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its 2.20am and i'm so so sleepy but i just HAVE to blog to record down the niceness of recent events.

so to continue the louiza tale, last night i did watch the match with jave.

but i fell asleep halfway. then he called and woke me up somewhere between the 2nd half. and we talked and talked until 6.

i realize he's my chinese hokkien version of elfy. i like to hear him scold in hokkien. hahah! one of those crazy louiza fetishes.

anyways, i have no idea how i managed to pull myself out of bed at 8. must be the giant muffin. it was like an encouragement for me to get out of bed and have it for breakfast. which i did. i had like a HUGE HUGE chunk of it.

NICE!

went to work, and worked with noliza for the first time. nice.

THEN THANA CAME!!!!!!!!

AHHHH I WAS SO SO HAPPY!

but then raja took him away. shortly after. ): sad. irritated at raja! i miss thana so so much!

then jave came a bit late. so i stayed to help eloisa.

then...

lion surprised me! by coming to work like early. he was actually supposed to start at 6. but at 3.30 he was waiting for me.

YAY.

went to tcc. i bought him a coffee drink and fed him the ice cream. told him how i ran alone once to mexico cos i was pissed at my mom. then 6 came and i walked him back to the club.

came home, and things were fine.

then there was a PROBLEM.

yes. a problem emerged. that really really made me feel like shit.

really.

but daddy tried to comfort me. so that was quite nice. even though i was still sad, he managed to calm me down.

with not much of a mood, i decided to get an early nap. that was midnight.

but then, LION CALLS!

and THANA'S WITH HIM!

SO, i conference with the two of them like till now!

damn damn fun. and honestly that made me feel so so so much more happier.

tomorrow i get to see them! (:

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easier to swallow. if you want something smooth instead of the aggressive jacob's creek.

today wasn't that great either... things cant really compare to the happiness of the previous days before yesterday. i don't feel like going work later. i want to finish my uni things. ughs.

work was okay. i only perked up when thana came.

i've come to realize he's really really a true friend and i will do anything i can for him.

but then i ended soon after... so i left.

then just had my usual day. filled with stress from reading.

then, the dream team came down to pasir ris.

with a bottle of hardys merlot and SWENSONS ICE CREAM!!!!

omg that made me loads happier.

thanks for taking care of me lion. i appreciate it.

then talked to jave on the phone. really really fun talking to that guy. we both miss selvam very much.

and now, i'm feeling much better.

but i'm wondering, should i sleep?

i frankly dont feel like it.

ok 5am still talking to jave.

 

6.30! hahaha. gangster.

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omg i totally love christmas!! the whole christmas feeling, warmth etc! omg i just love it. and right now, i'm like listening to my dad's oldies cd of christmas songs. and being all late and everything in the night, i just feel all tingly and nice.

the christmas spirit. u know, you feel the spark in late november... and as december grows, so does this feeling... then you see love all around, and smiles, and happiness.

it's what i wait for all year.

omg. thats all i can say right now. i wish i had the ability to write like Rowling. i'll describe it so so much better.

well actually, i think i can. if i really thought about the words. but i'm just too excited to think. it's like i just want to get everything out all at once. the feeling's too exciting to be told in stages.

omg!!! now listening to 12 days of xmas! and yesterday leon called to sing that for me. it was really funny the way he sang it.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the XMAS FEELING!!!!!!!!

 

yeah so anyway what was i saying. yeah! i'm sorry i dont have good english! i'd really wanna speak of the christmassyness more accurately. DAMN.

okay. lets talk about my day, which was really xmassy.

firstly i woke up after having a weird dream. =/

for some reason, Chris Brown was over at my place. it was something like his family are friends of my family so we were like offering some sort of hospitality while he was in sg.

I DNO IT WAS SO WEIRD! I DONT EVEN LIKE CHRIS BROWN.

he was wearing this blue hiphop shirt or something, and he was in my room. we were talking. and my mom was like nagging at me to go bathe. so i was like "yeah okay!" then i told him i'll brb...

then as i stood up to go, he was like, "hey wait". then he kissed me.

SO DAMN RANDOM! (and i repeat, i dont like chris brown)

so i was like, "umm okayy.. i'm gonna bathe".

i walked to the kitchen and quickly took out my hp to call vi and cher. to tell them wad just happened. they picked and after recounting to them the weird incident, i was like, "i dno it was so weird right!! i mean i dont even like his songs!!! but oh wells, how many girls can say that they've kissed chris brown?"

at that instance, chris brown walks into the kitchen. -_-''

so i ended the call. my brother had been in the kitchen all the while when i was talking to vi and cher.

i said ,"hi!" to chris, then i told my bro in malay, "dont tell chris i said i hate his songs."

yeah. cos i had the feeling my bro was gonna like sabo me in some way.

then i woke up.

HOW WEIRD RIGHT?!?

so yeah that was my dream.

 

today was a real family day again. everyone was home (:

had lunch together on the big table, and we established i'm a daddy lover. but yet i bully dad. and vicente is a mummy's baby.

we did a hell lot of stuff to the house today. cleaned, vacuumed, CHANGED THE CARPETS. we had to lift like TWO FREAKING HEAVY MARBLE TABLES. they're seriously damn heavy. last time we changed carpets we had uncles aunties cousins and if i'm not wrong my bf at that time to help.

thats how heavy it is!

but with a bit of joseph spirit, we did it! (:

and i can rightfully conclude that my mom's deco owns orchard's completely. seriously. and i'm not being biased.

 

xmas in sg.

no snow, but still fabulous.

and that hasnt stopped me from snow boots.

yes mom i'm crazy.

 

after the day's work, vicente and i watched another xmas movie. I LOVE WATCHING XMAS MOVIES IN DECEMBER!!!! it just reinforces the whole xmassy feeling. i watched christmas with the kranks. it was really heartwarming and tingly. i give it 10/10. only thing i didnt like was the HEAVY SNOW they had!!! cos i got really jealous. it was really heavy!!!!

last time i had snow that heavy, was like when i was 14? family and i were in las vegas and it was snowing like FUCK (sorry fuck's the best word to describe the degree of how heavy the snow was)

and we actually walked along the streets like for 30 mins to get to lunch. and snow was getting into our EYES. yeah can u believe that! eyes!!! damn painful. and wet and cold. and cousins and daddy (the most playful of the older generation) were like throwing humongous snowballs at everyone. SUPER IRRITATING! but fun. but painfully fun. like u want to laugh, but u have no breath to. 

and occasionally someone would fall on icy ground.

i miss that.

 

watching tv just now, i saw the MAC advert again. the cute one!! about manliness. *rudy just came into my mind*.

anyway, this advert was like about the gf getting the bf to wear a shirt with the letters LO. and hers had VE. so that together they spelt LOVE. and the guy's friends were making fun of him, while the girl was like so happy.

SUPER CUTE.

 

and today i had that nice phone call again with 80. short, but nice.  take care of yourself kay.

and that's the end of this post.

thanks for reading!!

love, louiza.

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elfy will laugh if he sees my nickname. and its in malay. k to be exact, i expect the response to be, "what the fuck..."

hahas. i am waiting for vicente to come home from school. then we can go together to whitesands to buy lunch. i'm feeling for a bacardi. what say you?

haha. anywayy, i just came home from college. national day celebrations. kind of dumb and useless. but oh wells. saw quite a few people having fun, so i spose its kinda good. not my thing at least.

saw a few eyecandies too. and disappointingly like they didnt dress that nicely. like eyecandies are spose to. hahahs. come with me and let me DRESS YOU UP!!!! especially the two... (lj)

todays wardrobe

1. guess
2. dorothy perkins
3. Calvin Klein

its always nice to look nice. hahah. NOT SAYING THAT I DID LOOK NICE. i triedd. not saying that i FAILLEEEDD.. ahh wtf. i shall shut up now.

so anywayss, more of today will  be on my lj. lets move on to yesterday. remember i was sposed to blog nicely but didnt hv mood? i shall do it now.

chatting with cheryl at the same time. SHE ON HER GETAWAY AT WONDERLAND. ughs!

haha

k yesterday.

during philo, jaq and steph read out some dialogue thing. and i was DAMN IMPRESSED. ok maybe i'm being happy for nothing. after all, everyone there who're mostly theatre studies ppl are used to it. but i was really really entertained. seriously they were good!

i nearly clapped after it ended. actually i think i did. once. haha.

yesterday i stayed in school till LATE to study.

ok thats it i guess. most of everything's at lj. see u there.

"i really wanted to just pull you and run away."

the songlike phrases you conjure.

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vicente's birthday today. so i guess he had a lot of fun today with his friends.

sherwin... some friend of his. quite cute. hahs.

anyways, its nice to come home and see delilah playing with mom.

speaking of college, shit. i got a whole crapload of work to do by tomorrow. so i should get started now.

something just struck me.

i feel that everyone else is panicking for prelims.

i know i have a lot to do, but why is it that i'm just taking things easy?

oh God that means i'm slacking!!!

damn.

ok bYe.

p.s. thanks for being such a gentleman of late. please continue.

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sometimes i think my brain moves too fast for my own good. like RAM overload. not that i'm as smart as a computer or anything. but then again i still believe that coms, as a creation of man, can never be more superior than man, or even equal at that.

alrightt so guess what.

i decided to blog. yup. that long-awaited post. i realise i'm gonna be always very busy. might as well blog now before my memory taints it all. not that i have bad memory. but i dont have a super one. hahahs.

k i shant belittle my brain.

alright so i'm gna blog, then meditate. then i'll hit work. delilah just fell asleep.

p.s. super explicit will be on my lj. yes SUPER. cos i think the way i blog now is already quite explicit. the other blog's so that no one gets offended. hahas.

lets go.

louiza is 50% near breakdown. due to the increasing pressure and atmosphere around me. natural natural i spose.

monday

see, cant really remember. hmm. i went school as usuals.

all i remember is, it was raining. and i was happy.

and i talked to daddy on the way home. i went home quitee early.

tuesday

daddy went for med checkup. his eye. delilah's finger nail entered or something. he's fine now but had a few days mc till friday.

so i could stay back a bit in school.

oh yeah weather was pleasantly rainy again.

i stayed back awhile but didnt accomplish anything academically. was a bit frustrating. /=

math remedial was damn fun. love elfy.

A.T.

2 hours.

reached home 6.

read a bit.

tv therapied a hell lot.

felt pleasantly lethargic. was a bit irritated with my laziness. but all's good.

wednesday

road run. at east coast beach.

imagine this. 3 yrs in my college and i had no idea such a thing existed. apparently i always ponned it. surprised i went? hahah.

went with jun yuan. breakfast at airport.

and it was raining. heavily.

so for 2 hours the whole school hid in shelters around the beach.

and the damn event was carried out in light drizzle. funny.

we didnt run.

we walked with our bags.

yes bags.

and detoured to the jetty for photo taking.

oh isaac rocks. so interesting to talk and walk with him along the beach. he's really artistic.

k anyways guess what after that my whole class went to watch the dark knight.

which i so WANNA WATCH!

but i went home.

YES I WENT HOME -_-

to try study micro econs. cos i fucking SUCK at it. year one topic. louiza never bothered going school in year one.

so yes i'm reaping the rewards now. wtf right.

took 12. and it brought back a hell lot of memories.

didnt really manage to do a lot of micro. i diverted to my love of math.

ohkay i did a bit. of micro. but not enough. i will slap the next person that says i know stuff.

i will.

i hate the pressure ohkay. i'm not all-knowing.

say something true.

like my memory is good.

like i'm smart.

but dont say i know things.

like micro econs.

like bill gates.

like wadever.

ohkay.

dont.

phew ok sorry for that diverted rant. i just hate how people think i know specific things.

k anyways, wednesday. that happened. then dirty sexy money.

thursday

i stayed in school late. like till it closed. with my philo frens. it was fun but still stressful.

3 essays down.

i think philo was the highlight.

I TOUCHED SOMEONE'S HAND!!!

okk maybe just a shake. BUT STILL!!!!!

it felt nice.

ahahhah! elfy would now say this

PERASAN!

but nooO!! it was nice.

this is one of the things to be elaborated at lj.

anyways, yeah it was cool nice to stay in college till night. something nostalgic and mellow about it.

i had fun guys!

i died thursday night. too tired. but i wrote hell a lot of philo essays. so i spose thats a bit consolation.

i didnt watch ANTM. thats how dead i was.

friday

gate aunty is so nice.

philo was good. weijie lectured on confucianism. and it was awesome really.

stayed in college till late.

with a few others.

damn unproductive.

not cos i was slacking.

no i was trying my darnest to click and create chemistry with microecons.

i just naturally suck at it.

to the point i got so stress i broke down.

so thanks to elfy for tolerating my rants. YET AGAIN.

i was really feeling shitty.

eyecandy was around tho, but that didnt stop me from feeling shitty and stupid.

louiza gets chased. not chase.

ohkay. i died again yesterday night. surfing the net. not studying. cos i gave up on the test that i had today.

TODAY

i did the exam, or rather stoned there.

didnt write a shit.

only one stupid paragraph. for 6 essays that i suppose to do.

i only briefly touched 3.

i'm dead.

oh i blew bubble gum too.

after the test, i went to an ulu part of school, outside the LTs.

studied a bit of philo.

the college got really quiet.

i was revising confucianism. there was one character i was stuck at, so i approached some chinese guy and asked him to read it.

it was li - benefits from something.

thank you for that help.

then went home, went through the slides.

delilah-ed e whole day. and now i guess i'm here.

ANNEX

i said i'd blog about "mugging" remember?

k thing is, i hate that word.

it sounds disgusting.

like a mug.

so when people use it, i just grimace.

not that i cant tolerate, i guess that day PMS amplified things and brought down my tolerance level.

use "study"

oh look what i found.

cambridge dictionary.

mug (STUPID PERSON)
noun [C] MAINLY UK INFORMAL
a person who is stupid and easily deceived:
He's such a mug, he believes everything she tells him.

totally goes along with my instinct. ie. dumb stupid word.

i checked a lot of dictionaries. i see associations to:

• getting robbed
• a cup

but nothing that has got to do with studying.

i also want to blog about another thing.

not bitchy things.

in fact,

love.

yes.

agape and eros.

those are greek words for unconditional love and erotic lust love respectively.

just some food for important thought.

another thing to blog about, meditation.

started today.

its cos i think my brain's working too fast. i think it needs to shut down occasionally. so i'm trying to do that.

and another thing.

i have nothing against bimbos. i have something against excessively mindless people.

aka try too hard to be mindless, possibly for attention.

good news: u achieve the mindless part.

bad news: u're not hot enough to achieve the attention.

dont waste my time. i'm not a guy trying to get in ur pants, or a girl who's all about superficiality.

ok. on to my lj.

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k now i'm really feeling a bit loserish.

i cant do my work here in college (yes i brough chanel) even though i really want to cos my essential notes are at home.

DAMNIT.

and i already wasted SO MUCH time!

someone slap me.

ok u noe wad.

i have a list. yes i just made a list. its called the MUST DO LIST. as in must do today!~ and it will be done today. damnit. ok i'm going home now, and i'm going to start work at exactly 6. which is inclusive of late lunch.

DAMN.

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louiza is 50% near breakdown.

cos i'm fretting on how slack i've been recently.

DAMNIT.

anyways, good news, today i feel much better.blackk wings. so i feel confident that i can accomplish more today.

and i will let u know later.

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