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mark hoppus calls it year spaceship. =/ i'm just gonna call it the adventure.

anywayss, here's to 2010. i've always detested new years. seriously. whats so fun about going to school the next day? of living through the crappy long opening months of jan, feb, march, april, may? of christmas ending? my favourite months were always october, november, december. and they always will be.

plus this year, holidays were pretty short for me. december was too short. after all school ended on the 11th... so thats like half a month gone already. ugh. then christmas came so fast, it was all really a blur.

nevertheless, i have to say that hands down last night was like the BEST new years in my entire life. seriously. and credits would have to go to rudy of course. first thing we did at 0000 was walk off from a bar with our glasses. his from vodka, and mine from wine. and those glasses stayed with us all the way till clarke quay. hahah. from city hall. hilarious.

2009 was party year. had so much fun, especially since after As. lived it. party, drinks, friends, out out out! family, girls, guys, school. it was awesome. i love 2009 really.

i'm gonna call 2010 the adventure. cos who knows where i'll end up and the end of next year? great! (:

2008 was the year of self-discovery. i worked towards the As, and just really spent the year taking care of myself since this was the period i stayed single for longest. i made real friendships, and had many nice people around me, helping me along the way. i learnt a lot about myself.

2009, party year.

and 2010, is gonna be the adventure. i cant wait.

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alright!!! sdfdsf !~!

DISCLAIMER: DONT MIND THE HIGHNESS OF THIS POST. I’M EFFING HIGH NOW DUE TO WELL CAFFEINE OVERLOAD AND PACKS.

alrightxz! so today was pretty unique and gnarly.

its almost 4am and i’m still hyped.

WHHOOOHOO!~

alright. soo.

today i started school at 10.30. thanks russell for the COFFEE. number one coffee of the day. dont worry more to come.

then went to class, late with my deny.

class was awesome.

well cos, i dont know it jsut was.

then,

break.

super long break cos religion philo got cancelled.

so like from 12 to 4.30 i was free.

spent most of it in classroom with the group. those that were lucky and didnt take logic were playing cards. the others (me inclusive) were like cussing about logic. and rushing.

awesomely fun. awesomely fun chaos.

and i had tons of muffins!

and well the SESSIONS. haha lets just say i finished one pack.

TALKED TO TAD!!!! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW……

then logic.

omg logic was so damn awesome.

funny. but relaly no hard feelings. all’s good. lets just say law students and the other have a funny irritating way of thinking. yi will agree with me. ;)

then talked to TAD more!

then accounting which was boring.

then more SESSIONS with yi and bryan. nice talk nice talk.

then i went to orchard.

met thana

and then went to starbucks for MORE COFFEEE

i had like  A HELL LOT.

and another pack.

THEN something funny happened.

my EX KUGA came to see us.

yes, i still think he’s hot.

but yeah well anyway,

someone misses me someone loves me someone is sorry. someone is in denial.

and then after like an hour of sitting around,

i say I’M ATTACHED!

hahaha obviously a lie.

 

but it was awesome to see you get up and walk away.

Got your hotness already. MOVING ONNNNNN. You’re just a collector’s item to me. to my collection.

then cabbed back with thanaskodi.

bathed, and had a legal conference with deny.

and now i’m gonna write out my case brief.

cos lawyers do that

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Just talked to thanaskodi after so long. I really miss him. In fact i miss the whole club now. Feeling so nostalgic. I hate feeling like this. It's so bittersweet. Sweet nostalgia with the bitterness of not being able to go back..

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haven't blogged in a bit... well that's cos i usually blog at night after my day has ended, but for the past few nights, i've been feeling pretty exhausted so, i drift right off to sleep once i'm done living the day. (awfully long sentence. =/) can almost hear ms quek's voice "why is this sentence so long??? one, two, three, four... 37 words!!"

that's what she always did last year when we were working on my thesis.

anyway, now delilah's having her siesta, so that leaves me with time to blog for a bit. so i shall recap a bit about the days.

on tuesday, i went out for a late night walk (super long walk) with kuga after his work.

he came over and we walked for ages. i love walking. long walks to be exact.

been doing that since i was with martin.

then last year, whilst jun yuan and i were studying for As, we would go for super long walks too. (my neighbour downstairs who's also in tampines junior college)

and now, kuga!

so he's super nice to take the routes that i love. the ones i took with jun yuan.

we came back at like 4 plus.

on wednesday, i had a long talk with BOTH thanaskodi and kuga. cos i felt jealous. about an ex-worker at tanglin club. and both of them took like forever to appease me. especially thanaskodi.

i don't know how they're so patient. really.

and yesterday, kuga went back to malaysia. friend having a wedding today. so he's busy with wedding stuff.

last night, i talked super long to thanaskodi. and fell asleep.

but today, he's going to malaysia too. visit his relatives.

so looks like my two boys are leaving me for the weekend.

maybe i'll meet thanaskodi on sunday. gotta ask kuga first.

 

on to another topic, i started work at coffee club @ white sands on tuesday.

i must say, my co-workers are very friendly and nice to me.

but sadly, i will never be able to compare them to my experience with the dream team at tanglin.

they really made the bar for fun at work with friends SUPER high. and i won't be able to replace or find a group like them in a long time.

i even found a new best friend in thanaskodi who manja-s me like hell.

and a boyfriend who's so patient and caring to me.

and a damn funnily cool guy who's so unique. calls me "dear" all the time. and makes me laugh.

 

seriously, i miss them.

but sadly, we've all gone to different routes.

selvam went to wheelhouse, (another restaurant at the club)

thana went to tangles, (another restaurant at the club)

and i left the club altogether.

only kuga's leFft in deli

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i just had an amazing day, centered round the amazing date with thanaskodi.

i went to work - which wasn't so bad... had a funny briefing today.

left at 2.30pm, then trained to orchard to meet thanaskodi after his work.

sat at mc cafe with him, kishen and anthony pereira (i just love saying his full name)

i had a bagel.(: from starbucks though. i'm not really a fan of mc cafe.

then the two boys left to continue their second shifts at work... and thanaskodi and i remained.

we stayed there for awhile, talking laughing fighting bickering as usual... then we decided to move.

because i loved to walk, we walked from like wheelock all the way to orchard center.

we stopped halfway at the fountains of ngee ann though. cos apparently it's fascinating to somebody. ahaa.

sat down for awhile, while someone rested cos it's so tiring walking with me. -_-

finally, we settled at starbucks where i had yet another snack. but this time, a muffin.

then we talked and talked and talked for ages.

laughing, fighting etc.

(by the way, congratulations are in order for thana who has clinched a major change in his career.)

i think we left starbucks only at like 8 plus.

then, we went to the new orchard center or something. because i wanted to pee.

AND THE PLACE IS FREAKING COOL!!! AND I KEPT FREAKING OUT ABOUT IT!! MAKING THANASKODI SWEAR TO BRING ME THERE AGAIN!!!

if kuga doesn't first that is. (:

then, we trained back to pasir ris. thana was nice to send me back.

on the way though, we made a detour. i showed him my new work place at coffee club. haha.

 

i think my day was seriously seriously fun.

A date with my boyfriend's best friend. while my boyfriend is far far in malaysia. HA HA!

but just so it's clear, i'm NOT A CHEATER!

thana also happens to be MY best friend! and every time kuga goes to visit the family, he entrusts thanaskodi to take care of me. (:

thana even buys my food and stuff.

so of course, kuga was aware of our outing today.

 

and tomorrow, i'll be going on another date!

with BOYFRIEND!

 

oh fyi, i've been talking to elfy quite a bit lately. and it's nice. (:

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i had an awesome day today.

honestly everything went so great, i can't really find an imperfection in anything.

anyway, time now is 4.25am so i'm going to make this quick.

i gotta try to sleep asap cos tomorrow there's a lunch party at aunty evie's place.

looks like i can't watch ice age 2 today.

i watched ice age last night. (:

for kuga of course. cos he wants me to bring him to ice age 3. and i want to know everything about the series first before i watch it.

if not for kuga, i wouldnt even have anything to do with the series. since the first movie, it never managed to even get a silver of my attention. and now i'm so enthusiastically rushing to watch it.

-_-

the things love does to you.

but i must say, i'm pretty impressed. it wasn't too bad. in fact, i think i actually like it. which is so contrary to what i was predicting. A BORING MOVIE. like chicken little. which i must say i give 2/5.

so for ice age, i give it 5/5.

and i'm officially in love with diego. he's so cool and fierce.

and his fangs are like wow.

so i was like all gushing over diego last night, feeling sad that he didn't exist. then i realized, I HAVE MY OWN LION!

then i felt much better. haha.

 

anyway, back to today's story, i went to church with parents.

then, trained to orchard where i was supposed to meet thanaskodi and kuga for their break.

i was early, so i decided to shop at borders.

after meeting up, we ate and mac donalds...

then kuga and i left thana there. we went for our alone time.

(:

 

was raining really heavily so subsequently, we were virtually trapped in wisma/ngee ann. for like more than an hour.

couldnt go anywhere else without risking the downpour. i wanted to go to paragon. but there was just no way. it was raining like mad.

 

nevertheless, i was not bored for a second. being stuck with kuga is fun. he bought me a cranberry bun! hehe. and for some reason, we kept browsing aldo outlets.

i think it's a sign. haha.

 

finally, i got sick of wisma. the downpour had succumbed to rain. (yes still raining)

we had one hour to go before kuga had to get back to work.

thats when i gave up.

screw this, i'm going to walk in the rain. out of here.

 

so we walked out, with no destination in mind.

laughing and playing as we walked. (me shielding myself with a stupid small plastic bag. that of the cranberry bun)

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then halfway still in the rain, kuga wanted ice cream, and i felt the comforting urge for a long black. so i brought him to my usual tcc haunt, and ordered him a double scoop of chocolate ice cream with whipped cream. he was soo cute eating ice cream like that. haha.

 

finally, he had to get back. (it was still raining.) i went back to tanglin too. cos i wanted to get some stuff from my locker.

soo, after kissing him goodbye outside the locker rooms and then parting ways, i took my shoe bag from my locker, and made my way to the gates of tanglin.

 

i was about to cross the gates, when i noticed a familiar shape sitting at the far end of the yard. where people usually hung out during their breaks.

i walked over to investigate and was so damn happy when my beliefs were confirmed. that it was thana!

 

so i talked to him, then ashraf came, talked to him too. then thanaskodi got really jealous about that and actually went one corner to sulk. so cute.

then i left soon after cos someone i didnt want to see came.

 

then, i realized i lost my ipod.

it had been in my front pocket of my jeans the whole day. and i reckon it fell out as kuga and i were walking around town.

with orchard being so crowded on sundays, i knew i would have no chance of finding it even if i tried. i wouldn't even know where to start looking.

so with a sense of retirement, i accepted that fate, and just made my way to the station. was feeling rather useless. sick of losing valuables.

surprisingly though, i didn't really feel damn depressed. i was just exhausted from the occurrence of yet another loss. but i wasn't like sad sad.

 

and then, i realized why.

i had too good of a day to be really sad over this.

and then i realized another thing.

the last time i lost my mp3, i too had a damn nice day. which couldn't allow me to feel a tad sad over the loss. refer to the post on 24th may last year.

 

so i guess, it was a good time to lose a valuable. when i'm happy.

it would have sucked a hell lot more if i lost it on a retarded day in which everything was going wrong.

so i guess, i was marginally lucky.

 

things got a lot lighter in the train on the way home, when thanaskodi called me and started complaining that he didn't like how i kept talking to ashraf. hahaa. that boy. he made me laugh so hard, it was literally impossible to feel anything negative.

 

at home, had dinner with mummy, vicente and delilah.

after delilah had had her bath, we coloured together in her new colouring book. (: funnn

 

then she slept, at like 1 am.

then thanaskodi called, and made me happy some more!

fyi, he had compliments today from customers. really proud of him.

 

he made me happy, and actually said my hair was nice today. very pretty. (:

 

then, i finished up reading One Fifth Avenue. i give it 5/5

 

and now, i'm going to wash my face, and finally sleep.

good night world.

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6.30am. i'm waiting for 7.30. to wake baby up. cos he works at 10.

we talked practically the whole night.

yeah not all, but practically.

we started around 10?

then at 1, he "disappeared" and was absent for 3 hours.

valid reason though.

but as usual, i got all sulky when calls finally resumed at 4am.

but baby's really really the MOST patient ever.

MOST patient. really.

i told him before, if i were him, i already would have killed me. the louiza.

 

anyway, tonight was the first time i got angry.

no it wasn't cos i had to wait 3 hours.

it was something else.

and i'm still feeling sorry for being angry. i'm not the kind of person that gets angry. in fact, i rarely lose my temper.

at anyone.

so to do that to baby, well now i feel bad.

 

one day, i'm going to lose kuga.

why?

cos i'm such a brat.

i don't know why he's so damn patient with me. really

and i'm really becoming convinced it's cos he's older. like, not bothered anymore to engage in petty petty rubbish.

like when you're older, takes more to piss you off.

notice that?

like parents, no matter how you whine and complain about them, they will just be steadfast about their decision, while keeping a cool head.

 

kay kuga's not that old. he's 24.

but i think he's mature. he's gone through a lot. living by himself, since like 18 or 19.

 

let's hope he's got the unconditional love of a parent.

otherwise, i think i am going to lose him.

(:

 

anyway, all's settled. so now i'm just waiting for 7.30. ho humm...

 

we talked about his family! here's the conversation. GO READ!! VERY FUNNY!

at my tumblr www.frenchkisses.tumblr.com

 

anywayyy, thana came back today!!!

and we had a threesome again!!!!

on the phone of course. our signature conference filled with ultimate chaos and 100% funny hysteria.

 

okayy 40 mins to go.

 

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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let me share something with you guys.

something that happened to me today.

something that will probably show you guys the kind of person i am. more specifically, the kind of girlfriend i am.

but more importantly, this event made me realize a lot about kuga. and the kind of boyfriend he is.

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okay so, last night, i didn't talk to kuga after he went back to his house in malaysia.

because apparently, he cleaned his house after arriving home from work, and then was too tired he fell right to sleep.

he did text me though, that he was tired.

then i think he KO-ed.

 

so, louiza's not used to this. cos every night, kuga says good night.

but oh wells, i decided to be reasonable. to not pout, or sulk. i was understanding.

 

you might be thinking, "so why is it a big deal?"

 

reason being, i like to be spoilt like that.

AND ALSO, by some unfortunate coincidence, this wasn't the first time. for the past couple of nights, i had not really gotten regular calls after his work at night because friends have been needing his help with errands and stuff.

and no! i never once felt sulky about that. cos his friends are also my friends. and i'm glad baby's really helpful.

nevertheless, after consecutive nights, the trend of absent communication gets noticed and the pout ability in me gets somewhat triggered.

BUT DESPITE THAT, see! i was understanding. didn't sulk.

instead, i watched movies all night, (chick-flicks) while hugging the big bear he gave me.

 

 

BUT THIS MORNING, his call at 10am woke me up. and while i was still half-asleep, i recalled him talking very sleepily, then suddenly, he just hung up! after saying he has a very bad headache, he'll call me back.

okay, maybe it was because i was sleepy, so my reason wasn't functioning. but at that moment, i began to pout!

yes, his headache might have been really genuine. but i guess, i let the spoilt monster in me take over at that moment.

don't get me wrong, i never ever doubted his love.

it's just the unreasonable brat in me.

 

 

so, at that moment, i started to plot.

plot a plan!

like in my mind were these thoughts. (in no particular order)

why on earth am i waiting for him to call me!

he only calls when he wants to! and i have to wait wait wait wait! (totally not true, but at 10am after only 3 hours of sleep, i was convinced this was the ultimate truth)

he's forgotten me, and i DON'T LIKE THIS!

i dont want to be vulnerable! like the weak one! waiting and waiting and waiting. and being all affected!

CONCLUSION : I AM GOING TO BE STRONG! AND NOT ALLOW THIS WEAKNESS TO ENSUE!

 

 

as u can see, it was all rubbish.

number one, i don't really wait long for him.

number two, even if i have to wait, it's always for a legitimate reason. and he always gets to me as soon as he can.

 

but still, i was already sulking and pouting. so i wanted to RISE UP and be strong and not allow my mood to be determined by whether his calls came or not.

 

so the plan was this.

for the whole day, whenever he calls, i'll say "I'M BUSY! I CAN'T TALK NOW!"

and then say bye.

 

you guys can even refer to my tumblr. cos thats where i updated on the progress of THE PLAN.

 

 

at first, it was very effective.

 

he called one hour later, and i said i was BUSY! and it caught him offguard.

 

but i hated doing it - as i knew i would the moment i started plotting. cos it's painful putting down the phone on my baby.

i always relish every second i get to talk to him on the phone. and now to charge in the opposite direction, was REALLY REALLY sad. ):

 

then he began calling again and again at intervals...

and i said the same thing!

and actually from the first call, he already knew something was up, cos "louiza never says she's busy except if she's bathing. but that one also, u will pick and let me know."

 

so i was glad. the plan was WORKING.

 

and it did for the hours to come. till like 4 plus.

i let my sad emotion waver my determination to be focused on the call routine.

 

i was missing him badly, so i talked more.

then when i realized i was flirting with the ENEMY, i quickly said BYE! and hung up!

 

and vowed to be stronger at the next encounter. (i actually posted about this on tumblr)

 

 

but all this time, baby was such a sweetie and a gentleman. apologizing and already guessing it was about the lack of calls.

 

and i just kept responding this in a whiny , "no, no need to apologize! you don't like to talk to me right?! so never mind! i will relieve you of that burden!" 

 

 

however, the plan finally failed. at 6.45 during his break.

he had gotten hold of me on the phone, and was explaining.

saying that, he really couldn't call, (something i already accepted as true. cos the hours awoke my reason. but i just wanted to see where this plan was going to go. for fun.) that he will improve on calling me, and that it wasn't a burden to contact me... he always tries his best to keep in touch with me.

even at work, he uses the tactics i used to employ to text him.

 

and THIS IS THE FALLEN MOMENT WHEN I LET THE PLAN DIE.

cos, then i excitedly went on and on about how i evaded the system... how i could text him. the tricks i used... where i hid my phone... where I hid to text him..

THEN, he said this. "yeah... i know... it must be so hard for you to lie and put down the phone on me... the whole day... i'm sorry baby."

 

 

and i was speechless.

"what do you mean?" i said, thinking it must be impossible.

then he said, "i know how you always love talking to me... you never say you're busy, you wait up for me to call you, and at work, you do everything to get me... so i know now, you're wanting to show me how you're all merajuk (malay for sulking)... and you're making yourself say you're busy. i know it makes you sad to have to put the phone down."

 

"and i can tell how hard it is."

 

and all i could say was. "omg. how could you have known."

 

cos, that was exactly what i was feeling. and i felt so touched.

here's a guy who, instead of getting annoyed, or just apologizing for his part, he was actually thinking about my real intentions, and my feelings. while i was conspiring to prove a point.

 

and despite knowing all this, he was still humouring me by apologizing.

 

then i pouted and whined, "i don't like this!  you ruined my plan!! " ):

 

and then he said, "haha. baby... baby louiza. you are childish, sweet, and nice. anger is not in you. so next time you want to act, please act more realistically. just now, you let yourself slip. you talked to me. then when you realized you were not in the correct direction, you suddenly said you're busy. soo cute la you."

 

 

"next time, if i know you're doing all this, i will come to your house and talk to you. so you don't need to hang up saying you're busy."

 

:(

 

see how silly i was.

 

i think it's the fact his older. like cheryl and i talked about.

more calm. so i can be the frisky terrier. while, he, the calm Doberman.

 

or maybe it's just me.

sometimes i really underestimate him.

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anyway just for memory's sake.

today i had a lunch at my place so relatives came, and i blackjacked for a couple of hours.

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kuga came by after work.

we went to downtown to get my coffee, but everything was close. of all the days.

so we walked home, and got coffee on the way...

then we talked at the park awhile. lucky we didnt go for a movie. kuga was like already drifting in and out of sleep just sitting there.

so we continued our conversation via international calling.

and just ended, at 5.30am.

now i'm just enjoying the company of vivian and ben online.

today, sunday, parents, vicente and i went for mass. then after mass, we had lunch at century square...

okay my post is all over the place, i think i shall sleep soon.

 

lovebite 14th June...

 

it's very cozy having a man in my life. one that really knows how to take care of me.

today i got scolding. for always asking him to leave. because he says he'll stay no matter what he has to go through.

but the scolding was in a nice gentlemanly way. (:

 

sadness is like rubbish that we have to throw away.

 

cute, baby, like small girl.

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i stayed home all day today... missing kuga.

reading.

was in bed a lot.

daydreaming about you.

just spent his break time talking on the phone.

i am going to watch casanova tonight.

 

you take your time with me.

you make me feel special, how you want everything to be perfect for me.

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i haven't slept. since 10 am yesterday morning.

that means, i've officially been awake for 36 hours. and counting.

but surprisingly, today, i'm not having one of those headaches i usually get whenever i don't sleep.

amazing.

maybe cos i've been too active and busy to let the fatigue sink in.

or maybe it's just cos kuga's in my life.

i pretty much stayed home all day yesterday. with family... ate... biscuits... did a bit of housework... set myself up a tumblr. only cause vivian's look so pretty. it's so not popular in singapore.

nevertheless, THANK YOU VIVIAN for quelling my stupidity. i know i kept whining over and over again about how i'm so damn confused and totally dont understand anything.

THANK YOU.

so anyone who's curious, you can check me out at www.frenchkisses.tumblr.com

where i try to be as creative as vivian.

hopefully i'm diligent enough.

oh guess what! i've linked the rss feed of my twitter to my tumblr. so now my tweets also get shown on my tumblr. just in case i'm too stupid to make my tumblr look nice, at least there's something there.

SEE VIVIAN. I MERGED MY BELOVED TWITTER WITH TUMBLR. hehee. but my twitter still remains though. at http://twitter.com/louizastarr i'm still there. tweeting about the air i breathe.

yes i know i'm lame.

but also obsessed with perfection.. and "taking down things"

apart from displays of creativity, i'm also using my tumblr as like a place to note the status of my relationship. i like to go back and observe the changes. good or bad.

are you starting to get the whole "taking down things" obsession now? haha.

don't say i didnt warn you.

anyhows.

in the evening, delilah daddy and i went to white sands to get some food. got like SO MUCH of kfc.

at night, i met kuga at 12 plus.

brought him to watch TRANSFORMERS!

but he fell asleep like during the last hour. (stubborn boy that didnt want to listen to me. i told you that you'll be to too tired to meet after work)

never mind. that didn't stop that silly boy from proclaiming at work that MY GIRLFRIEND BROUGHT ME TO SEE TRANSFORMERS LAST NIGHT!!!!

i give that movie 5/5.

then we walked home... i came home at like 7.

didn't really sleep because at 9 i had to make my way to tpjc to collect my A level cert... to pass to Broward College.

yup! i'm an undergraduate there now.

went to college to give the cert... then walked so much around cbd doing american banking. the weather was effing hot. i was shiny in sweat. and i was wearing a tube.

okay maybe the jeans didnt help.

and the fact that the whole get up was black.

ANYWAY, at 2, i made my way to tanglin to see baby!! by the way, i dont work there anymore. since sunday.

brought him out to lunch.

macs. as usual.

had fun amusing him with my personal notebook and my academic stuff.

and and and we had a really really funny conversation. i think i'll use tumblr to post it.

so go check it out kay!!! at www.frenchkisses.tumblr.com

:D

baby started work at 4 again. so he walked me to the station... where we spent the last 15 minutes just standing at the corner and talking like we always do.

and baby kept amusing me with his fierce face. making me giggle and go all shy and everything.

then he had to go. but he made me walk at the side where he could see my through the glass panel. haha. sweetness you.

then i went to college to sign a couple of documents.

THEN, my day got better.

vivian and i started a text marathon.

and she made me smile throughout the journey back to pasir ris. despite how my feet were hurting and my hair so messy and i felt so dirrty after the long long afternoon.

where the next shocker happened.

i passed the new coffee club where they were apparently hiring.

feeling all tired, i just randomly walked in.

and 10 minutes later, i'm an employee.

yes i'm shocked too.

i start on the 6th. cheer for me yeah!

i know baby is cheering for me. (: thanks for the support.

then i went home. like finally.

and had like hours of talk with daddy. (:

ate, play and now i'm here.

OKAY OFF TO DO THAT CONVERSATION.

go see! (:

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they always say the best philosophy to living is live life as if it was your last day.

and i always thought, how cliche.

anyway, let me begin by blogging about yesterday. my day ended at 5 am this morning. so naturally i was too tired to blog if i was going to blog lucidly.

as usual, i reported to work at 11 sunday morning. worked with eloisa and muraly. and aunty.

by an unexpected string of events, yesterday turned out to by my last day working there.

and no, whilst working, i had no clue of that.

it was fixated in my mind that the following day - monday - aka today, was going to be my last day.

i had it all planned out.

i would relish everything i did, every detail, soak in every bit of environment. and most importantly, say an appreciative goodbye to EVERYONE i knew. because really, if there's anything i enjoyed very much from that place, was the friendships i've made with everyone.

so, no. because i didn't know that it was my last day, i didnt get to do all that.

and now, leaving that place, i feel like a significant part of me is heavy.

i guess that normal. the nostalgic immediate phase when one leaves an association, school, etc.

but i was lucky.

firstly, pardon the outright manner, i have good memory.

so, i can recall almost everything that happened yesterday. they're still fresh in my mind.

and secondly, most dearly, yesterday for almost 2 hours, i got to work with both thana and kuga.

thats like the dream team. minus selvam. but he also came up for a bit.

well, i couldnt have asked for anything more as a last day that i wasn't even aware of.

it was SUPER fun.

thana and i were fighting fighting as usual.

kuga was being his cute self, entertaining our nonsense.

and operation was so smooth.

i was inside the bar, and kuga outside.

he took orders and ran the items. i did the drinks. thana the food.

and i moved so fast, thana kept making fun of me.

but the 3 of us handled everything.

NO JAM.

and i'm very proud of that.

so i didn't know it was my last day, thana didn't get to make for me a fluffy. (go to mc cafe and order a fluffy. you'll know what i mean.)

BUT, most fortunately, thana made me an AWESOME (as usual) sandwich. and if that's the last food of his i'm going to eat for a long time, then i cant be any happier.

and at 5, i walked off, not taking the trouble to really say bye to everyone. because they were busy handling new orders, and i had no idea i was never going to walk there as barista/waitress ever ever again.

(okay suddenly my breathing's getting heavy and painful)

 

*takes a few deep breaths

 

moving on,

it was later in the evening. 10pm, that muraly called and told me he shifted the roster around. which meant i didnt need to come in for work today. (monday)

and so then it hit me, that i didn't have the last day i wanted.

and i was pretty bummed about that.

but it was even later that night, that my two favourite boys decided to show up!

yup! thana and kuga came down!

and i don't know whether it was cos they knew i was sad, but either ways, i was EXTREMELY happy!

from my place, we walked to the pond. where we had drinks and talked.

and the WHOLE time thana and i were bickering and fighting as usual. sometimes people at work find it hard to believe we're best friends.

and everytime at work when we fight, eloisa will scold us.

haha.

anyways, we had some fries and burger too.

it was really peaceful. we were like the only ones there.

then we took the long route home.

talked along the way....

i really felt extremely happy upon going home. like even though they ended late, they took the trouble to come over.

i entered my house beaming like a crazy person.

and so, the saying goes live life as if it was your last day.

i finally realize how precious that saying is. cliche is but miles away.

and i did tell my boys, that i really felt down that i hadn't known my last day had passed. i didn't get to do the things i wanted. didn't get to say goodbye.

and then baby said, it's never too late to go back and change that.

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Baby and shakespeare.

 

(louiza and kuga sees couple wearing identical teeshirts.)

kuga : do you like wearing same stuff like that?

louiza : hmm... not say i like or don't like. i'm neutral. if it happens, i think it's cute. but don't worry i won't force you to do anything.

kuga : for me it's not whether i like or don't like. it's what you like. then i'll do.

louiza : hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

 

haven't blogged in a while. haven't really used the computer lately. been either out late, or catching up on sleep. kuga's been amazing to me - as always.

late night suppers... dates... even though he's like super exhausted after working till late.

ILOVEYOUBABY.

being the nice nice awesome gentleman.

 

like yesterday, we worked at terrace again. second time as non-enemy.

and he called me baby!! haha like while working!! like in front of everyone. even manager.

like "baby can you help me do blahblahblah..."

made me really really smile!!

then when i asked "okayy now what you want me to do?"

then he says "do whatever you want."

made me feel so so so special. even though we were at work.

 

and he's so sexy. how he's like in-charge and everything...

and so strong. so sexy and tall carrying the super big tray.

 

haha okay i sound crazy.

 

and how he calls me the captain. - "anything let louiza handle. she's the captain."

and give me authority to let people go toilet.

hehehex.

even though i'm just a lousy part-timer.

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from the moment you cut your hand, i felt like i wanted to be close to you.

 

i know i told myself i wouldn't think of you.

but you keep calling me, reminding me of the love that is missing right now.

and last night, your kisses were so soft.

they always are.

light. never heavy. never deep.

you leave me wanting more.

but last night, was exceptionally soft.

like the way you love me.

and though you're far, just thinking of them makes me feel your warmth.

but its ironic intensity gives me goosebumps. still.

and just, you made me remember something random. but precious.

you'll always check my burger whether it has been done properly whenever you bring me to macs.

and you may be captain at work,

but that doesn't mean a thing to me.

cos you're already captain of my heart.

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today's first day of kuga's leave

yesterday, went to work late. then muraly couldn't go meeting. =/

after work went home with susan and wendy.

asam girls. haha. we kept eating asam while walking to the station.

went home, took care of delilah, watched a bit of transformers. (:

at 12 plus, kuga came over. brought me to macs... where i showed him my blog. (this one)

and the conversations i had with vi and cher about him. (super embarrassing.)

i love you baby and you're the best for me. no one else.

at like 2.30, we walked home. which was nice. cos baby kept TALKING AND TALKING.

and i kept smiling cos i love to hear him speak. it's the only thing i wanted to ever do when i just met him. well, except of course, not the rubbish attitudes he was giving me at that time.

so i just kept soaking in the conversations, looking at him... doing my darnest to remember every detail of him. as i wouldn't be seeing this boy until tuesday. he's going to KL to visit his family. who are really nice people, from the conversations i've had with them over the phone.

"it's like now i'm walking. i don't know if i'm going to fall down over there. but i'm still going to carry on walking." - kuga, upon my question of how he knows i'm worth it.

so i reached home at like 3.15am. kuga kept asking me to inform my dad where i was. something i dont normally do. but i guess its good. cos then when i came home i didn't get any of the usual nagging.

i did research after bathing. and slept at like 5.30. woke up at 1.30. so i'm glad i had 8 hours of sleep. (:

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the weather is SO so hot!

anyways, for record's sake. saturday was i'm sorry thank you day for thana and i. and kuga decided to come and EXTRA also. haha.

nahh he's just cute.

sunday, i did opening all by myself! in the dark. seriously. i feel so proud of myself.

actually, i was supposed to start work only at 11. but i decided to surprise baby who was doing opening at 10.

i came at 9.30 and did opening all by myself!!

first time! *feels proud.

after work, he brought me home. (: then went back for second shift. i love him.

last night talked to elfy.

today, i worked with him again. went to work early as well. we worked with aunty today. very fun for some reason.

after work, as he didn't have any break, i walked to macs to buy him food, then after passing it back to him, i went home.

at home, i had a damn long phone conversation with dad. not unusual. but yeah, awesome just the same.

and now, i'm just waiting to hear from kuga.

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at 9am, i was certain that i was going to have a sucky day.

i talked to kuga till like 6 plus. he said so so many nice things. today's our one month. and things had a funny way of happening.

at 9 am i was sad. and unable to call kuga, i called elfy. who was so nice to entertain my emoness despite being in the middle of a jungle. thank you thank you.

and at like 10 plus, baby called!! and really cleared my emoness and muddled thoughts. so by 11, i felt a bit better.

there was hope for the day.

i spent the rest of the morning watching cartoons with delilah and snacking. fyi to you guys, she's feeling much better from the fever she's been having past couple of days.

at this point of the day, i was neutrally content.

but what made me REALLY REALLY happy, was that as soon as he could, kuga called me again. and spoke to me for nearly an hour from malaysia. and made sure i was smiling and cheery before he hung up to have lunch.

he worked at 2.

i'm off today.

i had lunch that parents bought back, whilst surfing the net. things were rather relaxing today. watched a bit of tv too...

i had a productive day. cleaned room... folded my clothes... ironed my uniform... even helped daddy with the laundry.

not a bad day.

dinner was lamb steak.

thennn!!! THANASKODI AND BABY CAME TO MY HOUSE AFTER WORK!!!!

thanaskodi!!!! was so so happy to see him after so so long.

):

then they brought me to mac donalds. at white sands.

we were the only ones in the bus there. and thana and i were squabbling as usual. SUPER FUN! whilst kuga took care of me as usual.

squabbling didnt stop at macs. where kuga had to end up doing the ordering cos the two of us were too busy fighting. haha!

eating also compromised of arguing. i think we miss each other too much already. haha.

and my kuga actually fell asleep while we were arguing.

macs at night is nice. rather tranquil patrons around.

at 1.30am, we decided to leave cos someone was like dying already.

cabbed to my place, thana took the stuffs for the bike. kuga sent me up.

and i got to french kiss my baby after SO long. but pity it was like only a few minutes.

went home, and washed up... talked to parents. and now i'm here.

so,

what irony.

at 9am i thought my day was going to suck.

at 2am, i'm wishing i could play it all over again.

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the weather is really, really hot.

and it has been that way for the past couple of days.

at times, it gets to me, but at others, i try to enjoy it. soaking up the sun means more vitamin D. sorry for the randomness.

anyhow, the day's sunday... here's what i did.

i went for mass at 9.30 with vicente, after which he went for cathechism. i decided to walk home. (part of embracing the sun)

i did take a cool shower thereafter.

watched tv with delilah, then at 1 plus, went to tampines mall to have lunch with family. had cafe cartel. personally i think the standards are somewhat dropping. ah wells. all was good.

LJ.

it's a rather down tuned sunday for me, so after lunch, i just went back with delilah.

now she's having an afternoon nap, whilst i'm here massaging my feet and trying not to let the heat get to me.

did you know? i'm feeling rather stupid. and till i get over this chapter, i think i'm going to continue feeling lost and stupid. HSWW.

i think after this, i will go print out our migration documents. daddy's been asking me to do it for days. and i've been too busy or exhausted to do it.

anyway, i really cant wait for thanaskodi to come back. selvam starts leave today. and he's going to meet thana in ipoh. we ought to go on a trip one day.

just to note, yesterday kuga came down at like 5 plus... we hung out for awhile then went for breakfast at loyang point. then work... where everyone was getting ready for the club party.

i worked at churchill.

then went for macs with kuga.

then home.

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today, is day one of thana's leave.

i went to work, to work with not nice person again... zzz...never mind. the rest of the people were really nice.

i handled almost an hour of chaos.

really proud of myself...

then kuga came and made me happy... then i went home after work.

that's all for work today i guess.

then at home, in the evening went to mass with vicente...

then we went to eat like a hell lot.

didnt know my brother actually has manners. waited for my food to come after so many years before he started to eat.

then we also bought chocolate to eat in the bus on the way home.

(:

thats family for the day....

now on to the main feature.

thanaskodi.

he really made me happy the whole day.

like i was really dreading going to work... working with not nice person... and not having kuga around in the morning.. and thana in malaysia...

but he called me like almost at every point of the day!! from malaysia!

and reallly made me happy.

really.

it's like you're not gone.

(:

thanks.

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just had supper.

started at 3.

before that, talked to kuga for two hours.

i feel sad.

thana's leave starts today. ):

won't be seeing him for a week.

won't be talking to him for a week. ):

and i've grown so accustomed to talking to him on the phone almost everyday.

and also conferencing with him and kuga. the funness. the chaos. priceless.

work's stupid these days in the morning. don't really like who i work with in the morning past couple of days. but i'm trying to belt it in.

i think i'm doing fine.

and either ways, when thana comes, then kuga, they never fail to make me feel loads better.

but i guess for the next week to come, i'll only be relying on boyfriend.

which is awesome!

selvam's going on leave too... he taught me how to set the terrace!! (:

boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend. i miss you.

k wait. need to message him.

k done.

now, my number two. thanaskodi.

okay done.

now back to kuga starr.

okay done. now back to blogging.

so yeah, gonna miss the absentees.

and i love kuga. how he trusts me so much...

LJ.

he's MY man.

p.s. feels guilty that cos of me he waited 1 and a half hours at the roadside.

today, went out with vicente and delilah. we seem to do that a lot often.

fun.

and yeah supper.

daddy put out for me as usual. (: even though he was super tired.

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