title: the not so tragic but not ok either sunday
date: Sunday, August 31, 2008
can't wait to have that shopping spree that i've not had for a hell of a long time.
Labels: fallacy, the aftermath
title: gay is gross
date:
omg. damn gross.
Gays are gross.
as in Gays. non-emo.
SO SO GROSS!!!!
total turn off!!
i was searching for my lovely emo guys and i came across Gays making out.
*VOMIT!!!!!
NOT NICE
ahhhhhhh!!!!!
Labels: ALEXANDER VII
title: emo is love
date:
louiza has a habit. a fetish.
my close friends will know.
i heart emo boys.
omg... they're so orgasmic. its like porn to me. i literally drool for them. i want an emo kid.
hahas... yeah its 3am and im crazy.
supposed to be writing my thesis, but i deviated a bit....
SO LONG since i surfed the net drooling on "porn"
hahas... reason being, once i start, i wont stop.
emo boys are so HOT. they're the sex.
i'm high right now.... lazily content.
dont disturb me.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, eyecandy
title: bye georgia
date: Saturday, August 30, 2008
ok. georgia has cut ties with ussr.
i mean russia
And is going to have a meeting with ex-soviet states to discuss about recognising south ossetia.
wow.
britain is telling europe to cut dependency on russia for oil
russia says "dont worry no matter what troubles, we will still provide energy. we are responsible leaders"
wow. bitchy.
Labels: brain food, news
title: the road to christmas.
date:
i'm starting to anticipate christmas, and i even have a route to it.
my philo thesis is due next month, so for the weeks to come i'll be focusing a lot on it.
which includes Harry Potter.
and u do know how christmassy Harry Potter can be.
hahas i just watched the first movie with the siblings and delilah and i'm already missing the snow.
THICK snow.
then after my thesis in october, its a short run to the As.
THEN HOLIDAYS!!!
which are the bestest because it's during the holidays that one starts to feel the xmas warmth building up.
oh goshz. louiza cant wait.
christmas is coming!!
Labels: blood ties, chrismukkah, inspiration, the aftermath
title: books
date:
i love the smell of books.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII
title: holiday
date:
i seriously cannot wait for christmas.
Labels: blood ties, chrismukkah, the aftermath
title: the lingering pause
date:
summer doesnt feel summerish.
just came back from a walk with jun yuan.
a bit of exercise, then gonna bathe.
Labels: Newport, summer
title: and it took 4 hours
date:
i'm so shagged.
title: i am not alone
date: Friday, August 29, 2008
i thought i was paranoid. and a bit too much on the extreme, when i relate the georgia conflict to the cold war.
the only "official" evidence i've had so far was a mere mention on the papers about how there is a hint of the cold war in the whole shebang.
so i just googled, "cold war georgia"
and omg. there were like 3940 000 results.
I am not alone. rah rah.
i so love history.
Labels: brain food, news
title: the communist bloc
date:
omg. china is supporting USSR.
i mean russia.
sounds familiar?
Labels: brain food, news
title: the headache's back?
date:
USSR i mean Russia has recognised the separatist states of georgia.
and now, US wants to cut off nuclear cooperation with USSR.
and the Allies! are back.
france US are all threatening sanctions.
but USSR is not giving a shit.
i mean, russia.
dont u just love cold war?
p.s. today's Louiza's Appreciation Day was a success. so one day down, now what's left is Louiza's Bad Girl Day.
that is if i feel confident about As.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, brain food, news, the aftermath
title: the paradox of the elf
date:
shh...
listen.
we both may not be wanting for it,
i hell dont want it.
but
the tides push me away.
tides, just as the rays from the source, the sun.
you.
and your friend, i, am trying to stay at the same spot.
but the waters are increasingly getting more violent.
the feeling in me is like thorns entwined in the desert.
but the realisation is that it has always been up to u.
title: where she needs cleansing
date: Thursday, August 28, 2008
i need a major detox.
starts tomorrow.
which is like now.
haha i'm still awake.
title: undecided
date: Wednesday, August 27, 2008
cant make up my mind on what to do tonight.... but 5 mins ago my options decreased by one cos a mild headache had begun to creep in so i suppose that means the option of a jog is out of the question.
i dont know what to do tonight, and most certainly dont know what to do tomorrow.
i have this tiny urge to go to NUS and drown myself in the books there.
i
cant
make
up
my
mind.
but i'm not going to take panadol. i've been taking a lot recently during the prelim tide so i think now that i have TIME and i'm not rushing to study, i will try to self heal.
maybe i'll do pilates or yoga or wadevers. if my headache isnt too bad after i do my online business. i'm using the isqueeze again. so hopefully that helps.
Labels: sick
title: coffee and snapple
date:
so today's events were very unexpected. because nothing was planned. so i didnt really like it. cos u know i'm such a plannerr.
but vicente came home and saved the day. hahas.
spent whole of the afternoon bumming on my bed. before that i took a DAMN long bath. then when vicente came home, i decided to go tm.
walked around, i wanted to buy lots of stuff, but didnt really buy lots of stuff cos as u know, i'm so darn indecisive. so i ended up walking to and fro around both the malls, not being able to make up my mind about most stuff.
but u can never go wrong with coffee. so after everything, i bought for vicente a lot of rubbish, like snapples and chips and what not, and i grabbed myself a tall to-go, then we walked to church to take the bus from there. cos i felt like walking.
now i'm waiting for parents to come home, so i'll take a bath and then sleep. malay paper tomorroww. then prelims will officially be over. not like as if i havent started celebrating already. ahahs.
but then i think my early start is justified. i got my philo 6-month thesis due next month to cambridge. so i'll be focusing more on that for the near futuree.
i saw a lot of hot people today. (hahas what a random comment)
but really, lots of eye catchers. and in the morning when i was returning from college, this hot malay guy boarded and sat next to me.
i even took a photoo!!!
but i dont think i'll post it up. malays in this neighbourhood are quite well connected. scully through some friend who know him through who and who come and see my blogg.... then think i'm a stalker.
i'm not. i just like staring at hot people. its like looking at a work of art. its therapeutic. so if i stare at u, be honoured. not freaked. i promise i'm not crazy.
vicente suddenly caught the cam-whoreness.
but i wasnt really in the mood...
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, blood ties, Dirty $exy Money, eyecandy, Newport
title: cheryl
date: Tuesday, August 26, 2008
i love cheryl.
just decided to say that.
thought of her.
title: no one worth going out with
date:
its times like these that i miss having you around - you'd whisk me off to somewhere cos i can't make up my mind. and you'd hang on the phone with me till my dilemmas are relieved.
but then it wasn't worth it.
i hate this.
i'm stress even when i want to relax. i can't make up my mind. i'm too indecisive. and seeing the seconds tick by, the seconds i waste when i can be doing something fun, gosh that sucks.
SHIT.
someone calm my mind down please.
feeling like addison from private pract right now. and i'd love for some person to order pizza, drink wine, and watch movies with me right now to drown in mellow uselessness.
hahas.... i hope vicente comes home soon.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, grey's anatomy, memory
title: the headache in the rain
date: Sunday, August 24, 2008
i still have exams tomorrow.
and the day after
and the day after.
but i'm not studying.
why?
i got a headache.
still.
it stopped just now. for a while. enough for me to go church, go tm awhile, and come home.
that's it.
and now, its back.
its like some curse i tell u.
i gotta learn how to prevent these things.
sighss.
Labels: sick
title: the extra 5
date:
so this sucks
i was supposed to wake at 3am, and study till now.
good news is, i did wake at 3am
bad news is, i never made it out of my bed.
so now its 8, and pretty soon i'll have to get ready for church.
what studying can be done till then?
zilch.
soo i decided to come here and bitch about it.
oh one more thing.
i'm freeezing.
in a nice way.
its the america freezing again.
same kind, only thing maybe america's a tad colder.
damn i really want to go back there.
ohkay gonna bathe soon.
ciao.
title: i learned from you
date: Saturday, August 23, 2008
everyone's getting tired.
Labels: blood ties
title: comforting chills
date:
just had lunch, no this is not going to be a long post. i dont think i have time for that. just wanted to take note of one thing.
i just did some clearing in my freezer. u know, ice and stuff.
and my fingers were so cold.
i mean yeah, whats the big deal right?
but no this cold was damn familiar. it was the sort my hands would feel when i'm in america.
and then.
i began to feel america sick.
its my self-proclaimed 2nd home. ):
i wna go backk....
maybe i'll go alone this year.
everyone in my family is traveling alone this year.
vicente's going to china.
joana's going to dno where. korea or japan.
my philo class wants to go to japan.
maybe i'll go. but i'm not a japan freak. =/ so the thought of it kinda tires me.
then there's that thailand trip i'm suppose to take with cheryl.
wonder if she's still up for it.
then i also want to go to malaysia.
no, i HATE going to asian countries. but i dunno suddenly i want to go malaysia. like EXCURSION. new experience. hahahs. like adventure, out of my comfort zone.
just like how i want to go geylang hotel.
yes never heard of that idea of mine right?
hahahs. one thing about me is, i like to sometimes try things that i dont usually get accustomed with.
like last year, i thought it was exciting to go to the pasar malam. and i got martin to bring me to every one that we came across. and he would explain to me the culture of these people coming from malaysia or wad not.... all the ramli burger thingys.
see. i do like to learn about all these crazy things once in a while.
i dno its interesting and fun.
step out of my comfort zone, and explore stuff.
so yeah. oh shit this post is turning out to be long!
kk ciao.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII
title: CW II
date: Friday, August 22, 2008
OMG OMG OMG OMG!!! (stop reading now if u're gonna die of nerdness)
ITS THE COLD WAR!!!!
IT REALLY IS!!!!!!
ITS NOT ONLY ME WHO THINKS SO!
I'M READING THE PAPERS NOW, AND THEY LIKENED THE WHOLE GEORGIA THING TO THE COLD WAR!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
okok i'm gna read. maybe i'll come back to blog later.
i hv quite alot to blog about, just that i dont have the time.
BUT THIS IS TOO EXCITING.
Labels: brain food, news
title: 3 musketeers
date:
looking out the library window, i see 3 birds flying high among the dark clouds that float slowly and densely across the sky.
they stand out against the setting that prepares for a storm.
i sit here.
dont think i'll be able to post this. internet sucks here.
title: nailed
date:
random, my nails look nice.
i was just staring at them. i think i'm getting bored of studying.
exam later.
title: withdrawal symptoms
date:
i need my coffee.
i need coffee.
no more at home.
i want to go coffee bean and buy big one.
i got exam later.
title: again
date:
teenagers.
and now i'm going to study like fuck.
Labels: teenagers
title: missiles?!
date: Thursday, August 21, 2008
omg.
missiles.
US installing missiles in Poland.
and Russia thinks its against them, cos apparently its for "rogue states"
and Russia is threatening US. "you have been warned"
omgsh.
why do i immediately think, "CUBA" or the very least, turkey?
and shh. mind u, this whole post, i was actually subconciously typing USSR instead of russia. then i realised my flaw.
omgxsh.
hahasx.
kk kill me ok? i sense over excitement over this whole thing.
argh
i'm a nerd. and i hope u'd still like me. hahahahs.
Labels: brain food, news
title: proxyfied
date:
proxy proxy.
oh look. georgia's being supported by US.
and the separatist regions are trying to be friends with russia.
one word.
PROXY.
and tomorrow's my history paper.
international history.
which includes this two good friends. US and USSR.
yay me.
Labels: brain food, news
title: the sign in front of me reads social responsibility
date:
i'm still in school. i'm only drafting this post now. cos i wont be able to post it up on my blog. no i'm having difficulty getting good connection.
which is peculiar.
recently, i've been having trouble connecting to the net. and i'm beginning to think its my com's problem.
not the net.
which is possible. this com was bought in 2006. that makes it 2 this year.
hahas. i love this com. its been with me through a lot of shit.
i think even when i get a new one next year, i'll still keep this com. it has some value to me.
its the first laptop i ever bought that made me feel this way.
hahs. anyways.
i'm sitting here by the field.
i'm taking a break. i've been studying in the library since 5 when my philo exam ended.
didnt go as well as i'd want. but i think i'll pull through.
i think what went wrong was a tad of complacency.
not cos i didnt study, or cos i was too complacent.
i decided to change my technique.
do the section that i sucked at first.
i thought i'd have the time to do the section that i'm usually good at.
i did have the time, but it wasnt as nice as i'd have liked it to be.
now i regret not doing it first.
it was a peculiar question this time.
harder.
should have spent more time on that.
never mind. i'll just take it as a learning experience.
do the parts that i can do easily first. to secure that marks
the guy teachers are playing soccer.
i'm watching them as i type.
ali just scored a few goals. not bad really.
i'm hungry.
stomach's growling already.
but i think i'll persevere.
hahas the teachers are so cute. some are rolling on the grass. hahas. alright i guess i'll take a trip upstairs now.
title: i'm a nerd
date: Wednesday, August 20, 2008
omg.
i'm a nerd.
i've become a geek.
im studying history now, and my crazy mind-that-has-a-life-of-its-own started deviating, wondering why i'm not bored or lazy to read history. and i realised, thats cos i like history.
so never mind, nothing weird about loving history and all the oh-so-interesting revolutions of the world right?
then my mind deviated. to today afternoon.
elfy told me that all the subjects i take are the subjects i like.
philo, history, math, econs.
then now i'm thinking.
i love logic.
and i often spend afternoons in school having fun with Mr Koh doing ancient math questions from an ancient textbook.
OMG. WAD DOES THAT SHOW!!!!
I'M A GEEK!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LIKE TO STUDY ALL THESE TOPICS!!!
AND THAT ALSO MEANS I LIKE TO STUDY!!!!!
OH SHIAT!!
DAMN DAMN DAMN
i'm doom.
wad have i become!!!?!?!
shit!
now i need to go shopping.
i have to revive myself.
i need to slack.
i need to just stone.
i suddenly want to just hang out doing nothing.
but then again, ITS A WASTE OF TIME.
ohshit. never thought doing nothing was a waste of time. now my mind unconsciously counts the seconds that tick by that i'm not engaging in academic discourse.
EVEN AS I TYPE THIS!! MY FINGERS ARE MOVING AS FAST AS POSSIBLE TO SAVE TIME SO I CAN GO BACK TO READING ABOUT THE KASHMIR CONFLICT.
OH FUCK
i'm screwed.
i'm screwed.
SCREWED!
thats it.
i'm a nerd.
dont laugh at me.
now i feel sad.
*pout.
RARR
seriously just stop reading now if ure still reading.
its a waste of eye power.
i'm just ranting.
i'm a nerd.
i'm doomed.
damn.
shit.
k this is going nowhere, i'm just swearing continuously.
k stop
going to study now.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII
title: logic
date:
love logic.
louiza.
muuuachhkxsz.
Labels: inspiration
title: why georgia why
date:
omg coolness.
now NATO and russia have stopped training together.
oh goshh.
and now what's this? i sense an analogy to a soviet ally. Belarus.
how dramatic.
Labels: brain food, news
title: miss choo at rally!
date: Monday, August 18, 2008
omg i just saw miss choo on tv!!! the rally!!
i'm watching it now.
yay! go miss choo!
fyi, my principal. (:
title: kremlin!
date:
omg! russia is being known as the kremlin!!! again!! like so cold war
Labels: brain food, news
title: minstry
date:
i just spotted what seems to be a spelling mistake in the papers.
and i just had a nice chat with wai wan.
title: gp is genuinely stupid
date:
just finished my econs exam. i'm sitting here outside a bunch of lts again. not going home just yet. was suppose to see my koh for math. so i messaged him, now waiting for a reply.
my fingers are stained black.
listening to john mayer now. its been a hectic day. i'm trying to calm my nerves.
yeah, and officially, i fucking hate gp people.
i was damn pissed just now. i intended to do a whole long bitch rant on my blog, on tpjc.net forum. but now when its all over, i just feel too tired to bother. but seriously test my patience one more time and i dont know what i'll do.
yes i fucking hate GP people.
i think u're all brainless.
and its not cos u take gp and i take ki.
k for a second i was starting to get worked up again.
ok ok breathe.
elfy and bak chun got a whole load of my bitch rant just now in the library. and i wasnt hesitant about raising my voice. fucking gp people.
I'M GONNA DIEEE!!!! OMG! I'M DEAD!!!!
fuck i'll come out there and grant ur damn wish.
and honestly the teacher should have done something instead of just sit there and stone. watching me lose my nerves.
ok i'm going to stone.
title: anwar and georgia
date: Sunday, August 17, 2008
omg super cool.
2 things in the news lately.
anwar and georgia
and we ALL noe louiza totally loves the georgia thing.
the anwar thing is damn boring and redundant.
anyways, super cool. its like a proxy war between the west and russia.
coldwarx.
like bush is saying russia cannot claim the broken away states of georgia.
aiyah dno la.
but its cool!
Labels: brain food, news
title: stinging
date:
i'm still awake. doing math. decided to take a break awhile. i doubt i'll be continuing math tho. not that i'm lazy. no my eyes are just starting to sting. the same way it did yestrday when i burnt myself with contacts. and now its like hurting again with all the light from my room and the com screen. shit. i'm actually typing this post with my eyes closed. did u noe that? so i'm hoping i'm not making any mistakes.
damn damn damn. shouldy i slpe?
i noe i should but my prelims astart on monday.
this sux.
title: theenager
date: Saturday, August 16, 2008
teenagers
Labels: teenagers
title: Cold War 2
date:
damn. with all the Georgia stuff going on, with US and Russia starting friction, and today US installations of missile in Poland. and Russia warning EU and US.
its like another Cold War.
damn i love it.
and obviously UN has failed yet again with their talks.
note: if u know me better, i'm an international history fanatic.
Labels: brain food, news
title: import-reliant singapore
date:
singapore, population about 4.6 million. imports about 90% of its food.
Labels: brain food, news
title: to see
date:
i want to watch the guardian
Labels: the aftermath
title: the bitch
date:
i want to know who is xavier koh
title: cheebye
date:
if anyone knows me better, i do not curse in anything but english.
no chinese.
canto.
malay.
but english.
the whole day today, my internet has been giving me problems. on and off on and off. like wth.
so after 5 hours of fluctuating success rate, i got irritated.
yes. smacking that stupid refresh button over and over again.
then the words escaped my mouth.
CHEE BYE
then i got a shock. surprised at the nature of my outrage.
then that started a whole process of intercontextuality.
aka. from one thing, u instinctly think of other things through some relations they have with one another.
so i thought. for the whole of last year, i've been in close proximity with a hokkien family. and i learnt a whole load of shit.
so it inevitably rubbed off.
and every time my classmates wonder what is na bei.
i share my invaluable knowledge.
and now i just thought of another thing.
pardon any spelling mistake
KAU PEH.
its kind of like the malay version of jangan merepek.
wow stupid hokkien stuff is flooding my brains now.
and im beginning to laugh.
an image of teasing just entered my mind.
hahas.
louiza and her gangster fetishes.
ho hum.s
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, memory
title: i must have done something right
date:
Labels: through lens
title: peach bacardi
date:
just got home, gonna bathe.
shop and save doesnt sell alcohol after 12am.
who knew.
title: bicycles in europe
date: Friday, August 15, 2008
so cute. singapore wants to be like europe. hoping to achieve bicycle friendly roads. where bicycles and cars share the road. like europe.
singapore have started putting up signs "beware of cyclists". to encourage the whole cycling thing. i think its so rad. like that dude elfy and i saw at bugis that time. total hotness.
Labels: news
title: hello stranger
date:
im going to make something out of myself for you, whoever you are. so you'll have a lil lady to be proud of.
Labels: inspiration
title: gays and incest
date: Wednesday, August 13, 2008
i have so much to blog about. which i will eventually cos they're so interesting. from gays to incest to a lot.
but i have little time, prelims next week. so yeah not now i spose.
eitherways, the post will be on lj. i think its too inapt to be here. haha. some might take offense.
anyways yeah. gd morning. its 12am now. and i'm gna start my routine again. same routine i had last night. studied all the way till sunshine. 8am to be exact. yeah and can u believe it, when i did stop, i could only sleep for 3 hours.
ughs i hate that feeling.
so i'm going to do the same thing all over again tonight, (yes khai its bad for my health) and hopefully i dont die before my time. then i'll be doing breakfast with the elfy.
oh speaking of food. i'm gonna make coffee. ciao.
title: useless me
date: Monday, August 11, 2008
pissed
study leave more like sleeping leave
title: the perverse one
date: Sunday, August 10, 2008
ok livejournal sucks as usual. its taking madly long to upload the perverse poem. ahahs. so screw it. another time. too bad. i'm going to study now. i have to. i'm way behind time.
title: poem about jane
date:
i was amused. so i took a snap shot of the page from the book that vicente was reading in the tamp library just now.
i spent an hour there before going home just now after church.
put lunch and shopping with parents in between.
yeah anyways. amused.
there is another poem. but oddly enough, i find it too perverse to be here. possibly because of the innuendos it gives out.
damn. i mean. why would they have such a poem in a children's rhyme book???
go to my lj. see for urself.
hahas.
and elfy its dedicated to u.
Labels: blood ties, Dirty $exy Money, wordsmagicallyspun
title: national day
date: Saturday, August 09, 2008
aunty vicky'z
market
Labels: blood ties, Dirty $exy Money, through lens
title: the matrep
date:
title: you can be mad in the morning.
date:
just came back not too long ago from the beach with elfy. 1st time i was actually willing to go chill at the beach with someone. remember how i like to do it alone so i dont have to waste energy trying to entertain the company?
yeah i guess elfy fits that description. no need to do anything. and no hard feelings. hard to explain. u'd understand if ure me. hahas.
lesson 1: not changi.
rule one: pasir ris.
the forgettables
- quantum physics
- redundant
its 4plus AM and im not slpy yet. i think i'll study math. haahs. crazy me. or should i treat myself to a movie? hmmmm
oh. i decided i LOVE MY FAMILY LIKE FUCK.
I LOVE MY PARENTS LIKE HELL.
seriously. its a nice feeling to realise that daddy loves me so much to do like anything for me. and mummy's like so easily swayed by praising. hahhas.... seriously i appreciate them all. tho i'm a bit of a devil. but dont u think every family usually has one devil?
in the josephs thats me i guess.
and i appreciate how u are trying to understand me.
overall, i love where my life is at right now. except for education i think the pace can be faster. ahahs.
but that doesnt matter.
the other things, yeah. those are the things that ought to be counted.
and i love the fact that delilah's around. seriously the whole episode has made me a much stronger person. someone that i would NEVER have been if not for this. seriously. i cant imagine myself ever having so big a drive for education, for no reason.
thats not me.
so who i am now, i could never imagine.
but now i'm here. and i'm going to make the best of it.
vicente is so nice. we went out just now to buy lunch remember. and he carried EVERYTHING! haha. he will make a gd bf one day. but apparently now he hates those girls that like him. hahahs. wad a heartbreaker.
and we're NEVER gonna buy melting doughnuts. ew ew ew.
Labels: blood ties, brain food, Dirty $exy Money, inspiration, Newport
title: adek matrep cepat pulang
date: Friday, August 08, 2008
elfy will laugh if he sees my nickname. and its in malay. k to be exact, i expect the response to be, "what the fuck..."
hahas. i am waiting for vicente to come home from school. then we can go together to whitesands to buy lunch. i'm feeling for a bacardi. what say you?
haha. anywayy, i just came home from college. national day celebrations. kind of dumb and useless. but oh wells. saw quite a few people having fun, so i spose its kinda good. not my thing at least.
saw a few eyecandies too. and disappointingly like they didnt dress that nicely. like eyecandies are spose to. hahahs. come with me and let me DRESS YOU UP!!!! especially the two... (lj)
todays wardrobe
- guess
- dorothy perkins
- Calvin Klein
its always nice to look nice. hahah. NOT SAYING THAT I DID LOOK NICE. i triedd. not saying that i FAILLEEEDD.. ahh wtf. i shall shut up now.
so anywayss, more of today will be on my lj. lets move on to yesterday. remember i was sposed to blog nicely but didnt hv mood? i shall do it now.
chatting with cheryl at the same time. SHE ON HER GETAWAY AT WONDERLAND. ughs!
haha
k yesterday.
during philo, jaq and steph read out some dialogue thing. and i was DAMN IMPRESSED. ok maybe i'm being happy for nothing. after all, everyone there who're mostly theatre studies ppl are used to it. but i was really really entertained. seriously they were good!
i nearly clapped after it ended. actually i think i did. once. haha.
yesterday i stayed in school till LATE to study.
ok thats it i guess. most of everything's at lj. see u there.
"i really wanted to just pull you and run away."
the songlike phrases you conjure.
Labels: A.T., elfie, eyecandy
title: lj blooper
date: Thursday, August 07, 2008
i want to blog on lj now. but there's some fucking problem. ughs. more reason to feel like shit.
i'm feeling sleepy.
ughs i'm gna bathe.
title: against principle
date:
since i'm in such a fuck mood, i might as well mention this too.
i HATE being shunned or pushed aside. ESPECIALLY after i took the effort. louiza HARDLY makes any effort. fact that she did is significant itself. and to shun that is just utter insulting.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII
title: another awaited post on the way
date:
i have a nice post planned for today actually.
but i'm feeling fucked up thanks to the world. so i'm going to put that on hold. too shitfied to type.
for the rest of today, which includes the wadever few hours left and the wee hours of the morning, i'm going to be a bitch.
and thank you very much for not asking me to eat.
Labels: blood ties
title: torn in the flesh
date:
i realised today that i hate you parents for not trusting me. to move on u have to.
and i hate everyone else who is supposed to trust me, but do not as well.
UGHS!
and stop spying on me. especially digging up my past. get a damn life. i'm stressed enough why the hell do u have to make things worse. u're driving me to my freaking grave.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, blood ties
title: temptation
date:
i love how i notice the magic of numbers.
now i just have to be half as pro as Mr Koh.
then i'm set for life.
Labels: inspiration
title: ska
date: Wednesday, August 06, 2008
i love skanking.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII
title: start complex numbers
date:
the long break.
Labels: teenagers
title: vicente's birthday
date: Tuesday, August 05, 2008
vicente's birthday today. so i guess he had a lot of fun today with his friends.
sherwin... some friend of his. quite cute. hahs.
anyways, its nice to come home and see delilah playing with mom.
speaking of college, shit. i got a whole crapload of work to do by tomorrow. so i should get started now.
something just struck me.
i feel that everyone else is panicking for prelims.
i know i have a lot to do, but why is it that i'm just taking things easy?
oh God that means i'm slacking!!!
damn.
ok bYe.
p.s. thanks for being such a gentleman of late. please continue.
Labels: A.T., blood ties, elfie
title: saying goodbye
date:
She kisses everyone goodbye
And waves her middle finger high
They're never gonna mess with her again
The drama queen is seventeen
And sleeping with boys for free
She's got a reputation of being easy
Everytime they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down
She packs her bags and plans to run away
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's wasted all her lonely tear drops
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's used up all her lonely tear drops now
She thinks about herself and cares about nobody else
because the only friends she has all put her down
They hate her when she's beautiful and even more when she's a fool
They talk behind her back when it's her birthday
Everytime they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down
She packs her bags and plans to run away
And everytime she makes a friend, the vicous cycle starts again
She's never, ever, ever looking back
Labels: wordsmagicallyspun
title: the next step?
date:
5 mins to 2.
i'm gna sleep now. i'm going to take a fucking drowsy inducing drug for my cold. each time i take it, i feel like dying even after waking up. so yes God bless me. i have to wake up in 4 hours, or the like.
i expect a mass studying session tomorrow since dear ali is not coming to school. so i shant bring chanel. i shall study math tomorrow. i shan't anti-socialise myself.
even though i'm sick.
and p.s. i cant stop thinking about something. i have no idea how to describe the feeling.
Labels: sick
title: ew
date:
i have a lot of crazy perverts on msn.
title: the holiday?
date:
i diverted a bit whilst studying tonight.
i diverted and i realise that everytime i look into both their lives, i feel this tiny urge in me to feel what they have for awhile. i wont ever trade my position for anything in the world. but i oh so want to feel like that.
get away. and feel like that.
every piece of it.
how?
hahas.
Labels: //, the aftermath
title: ohm
date: Monday, August 04, 2008
this is hard. trying to meditate. or even get started. but its hard. because i am hooked on this stupid reggaeton song that elfy sent me last week. so compared to waves of the ocean, this is so much more appealing right now.
but i have to meditate!!! so i can study better!! and it'll help my sickness right now.
damnit.
tonight's to-do
- read microecons
- figure out what's my next step
oh gosh freaking prelims in 2 weeks. wtf.
Labels: sick
title: the sessions
date: Sunday, August 03, 2008
listening to paramore acoustics. and i remember my sessions.
Labels: memory
title: breathe
date: Saturday, August 02, 2008
louiza is blank.
delilah just slept not too long ago.
this whole taking the whole day easy thing is not working out. now i feel stuffed up. i want to go for a walk. feel like calling junyuan for that.
but. 7th month?
so no.
and no beach.
or jog.
all which i want to do right now.
i have the urge to breathe in large amounts of the cool fresh night air. but then again, i'll prob smell burning.
so what should i do? plus i cant use chanel.
damn i feel lazy. even to bathe.
k i shall bathe.
- stand at window
- physical regime
- bathe.
and now i'm listening to shaggy. how random.
angel.
anyway. today slacked it all off with vicente and delilah. wanted to go to airport. but i was too lazy.
tell me something i'm not lazy to do.
laziness.
i'm even feeling lazy to sit here with bro's com. maybe i'll try to borrow joana's laptop later.
today i opened my freezer. and i have no idea. but the whole thing smelt like your freezer. ice everything.
oh wells.
Labels: blank, Dirty $exy Money, memory
title: don't you shiver
date:
louiza is 0% near breakdown.
havent had the opportunity to find my laptop charger so i'm using my bro's com again. damn uncomfortable. my back is still pain. sighs
anyways today was the test. andd i would be glad if i could feel the same way i did today post test, with the A levels. it was a good paper. but i doubt i'll be that lucky in the A levels.
so i'm just taking the rest of the day easy. no pressure on the mind i think she deserves it. after all that last minute memory work.
i feel pleasant.
speaking about minds, on thursday, i realised during philo class that i need to bring my thought processes down a notch. i find myself thinking too fast into the level of evaluations to the point i cant analyse arguments without critique. in other words i need to learn how to not critically analyse immediately. though i personally find that very adept of me.
which is good.
but i think its always best to hone skills by perfecting the basics sometimes...
reminds me of some movies. ahahs. ok anyways.
ok my back is fucking pain. i'm out of here.
Labels: 0%
title: lets go
date:
who said who said
i can't be worldwide?
i say i say
time is on my side
who said who said
i cant be ten feet tall
i say i say
that i can have it all
watch me.
Labels: inspiration
title: spine
date:
my back is FUCKING pain.
FUCK.
and i'm in my sibling's room using the com cos i fucking left my charger in college and chanel is out of battery.
uncomfortable
fuck fuck fucking pain.
sitting whole day!
Labels: sick
title: an informal post
date:
louiza is 30% near breakdown.
and thats quite worrysome.
not an official post, i just want to take a break from studying. but i dont want to go on the bed. cos then i'd migrate to dreamland for sure. then i can forget about finishing revision for my test which is in less than 8 hours.
yay me.
-_-
nah i'm determined to at least touch all the topics that are being covered.
anyway, thanks elfy.
Labels: 30%, elfie
