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You were the signet of perfection, full of wisdom and perfect in beauty. You were in Eden, the garden of God; every precious stone was your covering, carnelian, chrysolite, and moonstone, beryl, onyx, and jasper, sapphire, turquoise, and emerald; and worked in gold were your settings and your engravings. On the day that you were created they were prepared. With an anointed cherub as guardian I placed you; you were on the holy mountain of God; you walked among the stones of fire. You were blameless in your ways from the day that you were created, until iniquity was found in you. In the abundance of your trade you were filled with violence, and you sinned; so I cast you as a profane thing from the mountain of God, and the guardian cherub drove you out from among the stones of fire. Your heart was proud because of your beauty; you corrupted your wisdom for the sake of your splendor. I cast you to the ground; I exposed you before kings, to feast their eyes on you. By the multitude of your iniquities, in the unrighteousness of your trade, you profaned your sanctuaries. So I brought out fire from within you; it consumed you, and I turned you to ashes on the earth in the sight of all who saw you. All who know you among the peoples are appalled at you; you have come to a dreadful end and shall be no more forever.

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omg! its 4.15am. i am still working on my paper. and guess what!!!

IT HAS STARTED RAINING!!!!

OMG YAY YAY YAY!!!

GOD LOVES ME!!!

such nice weather to study.

Labels: 13 o'clock, God

finally i'm blogging. been too lazy to blog for the past week plus. somehow, i've been feeling exhausted and sleepy. so i don't stay up much if i'm home.

anywayys, (:

time now's about 3am and i'm here sitting on my bed blogging the long delayed post.

and i think i have the most nice and understanding boyfriend.

he had this fantastic nice plan. of which i really really love to do.

just now after work at 11.30pm, he had wanted to come down here, grab my laptop (and me of course) and have a late night supper at downtown macs. then walk home, late into the night.

wouldn't have been our first time doing that, we've already done that several times. and i absolutely LOVE our night outings. (:

BUT, tonight, i turned him down.

yeah i actually did that.

why?

cos of PMS. for some illogical reason, i feel like being left alone. like i just don't want to be with anybody.

and kuga was like so understanding to my whiny-ness.

no objections, or negative responses. he was totally totally supportive, and even allowed me to text my new "boyfriend". (but i didn't text him much anyways cos i really didnt want the presence of anyone around me. yes crazy i know.)

he even made me smile and giggle with his "mushy talk" to me on the phone before he left work. seriously people who know him (like thana) always say they've never seen THE KUGA manja anyone like how he treats me.

so even though i didn't meet him, he left me all in smiles and laughter. (:

but now i'm getting a bit saddish and impatient. cos he hasn't called me yet. since 12.30am. ):

never mind, i shall be patient!.

in the meantime, i think i shall record down what has been happening since last monday.

[fyi, time now is 5pm. i slept last night. didn't finish the post. will continue now. (: ]

now, i'm massaging my feet, sitting in the armchair at the living room... delilah's asleep. and the weather's fine. cloudy/rainy.

yeah it rained pretty heavily last night. i talked with kuga on the phone till nearly 5am. hey! thats like 12 hours earlier from now! haha.

anywayss, okay.

on tuesday, i had that date with boyfriend.

fun-ness.

first, he came over to my place SUPER early. i wasn't expecting him to be early. so in the end he ended up waiting for me outside for almost an hour! haha!

parents and delilah went to the zoo, brother and sister went to school. but no, i didn't let him in the house.

something about how i've become closer with my family the past two years. i've grown to respect them at another level. it would just feel wrong for me.

so anyway, baby had to wait outside and what not.

finally, i met him. which was super funny.

cos after all the arousing phone calls we shared over the weekend, i promised to kiss him for 5 minutes upon meeting him on tuesday.

but when i did meet him, i wasn't really in the mood.

so he was IGNORED. soo cute. haha.

anyways, we went to raffles medical center at airport to get my injection. cos coffee club insisted i get one. ):

sad.

and i was scared. as cheryl would know.

but the nurse was really really nice to me. and i screamed. haha.

okay. then, we RUSHED to vivocity. cos that's where we were scheduled to watch ICE AGE 3

got our tickets, then we went to this restaurant called The Mussels Place or something to have lunch.

we

were

starving.

 

lunch was awesome. i think i want to go there again.

then, we went to watch the movie. (:

which was funny. nice. watched it in 3D.

the dinosaurs were super cute. but i still love diego best.

there was a kid seated near us that said excitedly "mummy! i like the tiger!!"

then i grinned and snuggled up to kuga cos i had a lion of my own. (:

 

after the movie, we walked at the sky park for awhile to warm ourselves. cinema was rather chilly.

then we took a walk to st. james. in kuga's words to "survey the area".

well, so many of my friends are always there. and i've never actually bothered going down to the place. cos it sounded too overrated for me. like homeclub. where EVERYBODY goes.

but then on that day, i had my favourite person in the whole wide world whom i love checking new places out with, with me, so i thought, hey it would be pretty exciting.

after walking there, we walked back to vivo to get me a chocolate cake cos i wanted one. (:

then we spent more time walking around the huge mall.

then whilst walking past the numerous bars there, i felt like drinking. and kuga was okay with it. so we started looking around...

but then i decided, hey! since we're here, why don't we go to st.james?

so yeah. that was the plan.

but it was still a tad early. so for about 45 mins, we sat near the water and talked about all sorts of stuff, while i snuggled on him.

 

then we made our way there. and apparently there were so many outlets! we went into dragonfly and the chinese dude was like so confused.

later i found out from rudy it's a cheena place. go figure.

so later with rudy's help, we decided on movida. at like 8pm.

got a nice table, and then we ordered a jug. and some fried stuff.

and thats when the night began.

hahaa. which was super fun.

we talked, laughed... drank. drinks after drinks... and by 11 plus, i think we were quite high.

which was funny.

i got angry at him because he did something so lame and stupid. (which i can't mention here.) and then i was like scolding him. amidst the loud music and chaos. hahaha! and he was like sorry sorry sorry sorry.

actually what he did was no big deal. but i think i was high. hahahaha! thats why. damn funny.

so we were like crazy there. but i think the ladies at the next table were worst. they totally didn't know what they were doing.

dancing like crazy people and actually getting the waiter to stay with them.

funny.

 

then we went outside, away from the noise... and our high-ness soon died out. i think we both can hold our drinks pretty well.

stayed there for awhile... then went back to vivo... at like 3am.

then took a cab and reached home at 4am.

 

that was fun. but crazy. i had work at 11 and he at 10. so it was pretty whack.

 

well that was our day.

on wednesday, .... nothing much happened.

but i was really really tired at work.

 

on thursday, ...

thana met me after my work, and we rushed down to orchard to meet kuga during his short break.

we all had lunch at macs, then after kuga left, thana and i walked along orchard while i ate potato chips...

we walked around OC again, then went back to pasir ris.

had coffee and toast, then we went to NTUC where he helped me with his chef expertise to find ingredients to cook myself a soup. (;

then we we

nt home, and i cooked my soup.

 

on thursday night 4am/ friday morning...

i was talking to kuga on the phone and i got a bit upset so he came down at 5am plus from malaysia and we talked till it as 8 plus and i had to rush to work.

i worked at 9.

it was a miracle i got to work on time. like on the dot.

then, kuga came into coffee club. like he was the first customer. haha.

well at least that made my first hour eventful.

then he had to go to work, cos he started at 2...

in the evening, family and i went to bugis to have thai dinner with the rest of the family.

train was stupid. it was super delayed. in the end we dropped off at kembangan and took a cab.

 

on saturday,...

i was off.

went to aunty evie's house to blackjack the whole day.

went home at 10 after watching the first part of harry potter on tv.

 

on sunday...

went to work...

rushed to orchard to have lunch with kuga during his break...

went to tampines to attend church.

came home,

evening, went to mac donalds with kuga.

came home at 3am.

 

on monday,...

worked at 9 to 1.

met daddy at white sands.

went home together.

joana's birthday.

at night, went to airport.

ate lots of ice cream.

talked on phone with kuga for ages.

 

on tuesday, ...

off. stayed home with delilah.

at night, went mac donalds with kuga at white sands.

walked home.

nice.,

reached home at 4.

 

which was killer because,

on wednesday,

i worked at 9am.

till 2.30pm.

and i felt like dying.

 

on thursday,

which was yesterday.

i stayed home, and stared to read A Walk to Remember

and at night, kuga wanted to meet me, but i pushed him away.

 

and TODAY,

i think i'll meet him. (:

 

p.s. christmas is starting to show its presence... tv shows are airing their xmas episodes. =/

 

p.p.s. i dreamt of martin today. =/

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i had an awesome day today.

honestly everything went so great, i can't really find an imperfection in anything.

anyway, time now is 4.25am so i'm going to make this quick.

i gotta try to sleep asap cos tomorrow there's a lunch party at aunty evie's place.

looks like i can't watch ice age 2 today.

i watched ice age last night. (:

for kuga of course. cos he wants me to bring him to ice age 3. and i want to know everything about the series first before i watch it.

if not for kuga, i wouldnt even have anything to do with the series. since the first movie, it never managed to even get a silver of my attention. and now i'm so enthusiastically rushing to watch it.

-_-

the things love does to you.

but i must say, i'm pretty impressed. it wasn't too bad. in fact, i think i actually like it. which is so contrary to what i was predicting. A BORING MOVIE. like chicken little. which i must say i give 2/5.

so for ice age, i give it 5/5.

and i'm officially in love with diego. he's so cool and fierce.

and his fangs are like wow.

so i was like all gushing over diego last night, feeling sad that he didn't exist. then i realized, I HAVE MY OWN LION!

then i felt much better. haha.

 

anyway, back to today's story, i went to church with parents.

then, trained to orchard where i was supposed to meet thanaskodi and kuga for their break.

i was early, so i decided to shop at borders.

after meeting up, we ate and mac donalds...

then kuga and i left thana there. we went for our alone time.

(:

 

was raining really heavily so subsequently, we were virtually trapped in wisma/ngee ann. for like more than an hour.

couldnt go anywhere else without risking the downpour. i wanted to go to paragon. but there was just no way. it was raining like mad.

 

nevertheless, i was not bored for a second. being stuck with kuga is fun. he bought me a cranberry bun! hehe. and for some reason, we kept browsing aldo outlets.

i think it's a sign. haha.

 

finally, i got sick of wisma. the downpour had succumbed to rain. (yes still raining)

we had one hour to go before kuga had to get back to work.

thats when i gave up.

screw this, i'm going to walk in the rain. out of here.

 

so we walked out, with no destination in mind.

laughing and playing as we walked. (me shielding myself with a stupid small plastic bag. that of the cranberry bun)

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then halfway still in the rain, kuga wanted ice cream, and i felt the comforting urge for a long black. so i brought him to my usual tcc haunt, and ordered him a double scoop of chocolate ice cream with whipped cream. he was soo cute eating ice cream like that. haha.

 

finally, he had to get back. (it was still raining.) i went back to tanglin too. cos i wanted to get some stuff from my locker.

soo, after kissing him goodbye outside the locker rooms and then parting ways, i took my shoe bag from my locker, and made my way to the gates of tanglin.

 

i was about to cross the gates, when i noticed a familiar shape sitting at the far end of the yard. where people usually hung out during their breaks.

i walked over to investigate and was so damn happy when my beliefs were confirmed. that it was thana!

 

so i talked to him, then ashraf came, talked to him too. then thanaskodi got really jealous about that and actually went one corner to sulk. so cute.

then i left soon after cos someone i didnt want to see came.

 

then, i realized i lost my ipod.

it had been in my front pocket of my jeans the whole day. and i reckon it fell out as kuga and i were walking around town.

with orchard being so crowded on sundays, i knew i would have no chance of finding it even if i tried. i wouldn't even know where to start looking.

so with a sense of retirement, i accepted that fate, and just made my way to the station. was feeling rather useless. sick of losing valuables.

surprisingly though, i didn't really feel damn depressed. i was just exhausted from the occurrence of yet another loss. but i wasn't like sad sad.

 

and then, i realized why.

i had too good of a day to be really sad over this.

and then i realized another thing.

the last time i lost my mp3, i too had a damn nice day. which couldn't allow me to feel a tad sad over the loss. refer to the post on 24th may last year.

 

so i guess, it was a good time to lose a valuable. when i'm happy.

it would have sucked a hell lot more if i lost it on a retarded day in which everything was going wrong.

so i guess, i was marginally lucky.

 

things got a lot lighter in the train on the way home, when thanaskodi called me and started complaining that he didn't like how i kept talking to ashraf. hahaa. that boy. he made me laugh so hard, it was literally impossible to feel anything negative.

 

at home, had dinner with mummy, vicente and delilah.

after delilah had had her bath, we coloured together in her new colouring book. (: funnn

 

then she slept, at like 1 am.

then thanaskodi called, and made me happy some more!

fyi, he had compliments today from customers. really proud of him.

 

he made me happy, and actually said my hair was nice today. very pretty. (:

 

then, i finished up reading One Fifth Avenue. i give it 5/5

 

and now, i'm going to wash my face, and finally sleep.

good night world.

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kuga came by after work.

we went to downtown to get my coffee, but everything was close. of all the days.

so we walked home, and got coffee on the way...

then we talked at the park awhile. lucky we didnt go for a movie. kuga was like already drifting in and out of sleep just sitting there.

so we continued our conversation via international calling.

and just ended, at 5.30am.

now i'm just enjoying the company of vivian and ben online.

today, sunday, parents, vicente and i went for mass. then after mass, we had lunch at century square...

okay my post is all over the place, i think i shall sleep soon.

 

lovebite 14th June...

 

it's very cozy having a man in my life. one that really knows how to take care of me.

today i got scolding. for always asking him to leave. because he says he'll stay no matter what he has to go through.

but the scolding was in a nice gentlemanly way. (:

 

sadness is like rubbish that we have to throw away.

 

cute, baby, like small girl.

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the weather is SO so hot!

anyways, for record's sake. saturday was i'm sorry thank you day for thana and i. and kuga decided to come and EXTRA also. haha.

nahh he's just cute.

sunday, i did opening all by myself! in the dark. seriously. i feel so proud of myself.

actually, i was supposed to start work only at 11. but i decided to surprise baby who was doing opening at 10.

i came at 9.30 and did opening all by myself!!

first time! *feels proud.

after work, he brought me home. (: then went back for second shift. i love him.

last night talked to elfy.

today, i worked with him again. went to work early as well. we worked with aunty today. very fun for some reason.

after work, as he didn't have any break, i walked to macs to buy him food, then after passing it back to him, i went home.

at home, i had a damn long phone conversation with dad. not unusual. but yeah, awesome just the same.

and now, i'm just waiting to hear from kuga.

Labels: Angela Ferilli, blood ties, daddy, elfie, eyecandy, God, grey's anatomy, kuga starr, No Reservations, phone dates

the weather is really, really hot.

and it has been that way for the past couple of days.

at times, it gets to me, but at others, i try to enjoy it. soaking up the sun means more vitamin D. sorry for the randomness.

anyhow, the day's sunday... here's what i did.

i went for mass at 9.30 with vicente, after which he went for cathechism. i decided to walk home. (part of embracing the sun)

i did take a cool shower thereafter.

watched tv with delilah, then at 1 plus, went to tampines mall to have lunch with family. had cafe cartel. personally i think the standards are somewhat dropping. ah wells. all was good.

LJ.

it's a rather down tuned sunday for me, so after lunch, i just went back with delilah.

now she's having an afternoon nap, whilst i'm here massaging my feet and trying not to let the heat get to me.

did you know? i'm feeling rather stupid. and till i get over this chapter, i think i'm going to continue feeling lost and stupid. HSWW.

i think after this, i will go print out our migration documents. daddy's been asking me to do it for days. and i've been too busy or exhausted to do it.

anyway, i really cant wait for thanaskodi to come back. selvam starts leave today. and he's going to meet thana in ipoh. we ought to go on a trip one day.

just to note, yesterday kuga came down at like 5 plus... we hung out for awhile then went for breakfast at loyang point. then work... where everyone was getting ready for the club party.

i worked at churchill.

then went for macs with kuga.

then home.

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today, is day one of thana's leave.

i went to work, to work with not nice person again... zzz...never mind. the rest of the people were really nice.

i handled almost an hour of chaos.

really proud of myself...

then kuga came and made me happy... then i went home after work.

that's all for work today i guess.

then at home, in the evening went to mass with vicente...

then we went to eat like a hell lot.

didnt know my brother actually has manners. waited for my food to come after so many years before he started to eat.

then we also bought chocolate to eat in the bus on the way home.

(:

thats family for the day....

now on to the main feature.

thanaskodi.

he really made me happy the whole day.

like i was really dreading going to work... working with not nice person... and not having kuga around in the morning.. and thana in malaysia...

but he called me like almost at every point of the day!! from malaysia!

and reallly made me happy.

really.

it's like you're not gone.

(:

thanks.

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number 1, i miss thanaskodi. i have his sim card with me that kuga happily took. so i cant contact him. ): despite him working later at the same time as me. 11am. ugh.

all kuganesen's fault.

number two, i didnt sleep. the most i just had a few hours of shut eye. mostly talked to kuga and thanaskodi on the phone in the wee hours of the morning. then at 4 plus kuganesen decided to come over. and i just came home not too long ago.

having breakfast now - a long black and crackers. will have to get ready for work soonish.

blah

oh and i just had a chat with daddy.

i just sorta told him about kuga? i think???! =/

so weird!

cos he wanted to know who i went breakfast with. then i said - kuga.

then he went "that indian guy that day?" (daddy had a glimpse of kuga on the night he brought over muffin - refer to appendix succeeding this post)

then i was like "err... ya..."

"did you ride the motorbike!? you better don't... all it takes is one accident. you either die or become a vegetable" (from young i have been wired to be anti-motorbike, just like anti-cigs. daddy has a lot of friends who died from motorbike accidents. daddy hung around with people like this when he was young. he himself got into an accident. lucky didnt die.)

"i swear to God i didnt. i just went nearby..."

"tsk... i never asked u to swear to God... i just asking..."

"don't worry lah daddy... from young already i know..."

"yeah yeah... you know you know..... this guy, muslim or hindu?"

"huh??!"

"muslim or hindu??"

"err... hindu? why!"

(this is where i start to get a shock...)

"cos if muslim, you better not waste your time... if go in to deep, will have a lot of trouble with converting... if there's ever a future."

*feels weird having this conversation... cos from martin till this moment, daddy has always been anti-whatever guy louiza may like.

louiza goes, "err okay..."

*daddy walks off.

so what does this mean???! daddy dont mind if i finally have a boyfriend?? hahaha.

fyi, none of my family except vicente knows i'm attached.

appendix

when kuga came to give me the muffin at like 1 am, daddy was like "he came all the way here from orchard just to give you that muffin???"

then he asked how was he going home at such a time...

and i said he rode his bike here.

p.s. i tag this under eyecandy as well cos my kuga will always be MY eyecandy.

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i've been busy the past few days, and too exhausted to blog down the happenings. but really, i have to. lest i forget. and i really don't want to. past few days have been awesome, not a surprising occurrence of life lately. simply cos life's been great for me.

and i'm very thankful for that.

anyhow, let's recall.

friday

i went to work, was quite an exceptionally challenging day. nevertheless, i escaped unscathed.

after work, went to the airport with vicente and delilah.

went to visit daddy... and later mummy...

we all went home together.

then at night, i couldnt sleep. i had a lot on my mind, and also credits are due the coffee i had at the airport.

usually coffee doesnt keep me up, unless i want to stay up. yeah i have mastered psychological power over coffee. but i guess i was just thinking too much and inevitably, my body kept me up. thanks to my preoccupied mind.

so i gave up at around 3am, and decided to watch some tv.

after several shows, i was still wide awake.

then JAVE called! super sweet of him, to accompany me.

and as usual, talking with him is superbly fun.

talked about work and everything. but then i'm sad. cos he just quit. like on thursday. ):

we will miss you.

(saturday)

he talked to me till 5 plus. nearly 6.

THEN! couga called!

and surprised me outside my door with a gigantic bear! (may take picture soon)

i went out, and, surprise number two!

downstairs was thana!!!

bestest friend at the deli!

i felt so so happy!

couga brought him cos he knew that me seeing thana would cheer me up. how selfless right.

we talked till like 7 plus. then thana left cos he starts work at 10.

couga brought me to eat breakfast.

then i went home, he waited for me to get ready, then brought me to work!

and i worked with thana!!!

awesome awesome. damn damn fun. time literally flies when i work with him. work was much better than the previous day.

but today i had to clean out the wine shelves. i feel like i inhaled a hell lot of dust.

but it was okay. i got to read red wine bottle labels. (i not impartially hastily wiped the white wine bottles. i have some prejudice against them.)

my hands were so so dusty and i worked on the task for hours. dying hungry. but i was glad that thana was around. he took care of me.

he made for me bite-size sandwiches and fed them to me. (:

after work, i went home.

then daddy and i went to church.

at hai sing.

haha how funny.

both of us fell asleep.

vicente joined us MUCH later.

then after mass we walked to ntuc downtown east. bought stuff, then vi and i went central for awhile while daddy went home first.

evening, had a dinner party.

daddy's friends came.

watched soccer...

the night was good.

and the days were better. (:

and now, i'm off today, AND tomorrow.

and i'm hoping to see my girls on tuesday. is everyone free?

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"louiza, I don't want to die for you. I want to live for you."

i am seriously having awesome days. thanks to family and work people.

today was yet another damn awesome day. so i'm going to account it again.

yes blog again. cos whilst i'm having this lucky streak of awesome days, i want to really really relish how awesome this multitudes of hat tricks are.

it's like being on a constant high.without the sucky hangovers.

today, well the wee hours of the day started awesome. phone call with BOTH thana and lion!

then, guess who brought me to work today? LION!

so fun. funnest trip to work ever!

and of course, when captain brings you to work, you will arrive early.

haha! so today's one of the rare days i was exceptionally early.

THEN! thana gave me koko krunch for breakfast! ok seriously he's the cutest.

worked worked.. etc...

then thana arrived at work, made me a sandwich... then i ended work at 3.

had to go to church for Good Friday, so i couldnt stay longer. but neither could i leave just yet cos it started to rain really really heavily.

but at 4 it was still raining, ):

LIKE HELL.

lion was to end at 5. so he couldn't do much to save me.

but i really wanted to leave, i didnt want to be late for church that started at 5.

so i left.

and regretted leaving. or at least not taking a cab. cos i was too lazy to walk to the taxi stand which was quite far away from the lockers.

1 minute into walking out of the club, 2 trucks had passed me by, and splashed like EFFING a lot of rain on me.

i was soaked to the skin.

seriously.

but i didnt want to turn back to the club cos i was already running late for church. and i doubt i would have been able to really fix matters significantly. cos i dont keep clothes in my locker. or towels and what not.

so i kept walking.

my boots were SOAKED to the point i couldn't possibly wear them anymore. i could hear the squish squish sounds and splat splat effects whenever i stepped. the fur was really soaked.

my stockings were SOAKED with dunno what kind of water from the side of the road.

i felt DAMN depressed.

but really, i couldnt wear my boots.

so i went into far east which was the nearest shopping centre, and i quickly bought the first pair of shoes i saw. and took out my stockings. the salesgirl was really nice. she helped me with my wet stuff... gave me plastic bags and tissue...

then, it was back out into the rain to get to orchard station. ):

and the rain wasnt any lighter. but i had to get a move on. cos by that time it was already like 4.30.

sad.

trained to tampines, went to church. rather late. ):

then church ended. and decided to meet lion! since he would have ended already.

so i trained to orchard, and met him!

we had macs cos i wanted, went to watch knowing. but i think i was more like looking throughout the movie. ahah!

then! we walked back to the club! to pass thana something.

SO I GOT TO SEE THANA! YAY! and eloisa!

then i took the bus home. i will ask lion to concentrate and think more.

and now, i'm eating muffin.

i cant wait for work tomorrow!

WORKING WITH THANA!

another boost of exhilaration.

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guess this means you take back all you said before. like how much you wanted anyone but me.

i shall blog for a bit before i start doing stuff i gotta do for tonight.

lion lion lion. you think of everything.

today i went church with vicente. then we went shop and save and bought a lot of snacks. and ate snacked till 11pm whilst walking home. waited for daddy to come home from work. met him downstairs to help him carry our new feet massager.

yup! we just got another one. and i'm using it now. haha. no more iSqueeze. now it's uSqueeze Pro.

damn it's painful.

never mind i'll tahan.

okay that's all for now.

selvam on leave, thana going leave on friday.

SIGHS. my favourite people.

never mind. i have lion.

AND, he thinks of everything.

OMG THANA CALLED!!!

BYE!!!

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suddenly i'm confronted by a total different scenario. and the pressure's rising because time is ticking and i NEED to make a decision.

decision.

fine. i can make decisions. not good at making them, but okay i can if i really have to.

BUT this is different. THIS determines the future i am going to face for the next 7-10 years. and this, i cant decide in a flash.

so fine, i wish i could take my time to think. BUT I CANT. cos time is ticking and i need to make a decision before there are no longer any options or worst, a road for me to take.

i'm thinking about the economy. it has a lot to do with the kind of decision i have to make.

this sux.

as much as i want to leave, i want to make sure i have a foothold later in life.

BUT, what if i cant find a foothold?

and (I HATE THIS FACT) if i stay, admittedly, i'll have higher possibility of ensuring a foothold here.

ARGH.

okay. dilemma. really. dont bother trying to understand this post. even i cant sort things out in such a short time span. but in a nutshell, i may decide to not go america sooner than i wanted.

damn. cant they push deadlines???!!

but i guess, in life as we grow older, the kind of circumstances we face require us to be put under pressure.

louiza, just learn to deal with stuff like this. this is just the beginning.

shit shit shit.

economy, america, singapore, uk, singapore, DELILAH. job prospects.

go figure.

and DEADLINES.

chaos in my mind. who knew that the economy would have such an impact on decisions i have to make. amazing huh. that i'm on that stage now. that i'm being affected by the economy and its outlook. no longer a kid, living under the protection of my family, not having to wonder about what i have to do in 4 years. or worry how NOW affects LATER.

okay. yes. i have grown up, and i will deal with this. i always do. i will make a decision and not look back. i trust that i have grown enough to decide on what's best at this point of time. i have to trust myself.

yes, i'm immature and a kid at heart. i like to be taken care of. but i guess, when it comes to matters like this, i have to put up the same strong front i did during A level year. logical and wise. and matured.

phew. okay i feel so much better. i will now handle things. (:

and yes, i'm really grateful for my family, especially my parents. they make sure i'm not restricted in any way in achieving what i want. so what i only have to worry about is the decision i make. they're always behind me.

God, give me wisdom.

 

OMGOMG TALKING ABOUT IMMATURE! lion cub just called! heeee..... from work. and he also woke me up at 3am today. k he just went back to working. bullying my two other friends!!! IDIOT! heheeeeeeeeeee.......

 

ANYWAYS, i feel like clubbing. dancing. not drinking. i just wna move freely for a bit. controlled by music and not the economy.

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time check, 5am. nothing less than i expected, today was awesome. i have pictures, but i can't seem to find my cable to connect my cam to my laptop. i think that's a sign that i should really get down to university applications. since i've gotten the results, i haven't started making choices. it's been more than a week. i ought to get started, which is why i took at off for tomorrow (technically today). i'll stay in my room the whole day and weigh my choices.

bearing the plausible sign in mind, i will not blog so elaborately.

today, went church at 6.45am... went to get my long black and a yoghurt drink at N2... came home... got ready for work, and then left.

worked till 3 plus. the lion cub is confusing. (lj)

rained... so i took a cab to dhoby gaut... had a nice chat with the taxi driver. whole of orchard was jammed. took like 5 mins just to cross one traffic. he was really nice though.

did errands, raced to vivo.

met girls.

ate, walked.

hours at starbucks.

trained to orchard.

picked hadyy.

had cookies (:

went home. (1am)

bathed... blah...

3am: watched Sweeney Todd with Jave. fun fun!

and now, i'm here. but i ought to sleep soon.

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just casually having a long black from Mc Cafe' now. conclusion, it sucks. not strong enough for me. but i had to get my caffeine shots and it was the only option for me on the way home from church.

i went for 6.45am mass, and now i'll have to get ready for work soon.

an adventure awaits, i see vi and cher later. (: been so busy with work and delilah, we haven't met in ages! so that's something to look forward to.

still enjoying the morning chills. hopefully wont get hot later? =/

anyways, yesterday i watched stardust again. on hbo. when it came out, i was in the states. that's where i first watched it. i didnt want to actually. i didnt think it would be nice. but cheryl was gushing on and on about how great it was and how many times she watched it and about tristan yadahyadah. so i decided to give it a shot. well, and also there was nothing else nicer to watch. haha.

but i didnt regret my choice. it was AWESOME. superbly awesome. i give it like 10/10.

so watching it yesterday made me feel all american all over again. hey wait a min, i'm actually kinda american anyways. haha.

but still, it's a nice feeling and i cant wait to get back. hopefully this year? but daddy wants to go BORING sydney to see his friends. yes sydney is boring... but i guess the friends part is nice. oh wells anything for daddy.

okay! long black's done, and i'm running late, i'll catch you later. ciao!

Love,Louiza.

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i'm a workaholic. i dont think i really like it...

well i do actually. i love it. but i cant let today happen again. i put work above faith.

no, i must restrain and set priorities. cos without God, i will not be who i am today.

today break, i sat at secret smoking place and talk and talked. love my work.

and at the terrace, time zooms by. adrenaline rush. it's like fighting a war. as quick as it starts, it ends. and you won't know what hit you.

at the deli, i get to be perfect. and organized.

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i want to try the shine yogurt...

and today the Turkish plane crashed...

• sri lanka seems to be acting like a unilateral power... it's like ignoring international calls for ceasefire, and continuing to squash the LTTE. but its actually working. except that there are thousands of civilians in the middle.... =/
• zomg... nokia is retrenching.
• opec is so manipulative...

UPDATE: 9 dead from crash...

• so cute.. china's going shopping in europe... trying to inject money into the global economy. how sweet.

i just got a shock of my life. about something from facebook.

on myspace too.

never mind. i'm better than that. (:

ironically, i've been looking for this for the past one plus year. with this deep curiosity. but now that i've found it so randomly, now that i've finally come across what i've been looking for, i'm actually rather repulsed. or make that VERY.

haha. i'm so happy with myself.

okay back to the news.

oh and i need to urgently have a desperate housewives marathon of last season. cos i didnt watch the whole season when it was showing last year. i was studying for As. and now they've just started airing the latest season on channel 5. i wna catch up!!! i think i need an off day soon to just hibernate at home and watch.

okay! done with news! now i'm going to get a cookie, then i better sleep. got work tomorrow! ciao~

sometimes when you wish for something and you finally get it, you may realize you don't really want it.

anyway, today was ash wed and i went mass with vicente. and also, had another junkfest with parents just now while watching tv.

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waiting for delilah to finish drinking her milk, then i'm gonna bathe her.

i just came home. today was rather fun.

especially at work, i think that was fun.

i ended up working extra hour today for fun. cos i couldn't leave due to the HEAVY HEAVY rain. also, the people i work with are super fun. eloisa (her name sounds like mine, so when she works they call me maria to lessen the confusion), auntie, thana, selvam, christina!

as much as i wanted to stay, i had to leave eventually to go church. so i borrowed an umbrella from the nice nice security people.

went to TM to sit, drink and rest my feet. then walked to church and now i'm back!

 

i find it really nice when boys automatically detect, pick up and safeguard against my unreasonable jealous tendencies. haha.

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had my favourite kind of stay home family day again.

lots of kfc. and now i think my stomach's aching from all the oil.

but me likey!

took things slow today... resting and stuff. but i feel bad for cutting out on elfy. sorry.

 

my dream

in the lift with family. and he and his friend were there too. (not with us of course)

then they got off.

the lift was blue.

then our floor came. we exited and arrived at aunty vicky's house. like the lift is right in her living room. how cool is that.

cyn and tim were there... aaron too.

dining table. eating some nice biscuits.

then papadi gave us his cookies and cake that's apparently very nice and why aaron was there.

house was quite dark, with a few soft lights.

then suddenly we were all examining the stuff we owned. statues and stone and all.

i love my family. all the relatives.

and i realized the guys in my family are hot.

 

 

i like today.

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