall almost everything that happened yesterday. they're still fresh in my mind.

and secondly, most dearly, yesterday for almost 2 hours, i got to work with both thana and kuga.

thats like the dream team. minus selvam. but he also came up for a bit.

well, i couldnt have asked for anything more as a last day that i wasn't even aware of.

it was SUPER fun.

thana and i were fighting fighting as usual.

kuga was being his cute self, entertaining our nonsense.

and operation was so smooth.

i was inside the bar, and kuga outside.

he took orders and ran the items. i did the drinks. thana the food.

and i moved so fast, thana kept making fun of me.

but the 3 of us handled everything.

NO JAM.

and i'm very proud of that.

so i didn't know it was my last day, thana didn't get to make for me a fluffy. (go to mc cafe and order a fluffy. you'll know what i mean.)

BUT, most fortunately, thana made me an AWESOME (as usual) sandwich. and if that's the last food of his i'm going to eat for a long time, then i cant be any happier.

and at 5, i walked off, not taking the trouble to really say bye to everyone. because they were busy handling new orders, and i had no idea i was never going to walk there as barista/waitress ever ever again.

(okay suddenly my breathing's getting heavy and painful)

 

*takes a few deep breaths

 

moving on,

it was later in the evening. 10pm, that muraly called and told me he shifted the roster around. which meant i didnt need to come in for work today. (monday)

and so then it hit me, that i didn't have the last day i wanted.

and i was pretty bummed about that.

but it was even later that night, that my two favourite boys decided to show up!

yup! thana and kuga came down!

and i don't know whether it was cos they knew i was sad, but either ways, i was EXTREMELY happy!

from my place, we walked to the pond. where we had drinks and talked.

and the WHOLE time thana and i were bickering and fighting as usual. sometimes people at work find it hard to believe we're best friends.

and everytime at work when we fight, eloisa will scold us.

haha.

anyways, we had some fries and burger too.

it was really peaceful. we were like the only ones there.

then we took the long route home.

talked along the way....

i really felt extremely happy upon going home. like even though they ended late, they took the trouble to come over.

i entered my house beaming like a crazy person.

and so, the saying goes live life as if it was your last day.

i finally realize how precious that saying is. cliche is but miles away.

and i did tell my boys, that i really felt down that i hadn't known my last day had passed. i didn't get to do the things i wanted. didn't get to say goodbye.

and then baby said, it's never too late to go back and change that.

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Baby and shakespeare.

 

(louiza and kuga sees couple wearing identical teeshirts.)

kuga : do you like wearing same stuff like that?

louiza : hmm... not say i like or don't like. i'm neutral. if it happens, i think it's cute. but don't worry i won't force you to do anything.

kuga : for me it's not whether i like or don't like. it's what you like. then i'll do.

louiza : hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

 

haven't blogged in a while. haven't really used the computer lately. been either out late, or catching up on sleep. kuga's been amazing to me - as always.

late night suppers... dates... even though he's like super exhausted after working till late.

ILOVEYOUBABY.

being the nice nice awesome gentleman.

 

like yesterday, we worked at terrace again. second time as non-enemy.

and he called me baby!! haha like while working!! like in front of everyone. even manager.

like "baby can you help me do blahblahblah..."

made me really really smile!!

then when i asked "okayy now what you want me to do?"

then he says "do whatever you want."

made me feel so so so special. even though we were at work.

 

and he's so sexy. how he's like in-charge and everything...

and so strong. so sexy and tall carrying the super big tray.

 

haha okay i sound crazy.

 

and how he calls me the captain. - "anything let louiza handle. she's the captain."

and give me authority to let people go toilet.

hehehex.

even though i'm just a lousy part-timer.

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my perfect little gentleman.

i'll blog about today tomorrow. it's 5.30am already at the moment. think i had better get some shut eye. but first, of course i'll write starr a letter.

he deserves it, after being so awesome today.

but before i forget...

(louiza had asked for a straw at lunch today from the waiter. after a few minutes, it became apparent that he had forgotten about my request...)

kuga : i think if i walk over there, it'll be faster...

louiza : never mind! maybe he just forgot.. it happens. he's very nice.

kuga : he's nice? how can you forget the order of a beautiful girl?

giggle giggle giggle.



you'll only understand a book after reading it.

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"i miss you."

                   "i don't miss you."

"huh?? why???"

                   "cos if i miss you, then i'll feel really sad. if i miss you, i won't be able to do anything in life. i'll be too sad."

"okay i don't want you to be sad. so don't miss me."

 

how selfless is that.

if it were me, i'll already be fussing and getting angry that i'm not being missed.

 

 

but baby, you know that even though i don't want to miss you, i can't help myself but to miss you dearly.

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from the moment you cut your hand, i felt like i wanted to be close to you.

 

i know i told myself i wouldn't think of you.

but you keep calling me, reminding me of the love that is missing right now.

and last night, your kisses were so soft.

they always are.

light. never heavy. never deep.

you leave me wanting more.

but last night, was exceptionally soft.

like the way you love me.

and though you're far, just thinking of them makes me feel your warmth.

but its ironic intensity gives me goosebumps. still.

and just, you made me remember something random. but precious.

you'll always check my burger whether it has been done properly whenever you bring me to macs.

and you may be captain at work,

but that doesn't mean a thing to me.

cos you're already captain of my heart.

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