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Today's weather was sou bad. Like seriously it sucked big time. It was damn damn damn effing hot. And I felt so ughish.

Had a nightmare too. Dreamt I was a member of the Jedi Council. -_- First time I've ever had such a dream. But trust me that wasn't why it was a nightmare. (As if that wasn't bad enough.)

Anyways, I had an awesome awesome afternoon with Babyfase. (As like other days.) We went to eats at KFC because I wanted to. :) Then when we came out, like omg. The sky was SOU DARK.

It was so brilliant.

Sou we walked homes. Walking with Babyfase is so sou very naice. > <

And then it began to rain. So we took a bus back. Cos well, I didn't want the Babyfase to get sicker than he already wass.

And nows I'm back heres. At home. The weather's really really nice. :)

And I love Babyfase.

Tomorrow we're watching Shrek! hehee With delilah!.

Labels: dreamdiary, i hate every beautiful day, starrs and love

finally i'm blogging. been too lazy to blog for the past week plus. somehow, i've been feeling exhausted and sleepy. so i don't stay up much if i'm home.

anywayys, (:

time now's about 3am and i'm here sitting on my bed blogging the long delayed post.

and i think i have the most nice and understanding boyfriend.

he had this fantastic nice plan. of which i really really love to do.

just now after work at 11.30pm, he had wanted to come down here, grab my laptop (and me of course) and have a late night supper at downtown macs. then walk home, late into the night.

wouldn't have been our first time doing that, we've already done that several times. and i absolutely LOVE our night outings. (:

BUT, tonight, i turned him down.

yeah i actually did that.

why?

cos of PMS. for some illogical reason, i feel like being left alone. like i just don't want to be with anybody.

and kuga was like so understanding to my whiny-ness.

no objections, or negative responses. he was totally totally supportive, and even allowed me to text my new "boyfriend". (but i didn't text him much anyways cos i really didnt want the presence of anyone around me. yes crazy i know.)

he even made me smile and giggle with his "mushy talk" to me on the phone before he left work. seriously people who know him (like thana) always say they've never seen THE KUGA manja anyone like how he treats me.

so even though i didn't meet him, he left me all in smiles and laughter. (:

but now i'm getting a bit saddish and impatient. cos he hasn't called me yet. since 12.30am. ):

never mind, i shall be patient!.

in the meantime, i think i shall record down what has been happening since last monday.

[fyi, time now is 5pm. i slept last night. didn't finish the post. will continue now. (: ]

now, i'm massaging my feet, sitting in the armchair at the living room... delilah's asleep. and the weather's fine. cloudy/rainy.

yeah it rained pretty heavily last night. i talked with kuga on the phone till nearly 5am. hey! thats like 12 hours earlier from now! haha.

anywayss, okay.

on tuesday, i had that date with boyfriend.

fun-ness.

first, he came over to my place SUPER early. i wasn't expecting him to be early. so in the end he ended up waiting for me outside for almost an hour! haha!

parents and delilah went to the zoo, brother and sister went to school. but no, i didn't let him in the house.

something about how i've become closer with my family the past two years. i've grown to respect them at another level. it would just feel wrong for me.

so anyway, baby had to wait outside and what not.

finally, i met him. which was super funny.

cos after all the arousing phone calls we shared over the weekend, i promised to kiss him for 5 minutes upon meeting him on tuesday.

but when i did meet him, i wasn't really in the mood.

so he was IGNORED. soo cute. haha.

anyways, we went to raffles medical center at airport to get my injection. cos coffee club insisted i get one. ):

sad.

and i was scared. as cheryl would know.

but the nurse was really really nice to me. and i screamed. haha.

okay. then, we RUSHED to vivocity. cos that's where we were scheduled to watch ICE AGE 3

got our tickets, then we went to this restaurant called The Mussels Place or something to have lunch.

we

were

starving.

 

lunch was awesome. i think i want to go there again.

then, we went to watch the movie. (:

which was funny. nice. watched it in 3D.

the dinosaurs were super cute. but i still love diego best.

there was a kid seated near us that said excitedly "mummy! i like the tiger!!"

then i grinned and snuggled up to kuga cos i had a lion of my own. (:

 

after the movie, we walked at the sky park for awhile to warm ourselves. cinema was rather chilly.

then we took a walk to st. james. in kuga's words to "survey the area".

well, so many of my friends are always there. and i've never actually bothered going down to the place. cos it sounded too overrated for me. like homeclub. where EVERYBODY goes.

but then on that day, i had my favourite person in the whole wide world whom i love checking new places out with, with me, so i thought, hey it would be pretty exciting.

after walking there, we walked back to vivo to get me a chocolate cake cos i wanted one. (:

then we spent more time walking around the huge mall.

then whilst walking past the numerous bars there, i felt like drinking. and kuga was okay with it. so we started looking around...

but then i decided, hey! since we're here, why don't we go to st.james?

so yeah. that was the plan.

but it was still a tad early. so for about 45 mins, we sat near the water and talked about all sorts of stuff, while i snuggled on him.

 

then we made our way there. and apparently there were so many outlets! we went into dragonfly and the chinese dude was like so confused.

later i found out from rudy it's a cheena place. go figure.

so later with rudy's help, we decided on movida. at like 8pm.

got a nice table, and then we ordered a jug. and some fried stuff.

and thats when the night began.

hahaa. which was super fun.

we talked, laughed... drank. drinks after drinks... and by 11 plus, i think we were quite high.

which was funny.

i got angry at him because he did something so lame and stupid. (which i can't mention here.) and then i was like scolding him. amidst the loud music and chaos. hahaha! and he was like sorry sorry sorry sorry.

actually what he did was no big deal. but i think i was high. hahahaha! thats why. damn funny.

so we were like crazy there. but i think the ladies at the next table were worst. they totally didn't know what they were doing.

dancing like crazy people and actually getting the waiter to stay with them.

funny.

 

then we went outside, away from the noise... and our high-ness soon died out. i think we both can hold our drinks pretty well.

stayed there for awhile... then went back to vivo... at like 3am.

then took a cab and reached home at 4am.

 

that was fun. but crazy. i had work at 11 and he at 10. so it was pretty whack.

 

well that was our day.

on wednesday, .... nothing much happened.

but i was really really tired at work.

 

on thursday, ...

thana met me after my work, and we rushed down to orchard to meet kuga during his short break.

we all had lunch at macs, then after kuga left, thana and i walked along orchard while i ate potato chips...

we walked around OC again, then went back to pasir ris.

had coffee and toast, then we went to NTUC where he helped me with his chef expertise to find ingredients to cook myself a soup. (;

then we we

nt home, and i cooked my soup.

 

on thursday night 4am/ friday morning...

i was talking to kuga on the phone and i got a bit upset so he came down at 5am plus from malaysia and we talked till it as 8 plus and i had to rush to work.

i worked at 9.

it was a miracle i got to work on time. like on the dot.

then, kuga came into coffee club. like he was the first customer. haha.

well at least that made my first hour eventful.

then he had to go to work, cos he started at 2...

in the evening, family and i went to bugis to have thai dinner with the rest of the family.

train was stupid. it was super delayed. in the end we dropped off at kembangan and took a cab.

 

on saturday,...

i was off.

went to aunty evie's house to blackjack the whole day.

went home at 10 after watching the first part of harry potter on tv.

 

on sunday...

went to work...

rushed to orchard to have lunch with kuga during his break...

went to tampines to attend church.

came home,

evening, went to mac donalds with kuga.

came home at 3am.

 

on monday,...

worked at 9 to 1.

met daddy at white sands.

went home together.

joana's birthday.

at night, went to airport.

ate lots of ice cream.

talked on phone with kuga for ages.

 

on tuesday, ...

off. stayed home with delilah.

at night, went mac donalds with kuga at white sands.

walked home.

nice.,

reached home at 4.

 

which was killer because,

on wednesday,

i worked at 9am.

till 2.30pm.

and i felt like dying.

 

on thursday,

which was yesterday.

i stayed home, and stared to read A Walk to Remember

and at night, kuga wanted to meet me, but i pushed him away.

 

and TODAY,

i think i'll meet him. (:

 

p.s. christmas is starting to show its presence... tv shows are airing their xmas episodes. =/

 

p.p.s. i dreamt of martin today. =/

Labels: Angela Ferilli, blood ties, cher, chrismukkah, coffeeclub, daddy, Dirty $exy Money, dreamdiary, eyecandy, fallacy, God, jammers, kuga starr, LA, phone dates

you know what's weird? the fact that last last night, i dreamt about sarah, and even remembered the interior designs of the house we were in.

on the other hand, yesterday i dreamt about him and when i woke up i didnt even know what the hell the dream was about.

and i have very good memory and i usually remember my dreams.

so it's weird.

 

k i'm gonna read news now.

Labels: dreamdiary, fallacy

delilah has decided not to sleep early today. so now she's watching strawberry shortcake, and i - who hath given up trying to put her to bed - decided to blog a bit.

the saga hath begun. i had my first dream today.

you know how they always say that before the A level results are released, you will always get dreams blahblahblah. and if you dream this then it means you'll do good or bad or wadever.

yeah all those legends / myths have been passed down for generations.

i never ever believed in that crap. one reason would also be because i try not to think too much about my results. i dont want to scare myself or whatever. cos whatever the case may be, i cant do anything about my papers right now - whether i think about them or not.

so there's no point. what's done's done.

i'm going to take things just like how i took things whilst awaiting my O level results. that is - in crude terms - not giving a crap.

yes. i don't really approve of how i went through my O levels - not studying at all. i REALLY didnt give a crap. this time for my As, i can safely say i actually studied throughout the year.

nevertheless, i am not going to give a crap from now till the fateful results day.

anyway, it's weird cos despite not giving a crap, i had my first dream today. (i think i had a dream waiting for Os too...)

anyway. in this dream, I FAILED.

yes. my history was actually a U.

and i actually felt scared in my dream.

wow....

but when i woke up, the words in my mind was literally, ah fuck it.

so i can safely say i'm back to not giving a crap.

okay at this point, i'm not liking this post. i notice i'm being vulgar and rude. and i think it's cos i'm thinking like me in my O level times. when i was retarded.

okay. breathe breathe.

back to louiza.

here's something i'd like to blog about.

that i actually feel sad for them. that couple i know that broke up.

because, i totally know what it feels like. i've gone through that phase before. and it's just really really a not nice phase to go through. and now that they are each going through it, i really really feel sad. cos i dont want anyone to ever feel that way. i dont think humans should ever suffer from the immense heartbreaks that come after a relationship ends. it's too painful.

so yeah. i feel sad.

i know what they're going through, it's like as if i broke up. ):

okay seriously, i dont ever ever ever want to break up.

okay i'm quite done with blogging. (:

love,louiza.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, dreamdiary, the boy

had my favourite kind of stay home family day again.

lots of kfc. and now i think my stomach's aching from all the oil.

but me likey!

took things slow today... resting and stuff. but i feel bad for cutting out on elfy. sorry.

 

my dream

in the lift with family. and he and his friend were there too. (not with us of course)

then they got off.

the lift was blue.

then our floor came. we exited and arrived at aunty vicky's house. like the lift is right in her living room. how cool is that.

cyn and tim were there... aaron too.

dining table. eating some nice biscuits.

then papadi gave us his cookies and cake that's apparently very nice and why aaron was there.

house was quite dark, with a few soft lights.

then suddenly we were all examining the stuff we owned. statues and stone and all.

i love my family. all the relatives.

and i realized the guys in my family are hot.

 

 

i like today.

Labels: blood ties, dreamdiary, elfie, eyecandy, fallacy, God, Knights Ridge, silver

dream.

family, (big family), we were all in rome.

i was driving this really small rome car.

we all were walking to a ferry terminal on my directions. but i dont know if we got lost.

 

then.

in a cathedral-like place with a bunch of people.

cheryl was there.

a girl came on to me and tried to kiss me. started like to french kiss me and i totally freaked out. but i felt quite bad cos she was sad and i hurt her feelings.

 

then.

back home i think. i was on the com. suddenly, you came online. and then i could feel myself awakening, but i willed myself to stay asleep longer so i could continue to chat with you.

thats weird.

 

p.s. i'm still sick.

p.p.s. i'm not available for valentines day.

Labels: blood ties, cher, dreamdiary, fallacy

omg i totally love christmas!! the whole christmas feeling, warmth etc! omg i just love it. and right now, i'm like listening to my dad's oldies cd of christmas songs. and being all late and everything in the night, i just feel all tingly and nice.

the christmas spirit. u know, you feel the spark in late november... and as december grows, so does this feeling... then you see love all around, and smiles, and happiness.

it's what i wait for all year.

omg. thats all i can say right now. i wish i had the ability to write like Rowling. i'll describe it so so much better.

well actually, i think i can. if i really thought about the words. but i'm just too excited to think. it's like i just want to get everything out all at once. the feeling's too exciting to be told in stages.

omg!!! now listening to 12 days of xmas! and yesterday leon called to sing that for me. it was really funny the way he sang it.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the XMAS FEELING!!!!!!!!

 

yeah so anyway what was i saying. yeah! i'm sorry i dont have good english! i'd really wanna speak of the christmassyness more accurately. DAMN.

okay. lets talk about my day, which was really xmassy.

firstly i woke up after having a weird dream. =/

for some reason, Chris Brown was over at my place. it was something like his family are friends of my family so we were like offering some sort of hospitality while he was in sg.

I DNO IT WAS SO WEIRD! I DONT EVEN LIKE CHRIS BROWN.

he was wearing this blue hiphop shirt or something, and he was in my room. we were talking. and my mom was like nagging at me to go bathe. so i was like "yeah okay!" then i told him i'll brb...

then as i stood up to go, he was like, "hey wait". then he kissed me.

SO DAMN RANDOM! (and i repeat, i dont like chris brown)

so i was like, "umm okayy.. i'm gonna bathe".

i walked to the kitchen and quickly took out my hp to call vi and cher. to tell them wad just happened. they picked and after recounting to them the weird incident, i was like, "i dno it was so weird right!! i mean i dont even like his songs!!! but oh wells, how many girls can say that they've kissed chris brown?"

at that instance, chris brown walks into the kitchen. -_-''

so i ended the call. my brother had been in the kitchen all the while when i was talking to vi and cher.

i said ,"hi!" to chris, then i told my bro in malay, "dont tell chris i said i hate his songs."

yeah. cos i had the feeling my bro was gonna like sabo me in some way.

then i woke up.

HOW WEIRD RIGHT?!?

so yeah that was my dream.

 

today was a real family day again. everyone was home (:

had lunch together on the big table, and we established i'm a daddy lover. but yet i bully dad. and vicente is a mummy's baby.

we did a hell lot of stuff to the house today. cleaned, vacuumed, CHANGED THE CARPETS. we had to lift like TWO FREAKING HEAVY MARBLE TABLES. they're seriously damn heavy. last time we changed carpets we had uncles aunties cousins and if i'm not wrong my bf at that time to help.

thats how heavy it is!

but with a bit of joseph spirit, we did it! (:

and i can rightfully conclude that my mom's deco owns orchard's completely. seriously. and i'm not being biased.

 

xmas in sg.

no snow, but still fabulous.

and that hasnt stopped me from snow boots.

yes mom i'm crazy.

 

after the day's work, vicente and i watched another xmas movie. I LOVE WATCHING XMAS MOVIES IN DECEMBER!!!! it just reinforces the whole xmassy feeling. i watched christmas with the kranks. it was really heartwarming and tingly. i give it 10/10. only thing i didnt like was the HEAVY SNOW they had!!! cos i got really jealous. it was really heavy!!!!

last time i had snow that heavy, was like when i was 14? family and i were in las vegas and it was snowing like FUCK (sorry fuck's the best word to describe the degree of how heavy the snow was)

and we actually walked along the streets like for 30 mins to get to lunch. and snow was getting into our EYES. yeah can u believe that! eyes!!! damn painful. and wet and cold. and cousins and daddy (the most playful of the older generation) were like throwing humongous snowballs at everyone. SUPER IRRITATING! but fun. but painfully fun. like u want to laugh, but u have no breath to. 

and occasionally someone would fall on icy ground.

i miss that.

 

watching tv just now, i saw the MAC advert again. the cute one!! about manliness. *rudy just came into my mind*.

anyway, this advert was like about the gf getting the bf to wear a shirt with the letters LO. and hers had VE. so that together they spelt LOVE. and the guy's friends were making fun of him, while the girl was like so happy.

SUPER CUTE.

 

and today i had that nice phone call again with 80. short, but nice.  take care of yourself kay.

and that's the end of this post.

thanks for reading!!

love, louiza.

Labels: A.T., ALEXANDER VII, blood ties, chrismukkah, Dirty $exy Money, dreamdiary, God, hogwarts, inspiration

the dream

vivian, cheryl and i went to kc to visit. more specifically, we went there for lunch. it was a rainy day. after eating, we made to leave. two of them took the main gate. somehow, in my dreams kc had two gates. i made my way alone to the side gate on the other part of school.

before walking out, i decided to go to the toilet before starting the journey back home. as i approach the toilet, i notice from the corner of my eye that at the side gate below, mrs sng is shouting at some girl.

mrs sng was my discipline mistress, who became my math teacher, and finally my form teacher. i've often suspected with good reason that she became my form teacher to keep an eye on me. yes we both have some history.

so seeing her shout, i muttered to myself, "still same..." as i walked into the toilet.

i come out of the cubicle minutes later, and there she was standing at the mirror.

to say hi? or to ignore?

suddenly i realise i was wearing my tpjc uniform. so gingerly i say, "hi mrs sng."

she actually recognises me.

"hi louiza so how was As?", in that subtle yet commanding tone i was only too familiar with.

'um it was okay i guess. i'm just hoping for the best.", i said trying to sound positive.

"well louiza as long as you did not hesitate and just trusted your instincts in math, not stopping whenever u felt your solution was weird, u should be fine..."

"erm... yeah ohkay"

i felt a bit of my heart sink. because inside, i knew that i was my stupid self in the As. i stopped whenever my answer looked weird and i'm definite that lost me some marks...  i was saved from that depressing feeling when a girl comes in the toilet.

"mrs sng can help me do one question?", she shoves a yellow slip of paper into mrs sng's hands.

"louiza take a look at this", she motions to me...

i read the question quickly, "hmm this looks easy". it was a P&C question with interesting clues and conditions.

"okay..." i start.

as i begin to read the question a second time, i hear a woman's scream

LOUIZA WAKE UP I NEED YOUR HELP GO AND BATHE!

i wake with a start. the woman was my mother.

"mummy! do you know what i was doing?!?!", i said positively annoyed.

"what??! sleeping??", she retorted sarcastically.

"no! i dreamt my teacher asked me a math question and i was THINKING!! and u woke me up like that"

 

 

so that's how i woke up.

anyway, remember i didnt want to teach in tpjc cos i'm not confident of my intelligence?

yeah i still feel that way, so i decided on a plan.

i will teach pri/sec relief teaching from jan till my A level results. if my A results are good enough, then i'll teach at tpjc. at least i'll be more confident of my capabilities.

yup sounds like a good plan.

okay gonna relax... oh no wait need to call leon first.

Labels: dreamdiary