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The year is 2010. Apart from the traditional resolutions of not being lazy, having more patience et cetera, I also declared this year "The Adventure". Primarily, this is because I have no idea where I'd be at the end of the year. For the first time in my life, there is no "exam that I know I would have completed" or "school that I would be admitted into". I can be anywhere on earth by the last day of 2010. And that is what excites me, cos I can't wait to live it through and discover where I will be, who i will meet - new friends, new lovers. The possibilities are endless. And as I put my capabilities and personality to the test, I invite you to travel with me through this adventure and observe, as I live out the new decade.

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title: cutest everr
date: Saturday, February 20, 2010

it's official, my boyfriend is the CUTEST EVERR. and as a philosopher, i have decided to officially coin that term CUTEST EVERR to describe him.

he is seriously the CUTEST EVERR.

and i keep saying that over and over and over and over. and i dont think i'm everr going to stop. cos seriously, he is the CUTEST EVERR.

anyway, i was looking through pictures cos israel and i are holding a Browwy's Awards ceremony in school on monday, and guess who are the two finalists for Nerdiest Student?

yours truly, and the CUTEST EVERR!

haha and guess who's gonna win. ;)

seriously, i love the CUTEST EVERR. and i'm never gonna stop calling him that.

p.s. today i had to go to the NeWater plant for school... and my cutest everr person bought me my favorite cookies.


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posted by louiza darling @ 23:26
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title: yeah yeah yeahs
date: Friday, February 12, 2010



so guess what. today's another notably awesome day in life.

and i'm gonna blog.

in continuation to today's earlier post, yup i woke up 20 minutes before class, and thus decided to skip it.

eventually, i made my way to school.

and class was awesomely fun. i have the fastest typing hands.

was with the awesome people again.

must i emphasize more how much i love yi?

haha.

after class, hung out with geoffrey and darling E.

thenn, crashed philo class for a bit. and took a picture of yi's lover professor.

yeah they thought i wouldnt dare...

but i'm not gonna post his picture here. cos i foresee tons of people who would come steal.

well, i'm glad i made yi's week. ;)

hung with the two kings for a bit, then they had to get back to class.

after philo, the royal cohort made their way home together.

and i went to have dinner with one of the kings.

then i came home.

oh did i mention? i chatted again with tad. and now, he's gonna look for ghosts.


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posted by louiza darling @ 00:23
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title: two walks to dhoby gaut
date: Thursday, February 11, 2010


good morning world. the time now is, 1120 hours. i woke up 5 minutes ago, and class starts in 10 minutes.

i believe i will now have to skip that.

so now, as you can see, i' m here blogging. (:

mainly cos, yesterday was an awesome day. and i had meant to blog about it yesterday, but i dropped to exhaustion.

it wasnt awesome cos i clubbed, or went drinking or whatever. in fact, i barely club about those nights anymore.

it was awesome cos i went to school.

haha, as weird as that sounds.. yeah. its pretty true.

first lesson was fun. was with all the awesome people whom i miss really being together with. yi, geof, mervyn. haha when we work together its like chaos. needless to say, i didnt learn anything in that class. too much fun.

then i went to mac donalds with kiran and geoff for breakfast. where i ate a hell lot. that was fun too.

then, back to school to work on our proj, (G and I) then, before next class, walked Geoff to the station, then walked back to school just in time for class...

next class was awesome too, messing around with hari's pencilcase cos i didnt bring mine... as you can see from the picture above, yeah i was suffering from ink poisoning.

apparently ink gets absorbed into your skin when its on your palm. and that was permanent ink. my palm was literally aching. and i think my veins were rather blueish. =/

never mind, it was fun too.

after class, walked charles to the station, and back again in time for the bus to take us to the botanic gardens.

yeah i walked back and forth quite a lot from the station yesterday. haha. but it was pretty good exercise. plus each walk was the equivalent of one stick. so i was pretty relaxed and occupied.

omg botanic gardens was the shit. we didn't do the usual HIKING outdoors.

the doctor has connections with the people there. so we were brought into the confidential hieborium (dont know how to spell). basically a plant museum. it was soo cool. the curator lectured us around and he was so interesting.

seriously for a second i felt like ditching law to work as a taxonomist.

went home with sahiba, two big dogs jumped at me, and some guys nearby laughed. glad to be entertainment. haha.

went home, then went out for a bit.

then before coming back, stopped by jun yuan's where he enlightened me a bit on the theories of time travel.

2 physics gods exist in my life. sean ang, and jun yuan. both of whom are always willing to entertain my stupidity and teach me.

anywayyy, thats what happened yesterday.

went home, and took a well deserved shower.

then i succumbed to exhaustion.

alright gonna get prepared for another new day.

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posted by louiza darling @ 11:13
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title: do you know your enemy?
date: Wednesday, January 13, 2010

so it just sank into my brain that greenday is coming to singapore.

and i just thought of number 2. (:

look through your contact list on your mobile and text someone you haven't kept in touch with for a while.

yeah. that'll be interesting right?

a nearly lost relationship could be saved... or you could get to know more about someone you've always wanted to know more about....

and hey, it wouldnt hurt. even if nothing that constructive grows out of it, at least someone out there will know that you actually bothered to ask how they're doing.

so yeah. go do that now.

p.s. i'm doing it too.





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posted by louiza darling @ 00:34
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title: now if only i had color pencils
date: Sunday, January 10, 2010

so in the end, i didn't go clubbing. instead, i stayed home to draw. (: and chat with my girls online. who were of course the first to see my drawings.

and actually, i'm pretty lazy to upload them. but i'm kinda bored waiting for daddy to come home with the potato chips i asked for. so, here you go.



0ne day when i get color pencils and the time, i'll color them in.

alright! dad's home! chips and tv time.

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posted by louiza darling @ 01:24
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title: the final show of yizeng and louiza
date: Saturday, December 12, 2009


so, yesterday was graduation. ho hum, it was pretty fun. but what was more fun was the yi-za afterparty.

and thats probably gonna be our last run of c0-hosting parties. cos she flies off on monday for a month to shanghai, and when she's back i may not in broward.

shitzxx.

anyway, thats a picture of me as a guy. not really meant to be that. that was my last day of school outfit. a girl asked for my number. and a cute guy didnt even look at me cos i think he thought i was butch.

):

never act as a guy again.

anyway,, grad was at sentosa, prety fun. sat with the guys.

then went party at o bar with yi and prc people. omg i felt like i was in china. but that one guy was cute... awwzx. and stupid yi had to happily tell him i found him cute.

not that it mattered anyway. the whole time after that i was shouting about how he's "the hot guy".

but those prc people are seriously damn cool. they have that tycoon aura. haha.

i am going to get his number.

anywayyy,, kenneth came to rescue me from china. so that was cool.

then, i dont know why i was like so damn tired. i guess like i've been up since 7am. plus day before accounting finals.

so i was pretty shagged.

couldnt finish the clubbing escapade.

i took a cab back.

but then skater boy intercepted me. and i spent the rest of the night with him.

till morning. came back 9am.

and that was awesome.

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posted by louiza darling @ 11:20
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title:
date: Tuesday, December 08, 2009




so those are captures of the aftermath of writing. reminds me of my thesis days in As. the harry potter book. well, today i have another addition to the collection. haha. aztec human sacrifice rituals. soo, if you have no life and want to do some reading, come ask me for a copy. (:

anywayy, the past 28 hours was hellish seriously. research paper and law finals. but i had D on the same boat with me. so i'm cool (: quite fun actually

the song of the 28 hours was Daniel Bedingfield - Gotta get thro this. Hha. over and over and over again man. i'm saving that for future chiong-ing sessions.

today was interesting cos i encountered the big 3, and the other 3.

the big 3 refers to the awesomely smart sexy professors. haha. i'm sorry pardon my explicit opinion. i just really admire smart people.

took the train with THE lance today. and actually texted denny about it. cos inside joke, i'm lance and he's lance impersonator. so actually having THE REAL LANCE right in front of me while i was rushing to absorb my freaking law book was VERY unnerving. i kinda gave up just about at city hall.

omg lawyers. > <

then at school saw tad, but didnt go follow for smoke cos i was really scared about law, so went to panic-study with denny.

and we saw tad and lance talking and walking together and for like 10 seconds we both just stared at the two of them. LOL. damn funny.

but hotness honestly.

the test wasn't so bad. i hope. > <

then after class, talked to mr ethan moore about class and everything. i seriously enjoyed his classes so, thats something i'm definitely gonna miss. all the philo and stuff. he's one smart guy.

then, denny boy and i went home. he grabbed some yoghurt thingy before. then home!~

and thats the end of the big 3. gosh awesome.

then, comes the other 3.

today something weird happened. i spoke to 3 of my exes.

thats it.

haha.

ciao

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posted by louiza darling @ 23:09
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title: kids
date: Saturday, November 14, 2009

i spent friday the 13th celebrating my conquer of the shitload of work i had to do.

AWESOME.

clubbed supperclub and arena with the group.

really grateful to friends who took care of me when i puked.

lesson learnt: don’t drink on an empty stomach.

i had only so little to drink and yet, i felt so DAMN bloated and crapped.

so all came out.

and the funny part is

all that came out was water.

liquid.

no solids. cos i didnt eat the whole day.

why?

cos i was lazy to find the time.

hehex.

so i dont really want to blog everything that happened last night. cos strangely i want to just be able to replay it in my mind.

and also, i’m lazy to.

oh vivian, i met beatrice at supperclub.

dance.

smoke.

talk.

cubicles.

couples.

drink.

the 5 minute walk.

the trend setter.

the lift.

the partner.

the phone.

my bag.

hands.

hair.

taxi rides.

sticks.

stage.

scotland boy.

four boys to one girl.

mac donalds.

puke.

water.

baby are you down?

advertising.

and there you have it,

yizheng and louiza’s rival party.

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posted by louiza darling @ 18:19
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title:
date: Sunday, September 20, 2009


really really busy, but because kuga asked me to, i’ll blog about our day (or rather, evening) out together. yeah cos i’ve been so busy since the semester started, i haven’t blogged about any of our outings together. so i think i’ll spend some time on this one.

yesterday, we met around 5.30 in the evening. i was armed with all my study material. we were going to have a quiet constructive study session at a nice little cafe at the airport.

reached there, we had late lunch/dinner first. at our usual chinese restaurant where our dear friend is “a member”. but yeah, we had to agree that our usual outlet was much nicer. our snow mountain was “tall and thin”. snigger..

kuga was so cute. i was busy reading logic while he ordered. i wasnt really paying attention to his ordering. all i remembered was “baby can i order a lot?” i just nodded half-attentively. then, food came.

and kept on coming. and coming and coming and coming.

it was so cute.

haha.

after a really long meal, (i also managed to get a significant amount of logic done) we decided to move to our cafe. besides, kuga was shivering. did i ever tell you that he cant stand cold? like even a little. it was so funny.

so first, we walked to the skytrain station, to go to terminal 1. i was intending to go to the pacific coffee there.

after finally reaching there, we found construction barricades set up.

they were doing renovations, and my cafe was gone.

we walked to the other side of T1. other cafe also GONE.

walked to the skytrain station. took train to T2.

coffee bean. CROWDED LIKE HELL

starbucks CROWDED LIKE HELL

gloria jeans, only one plug. which was being used.

pacific coffee, – come on say it with me – GONE.

it was all good fortune that kuga was there to calm my nerves down. cos at this point i was getting impatient and frustrated. while he was shivering, i could feel tense heat building in me.



calmly, kuga encouraged me to go try terminal 3. so okay we went there.

and guess what.

CROWD EVERYWHERE.

it was so gross.

then kuga enlightened me about the stupid phenomenon. “it’s saturday evening”

-_-



okay now i know never to study out on saturday.

we walked on, searching desperately. me getting more pissed. but it’s a true miracle how calm he was able to remain despite all. like come on, he was carrying ALL my study material. laptop, thick logic book, bag, paper. while i was complaining so loudly. one can only imagine what he must have been going through. but he just kept being happy.

ah, sometimes i think he’s not human.



finally, i was so angry, i decided to sit down on one of the chairs at the departure hall.

i looked at him, and it really occurred to me at that point that he hasn’t complained one bit. this coupled with the fact that i havent spent time with him the whole week due to tests, i really started to feel guilty and appreciate the person sitting next to me.

so i took my laptop, and logged on to the movies showing that evening. and i said, “baby, screw it. come, lets go watch a movie.”

the wide grin i got in reply said it all.

but that wasnt the end of my woes. cos then when i wanted to book tickets online, the stupid page kept lagging.

so then again, the impatient louiza came out.

then, i gave up. took down the phone booking number and decided to give that a shot instead.

like that worked.

the stupid machine was speaking so slowly. i shoved the phone to kuga and ordered him to listen and book while i packed up my stuff.

he made me laugh by looking at me clueless saying “baby, they’re talking so slow!”

i was getting so frustrated about not being able to even book tickets, he then decided to just like go to tampines and buy the tickets from there.

apparently for a 10.30 show at eng wah century square.

okay fine, so we took a bus there.

reached there, and guess what. there was no “10.30” show. it’s like the internet lied to me. there was 11.30. but i really didnt want to wait so long. so from there, we decided to walk to tampines mall GV to see if there were better timings. all the way there, we discovered, NO. no better timings. 11.30 was the next show.

so okay at this point i just gave up. i decided to just buy from tm gv. but then kuga said, “baby dont you like the seats at century more?” i told him if we wanted to go there, we’ll have to walk like all the way there again. and i didnt want to trouble him. really i’ve been dragging him around my crazy moodiness. but then, he insisted we go there. so being the sweet person he is, we walked back to century square and bought the tickets.

but that left us with an hour free. and yes, coffee bean and starbucks were CROWDED. because it’s a saturday evening.

so we went to ocean blue. and got drinks.

which sucked. not unlike the first time i went there.

i got a gin and he got a daquiri.

sucked.

but then! kuga did some magic! he like went to order again, but this time he ordered the ingredients separately. and made the drink in front of me.

i swear he’s the best bartender ever. he makes the best gin. reason why i started drinking gin more often is cos of him. he knows a good gin when he drinks one.

and it was amazing. really. the old drink was like puke. the new drink was wow.

then, with the remaining ingredients, he modified the stupid daquiri we got. and viola! some REALLY nice cocktail.

it was so nice! even he was in love with the new unknown concoction.

okay so, he was really nice to me the whole day. not snapping at my immense impatience at everything.

we watched the ugly truth later on at 11.30 which was really nice, then we went home at a nice 2am.

but that wasnt the end. something really random happened thereafter.

he went down by my window, (i live on the 12th floor) and we started texting each other. i sat by my window while looking down, he sat by the park downstairs my house and we just texted. for like one and a half hours.

cos i didnt want him to go. so he stayed down there and texted me.

then when he left at 3.30, that was the end. (:

p.s. okay i've been trying for hours to upload pictures onto blogger. but freaking blogger sucks. i'm gonna upload an album onto facebook since i'm active there now. check it out okay?? promise??? good. (:

GO TO THE ALBUM

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posted by louiza darling @ 21:31
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title: hold my hand, squeeze it tight.
date: Wednesday, June 10, 2009

my perfect little gentleman.

i'll blog about today tomorrow. it's 5.30am already at the moment. think i had better get some shut eye. but first, of course i'll write starr a letter.

he deserves it, after being so awesome today.

but before i forget...

(louiza had asked for a straw at lunch today from the waiter. after a few minutes, it became apparent that he had forgotten about my request...)

kuga : i think if i walk over there, it'll be faster...

louiza : never mind! maybe he just forgot.. it happens. he's very nice.

kuga : he's nice? how can you forget the order of a beautiful girl?

giggle giggle giggle.



you'll only understand a book after reading it.

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posted by louiza darling @ 05:25
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title: The 2nd Thanaskodi.
date: Saturday, May 16, 2009

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posted by louiza darling @ 11:10
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title: you make me do
date: Monday, April 13, 2009

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posted by louiza darling @ 23:58
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title: i love myself.
date: Tuesday, February 03, 2009

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posted by louiza darling @ 19:20
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title: The Only Chinese in the Family
date: Tuesday, January 27, 2009


just watched mediacorp's movie - A Kucinta Family Reunion.

okay, better than i would have expected. i give it like a 7/10. it was rather cliche but the very last second of the movie saved it all. when the girl finally gets her memory back. that was very unexpected. for me, that was the save.

anyway, here's something to think about.

i've known this couple, for almost a year now. i've seen their relationship develop, from the time they got together etc. relationships arent exactly my kinda thing but i was actually kinda rooting for them. they seem so cute together and everything. families both love each other, they just seemed really grounded.

and now, apparently there's some trouble. the kind of trouble that really shakes a relationship. not the periodical tides that come and go. this one's like major. and everything seems so unstable.

and i can really relate to that. i've been through that kind of phase many times before. where everything's so unstable and so undecided. and it's so scary, frustrating and heartbreaking for at least one party. it just sucks.

and then, everything gets thrown away.

i hate it how relationships have a tendency to turn out like that.

who needs a heart when a heart can be broken?

i'm so glad i'm not in that position. i would never want to be. its so tiresome.

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posted by louiza darling @ 23:36
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title: chocolate buffet
date:

the oversized PE shirt i bought in sec 4 because i didnt bother bring my PE attire for PE that day. but then i had to buy cos apparently NAFA was that afternoon. and i didn't even know. anyway i didnt have a choice. so i bought.

see it's blue house? well actually i belong to the red house. but i decided to buy blue so cheryl and i could be in the same PE section. yup, she's from the blue house for real.

the deliberate mix up was fun and worth every weird stare i got from the delinquent haters.

now it's just a pyjama.

convinced me to please you. make me think that i need this too.

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posted by louiza darling @ 15:53
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title: bubbles
date: Monday, January 12, 2009

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posted by louiza darling @ 00:41
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title: The Christmas Album
date: Saturday, January 10, 2009

finally done with the editing of the Christmas Amateur Pictures.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=81326&l=0902a&id=535818199

enjoy~

and now i'm off to bed as i'm meeting cheryl at 5 plus am.

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posted by louiza darling @ 01:16
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title: Louiza's Paradox
date: Wednesday, December 31, 2008

i'm halfway hanging the clothes for daddy. nevertheless, suddenly i felt like blogging so i'm here for awhile.

thats the kind of person i am - i think a lot. maybe too much? i dont know.

so while i was hanging clothes, i was thinking again.

my thoughts, i think in prose. in argument. like i'm writing an essay. organized is only how i allow my thoughts to be recognized by the conscious of my mind. thats the only way i feel that i dont miss anything about myself. after all, i'm only starting to learn about me.

weird right? but i must say that this whole year of self-discovery was not what led me to think like that. even before this year, i was already thinking a lot. maybe since last year when i found out and realized that i cant go around doing things just cos i had a moment's feeling of wanting to. impulsiveness if u ask me.

so even last year, many times i'll suddenly put my arm out and stop martin and myself from wadever we're doing. say even walking down bugis. and i'll go, "stop, i need to think." and right there, my eyes go unfocused while my mind sharpens and works inside. only when i've concluded my internal discussion will i say, "come lets go.."

i must admit, he was very patient with my thoughts.

so anyway once i feel i've had an essay, i come here to translate it in visible words. notice, i use the word "visible" cos in my mind, they are already paragraphs. but only unseen to u.

anyways, i actually woke up not too long ago. yesterday was the first in many days that was spent at home. no visiting. a day at home with family, and most importantly myself.

i watched mr magorium's magical emporium. it was amazing. i'll give it 10/10. then i watched lots of grey's anatomy till 6am.

i hardly looked at my hp yesterday. only the occasional glance every few hours to reply msgs that came in. my hp was silent, naturally i missed most calls.

deliberate.

thats one thing i've learnt about myself. that very often, i have no mood to talk on the phone. wasnt always like this, but i guess now it is. very often, i just dont feel like putting in the energy verbally to connect with the world.

i just like quiet, u know.

i like spending time with myself. with family at most. especially after days of nonstop action with people.

and i think it will be enlightening if others understood that. not necessary, but enlightening and advantageous.

i say not necessary cos i dont expect anyone to be able to really understand. simply cos it's quite an unusual stance for me or anyone to take. weird actually.

when i miss calls, it is necessary to understand that it's not cos i'm pissed with you, or sad, or deliberately avoiding you. [unless you're a crazy stalker] it's just that more often that not, i dont have the mood to talk. it's a bit like introvert. i think thats the introvert side of me.

but im more of a visual person. in a sense that if you text me, i'll reply. i like to do that, rather than talk.

it is also necessary to know that me not picking your calls doesnt mean you're less significant to me. this is extremely important. again, its just because i'm more often than not, not in the mood to talk on the phone.

i get many calls a day from many people. i just feel that if i were to diligently answer every single one, i wont have time for myself.

i'm not asking anyone to understand, my reasoning behind this weird behaviour is quite hard to comprehend.

but one common misunderstanding i often come across is the impression that louiza is avoiding everyone and wants to be alone because she is troubled and sad.

and that's one thing i dont quite get. must i be sad to want to enjoy quiet and solidarity? does this mean that happiness is only attainable if i'm in constant active interaction with social peers?

no, it doesnt. i pray you consider after being single for the first time in 5 years, i've actually grown to lovve spending time with myself and getting to appreciate myself.

i do want to connect with people. but talking on the phone is just not how i happen to like doing it. i'm a visual person, i rather read texts, IM online, letters, stuff like that. so if you just understand this visual nature of mine, i'll be glad to reply your messages diligently. that's just me.

apologises for the whole rant about me. like i said, i dont expect anyone to really understand. but please do, just consider the possibility.

but i can offer one insight to why i'm possibly like this. after all, like i said i didnt always not like to talk on the phone. my plausible explanation is as such:

i used to love talking on the phone. for years since i was 13, i would talk really really long. like it could even stretch to 18 hours at one go. but ever since the start this year, when i have to juggle schooling, homework, assignments, research, household chores and of course taking care of delilah.

with only 24 hours in a day, it was vital that i efficiently used every second of my time, packing as much as possible into every minute i had, wanting to make every minute fruitful. afterall, this was vital if i wanted to make something of myself. multi-tasking became the routine. reading notes while i ate meals, reading notes while i took care of delilah, reading notes while travelling. even solving math problems in my dreams.

so now, school has ended but i suppose this trait still lives on in me - that every minute has to be fruitful. and now, fruitful refers to family and myself. so think about it. if i'm on the phone, i cant multi-task.


if i'm on the phone for hours, to me thats not time best spent. it may sound quite insensitive but thats just me. cos i cant multi-task. i cant talk engagingly and at the same time take care of delilah. how do i talk to two people? or i cant talk on the phone at the same time enjoy a walk with daddy or bro. so u see its pretty hard.


and after the day's done, of spending with family and del, i just want alone time. to do my own thing. settling into the night with a good book, or a good movie.

thats why i prefer visually connecting with people. by texting, i can still go about doing other stuff that i have to do.

as said before, i dont expect understanding. but if anyone did, he or she would already have understood quite a significant amount about the kind of person i am.

anywayyyyyyyyyyyyy, today's the last day of the year. 3.30pm and i havent decided wad to do yet for the eve.

a bit weird, did you know that i did not experience the 1st of jan this year? i was in the plane travelling from the states and due to the relative nature of time, 1st jan did not exist for me. weird right?

so yeah i was saying, still dunno wad to do tonight. but just in case i'm not home, i think i'll do resolutions now.

  1. I will not be lazy.
  2. I will not eat unhealthy foods.
  3. I will stop eating ice.
"fun" and "mental" is "fundamental"...

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title: it's back on track
date: Sunday, December 28, 2008


i love this. feel happy again.
everything's settled.

and i just came back not too long ago from aunty joyce's house.
LOVED IT.
super fun. seeing everyone. HAD FUN.

SORRY a bit high now. JUST a bit.

but i can honestly tell u, that the highness, most oF IT COMES FROM HAPPINESS. NOT ALCHOHOL. but happiness that i have MY WHOLE FAMILY BACK AGAIN. i love them all. omg. i love them

i should bathe soon. but i toook some pictures. want to show u. (:

listening to christmas songs again.

i cant wait for next years christmas. daddy says we will be in america!
'
i jsut want to be with family.family is best.
yesyesyes.

dont care where.

glen also. made for me drink. vicente also. not bad.

and the elfy! elfy thank you for standing my ramblings. and helping. my friend whole year in school. cheers!

my family! is great.
k i show u picture.

i swear. whoever i go with, for good, like serious relationship, better better love my family. and wadever we do. and how we talk. i dont care.

i love u.

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title: The M&M Christmas Love Story
date: Wednesday, December 24, 2008

hey everyone. first of all, a really really merry christmas to everyone out there, all over the world. i appreciate everyone of you who read this blog of mine, have an awesome holiday everyone.

so today's Christmas Day. the day i've been looking forward to the whole damn year...

couldnt have gone any better... i just got home not too long ago from a day of visiting and family... bathed and now i'm under the covers on my bed listening to more christmas songs... feeling so cosy and touched by the season, i kinda feel like crying.

yeah sometimes i think i'm emo.

okay. i shall recount my day, before talking about the wedding. with pictures of course.

yesterday was christmas eve, woke up late from the late night we had at the wedding... it rained damn heavily the whole day... in the end, we didnt go for midnight mass... had an evening walk with vicente in the rain, bought stuff to eat during our movie marathon.

yeah we had a christmas movie marathon. like till 3am. whole family was up, well except for del. she was sleeping. (:

mom and dad doing xmas stuff for the house.... bro and i watching tv...

it was all good.

today daddy woke us upp early. went for 12.30 mass. delilah was the highlight. she was dressed as santarina. haha i'll try to get a picture soon... everyone was smiling at here wherever we went. mass with family's always great...

church was weird. not used to going for christmas mass in singapore... it's always overseas... i still remember last year in the states... that was good. but here in singapore, i met some people in mass. so more wishes and happy faces.

again, it was all good.

went to godma's house thereafter for lunch. big family was there.... same ol' eurasian fun. joking around... eating... karaoke... laughing.... seeing everyone... and delilah being praised for her cuteness in santarina clothes...

i ate a lot. so did everyone... family was everywhere...

again, it was all good.

dinner, was at aunty evie's house. again, family was everywhere.... playing with del... eating.... talking.... more food... seeing everyone...

all the more, it was good.

words cant describe fully how awesome and heartfelt the emotions were today.... it was merely priceless... but the wait the whole year was definitely worth it.

okay, on to the wedding. i pray i still remember.

everyone woke at around 8am.... the wedding was to take place at st francis xavier, 11am.... everyone from all over the world came... the us, australia, hong kong.... it was nice to see fellow gragos from all over....

and weddings are always great... love. beautiful. here are some pictures...



this is bro and me during the mass... haha.
breathtaking.
purple was like dominant in my family... daddy delilah joana and me.
this is my ska man
the bride and groom

after the wedding, we had a lunch reception...
aaron and vicente
the king and his trademark purple socks
someone took something of hers i think
the coolest kids




after the wedding, we walked out to main street for a cab...

lylah walked too!! (:

kay so we went home, the weather was really really hot. but i thnk we survived... yeah we did.

watched a movie... relaxed awhile, and soonafter, we got ready for the wedding dinner/pan pacific.
daddy and deedee. my fav ppl in the whole world
the family's first reaction to this picture: "who's that ghost on the right???"
cuteness.

so we went for the dinner... emcee kept emphasizing, "this is an eurasian wedding, all those chinese people who are used to leaving after dessert, dream on. we are gonna dance till the wee morning. dont disturb us. "

and that's what we did. (:

the joseph band played. yes we josephs are known for our music talents. and after they played, there was a DJ to play more upbeat this generation songs. hahas.

so we had dinner, then the dancefloor opened!~

had oldies love songs playing, i waltzed with aaron.

then had fun swing songs, oldies, just care free corny stuff. square dancing, country.

i love my family. seriously. being a joseph/pereira/gomes/de souza is cool. and the person i'm gonna marry will have to accept that and want to join in the fun!! hahah!

grab me by the hand and do-si-do!!

the dancing was fun.... everyone was there.

my wedding's gonna be like that. not the chinese kind. eat and chao.

here are some pictures.(:

aunty vicky and vicente...
even lylah danced!!! haha
the loved
delilah, aunty evie and uncle ranjin...


louiza dancing to some fun country song. hahaha.
bro and i

haha then we had a "train" song. where we trained up and danced around the ballroom, being led by the bride of course. super fun and chaotic! hahaha.
see at times we went too fast all of a sudden. bro lost my ass. haha.
we're at the background. the 40 something eurasian guy in front of me was sexy.
my mom in red! hahahaha.
i was hopping.

they even played "put ur right hand in put your right hand out, do the hokey pokey and turn urself around" we were in a circle and everytime the chorus came, everyone will rush towards the middle. super fun.

this lasted till 1 plus in the morning.... and finally we came home...


bro and dee and i after coming home.....


alright thats it! see more pictures than words... i love my family. (:

kay i'm gonna watch a xmas movie now with the peeps. (: hope u guys enjoyed the post... thanks for all your wishes today.
from all of us at the josephs', have a loved christmas.

love,louiza.

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