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you’re so cute.

how you don’t really scold me.

how you catch me staring at you. not that i care if you catch me. you’re irresistible.

your stubbornness is annoying to most. but adorable to me.

your persistence to stick to the rules is awesomely like me. though i won’t really have the guts to persist and tell people they’re wrong.

how you keep reading my words. quite embarrassing actually.

your teasing. it’s just so weirdly geeky. that you had to explain it to me.

and i was more than happy to play along.

by the way, i hate seeing you walk away.

but you came back for me.

you have nice eyes. did you know?

i dont quite want to stay for summer. thats not how i want our interaction to be.

i may be gone by spring anyway. and no, i can’t do that. i’m too stupid for that.

but you always insisted i’m great.

i really dont see it though. no. but it’s awesome to hear you persist about how nice my words are. you have nice eyes. and i’ll listen to anything you say actually. just to stare at you.

but when you go on about how i write so well, you have that smile that’s just too cute. so though i don’t do well with compliments, i swallow them. just so i can enjoy the picture of you happy.

you’re so random. but really, random’s good in my book. i learn a lot from that.

you complained to me today about the 13 hours. and i’ll gladly burn another stick for you.

you’re so cute when you laugh. i made you laugh. and i think that’s the best thing i’ve done today.

i think that’s all. but i wished you knew how much i like being with you.

maybe i’ll steal a hug one day.

maybe.

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my case was today.

scrambler is love. (:

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school was pretty fun.

finished at 3 but stayed till like 9 to do logic with the kids.

then oh so randomly went dinner with ben.

which was nice.

he reminds me of martin in a comforting way.

got to touch the black hat.

sweet.

okay gonna do work!~

p.s. oh louiza is so dead. she happily told lance today, I’M GONNA OUTLAWYER YOU!

oh god.

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OMG! i’ve never fucking done logic in such a hurried way. SUCKS! UGH.

shit i’m like 1.25 hours late in handing in. hope the doctor doesn’t mind. ughhhh.

i’m so stinky i need to batheeeee!!!!

school was the shit today.

biz law was amazing.

lance was like AWESOME as judge.

seriously all cool and just firing everyone down.

not my case today, and i was just gaping in awe at him.

I WANNA BE HIM.

seriously.

i can’t wait for my case on tuesday.

i dont care if he shoots me down.

it’s just DAMN hawt.

oh Gosh…

and like BOTH the defendants and prosecutors were like just 0 . 0

PAPERS flying everywhere!

he had like NOTHING.

just his BRAIN.

i wanna be him.

really.

DAMN sexy.

and logic presentation.

wow. amazing.

i realize, law students are rather clever.

;)

tai was awesome.

and i had an awesome AWESOME time debating with the doctor.

and, i’m glad at how long i held it.

AWESOME.

AWESOME.

really.

awesome.

okay that’s all i have to say.

no time to blog much, but i just HAD to write all that down.

sexy intelligence.

elfy’s coming back.

sweet.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, elfie, eyecandy, inspiration, WestBev

i've got afghanistan on my table... iran... um, north korea... and now there's this what... H1N1? so, if there's really nothing wrong with the healthcare system, i wouldn't be touching it.

watched obama live on youtube regarding his healthcare plans. once again, felt like an economics lecture.

but i really admire him.

he's very sensitive. to the needs of others, addresses specific problems that the general don't see... whether he's successful, i'm not quite sure. since i've been away from news (deliberately) for such a long time. but i really like the way he speaks.

plus, i'll say it a million times, he's handsome.

haha.

told kuga already.

it's almost 5.30am now. just finished watching My Sassy Girl. i give it a 3/5.

speaking about movies, i HAVE to watch ice age 1 and 2 asap.

not cos i love the series. no, in fact i have zero interest in it.

BUT, now, i have 100% interest.

why? cos kuga asked me to bring him to ice age 3.

and perfectionist, must-be-in-order louiza will have to watch 1 and 2 first. even though i hear it's not like a continuing thingy.

anywayy, i watched my sassy girl alone, on the couch hugging the big bear kuga bought me in april. (:

i seriously love being pampered by him.

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• acrimonious - bitter, resentful. usually used to describe a dispute.
• Special Risk-Sharing Initiative
• taiwan is considering building a bridge to china. how cute is that. its like they're becoming friends.
• impeccable - having no flaws. PERFECT!
• urbane - polite, refined, elegant. [i'm loving the words. so clearly perfect]
• Mr Charles Goodyear, the new CEO for Temasek Holdings, is so awesome. seriously. calling ppl by their first names all. i want to do that. but i think i'll have to be established first. hahas.
• arrears - unpaid, overdue debt or obligation
• australia's going through hell on earth. it's really sad.
• thats sweet, malaysia's lowering electricity tariffs.
• China is the world's third-largest economy... what are the first two?

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, grey's anatomy, inspiration, muse, news, this chapter is called...

i really really feel affectionate towards my entire family. i love the whole bigness of it and everything. culture and attitudes are so priceless. i love being around them.

and i cant wait to grow up cos i just can't wait to live. live in everything, and experience more.

went to ruby's and francis' house for lunch.

and in a while, going to russell's for dinner.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, blood ties, inspiration, the aftermath

steadfast, i'm just not shifting.

until what can move me shows up.

till then, i'm feeling more than awesome where i'm at.

what can move me, isn't another you.

because you let yourself die in my eyes.

what can move me, is better than you,

because it is unwavering and eternal.

but notice,

what differs you from the superior,

is the life that you did not possess.

only that life.

ironically, it is that only life that parts tragedy and story.

what can move me, is better than you,

sadly, all you did for me was amazing.

more sadly, i'm not settling for less than that amazing - even if it possesses life.

no,

i need amazing and life.

and it could have never been you.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, fallacy, inspiration, teenagers, the boy, wordsmagicallyspun

i am very content right now. yes, at the moment, at 1.30am. i am in this mood of perfection that's just beyond inchoate. it's just clear. crystal. and it's nice.

i am embracing wellness and recovery. i love having recovered. love feeling normal and better. not labored with unease and discomfort.

this was not the atypical under-the-weather phase and getting past this really sets a significant amount of positivity onto my conscious self. while it lasts, i will appreciate it.

having not blogged for such a long time, i am now in the mood to really write. (:

so today, i decided to spend the afternoon at home. which was really lovely, with the nice winds and everything. did some house-keeping etcetera etcetera.... then at 5 plus, i decided to accompany daddy to church.

so del dad and i went.

remember my boyish mood from afternoon? well i was really too lazy and weak to dress up anyways so i just went all levi's today. i have this favourite pair of levi's jeans. it's my favourite out of my levi's collection. i love it so much cuz it's what i call my flat-ass jeans. it's so straight-cut so it was so boy! but cos it's a girl pair of jeans, so its girly too. like thin. i love it~

then after church we walked over to tm to buy some stuff... super crowded. cny i suppose.

and we had ice cream from swensons! see, i SO love it that my appetite's back. seriously! i can want to eat again! i ate lays today, and all sorts of snacks and then the ice cream! and i'm only getting started.

went home soon after, but what really made my evening perfect, was the movie i watched at like 11 plus after dinner and everything. No Reservations. and i give it 10/10!

it is,

perfect.

That's all.

okay, and now i'm kinda in the mood to sleep a bit earlier tonight.

good night. (:

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, blood ties, daddy, fallacy, God, inspiration, Knights Ridge, LA, this chapter is called...

omg i totally love christmas!! the whole christmas feeling, warmth etc! omg i just love it. and right now, i'm like listening to my dad's oldies cd of christmas songs. and being all late and everything in the night, i just feel all tingly and nice.

the christmas spirit. u know, you feel the spark in late november... and as december grows, so does this feeling... then you see love all around, and smiles, and happiness.

it's what i wait for all year.

omg. thats all i can say right now. i wish i had the ability to write like Rowling. i'll describe it so so much better.

well actually, i think i can. if i really thought about the words. but i'm just too excited to think. it's like i just want to get everything out all at once. the feeling's too exciting to be told in stages.

omg!!! now listening to 12 days of xmas! and yesterday leon called to sing that for me. it was really funny the way he sang it.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the XMAS FEELING!!!!!!!!

yeah so anyway what was i saying. yeah! i'm sorry i dont have good english! i'd really wanna speak of the christmassyness more accurately. DAMN.

okay. lets talk about my day, which was really xmassy.

firstly i woke up after having a weird dream. =/

for some reason, Chris Brown was over at my place. it was something like his family are friends of my family so we were like offering some sort of hospitality while he was in sg.

I DNO IT WAS SO WEIRD! I DONT EVEN LIKE CHRIS BROWN.

he was wearing this blue hiphop shirt or something, and he was in my room. we were talking. and my mom was like nagging at me to go bathe. so i was like "yeah okay!" then i told him i'll brb...

then as i stood up to go, he was like, "hey wait". then he kissed me.

SO DAMN RANDOM! (and i repeat, i dont like chris brown)

so i was like, "umm okayy.. i'm gonna bathe".

i walked to the kitchen and quickly took out my hp to call vi and cher. to tell them wad just happened. they picked and after recounting to them the weird incident, i was like, "i dno it was so weird right!! i mean i dont even like his songs!!! but oh wells, how many girls can say that they've kissed chris brown?"

at that instance, chris brown walks into the kitchen. -_-''

so i ended the call. my brother had been in the kitchen all the while when i was talking to vi and cher.

i said ,"hi!" to chris, then i told my bro in malay, "dont tell chris i said i hate his songs."

yeah. cos i had the feeling my bro was gonna like sabo me in some way.

then i woke up.

HOW WEIRD RIGHT?!?

so yeah that was my dream.

today was a real family day again. everyone was home (:

had lunch together on the big table, and we established i'm a daddy lover. but yet i bully dad. and vicente is a mummy's baby.

we did a hell lot of stuff to the house today. cleaned, vacuumed, CHANGED THE CARPETS. we had to lift like TWO FREAKING HEAVY MARBLE TABLES. they're seriously damn heavy. last time we changed carpets we had uncles aunties cousins and if i'm not wrong my bf at that time to help.

thats how heavy it is!

but with a bit of joseph spirit, we did it! (:

and i can rightfully conclude that my mom's deco owns orchard's completely. seriously. and i'm not being biased.

xmas in sg.

no snow, but still fabulous.

and that hasnt stopped me from snow boots.

yes mom i'm crazy.

after the day's work, vicente and i watched another xmas movie. I LOVE WATCHING XMAS MOVIES IN DECEMBER!!!! it just reinforces the whole xmassy feeling. i watched christmas with the kranks. it was really heartwarming and tingly. i give it 10/10. only thing i didnt like was the HEAVY SNOW they had!!! cos i got really jealous. it was really heavy!!!!

last time i had snow that heavy, was like when i was 14? family and i were in las vegas and it was snowing like FUCK (sorry fuck's the best word to describe the degree of how heavy the snow was)

and we actually walked along the streets like for 30 mins to get to lunch. and snow was getting into our EYES. yeah can u believe that! eyes!!! damn painful. and wet and cold. and cousins and daddy (the most playful of the older generation) were like throwing humongous snowballs at everyone. SUPER IRRITATING! but fun. but painfully fun. like u want to laugh, but u have no breath to. 

and occasionally someone would fall on icy ground.

i miss that.

watching tv just now, i saw the MAC advert again. the cute one!! about manliness. *rudy just came into my mind*.

anyway, this advert was like about the gf getting the bf to wear a shirt with the letters LO. and hers had VE. so that together they spelt LOVE. and the guy's friends were making fun of him, while the girl was like so happy.

SUPER CUTE.

and today i had that nice phone call again with 80. short, but nice.  take care of yourself kay.

and that's the end of this post.

thanks for reading!!

love, louiza.

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i've been reading harry potter all day.

since yesterday.

and as expected, the hogwarts dreams have started.

starting last night.

last night's was horrid though.

it was the genocide of the unpure.

shudder.

anyway, i'm still reading.

finishing though.

and i realise, wow. i like my thesis.

its fun.

i get to talk nonsense about harry potter with miss quek.

seriously its very interesting. how many people out there can actually discuss a fantasy with a teacher?

and miss quek, she's brilliant.

she was the only one i know who could detect from the 6th book that dumbledore had arranged for snape to kill him.

no matter how may times i reread the book, i cant seem to detect the hints.

she's, as xavier supposedly says, a true jedi.

hahsz.

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i'm starting to anticipate christmas, and i even have a route to it.

my philo thesis is due next month, so for the weeks to come i'll be focusing a lot on it.

which includes Harry Potter.

and u do know how christmassy Harry Potter can be.

hahas i just watched the first movie with the siblings and delilah and i'm already missing the snow.

THICK snow.

then after my thesis in october, its a short run to the As.

THEN HOLIDAYS!!!

which are the bestest because it's during the holidays that one starts to feel the xmas warmth building up.

oh goshz. louiza cant wait.

christmas is coming!!

Labels: blood ties, chrismukkah, inspiration, the aftermath

love logic.

louiza.

muuuachhkxsz.

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im going to make something out of myself for you, whoever you are. so you'll have a lil lady to be proud of.

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just came back not too long ago from the beach with elfy. 1st time i was actually willing to go chill at the beach with someone. remember how i like to do it alone so i dont have to waste energy trying to entertain the company?

yeah i guess elfy fits that description. no need to do anything. and no hard feelings. hard to explain. u'd understand if ure me. hahas.

lesson 1: not changi.

rule one: pasir ris.

the forgettables

1. quantum physics
2. redundant

its 4plus AM and im not slpy yet. i think i'll study math. haahs. crazy me. or should i treat myself to a movie? hmmmm

oh. i decided i LOVE MY FAMILY LIKE FUCK.

I LOVE MY PARENTS LIKE HELL.

seriously. its a nice feeling to realise that daddy loves me so much to do like anything for me. and mummy's like so easily swayed by praising. hahhas.... seriously i appreciate them all. tho i'm a bit of a devil. but dont u think every family usually has one devil?

in the josephs thats me i guess.

and i appreciate how u are trying to understand me.

overall, i love where my life is at right now. except for education i think the pace can be faster. ahahs.

but that doesnt matter.

the other things, yeah. those are the things that ought to be counted.

and i love the fact that delilah's around. seriously the whole episode has made me a much stronger person. someone that i would NEVER have been if not for this. seriously. i cant imagine myself ever having so big a drive for education, for no reason.

thats not me.

so who i am now, i could never imagine.

but now i'm here. and i'm going to make the best of it.

vicente is so nice. we went out just now to buy lunch remember. and he carried EVERYTHING! haha. he will make a gd bf one day. but apparently now he hates those girls that like him. hahahs. wad a heartbreaker.

and we're NEVER gonna buy melting doughnuts. ew ew ew.

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i love how i notice the magic of numbers.

now i just have to be half as pro as Mr Koh.

then i'm set for life.

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for two weeks, the weather has taken a turn for the better.

oh gosh, i love it.

it means that time of the year is creeping in.

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and henceforth, relaxing will be synonymous to enriching the intelligence oh so subconsciously.

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