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so, my friday was awesomely ill as well.

awesome.

another blog-worthy day.

and why i'm blogging on saturday, is cos well, my friday kinda just ended. came home at nearly 11am.

rushed to school yesterday after quickly doing my homework. had to rush that cos i didnt want to get out of bed. cos i was having awesome dreams.

class was fun, and i kept coming out of it to go "visit" the dumpling celebration. i think brian was pretty nice to organize that for the ESL kids. of course, they had a very special visitor too. (:

fyi, not me.

after class, hung out with geoffrey and charles. then we made our way to marina square. gosh i never knew that shopping with boys (not one boyfriend) could be awesomely fun.

said bye to geoffrey at like 6, then charles and i went home.

thennnnnn at nightt went supperrrrc with the people at school. geoffrey called it the Genius Party. but i know my reason for going.

saw lots of gals with tattoos. like full sleeves and full backs.

lots of drama.

ended up loofing. till the end.

then, AWESOMENESS HAPPENED.

till morning.

alright, now to rest.

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so guess what. today's another notably awesome day in life.

and i'm gonna blog.

in continuation to today's earlier post, yup i woke up 20 minutes before class, and thus decided to skip it.

eventually, i made my way to school.

and class was awesomely fun. i have the fastest typing hands.

was with the awesome people again.

must i emphasize more how much i love yi?

haha.

after class, hung out with geoffrey and darling E.

thenn, crashed philo class for a bit. and took a picture of yi's lover professor.

yeah they thought i wouldnt dare...

but i'm not gonna post his picture here. cos i foresee tons of people who would come steal.

well, i'm glad i made yi's week. ;)

hung with the two kings for a bit, then they had to get back to class.

after philo, the royal cohort made their way home together.

and i went to have dinner with one of the kings.

then i came home.

oh did i mention? i chatted again with tad. and now, he's gonna look for ghosts.

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good morning world. the time now is, 1120 hours. i woke up 5 minutes ago, and class starts in 10 minutes.

i believe i will now have to skip that.

so now, as you can see, i' m here blogging. (:

mainly cos, yesterday was an awesome day. and i had meant to blog about it yesterday, but i dropped to exhaustion.

it wasnt awesome cos i clubbed, or went drinking or whatever. in fact, i barely club about those nights anymore.

it was awesome cos i went to school.

haha, as weird as that sounds.. yeah. its pretty true.

first lesson was fun. was with all the awesome people whom i miss really being together with. yi, geof, mervyn. haha when we work together its like chaos. needless to say, i didnt learn anything in that class. too much fun.

then i went to mac donalds with kiran and geoff for breakfast. where i ate a hell lot. that was fun too.

then, back to school to work on our proj, (G and I) then, before next class, walked Geoff to the station, then walked back to school just in time for class...

next class was awesome too, messing around with hari's pencilcase cos i didnt bring mine... as you can see from the picture above, yeah i was suffering from ink poisoning.

apparently ink gets absorbed into your skin when its on your palm. and that was permanent ink. my palm was literally aching. and i think my veins were rather blueish. =/

never mind, it was fun too.

after class, walked charles to the station, and back again in time for the bus to take us to the botanic gardens.

yeah i walked back and forth quite a lot from the station yesterday. haha. but it was pretty good exercise. plus each walk was the equivalent of one stick. so i was pretty relaxed and occupied.

omg botanic gardens was the shit. we didn't do the usual HIKING outdoors.

the doctor has connections with the people there. so we were brought into the confidential hieborium (dont know how to spell). basically a plant museum. it was soo cool. the curator lectured us around and he was so interesting.

seriously for a second i felt like ditching law to work as a taxonomist.

went home with sahiba, two big dogs jumped at me, and some guys nearby laughed. glad to be entertainment. haha.

went home, then went out for a bit.

then before coming back, stopped by jun yuan's where he enlightened me a bit on the theories of time travel.

2 physics gods exist in my life. sean ang, and jun yuan. both of whom are always willing to entertain my stupidity and teach me.

anywayyy, thats what happened yesterday.

went home, and took a well deserved shower.

then i succumbed to exhaustion.

alright gonna get prepared for another new day.

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i was in the shower, and i decided. i'm not gonna drop partying altogether next semester. i'm still gonna be partying. and slacking. and going out.

and the agenda still stands. ain't no fun partying without a cutie. so maybe thats how i'll "cut down". haha.



funny how i waited for you, with anticipation.

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so apparently, semester starts on the 18th of january. that gives me, 11 days left. wow i've started counting.

went to see the dean yesterday since i've decided to stay on for another semester. and she's gotten me taking extra classes, so i can graduate faster. she's really nice. but now i'm scared cos i'm piled! she says i can surely get through, and i'm hoping she's right.

it's gonna be work non-stop if i wanna even try for my straight As. ): sounds rather exciting. somehow, the stressful chaos excites me. though my partner in stress is gonna be gone. dennyboy. ): but now i'll have yizheng who's apparently taking a lot of the classes i'm taking. so that'll be sweet.

which reminds me. i dont know how i'm gonna keep up the lifestyle of partying, now that i got way more work to cope with. and thats gonna be sad cos i love planning the party drama with yi. ugh....

i have a plan though. called the OASAP. stands for, Out As Soon As Possible. means that whenever i get a new piece of assignment, i finish it asap. then maybe i'll have free time to party. but of course, the whole thing will only work if i get over my laziness.

never mind. four months of non-stop action. and i hope i come out alive.

so, since the next four months is gonna be intense, i've decided to not use any brain energy for the next 11 days. i'm gonna conserve every bit of brain energy for that semester of racing through work.

omg.... more classes!! means less going out, less partying, less hanging out.

oh shiat. i just checked. it's not four months. it's like 5. rawrr!

only one thing to do, MAKE USE OF THE NEXT ELEVEN DAYS TO DO WHATEVER THE HELL I WANNA DO.

AND NO BRAIN UTILIZATION! NO READING, THINKING.

i'm gonna be dumb for the next 11 days. so dont ask me anything intellectual. i'm conserving my brain.

yay. somehow, i really can't wait to live everything out. sounds like an awesome plan. haha. the slacking, and the slaving. everything's perfect now. and i can't wait to get busy.

know what will make things more awesome? if i had a boyfriend or girlfriend who is so madly in love with me and who will be effingly supportive when the academic chaotic buzy-ness comes. i think it would be very fun to have someone like that by my side who i can turn to whenever.

yeah. i said girlfriend. and of course, i'm referring to sam ronson. and maybe ellen cos i think she's too damn funny. i love her.

haha alright, i think i'm gonna shower now, and later do whatever the hell i want.

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mark hoppus calls it year spaceship. =/ i'm just gonna call it the adventure.

anywayss, here's to 2010. i've always detested new years. seriously. whats so fun about going to school the next day? of living through the crappy long opening months of jan, feb, march, april, may? of christmas ending? my favourite months were always october, november, december. and they always will be.

plus this year, holidays were pretty short for me. december was too short. after all school ended on the 11th... so thats like half a month gone already. ugh. then christmas came so fast, it was all really a blur.

nevertheless, i have to say that hands down last night was like the BEST new years in my entire life. seriously. and credits would have to go to rudy of course. first thing we did at 0000 was walk off from a bar with our glasses. his from vodka, and mine from wine. and those glasses stayed with us all the way till clarke quay. hahah. from city hall. hilarious.

2009 was party year. had so much fun, especially since after As. lived it. party, drinks, friends, out out out! family, girls, guys, school. it was awesome. i love 2009 really.

i'm gonna call 2010 the adventure. cos who knows where i'll end up and the end of next year? great! (:

2008 was the year of self-discovery. i worked towards the As, and just really spent the year taking care of myself since this was the period i stayed single for longest. i made real friendships, and had many nice people around me, helping me along the way. i learnt a lot about myself.

2009, party year.

and 2010, is gonna be the adventure. i cant wait.

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so, yesterday was graduation. ho hum, it was pretty fun. but what was more fun was the yi-za afterparty.

and thats probably gonna be our last run of c0-hosting parties. cos she flies off on monday for a month to shanghai, and when she's back i may not in broward.

shitzxx.

anyway, thats a picture of me as a guy. not really meant to be that. that was my last day of school outfit. a girl asked for my number. and a cute guy didnt even look at me cos i think he thought i was butch.

):

never act as a guy again.

anyway,, grad was at sentosa, prety fun. sat with the guys.

then went party at o bar with yi and prc people. omg i felt like i was in china. but that one guy was cute... awwzx. and stupid yi had to happily tell him i found him cute.

not that it mattered anyway. the whole time after that i was shouting about how he's "the hot guy".

but those prc people are seriously damn cool. they have that tycoon aura. haha.

i am going to get his number.

anywayyy,, kenneth came to rescue me from china. so that was cool.

then, i dont know why i was like so damn tired. i guess like i've been up since 7am. plus day before accounting finals.

so i was pretty shagged.

couldnt finish the clubbing escapade.

i took a cab back.

but then skater boy intercepted me. and i spent the rest of the night with him.

till morning. came back 9am.

and that was awesome.

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so those are captures of the aftermath of writing. reminds me of my thesis days in As. the harry potter book. well, today i have another addition to the collection. haha. aztec human sacrifice rituals. soo, if you have no life and want to do some reading, come ask me for a copy. (:

anywayy, the past 28 hours was hellish seriously. research paper and law finals. but i had D on the same boat with me. so i'm cool (: quite fun actually

the song of the 28 hours was Daniel Bedingfield - Gotta get thro this. Hha. over and over and over again man. i'm saving that for future chiong-ing sessions.

today was interesting cos i encountered the big 3, and the other 3.

the big 3 refers to the awesomely smart sexy professors. haha. i'm sorry pardon my explicit opinion. i just really admire smart people.

took the train with THE lance today. and actually texted denny about it. cos inside joke, i'm lance and he's lance impersonator. so actually having THE REAL LANCE right in front of me while i was rushing to absorb my freaking law book was VERY unnerving. i kinda gave up just about at city hall.

omg lawyers. > <

then at school saw tad, but didnt go follow for smoke cos i was really scared about law, so went to panic-study with denny.

and we saw tad and lance talking and walking together and for like 10 seconds we both just stared at the two of them. LOL. damn funny.

but hotness honestly.

the test wasn't so bad. i hope. > <

then after class, talked to mr ethan moore about class and everything. i seriously enjoyed his classes so, thats something i'm definitely gonna miss. all the philo and stuff. he's one smart guy.

then, denny boy and i went home. he grabbed some yoghurt thingy before. then home!~

and thats the end of the big 3. gosh awesome.

then, comes the other 3.

today something weird happened. i spoke to 3 of my exes.

thats it.

haha.

ciao

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okay great. deny dear and i are gonna work late again. as usual, we’re always on the same stupid sinking boat. but forgive me, i actually enjoy the chaotic stress.

so lets go!

 

anywayyyy real reason for blogging despite being so darn busy,

you’re so so so so so cuteeeeeeee > <

you’re so atwood seriously. and i don’t know how to get through to you. i think i need to consult an expert. i think i’ll ask elfy. yeah. yeah. after my term, i’ll work on getting through to you.

but u’re so cuteeeee! > <

and seriously if you’re an eyecandy, never give me your pictures!!! cos i’ll be staring at them in happiness for ages.

and seriously if u were my boyfriend, i’ll totally decorate this plain blog with your pictures.

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school was pretty fun.

finished at 3 but stayed till like 9 to do logic with the kids.

then oh so randomly went dinner with ben.

which was nice.

he reminds me of martin in a comforting way.

got to touch the black hat.

sweet.

okay gonna do work!~

p.s. oh louiza is so dead. she happily told lance today, I’M GONNA OUTLAWYER YOU!

oh god.

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as of now, i’m going to usa 9:1.

okay back to my nighter.

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really really busy, but because kuga asked me to, i’ll blog about our day (or rather, evening) out together. yeah cos i’ve been so busy since the semester started, i haven’t blogged about any of our outings together. so i think i’ll spend some time on this one.

yesterday, we met around 5.30 in the evening. i was armed with all my study material. we were going to have a quiet constructive study session at a nice little cafe at the airport.

reached there, we had late lunch/dinner first. at our usual chinese restaurant where our dear friend is “a member”. but yeah, we had to agree that our usual outlet was much nicer. our snow mountain was “tall and thin”. snigger..

kuga was so cute. i was busy reading logic while he ordered. i wasnt really paying attention to his ordering. all i remembered was “baby can i order a lot?” i just nodded half-attentively. then, food came.

and kept on coming. and coming and coming and coming.

it was so cute.

haha.

after a really long meal, (i also managed to get a significant amount of logic done) we decided to move to our cafe. besides, kuga was shivering. did i ever tell you that he cant stand cold? like even a little. it was so funny.

so first, we walked to the skytrain station, to go to terminal 1. i was intending to go to the pacific coffee there.

after finally reaching there, we found construction barricades set up.

they were doing renovations, and my cafe was gone.

we walked to the other side of T1. other cafe also GONE.

walked to the skytrain station. took train to T2.

coffee bean. CROWDED LIKE HELL

starbucks CROWDED LIKE HELL

gloria jeans, only one plug. which was being used.

pacific coffee, – come on say it with me – GONE.

it was all good fortune that kuga was there to calm my nerves down. cos at this point i was getting impatient and frustrated. while he was shivering, i could feel tense heat building in me.



calmly, kuga encouraged me to go try terminal 3. so okay we went there.

and guess what.

CROWD EVERYWHERE.

it was so gross.

then kuga enlightened me about the stupid phenomenon. “it’s saturday evening”

-_-



okay now i know never to study out on saturday.

we walked on, searching desperately. me getting more pissed. but it’s a true miracle how calm he was able to remain despite all. like come on, he was carrying ALL my study material. laptop, thick logic book, bag, paper. while i was complaining so loudly. one can only imagine what he must have been going through. but he just kept being happy.

ah, sometimes i think he’s not human.



finally, i was so angry, i decided to sit down on one of the chairs at the departure hall.

i looked at him, and it really occurred to me at that point that he hasn’t complained one bit. this coupled with the fact that i havent spent time with him the whole week due to tests, i really started to feel guilty and appreciate the person sitting next to me.

so i took my laptop, and logged on to the movies showing that evening. and i said, “baby, screw it. come, lets go watch a movie.”

the wide grin i got in reply said it all.

but that wasnt the end of my woes. cos then when i wanted to book tickets online, the stupid page kept lagging.

so then again, the impatient louiza came out.

then, i gave up. took down the phone booking number and decided to give that a shot instead.

like that worked.

the stupid machine was speaking so slowly. i shoved the phone to kuga and ordered him to listen and book while i packed up my stuff.

he made me laugh by looking at me clueless saying “baby, they’re talking so slow!”

i was getting so frustrated about not being able to even book tickets, he then decided to just like go to tampines and buy the tickets from there.

apparently for a 10.30 show at eng wah century square.

okay fine, so we took a bus there.

reached there, and guess what. there was no “10.30” show. it’s like the internet lied to me. there was 11.30. but i really didnt want to wait so long. so from there, we decided to walk to tampines mall GV to see if there were better timings. all the way there, we discovered, NO. no better timings. 11.30 was the next show.

so okay at this point i just gave up. i decided to just buy from tm gv. but then kuga said, “baby dont you like the seats at century more?” i told him if we wanted to go there, we’ll have to walk like all the way there again. and i didnt want to trouble him. really i’ve been dragging him around my crazy moodiness. but then, he insisted we go there. so being the sweet person he is, we walked back to century square and bought the tickets.

but that left us with an hour free. and yes, coffee bean and starbucks were CROWDED. because it’s a saturday evening.

so we went to ocean blue. and got drinks.

which sucked. not unlike the first time i went there.

i got a gin and he got a daquiri.

sucked.

but then! kuga did some magic! he like went to order again, but this time he ordered the ingredients separately. and made the drink in front of me.

i swear he’s the best bartender ever. he makes the best gin. reason why i started drinking gin more often is cos of him. he knows a good gin when he drinks one.

and it was amazing. really. the old drink was like puke. the new drink was wow.

then, with the remaining ingredients, he modified the stupid daquiri we got. and viola! some REALLY nice cocktail.

it was so nice! even he was in love with the new unknown concoction.

okay so, he was really nice to me the whole day. not snapping at my immense impatience at everything.

we watched the ugly truth later on at 11.30 which was really nice, then we went home at a nice 2am.

but that wasnt the end. something really random happened thereafter.

he went down by my window, (i live on the 12th floor) and we started texting each other. i sat by my window while looking down, he sat by the park downstairs my house and we just texted. for like one and a half hours.

cos i didnt want him to go. so he stayed down there and texted me.

then when he left at 3.30, that was the end. (:

p.s. okay i've been trying for hours to upload pictures onto blogger. but freaking blogger sucks. i'm gonna upload an album onto facebook since i'm active there now. check it out okay?? promise??? good. (:

GO TO THE ALBUM

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We tried superdog today. Wasn't so nice though.

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times like this, i find myself feeling like a wreck. where nothing can be salvaged.

but i know that's not true. things can and will get better. eventually, with a bit of time. most of the time sooner than we expect.

but why do i feel so pessimistic? probably cos of the uncertainty. of how long it'll take to cross over. to the side of recovery.

then i ask, why am i here in the first place. at this point. this situation.

then i feel angry. and lousy at myself. for allowing so.

am i really weak?

a bad person, incapable of discipline?

i wouldn't like to think so.

after all, look at how far i've come. since the last break down.

i'm sure it took lots of discipline and virtue.

but then again, if i could just slip like how i have done,

does that show weakness?

 

so i'd like to think of it this way.

i'm only human. and i will slip along the way.

and if the past years have taught me one thing, it is that things can't be undone.

so i'll have to learn, and pick myself up. and change. so it won't happen again.

no point dwelling on something that can't be undone

so now, that's what i'll do.

change.

7 minutes i gave myself to feel depressed and down.

and lousy.

after which, i will now pick up. and start. another chapter. with a stronger mindset.

1457

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just woke up like an hour plus ago. which means after noon.

still feeling a bit too blurrish to blog properly, but i'm going to anyways, so try to bear with me.

yesterday was nice.

i worked at 9, and for once in a rather long time, i had a night's rest that one can actually call proper.

yeah recently, i've been only getting a couple of hours sleep (or less than that) before having to rush to work in the morning. and of course, throughout work, i'll be dying.

so yesterday was a nice change/improvement. but mind you, it wasn't of my own will. kuga made me. he refused to come see me at night after his work. despite my begging. so despite my mental resistance, my body gave in to its own exhaustion and fell asleep pretty early. at like 12am.

why own exhaustion? cos the night before, i only had an hour's sleep. and i went to work like that. with an hour's sleep.

 

either ways, kuga was really nice. we made a deal. because he wasn't to come see me, he would talk to me for hours on the phone instead. and that's exactly what took place. till like nearly 4am.

but why i say i slept at like 12am? cos my body like already shut down even though i was still on the call. which means he was doing the talking whilst i was just talking nonsense and forbidding him to put down the phone.

so that was actually very nice. like falling asleep to his voice. and sleeping to his voice. haha. since i was already gone.

 

anyway, back to the day i had, work was nice. i went a tad late though. at like 9.15am.

faizal and i ate blackforest for breakfast.

and the team today consisted of him, ruddy, charleston and me. harry joined later.

and faizal and charleston tricked me into thinking that it was charleston's last day here and he was going back to sarawak forever the next day. ):

whatever.

anyway work wasn't so bad. more stuff to do today. so that's good...

and it rained so much! haha. i think that was nice.

during work, i had like this craving for fast food. so once my time was over, i raced to the stands, bought the paper and then went to macs.

but

they

were

out

of

fries

and wanted to replace it with stupid apple pie

like i eat apples.

or hot pies.

so then, i raced to burger king, bought myself a super upsized meal, and spoilt my health.

and i literally enjoyed the next hour after that.

sitting at the alfresco, the sun wasn't hot at all, being after the rain... so the colours of the world were reemerging. everything was fresh, and the wind was light and the air cool.

and alfresco wasn't crowded like inside, so i had a very relaxed alone time leisurely reading the papers (haven't done that in a while) and satisfying my craving.

oh what's better was the phone calls from the people i love.

whilst sitting there... had a video call with delilah, then a phone call with kuga. who still makes me very very happy. and whom people still think he's changed a lot to accommodate me. being more softer, nicer. (: (:

after that, i went home...

watched tv and ate snacks with delilah. played with her the rest of the day, (a nice rainy day)

then joana,vicente and i started talking nonsense about some keropok lady person. super funny...

then we hung out in the parents' room eating smarties from the pooh dispenser. which is delilah's by the way.

 

delilah slept pretty early cos of all the action the whole day. so till 12 am, i stayed in my room relaxing on the net, surfing up about michael jackson... i really really miss him you know. ):

then at 12 plus, kuga surprised me that he was downstairs already. so i rushed down, and we headed to downtown for a supposed movie. but as luck would have it, they were already closing. ):

so instead, we decided to go to one of my favourite places in singapore. changi village. the ulu,

went there, walked... saw gays, ate... then we went to the cold cold cold beach.

found a nice bench to sit on, and we just talked, laughed, and snuggled to keep warm.

kuga was like getting so excited cos the planes were so near the ground above us. to me, it was like nothing already. cos i grew up with planes and stuff. but kuga's amazement actually sparked off my realization. that yeah, it was pretty cool.

i love how you use your strength to overcome my resistance, not to pleasure yourself, but to make me feel nice.

we left at 3 plus. but cos the place was so ulu, it was so retarded trying to find a cab. had to walk like so far till we finally got one.

in the end, i reached home at like 4. and slept at nearly 5. kuga called me at 5 plus when he got home, but i think i died during that call as well.

so that was my nice nice day.

and today when i awoke, i had a lovely breakfast. a long black, koko krunch, biscuits and of course the very important glass of water.

i can't wait to see how this day will enfold.

 

anyway, just to recap.

on saturday i was off. the day before, friday, kuga made me sad.

saturday night we went out, and i had only one hour of sleep before working at 7am on sunday.

we passed by this lady that told her husband, "omg so sweet! so young!"

and kuga and i just started laughing.

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i had an awesome day today.

honestly everything went so great, i can't really find an imperfection in anything.

anyway, time now is 4.25am so i'm going to make this quick.

i gotta try to sleep asap cos tomorrow there's a lunch party at aunty evie's place.

looks like i can't watch ice age 2 today.

i watched ice age last night. (:

for kuga of course. cos he wants me to bring him to ice age 3. and i want to know everything about the series first before i watch it.

if not for kuga, i wouldnt even have anything to do with the series. since the first movie, it never managed to even get a silver of my attention. and now i'm so enthusiastically rushing to watch it.

-_-

the things love does to you.

but i must say, i'm pretty impressed. it wasn't too bad. in fact, i think i actually like it. which is so contrary to what i was predicting. A BORING MOVIE. like chicken little. which i must say i give 2/5.

so for ice age, i give it 5/5.

and i'm officially in love with diego. he's so cool and fierce.

and his fangs are like wow.

so i was like all gushing over diego last night, feeling sad that he didn't exist. then i realized, I HAVE MY OWN LION!

then i felt much better. haha.

 

anyway, back to today's story, i went to church with parents.

then, trained to orchard where i was supposed to meet thanaskodi and kuga for their break.

i was early, so i decided to shop at borders.

after meeting up, we ate and mac donalds...

then kuga and i left thana there. we went for our alone time.

(:

 

was raining really heavily so subsequently, we were virtually trapped in wisma/ngee ann. for like more than an hour.

couldnt go anywhere else without risking the downpour. i wanted to go to paragon. but there was just no way. it was raining like mad.

 

nevertheless, i was not bored for a second. being stuck with kuga is fun. he bought me a cranberry bun! hehe. and for some reason, we kept browsing aldo outlets.

i think it's a sign. haha.

 

finally, i got sick of wisma. the downpour had succumbed to rain. (yes still raining)

we had one hour to go before kuga had to get back to work.

thats when i gave up.

screw this, i'm going to walk in the rain. out of here.

 

so we walked out, with no destination in mind.

laughing and playing as we walked. (me shielding myself with a stupid small plastic bag. that of the cranberry bun)

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then halfway still in the rain, kuga wanted ice cream, and i felt the comforting urge for a long black. so i brought him to my usual tcc haunt, and ordered him a double scoop of chocolate ice cream with whipped cream. he was soo cute eating ice cream like that. haha.

 

finally, he had to get back. (it was still raining.) i went back to tanglin too. cos i wanted to get some stuff from my locker.

soo, after kissing him goodbye outside the locker rooms and then parting ways, i took my shoe bag from my locker, and made my way to the gates of tanglin.

 

i was about to cross the gates, when i noticed a familiar shape sitting at the far end of the yard. where people usually hung out during their breaks.

i walked over to investigate and was so damn happy when my beliefs were confirmed. that it was thana!

 

so i talked to him, then ashraf came, talked to him too. then thanaskodi got really jealous about that and actually went one corner to sulk. so cute.

then i left soon after cos someone i didnt want to see came.

 

then, i realized i lost my ipod.

it had been in my front pocket of my jeans the whole day. and i reckon it fell out as kuga and i were walking around town.

with orchard being so crowded on sundays, i knew i would have no chance of finding it even if i tried. i wouldn't even know where to start looking.

so with a sense of retirement, i accepted that fate, and just made my way to the station. was feeling rather useless. sick of losing valuables.

surprisingly though, i didn't really feel damn depressed. i was just exhausted from the occurrence of yet another loss. but i wasn't like sad sad.

 

and then, i realized why.

i had too good of a day to be really sad over this.

and then i realized another thing.

the last time i lost my mp3, i too had a damn nice day. which couldn't allow me to feel a tad sad over the loss. refer to the post on 24th may last year.

 

so i guess, it was a good time to lose a valuable. when i'm happy.

it would have sucked a hell lot more if i lost it on a retarded day in which everything was going wrong.

so i guess, i was marginally lucky.

 

things got a lot lighter in the train on the way home, when thanaskodi called me and started complaining that he didn't like how i kept talking to ashraf. hahaa. that boy. he made me laugh so hard, it was literally impossible to feel anything negative.

 

at home, had dinner with mummy, vicente and delilah.

after delilah had had her bath, we coloured together in her new colouring book. (: funnn

 

then she slept, at like 1 am.

then thanaskodi called, and made me happy some more!

fyi, he had compliments today from customers. really proud of him.

 

he made me happy, and actually said my hair was nice today. very pretty. (:

 

then, i finished up reading One Fifth Avenue. i give it 5/5

 

and now, i'm going to wash my face, and finally sleep.

good night world.

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Baby and shakespeare.

 

(louiza and kuga sees couple wearing identical teeshirts.)

kuga : do you like wearing same stuff like that?

louiza : hmm... not say i like or don't like. i'm neutral. if it happens, i think it's cute. but don't worry i won't force you to do anything.

kuga : for me it's not whether i like or don't like. it's what you like. then i'll do.

louiza : hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

 

haven't blogged in a while. haven't really used the computer lately. been either out late, or catching up on sleep. kuga's been amazing to me - as always.

late night suppers... dates... even though he's like super exhausted after working till late.

ILOVEYOUBABY.

being the nice nice awesome gentleman.

 

like yesterday, we worked at terrace again. second time as non-enemy.

and he called me baby!! haha like while working!! like in front of everyone. even manager.

like "baby can you help me do blahblahblah..."

made me really really smile!!

then when i asked "okayy now what you want me to do?"

then he says "do whatever you want."

made me feel so so so special. even though we were at work.

 

and he's so sexy. how he's like in-charge and everything...

and so strong. so sexy and tall carrying the super big tray.

 

haha okay i sound crazy.

 

and how he calls me the captain. - "anything let louiza handle. she's the captain."

and give me authority to let people go toilet.

hehehex.

even though i'm just a lousy part-timer.

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midnight went to costa sands to pass jave and friends some tools to fix their mahjong table.

morning, went to work SUPER EARLY. one hour earlier. to surprise kuga baby.

dream team working. THANA and baby.

SUPER FUN. but today had lots of irritating interruptions. but dont worry. johnny and i are good friends. (;

thana was super nice to me today. (:

after work, baby brought me home.

anndd now i was planning to sleep at 12.

but baby called.

then thana called.

then baby called again.

and for a few minutes, we all conferenced!

then i continued talking to thana. who apparently gets jealous easily too. hahaa.

and then, i said goodbye. and now i'm here to record all the happiness down.

and, today at work i was chef. can u please pass the captain's order!

and now i think i want to watch grey's anatomy.

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we don't need to go that far, let's hold on to where we are. if it's real, we'll make it through. cos all i need is you.

tomorrow's mother's day. and vivian just reminded me that i'm a mom too.

honestly didnt really occur to me.

let's see how many people remember that.

if you know what i mean.

hmmm.

so, sacrifice.

yeah i think so.

character development?

i think so.

i hope so.

how to cope?

elfy says i still have phobia.

yeah i know.

i'm halfway preparing to bolt as it is.

i dont want pain.

i hate bothering my brain.

think think think.

bleah.

don't worry. nothing that bad.

and maybe that's cos i'm not allowing it to be that bad.

cos of the "phobia"

bleah.

ah wells. lets see how things go.

i'm still waiting for the sign on which path my life will take.

is the freaking sign even going to come?

so... mother's day huh.

sacrifice.

who's gonna even give me credit?

maybe that's why i actually forgot that this day's actually for me too.

=/

so mind-boggling.

why cant i just sit and talk to you.

can i be busy with work.

SIGN AGAIN.

rarh.

yes i'm crazy.

this is so weird.

i'm not normal.

ughhh.

never mind. think, character development character development.

and there are WORSE out there.

*comfort.... k now i sound like cheryl in her blog. with all that finding comfort thingys.

never mind now's just the beginning.

bigger picture bigger picture.

lets take a look at what's passed so far.

saturday

kuga started work at 6. i had no mood to go work. but he came to singapore super early. and surprised me otw to work. i start at 11. so he brought me to work... and waited for me to end at 3. then brought me home.

sunday

kuga started work at 10. i went to work super early. at like 9 plus. bought us breakfast. started work early with him.

super busy day. CHAOS.

went to tangles after work. thana made me a nice sandwich.

monday

worked with kuga again.

rushed home in cab... it's the day i saw cheryl.

tuesday

worked with kuga. this time whole day.

but our breaks were different.

i ate a lot.

people kept giving me food.

stewards gave me some chicken dish and rice...

then i went up, thana gave me a ham sandwich.

then i went down, sat with selvam, susan, rose ann, that guy.

more food. some chinese pastry thing. quite nice to chew.

then thana came down, and selvam, i and him were table top talking. for the rest of my break. happiest time of the day for me. selvam's really nice.

dream team. haha. minus kuga. who wasn't on break.

5, went up. worked with christina for almost 2 hours.

kuga bought me chicken rice during his break.

so i went to eat again... this time sat with indra and the handsome manager.

also fun.

but doesnt beat the dream team.

worked with thana at night. awesomeness.

did closing with lots of his help...

went home together... bus didnt stop at his house. haha!

thats for bullying me.

carried on going home.

kuga was at my house.

wow.

hung out for awhile...

went home.

wednesday

worked with kuga again.

at 3 he brought me home.

at macs at white sands.

thursday

worked with kuga again.

friday

didnt work with kuga. worked with muraly.

saturday (today)

worked with kuga, but he started at 12.

talked to elfy otw to work. he made me happy.

after work, we ate macs at shaw.

then i went home, he went back to work.

LJ

so, sacrifice?

envy?

tolerance?

character development.

let's see how long i can live like this.

why i've been working with him so much?

eloisa, whom i always work with, is on leave.

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okay but our table's not round. just thought the title sounded medieval and cool. nah our table's long.

today is daddy's birthday. 20 mins left. well, to celebrate, we broke Joseph history. first time we had a house steamboat/frying thingy~!!! so cool! like seoul garden at home!

hahaha and it was super fun. veg-free of course.

we just finished eating!! from like 9.45pm to 11.15. i ate like SO SO MUCH. and i like to fry fry. hehe.

either ways, we have vicente to thank. he sponsored everything. (:

xie xie ni.

oh another thing about today.. worked alone with raja today and he was telling me all the damn nice things about london.

aanndd, guess who called while i was preparing for winter's hibernation (aka eating like there's no tomorrow)?

THANA!!! from malaysia!!!! Yeah!! i miss him so so soo much! he's on leave till thursday ):

my deli best friend. my half half! zaarrghghghgh!! come bacck soon!!!

omg but i was seriously so damn happy to hear him.

i cant wait for thursday.

okay i should go get ready or something... lion wants to come down for awhile. for dunno what. stubborn person. hmmph.

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