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frankly, i’ve been slacking since last thursday, my logic finals.

then i’ve been sleeping like 12 hours everyday, and when the new week started, i was too excited for my birthday to do any real work.

and then thursday was an awfully long day, which ended on friday morning.

and friday was spent bumming.

and sat was spent bumming.

and now today’s sunday.

i have no idea what’s going to happen today, but here’s the thing.

i need to start doing work.

term ends on the 11 of dec.

it’s the race to the finish.

so slacking ends today.

by 0000hours.

then it’s party again.

see you on the 11th.

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louiza

• can’t wait to meet her BOY FRIEND on thursday. muahaha.
• can’t wait to dance with BOY FRIEND on thursday.
• can’t wait to get tipsy.
• cant wait to dance with random hot stuffs.
• hasn’t started accounting
• been music-ing all day
• can’t wait to settle with kuga
• can’t wait to finish her work.
• can’t wait to dance
• can’t wait to turn 20

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how do i explain to you what i did, even though it’s pretty darn noble and wise, when in the first place it’s something very personal?

what pisses me off, is how i’m losing so much right now even though it’s already over.

i’m still having to pay for your shit.

fuck you.

and the best part is, i always knew it wasn’t meant to be anyway.

and for that i blame myself.

the Buddha was realistic and objective. he says, with regard to life and the enjoyment of sense-pleasures, that one should clearly understand three things

1. attraction of enjoyment
2. evil consequence or danger or unsatifactoriness, and
3. freedom or liberation

when you see a pleasant, charming and beautiful person, you like him, you are attracted, you enjoy seeing that person again and again, you derive pleasure and satisfaction from that person. this is enjoyment. it is a fact of experience. but this enjoyment is not permanent, just as that person and all his attractions are not permanent either. when the situation changes, when you cannot see that person, when you are deprived of this enjoyment, you become sad, you may become unreasonable and unbalanced, you may even behave foolishly. this is the evil, unsatisfactory and dangerous side of the picture. this, too, is a fact of experience. now if you have no attachment to the person, if you are completely detached, that is freedom, liberation. these three things are true with regard to all enjoyment in life.

well said, Buddha. well said. maybe i should take up this philosophy.

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okay, way to start the week. arrived at school like half an hour late for class, so in the end decided not to go. but here's the thing.

i promise that i won't be late ever again.

let's see how that goes.

anyway, met brian yizheng n jully smoking. so i went to join them for a bit. now i'm in the lab, gonna read a bit of philo to calm my guilty soul.

awww, he said i could have his bike. scrambler is love. really.

when people start addressing you a number, that’s when you know that you really did something earth-shaking.

i love the weather.

damage control has taken up so much energy. and for the past two nights, i’ve been sleeping for 12 hours.

gosh, i gotta start doing work.

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I'm glad you still know i'm smart. Kenneth.

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my case was today.

scrambler is love. (:

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the law prototype. deny and i seriously come up with the craziest shit.

school was pretty fun.

finished at 3 but stayed till like 9 to do logic with the kids.

then oh so randomly went dinner with ben.

which was nice.

he reminds me of martin in a comforting way.

got to touch the black hat.

sweet.

okay gonna do work!~

p.s. oh louiza is so dead. she happily told lance today, I’M GONNA OUTLAWYER YOU!

oh god.

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In religion now. Sometimes i wonder if i'm actually a boy. Just spent like an hour in conference with 6 guys. Love them all. Everyone's so nice. I sense another party.

i think, ultimately i'm just a punkish emokid. Okay back to religion.

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has it ever occurred to you that the conversations we have are near perfect?

is it just you?

or is it us.

cos i don’t recall having that with anyone else.

i hope it’s just you. and not us being together.

cos the solution will be more possible.

i just need to find more people like you.

but people i can have.

it’s hard,

very.

but guess what.

if it’s the other case, that it’s us.

then i really dont know how to solve that.

cos i can never be with you.

 

and you think i don’t know that?

trust me boy.

if i didn’t know that, i wouldn’t have killed myself not having you that night.

i would like to date a nerd.

a hot nerd.

a hot good boy.

chances come, and if you don’t grab them, they may go.

and you may lose something that could have been awesome.

i dont want this happening to me.

so i’m going to make sure that when the chances come, i’m prepared and ready to grab them.

 

next week i’m going to be professional.

watch me.

i spent friday the 13th celebrating my conquer of the shitload of work i had to do.

AWESOME.

clubbed supperclub and arena with the group.

really grateful to friends who took care of me when i puked.

lesson learnt: don’t drink on an empty stomach.

i had only so little to drink and yet, i felt so DAMN bloated and crapped.

so all came out.

and the funny part is

all that came out was water.

liquid.

no solids. cos i didnt eat the whole day.

why?

cos i was lazy to find the time.

hehex.

so i dont really want to blog everything that happened last night. cos strangely i want to just be able to replay it in my mind.

and also, i’m lazy to.

oh vivian, i met beatrice at supperclub.

dance.

smoke.

talk.

cubicles.

couples.

drink.

the 5 minute walk.

the trend setter.

the lift.

the partner.

the phone.

my bag.

hands.

hair.

taxi rides.

sticks.

stage.

scotland boy.

four boys to one girl.

mac donalds.

puke.

water.

baby are you down?

advertising.

and there you have it,

yizheng and louiza’s rival party.

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alright!!! sdfdsf !~!

DISCLAIMER: DONT MIND THE HIGHNESS OF THIS POST. I’M EFFING HIGH NOW DUE TO WELL CAFFEINE OVERLOAD AND PACKS.

alrightxz! so today was pretty unique and gnarly.

its almost 4am and i’m still hyped.

WHHOOOHOO!~

alright. soo.

today i started school at 10.30. thanks russell for the COFFEE. number one coffee of the day. dont worry more to come.

then went to class, late with my deny.

class was awesome.

well cos, i dont know it jsut was.

then,

break.

super long break cos religion philo got cancelled.

so like from 12 to 4.30 i was free.

spent most of it in classroom with the group. those that were lucky and didnt take logic were playing cards. the others (me inclusive) were like cussing about logic. and rushing.

awesomely fun. awesomely fun chaos.

and i had tons of muffins!

and well the SESSIONS. haha lets just say i finished one pack.

TALKED TO TAD!!!! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW……

then logic.

omg logic was so damn awesome.

funny. but relaly no hard feelings. all’s good. lets just say law students and the other have a funny irritating way of thinking. yi will agree with me. ;)

then talked to TAD more!

then accounting which was boring.

then more SESSIONS with yi and bryan. nice talk nice talk.

then i went to orchard.

met thana

and then went to starbucks for MORE COFFEEE

i had like  A HELL LOT.

and another pack.

THEN something funny happened.

my EX KUGA came to see us.

yes, i still think he’s hot.

but yeah well anyway,

someone misses me someone loves me someone is sorry. someone is in denial.

and then after like an hour of sitting around,

i say I’M ATTACHED!

hahaha obviously a lie.

 

but it was awesome to see you get up and walk away.

Got your hotness already. MOVING ONNNNNN. You’re just a collector’s item to me. to my collection.

then cabbed back with thanaskodi.

bathed, and had a legal conference with deny.

and now i’m gonna write out my case brief.

cos lawyers do that

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yeah i’m thankful logic’s love for me. cos there’s SO much logic to do these days! catching up, presentation, assignments, and next week exam. the course is ending so i guess it’s only normal for this war to begin.

but i say bring it. cos logic is fun.

(:

anyway, it’s gonna be another logic night tonight. i have homework to hand in by tomorrow.

sweet.

 

reason why i wanna blog is just to say this.

just now, i watched greenday perform live on the EMAs.

and then i realized how come i really really love them.

yeah next to blink hand-in-hand is greenday for me.

and really it’s such a pity that if i go to usa in jan, i wont be able to catch them here in sg. cos i’ll give ANYTHING to see them.they’re so awesome live.

 

then i thought about the most awesomest person on earth to go with.

hahaa.

too bad thats pretty impossible.

but if it had happened, it would have been FUCKING –yes fucking- GNARLY.

can't really do work now. i'm standing up. in the library doing my duty. waiting for my life saver to come.

i just wanted to report that, MY 3 WEEK PILE UP OF SHIT TRAUMA IS OVER!!!!!!

yup!!!

3 weeks worth of piled up stress of homework assignments and catching up. all accomplished in 12 days!!!!

yup!!

okay its not 100% over, there's still a bit tiny tiny bit of work left. but i'm glad cos now i'm on par again.

the red alert is off. from last night.

YES AWESOME!

alright ciao!

OMG! i’ve never fucking done logic in such a hurried way. SUCKS! UGH.

shit i’m like 1.25 hours late in handing in. hope the doctor doesn’t mind. ughhhh.

i’m so stinky i need to batheeeee!!!!

school was the shit today.

biz law was amazing.

lance was like AWESOME as judge.

seriously all cool and just firing everyone down.

not my case today, and i was just gaping in awe at him.

I WANNA BE HIM.

seriously.

i can’t wait for my case on tuesday.

i dont care if he shoots me down.

it’s just DAMN hawt.

oh Gosh…

and like BOTH the defendants and prosecutors were like just 0 . 0

PAPERS flying everywhere!

he had like NOTHING.

just his BRAIN.

i wanna be him.

really.

DAMN sexy.

and logic presentation.

wow. amazing.

i realize, law students are rather clever.

;)

tai was awesome.

and i had an awesome AWESOME time debating with the doctor.

and, i’m glad at how long i held it.

AWESOME.

AWESOME.

really.

awesome.

okay that’s all i have to say.

no time to blog much, but i just HAD to write all that down.

sexy intelligence.

elfy’s coming back.

sweet.

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Dear all,

it’s that time of the year again – my birthday is approaching. and i just want to put something out on the table.

I DONT LIKE SURPRISES.

yup. i don’t really know why. but i’ve always been like that.

i guess i’m just the kind of person that needs to be in the know of everything.

celebrate, fine.

i like to plan things with friends.

but i DONT LIKE SURPRISES.

unless its from family, or boyfriend (even then i sometimes get irritated at him).

i know surprises are all with good intentions, and yes, i do love surprising others.

but i’m not the kind that likes to be surprised.

so thanks, but no thanks.

NO SURPRISES.

i like to know everything that’s happening around me.

love y’all!

(:

I am, yours sincerely,

Louiza

p.s. vivian i need to talk to you.

p.p.s. vivian i want to make cupcakes with you soon.

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as of now, i’m going to usa 9:1.

okay back to my nighter.

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right now, i’m moving to usa 8.5:1.5

okay i’ve paused logic for the past 3 hours do work out with dad and the internet on whether i should stay or go to the states. and now, the ratio is 7:3. to usa.

and now i got lots of work to do.

RUSH.

Hi everyone.

i'm stuck.

seriously.

for the longest time, i've been debating whether to transfer my next semester to the states or not in January.

i'm gonna transfer there either ways next year. but the question now is whether i should go in january or mid of the year.

i can't decide.

so i've been putting off that decision. however, due to the deadline of registration at my college now for the next semester, i can't procrastinate any further.

but unfortunately, 3 hours of thinking non-stop hasn't gotten me any nearer in deciding.

i'm still on the fence. push me over will you?

so yeah. i know people read this blog. i may not know you. but that doesn't matter.

i'm really desparate.

so just make a choice pleeeeeeeaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

0.0

you can even choose not to care.

thank you.

i appreciate it.

and i need to know soon.

bye.

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i know i feel hurt. but really, i’m too busy. no time to even feel.

well, it’s been approximately 60 hours since i “opened” my non-stop academic action filled week end on friday evening. and i’m happy to announce that i dont think i’m anywhere near getting over my work disaster.

note to self, next time i break up, it’s NOT going to affect my studies.

OR my health. now pretty much people are seeing how i’m cooling off with ice mint.

which is not good.

and i’m stopping.

and i think in 60 hours, i have had less than 10 hours of sleep collectively.

which is also not good.

 

anyway, yes. i can’t wait to get this load of crap eliminated.

 

really sorry to all the people i’m busting off and ignoring right now. so excited to catch up on my appointments. and clubbing. (dont abandon me yet people)

and of course, sleep.

alright, gonna try catch some sleep first.

laters

xoxo.

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