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so in the end, i didn't go clubbing. instead, i stayed home to draw. (: and chat with my girls online. who were of course the first to see my drawings.

and actually, i'm pretty lazy to upload them. but i'm kinda bored waiting for daddy to come home with the potato chips i asked for. so, here you go.



0ne day when i get color pencils and the time, i'll color them in.

alright! dad's home! chips and tv time.

Labels: 13 o'clock, cher, drawing, the girls, through lens, vivian

gosh. stayed up all night talking to the twin.

and he’s so nice to accommodate me. most of the conversation was of how crazily cute i find skaterboy.

and really, despite being my ex and an OLD GOOD FRIEND of skaterboy, the twin was so nice to actually entertain my nonsense.

well. 8am now. dying.

 

“whatever’s not cute bores you.” – vivian.

sad fact but true.

i think that girl knows me too well.

Labels: 13 o'clock, boys, eyecandy, fallacy, vivian

i spent friday the 13th celebrating my conquer of the shitload of work i had to do.

AWESOME.

clubbed supperclub and arena with the group.

really grateful to friends who took care of me when i puked.

lesson learnt: don’t drink on an empty stomach.

i had only so little to drink and yet, i felt so DAMN bloated and crapped.

so all came out.

and the funny part is

all that came out was water.

liquid.

no solids. cos i didnt eat the whole day.

why?

cos i was lazy to find the time.

hehex.

so i dont really want to blog everything that happened last night. cos strangely i want to just be able to replay it in my mind.

and also, i’m lazy to.

oh vivian, i met beatrice at supperclub.

dance.

smoke.

talk.

cubicles.

couples.

drink.

the 5 minute walk.

the trend setter.

the lift.

the partner.

the phone.

my bag.

hands.

hair.

taxi rides.

sticks.

stage.

scotland boy.

four boys to one girl.

mac donalds.

puke.

water.

baby are you down?

advertising.

and there you have it,

yizheng and louiza’s rival party.

Labels: 13 o'clock, boys, Dirty $exy Money, eyecandy, jammers, teenagers, through lens, WestBev

alright!!! sdfdsf !~!

DISCLAIMER: DONT MIND THE HIGHNESS OF THIS POST. I’M EFFING HIGH NOW DUE TO WELL CAFFEINE OVERLOAD AND PACKS.

alrightxz! so today was pretty unique and gnarly.

its almost 4am and i’m still hyped.

WHHOOOHOO!~

alright. soo.

today i started school at 10.30. thanks russell for the COFFEE. number one coffee of the day. dont worry more to come.

then went to class, late with my deny.

class was awesome.

well cos, i dont know it jsut was.

then,

break.

super long break cos religion philo got cancelled.

so like from 12 to 4.30 i was free.

spent most of it in classroom with the group. those that were lucky and didnt take logic were playing cards. the others (me inclusive) were like cussing about logic. and rushing.

awesomely fun. awesomely fun chaos.

and i had tons of muffins!

and well the SESSIONS. haha lets just say i finished one pack.

TALKED TO TAD!!!! AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW……

then logic.

omg logic was so damn awesome.

funny. but relaly no hard feelings. all’s good. lets just say law students and the other have a funny irritating way of thinking. yi will agree with me. ;)

then talked to TAD more!

then accounting which was boring.

then more SESSIONS with yi and bryan. nice talk nice talk.

then i went to orchard.

met thana

and then went to starbucks for MORE COFFEEE

i had like  A HELL LOT.

and another pack.

THEN something funny happened.

my EX KUGA came to see us.

yes, i still think he’s hot.

but yeah well anyway,

someone misses me someone loves me someone is sorry. someone is in denial.

and then after like an hour of sitting around,

i say I’M ATTACHED!

hahaha obviously a lie.

 

but it was awesome to see you get up and walk away.

Got your hotness already. MOVING ONNNNNN. You’re just a collector’s item to me. to my collection.

then cabbed back with thanaskodi.

bathed, and had a legal conference with deny.

and now i’m gonna write out my case brief.

cos lawyers do that

Labels: 13 o'clock, Aliens Exist, Angela Ferilli, boys, Dirty $exy Money, eyecandy, kuga starr, No Reservations, WestBev

headache.

killer thursday has ended.

and baby made it much nicer by bringing me out for a while after his work.

i have a headache.

i haven’t seen him in a week. can u believe it?! ONE WEEK!!!!

 

today i tasted heaven once again.

Labels: 13 o'clock, Knights Ridge, kuga starr, WestBev

omg! its 4.15am. i am still working on my paper. and guess what!!!

IT HAS STARTED RAINING!!!!

OMG YAY YAY YAY!!!

GOD LOVES ME!!!

such nice weather to study.

Labels: 13 o'clock, God

just woke up like an hour plus ago. which means after noon.

still feeling a bit too blurrish to blog properly, but i'm going to anyways, so try to bear with me.

yesterday was nice.

i worked at 9, and for once in a rather long time, i had a night's rest that one can actually call proper.

yeah recently, i've been only getting a couple of hours sleep (or less than that) before having to rush to work in the morning. and of course, throughout work, i'll be dying.

so yesterday was a nice change/improvement. but mind you, it wasn't of my own will. kuga made me. he refused to come see me at night after his work. despite my begging. so despite my mental resistance, my body gave in to its own exhaustion and fell asleep pretty early. at like 12am.

why own exhaustion? cos the night before, i only had an hour's sleep. and i went to work like that. with an hour's sleep.

 

either ways, kuga was really nice. we made a deal. because he wasn't to come see me, he would talk to me for hours on the phone instead. and that's exactly what took place. till like nearly 4am.

but why i say i slept at like 12am? cos my body like already shut down even though i was still on the call. which means he was doing the talking whilst i was just talking nonsense and forbidding him to put down the phone.

so that was actually very nice. like falling asleep to his voice. and sleeping to his voice. haha. since i was already gone.

 

anyway, back to the day i had, work was nice. i went a tad late though. at like 9.15am.

faizal and i ate blackforest for breakfast.

and the team today consisted of him, ruddy, charleston and me. harry joined later.

and faizal and charleston tricked me into thinking that it was charleston's last day here and he was going back to sarawak forever the next day. ):

whatever.

anyway work wasn't so bad. more stuff to do today. so that's good...

and it rained so much! haha. i think that was nice.

during work, i had like this craving for fast food. so once my time was over, i raced to the stands, bought the paper and then went to macs.

but

they

were

out

of

fries

and wanted to replace it with stupid apple pie

like i eat apples.

or hot pies.

so then, i raced to burger king, bought myself a super upsized meal, and spoilt my health.

and i literally enjoyed the next hour after that.

sitting at the alfresco, the sun wasn't hot at all, being after the rain... so the colours of the world were reemerging. everything was fresh, and the wind was light and the air cool.

and alfresco wasn't crowded like inside, so i had a very relaxed alone time leisurely reading the papers (haven't done that in a while) and satisfying my craving.

oh what's better was the phone calls from the people i love.

whilst sitting there... had a video call with delilah, then a phone call with kuga. who still makes me very very happy. and whom people still think he's changed a lot to accommodate me. being more softer, nicer. (: (:

after that, i went home...

watched tv and ate snacks with delilah. played with her the rest of the day, (a nice rainy day)

then joana,vicente and i started talking nonsense about some keropok lady person. super funny...

then we hung out in the parents' room eating smarties from the pooh dispenser. which is delilah's by the way.

 

delilah slept pretty early cos of all the action the whole day. so till 12 am, i stayed in my room relaxing on the net, surfing up about michael jackson... i really really miss him you know. ):

then at 12 plus, kuga surprised me that he was downstairs already. so i rushed down, and we headed to downtown for a supposed movie. but as luck would have it, they were already closing. ):

so instead, we decided to go to one of my favourite places in singapore. changi village. the ulu,

went there, walked... saw gays, ate... then we went to the cold cold cold beach.

found a nice bench to sit on, and we just talked, laughed, and snuggled to keep warm.

kuga was like getting so excited cos the planes were so near the ground above us. to me, it was like nothing already. cos i grew up with planes and stuff. but kuga's amazement actually sparked off my realization. that yeah, it was pretty cool.

i love how you use your strength to overcome my resistance, not to pleasure yourself, but to make me feel nice.

we left at 3 plus. but cos the place was so ulu, it was so retarded trying to find a cab. had to walk like so far till we finally got one.

in the end, i reached home at like 4. and slept at nearly 5. kuga called me at 5 plus when he got home, but i think i died during that call as well.

so that was my nice nice day.

and today when i awoke, i had a lovely breakfast. a long black, koko krunch, biscuits and of course the very important glass of water.

i can't wait to see how this day will enfold.

 

anyway, just to recap.

on saturday i was off. the day before, friday, kuga made me sad.

saturday night we went out, and i had only one hour of sleep before working at 7am on sunday.

we passed by this lady that told her husband, "omg so sweet! so young!"

and kuga and i just started laughing.

Labels: 13 o'clock, blood ties, coffeeclub, eyecandy, kuga starr, Newport, phone dates

It's 6 plus in the morning. And i gotta get up for work in a bit. But i'm lying here blogging on my phone cos something spectacular just happened.

i just had the most amazing arousing phone call. I don't want to use the term 'phone sex' cos that just reminds me of corny service lines, and high school movies.

on the contrary, this was very different. It was so sweet. Even though we haven't really conquered 2nd base, (and i don't plan to in the near future..) he could more or less pinpoint what i would like etc.. Based on my personality and mindset.

yeah sounds so scientific and analytical. But it was so.. nice.. It lasted like almost 2hours. Ecstasy just by talking.

in fact, i'm still trying to catch my breath.

it was so sweet of him. To call me from his family visit in malaysia, at 4plus in the morning, and make me feel like that.

rudy once told me, i should have fun and flirt.. Have phone sex. Cos it's 'nice'. And i just laughed it off.

now i know what he meant.

Labels: 13 o'clock, ALEXANDER VII, eyecandy, kuga starr, phone dates

i had an awesome day today.

honestly everything went so great, i can't really find an imperfection in anything.

anyway, time now is 4.25am so i'm going to make this quick.

i gotta try to sleep asap cos tomorrow there's a lunch party at aunty evie's place.

looks like i can't watch ice age 2 today.

i watched ice age last night. (:

for kuga of course. cos he wants me to bring him to ice age 3. and i want to know everything about the series first before i watch it.

if not for kuga, i wouldnt even have anything to do with the series. since the first movie, it never managed to even get a silver of my attention. and now i'm so enthusiastically rushing to watch it.

-_-

the things love does to you.

but i must say, i'm pretty impressed. it wasn't too bad. in fact, i think i actually like it. which is so contrary to what i was predicting. A BORING MOVIE. like chicken little. which i must say i give 2/5.

so for ice age, i give it 5/5.

and i'm officially in love with diego. he's so cool and fierce.

and his fangs are like wow.

so i was like all gushing over diego last night, feeling sad that he didn't exist. then i realized, I HAVE MY OWN LION!

then i felt much better. haha.

 

anyway, back to today's story, i went to church with parents.

then, trained to orchard where i was supposed to meet thanaskodi and kuga for their break.

i was early, so i decided to shop at borders.

after meeting up, we ate and mac donalds...

then kuga and i left thana there. we went for our alone time.

(:

 

was raining really heavily so subsequently, we were virtually trapped in wisma/ngee ann. for like more than an hour.

couldnt go anywhere else without risking the downpour. i wanted to go to paragon. but there was just no way. it was raining like mad.

 

nevertheless, i was not bored for a second. being stuck with kuga is fun. he bought me a cranberry bun! hehe. and for some reason, we kept browsing aldo outlets.

i think it's a sign. haha.

 

finally, i got sick of wisma. the downpour had succumbed to rain. (yes still raining)

we had one hour to go before kuga had to get back to work.

thats when i gave up.

screw this, i'm going to walk in the rain. out of here.

 

so we walked out, with no destination in mind.

laughing and playing as we walked. (me shielding myself with a stupid small plastic bag. that of the cranberry bun)

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then halfway still in the rain, kuga wanted ice cream, and i felt the comforting urge for a long black. so i brought him to my usual tcc haunt, and ordered him a double scoop of chocolate ice cream with whipped cream. he was soo cute eating ice cream like that. haha.

 

finally, he had to get back. (it was still raining.) i went back to tanglin too. cos i wanted to get some stuff from my locker.

soo, after kissing him goodbye outside the locker rooms and then parting ways, i took my shoe bag from my locker, and made my way to the gates of tanglin.

 

i was about to cross the gates, when i noticed a familiar shape sitting at the far end of the yard. where people usually hung out during their breaks.

i walked over to investigate and was so damn happy when my beliefs were confirmed. that it was thana!

 

so i talked to him, then ashraf came, talked to him too. then thanaskodi got really jealous about that and actually went one corner to sulk. so cute.

then i left soon after cos someone i didnt want to see came.

 

then, i realized i lost my ipod.

it had been in my front pocket of my jeans the whole day. and i reckon it fell out as kuga and i were walking around town.

with orchard being so crowded on sundays, i knew i would have no chance of finding it even if i tried. i wouldn't even know where to start looking.

so with a sense of retirement, i accepted that fate, and just made my way to the station. was feeling rather useless. sick of losing valuables.

surprisingly though, i didn't really feel damn depressed. i was just exhausted from the occurrence of yet another loss. but i wasn't like sad sad.

 

and then, i realized why.

i had too good of a day to be really sad over this.

and then i realized another thing.

the last time i lost my mp3, i too had a damn nice day. which couldn't allow me to feel a tad sad over the loss. refer to the post on 24th may last year.

 

so i guess, it was a good time to lose a valuable. when i'm happy.

it would have sucked a hell lot more if i lost it on a retarded day in which everything was going wrong.

so i guess, i was marginally lucky.

 

things got a lot lighter in the train on the way home, when thanaskodi called me and started complaining that he didn't like how i kept talking to ashraf. hahaa. that boy. he made me laugh so hard, it was literally impossible to feel anything negative.

 

at home, had dinner with mummy, vicente and delilah.

after delilah had had her bath, we coloured together in her new colouring book. (: funnn

 

then she slept, at like 1 am.

then thanaskodi called, and made me happy some more!

fyi, he had compliments today from customers. really proud of him.

 

he made me happy, and actually said my hair was nice today. very pretty. (:

 

then, i finished up reading One Fifth Avenue. i give it 5/5

 

and now, i'm going to wash my face, and finally sleep.

good night world.

Labels: 13 o'clock, Angela Ferilli, blood ties, cher, daddy, eyecandy, God, kuga starr, LA, london, new york, Newport, No Reservations, nostalgia, phone dates, The New York Times, vivian, wordsmagicallyspun

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6.30am. i'm waiting for 7.30. to wake baby up. cos he works at 10.

we talked practically the whole night.

yeah not all, but practically.

we started around 10?

then at 1, he "disappeared" and was absent for 3 hours.

valid reason though.

but as usual, i got all sulky when calls finally resumed at 4am.

but baby's really really the MOST patient ever.

MOST patient. really.

i told him before, if i were him, i already would have killed me. the louiza.

 

anyway, tonight was the first time i got angry.

no it wasn't cos i had to wait 3 hours.

it was something else.

and i'm still feeling sorry for being angry. i'm not the kind of person that gets angry. in fact, i rarely lose my temper.

at anyone.

so to do that to baby, well now i feel bad.

 

one day, i'm going to lose kuga.

why?

cos i'm such a brat.

i don't know why he's so damn patient with me. really

and i'm really becoming convinced it's cos he's older. like, not bothered anymore to engage in petty petty rubbish.

like when you're older, takes more to piss you off.

notice that?

like parents, no matter how you whine and complain about them, they will just be steadfast about their decision, while keeping a cool head.

 

kay kuga's not that old. he's 24.

but i think he's mature. he's gone through a lot. living by himself, since like 18 or 19.

 

let's hope he's got the unconditional love of a parent.

otherwise, i think i am going to lose him.

(:

 

anyway, all's settled. so now i'm just waiting for 7.30. ho humm...

 

we talked about his family! here's the conversation. GO READ!! VERY FUNNY!

at my tumblr www.frenchkisses.tumblr.com

 

anywayyy, thana came back today!!!

and we had a threesome again!!!!

on the phone of course. our signature conference filled with ultimate chaos and 100% funny hysteria.

 

okayy 40 mins to go.

 

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: 13 o'clock, Angela Ferilli, coffeeclub, eyecandy, kuga starr, No Reservations, phone dates, wordsmagicallyspun

let me share something with you guys.

something that happened to me today.

something that will probably show you guys the kind of person i am. more specifically, the kind of girlfriend i am.

but more importantly, this event made me realize a lot about kuga. and the kind of boyfriend he is.

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okay so, last night, i didn't talk to kuga after he went back to his house in malaysia.

because apparently, he cleaned his house after arriving home from work, and then was too tired he fell right to sleep.

he did text me though, that he was tired.

then i think he KO-ed.

 

so, louiza's not used to this. cos every night, kuga says good night.

but oh wells, i decided to be reasonable. to not pout, or sulk. i was understanding.

 

you might be thinking, "so why is it a big deal?"

 

reason being, i like to be spoilt like that.

AND ALSO, by some unfortunate coincidence, this wasn't the first time. for the past couple of nights, i had not really gotten regular calls after his work at night because friends have been needing his help with errands and stuff.

and no! i never once felt sulky about that. cos his friends are also my friends. and i'm glad baby's really helpful.

nevertheless, after consecutive nights, the trend of absent communication gets noticed and the pout ability in me gets somewhat triggered.

BUT DESPITE THAT, see! i was understanding. didn't sulk.

instead, i watched movies all night, (chick-flicks) while hugging the big bear he gave me.

 

 

BUT THIS MORNING, his call at 10am woke me up. and while i was still half-asleep, i recalled him talking very sleepily, then suddenly, he just hung up! after saying he has a very bad headache, he'll call me back.

okay, maybe it was because i was sleepy, so my reason wasn't functioning. but at that moment, i began to pout!

yes, his headache might have been really genuine. but i guess, i let the spoilt monster in me take over at that moment.

don't get me wrong, i never ever doubted his love.

it's just the unreasonable brat in me.

 

 

so, at that moment, i started to plot.

plot a plan!

like in my mind were these thoughts. (in no particular order)

why on earth am i waiting for him to call me!

he only calls when he wants to! and i have to wait wait wait wait! (totally not true, but at 10am after only 3 hours of sleep, i was convinced this was the ultimate truth)

he's forgotten me, and i DON'T LIKE THIS!

i dont want to be vulnerable! like the weak one! waiting and waiting and waiting. and being all affected!

CONCLUSION : I AM GOING TO BE STRONG! AND NOT ALLOW THIS WEAKNESS TO ENSUE!

 

 

as u can see, it was all rubbish.

number one, i don't really wait long for him.

number two, even if i have to wait, it's always for a legitimate reason. and he always gets to me as soon as he can.

 

but still, i was already sulking and pouting. so i wanted to RISE UP and be strong and not allow my mood to be determined by whether his calls came or not.

 

so the plan was this.

for the whole day, whenever he calls, i'll say "I'M BUSY! I CAN'T TALK NOW!"

and then say bye.

 

you guys can even refer to my tumblr. cos thats where i updated on the progress of THE PLAN.

 

 

at first, it was very effective.

 

he called one hour later, and i said i was BUSY! and it caught him offguard.

 

but i hated doing it - as i knew i would the moment i started plotting. cos it's painful putting down the phone on my baby.

i always relish every second i get to talk to him on the phone. and now to charge in the opposite direction, was REALLY REALLY sad. ):

 

then he began calling again and again at intervals...

and i said the same thing!

and actually from the first call, he already knew something was up, cos "louiza never says she's busy except if she's bathing. but that one also, u will pick and let me know."

 

so i was glad. the plan was WORKING.

 

and it did for the hours to come. till like 4 plus.

i let my sad emotion waver my determination to be focused on the call routine.

 

i was missing him badly, so i talked more.

then when i realized i was flirting with the ENEMY, i quickly said BYE! and hung up!

 

and vowed to be stronger at the next encounter. (i actually posted about this on tumblr)

 

 

but all this time, baby was such a sweetie and a gentleman. apologizing and already guessing it was about the lack of calls.

 

and i just kept responding this in a whiny , "no, no need to apologize! you don't like to talk to me right?! so never mind! i will relieve you of that burden!" 

 

 

however, the plan finally failed. at 6.45 during his break.

he had gotten hold of me on the phone, and was explaining.

saying that, he really couldn't call, (something i already accepted as true. cos the hours awoke my reason. but i just wanted to see where this plan was going to go. for fun.) that he will improve on calling me, and that it wasn't a burden to contact me... he always tries his best to keep in touch with me.

even at work, he uses the tactics i used to employ to text him.

 

and THIS IS THE FALLEN MOMENT WHEN I LET THE PLAN DIE.

cos, then i excitedly went on and on about how i evaded the system... how i could text him. the tricks i used... where i hid my phone... where I hid to text him..

THEN, he said this. "yeah... i know... it must be so hard for you to lie and put down the phone on me... the whole day... i'm sorry baby."

 

 

and i was speechless.

"what do you mean?" i said, thinking it must be impossible.

then he said, "i know how you always love talking to me... you never say you're busy, you wait up for me to call you, and at work, you do everything to get me... so i know now, you're wanting to show me how you're all merajuk (malay for sulking)... and you're making yourself say you're busy. i know it makes you sad to have to put the phone down."

 

"and i can tell how hard it is."

 

and all i could say was. "omg. how could you have known."

 

cos, that was exactly what i was feeling. and i felt so touched.

here's a guy who, instead of getting annoyed, or just apologizing for his part, he was actually thinking about my real intentions, and my feelings. while i was conspiring to prove a point.

 

and despite knowing all this, he was still humouring me by apologizing.

 

then i pouted and whined, "i don't like this!  you ruined my plan!! " ):

 

and then he said, "haha. baby... baby louiza. you are childish, sweet, and nice. anger is not in you. so next time you want to act, please act more realistically. just now, you let yourself slip. you talked to me. then when you realized you were not in the correct direction, you suddenly said you're busy. soo cute la you."

 

 

"next time, if i know you're doing all this, i will come to your house and talk to you. so you don't need to hang up saying you're busy."

 

:(

 

see how silly i was.

 

i think it's the fact his older. like cheryl and i talked about.

more calm. so i can be the frisky terrier. while, he, the calm Doberman.

 

or maybe it's just me.

sometimes i really underestimate him.

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anyway just for memory's sake.

today i had a lunch at my place so relatives came, and i blackjacked for a couple of hours.

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i've got afghanistan on my table... iran... um, north korea... and now there's this what... H1N1? so, if there's really nothing wrong with the healthcare system, i wouldn't be touching it.

 

watched obama live on youtube regarding his healthcare plans. once again, felt like an economics lecture.

but i really admire him.

he's very sensitive. to the needs of others, addresses specific problems that the general don't see... whether he's successful, i'm not quite sure. since i've been away from news (deliberately) for such a long time. but i really like the way he speaks.

plus, i'll say it a million times, he's handsome.

haha.

told kuga already.

 

it's almost 5.30am now. just finished watching My Sassy Girl. i give it a 3/5.

speaking about movies, i HAVE to watch ice age 1 and 2 asap.

not cos i love the series. no, in fact i have zero interest in it.

BUT, now, i have 100% interest.

why? cos kuga asked me to bring him to ice age 3.

and perfectionist, must-be-in-order louiza will have to watch 1 and 2 first. even though i hear it's not like a continuing thingy.

 

anywayy, i watched my sassy girl alone, on the couch hugging the big bear kuga bought me in april. (:

i seriously love being pampered by him.

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the weather is SOOOO cold!! (:

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i'm happy. just watched My Wife and Kids with parents whilst having a cup of long black.

my first coffee in over 2 weeks.

mainly cos my home stock finished and i've been too lazy to get some. and i stopped working at the coffee heaven.

don't get me wrong, i didnt suddenly arise from the lazy stupor. baby got me a big bottle of my favourite German coffee.

yupp, before the comedy, i had just come up from meeting thanaskodi and kuga.

(okay that was weird. calling him kuga. these days he's just baby to me. using that name's weird. haha.)

after work, thanaskodi wanted to buy some stuff cos he's going to thailand for a holiday tomorrow. till friday. WILL MISS HIM.

anyways, kuga baby was nice to accompany him.

and after that, both of them came over. (:

baby bought me lots of stuff. like all of a sudden! heex.

including my coffee, and favourite dark chocolate.

and he also bought me a new bracelet!

the few i always wear broke last week. ):

after like one and a half years.

but i love the new one baby bought me.

 

 

when he does stuff like this, i just can't believe how sensitive he is to me. i mean like. when i just met him, he was a total pain in the flesh. totally rude, insensitive and introverted. and at that time, sensitivity was a total impossibility in my opinion.

and now, he's taking me on his lap and speaking softly into my ear, putting bracelets on my wrists, arranging strands of my hair that strayed.

i feel like a pet. (:

 

 

anyway, couple of months back, i recall blogging about the qualities that dumbledore and ms quek shared. 15th January 2009 that which i admire, but didnt have the courage to undertake.

but last night, kuga really talked to me. and i realize, he also displays these qualities..

and i realize, i can be this way. it's not as impossible as i think it is.

simply by not worrying so much about the future.

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kuga came by after work.

we went to downtown to get my coffee, but everything was close. of all the days.

so we walked home, and got coffee on the way...

then we talked at the park awhile. lucky we didnt go for a movie. kuga was like already drifting in and out of sleep just sitting there.

so we continued our conversation via international calling.

and just ended, at 5.30am.

now i'm just enjoying the company of vivian and ben online.

today, sunday, parents, vicente and i went for mass. then after mass, we had lunch at century square...

okay my post is all over the place, i think i shall sleep soon.

 

lovebite 14th June...

 

it's very cozy having a man in my life. one that really knows how to take care of me.

today i got scolding. for always asking him to leave. because he says he'll stay no matter what he has to go through.

but the scolding was in a nice gentlemanly way. (:

 

sadness is like rubbish that we have to throw away.

 

cute, baby, like small girl.

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i stayed home all day today... missing kuga.

reading.

was in bed a lot.

daydreaming about you.

just spent his break time talking on the phone.

i am going to watch casanova tonight.

 

you take your time with me.

you make me feel special, how you want everything to be perfect for me.

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Baby and shakespeare.

 

(louiza and kuga sees couple wearing identical teeshirts.)

kuga : do you like wearing same stuff like that?

louiza : hmm... not say i like or don't like. i'm neutral. if it happens, i think it's cute. but don't worry i won't force you to do anything.

kuga : for me it's not whether i like or don't like. it's what you like. then i'll do.

louiza : hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

 

haven't blogged in a while. haven't really used the computer lately. been either out late, or catching up on sleep. kuga's been amazing to me - as always.

late night suppers... dates... even though he's like super exhausted after working till late.

ILOVEYOUBABY.

being the nice nice awesome gentleman.

 

like yesterday, we worked at terrace again. second time as non-enemy.

and he called me baby!! haha like while working!! like in front of everyone. even manager.

like "baby can you help me do blahblahblah..."

made me really really smile!!

then when i asked "okayy now what you want me to do?"

then he says "do whatever you want."

made me feel so so so special. even though we were at work.

 

and he's so sexy. how he's like in-charge and everything...

and so strong. so sexy and tall carrying the super big tray.

 

haha okay i sound crazy.

 

and how he calls me the captain. - "anything let louiza handle. she's the captain."

and give me authority to let people go toilet.

hehehex.

even though i'm just a lousy part-timer.

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at 9am, i was certain that i was going to have a sucky day.

i talked to kuga till like 6 plus. he said so so many nice things. today's our one month. and things had a funny way of happening.

at 9 am i was sad. and unable to call kuga, i called elfy. who was so nice to entertain my emoness despite being in the middle of a jungle. thank you thank you.

and at like 10 plus, baby called!! and really cleared my emoness and muddled thoughts. so by 11, i felt a bit better.

there was hope for the day.

i spent the rest of the morning watching cartoons with delilah and snacking. fyi to you guys, she's feeling much better from the fever she's been having past couple of days.

at this point of the day, i was neutrally content.

but what made me REALLY REALLY happy, was that as soon as he could, kuga called me again. and spoke to me for nearly an hour from malaysia. and made sure i was smiling and cheery before he hung up to have lunch.

he worked at 2.

i'm off today.

i had lunch that parents bought back, whilst surfing the net. things were rather relaxing today. watched a bit of tv too...

i had a productive day. cleaned room... folded my clothes... ironed my uniform... even helped daddy with the laundry.

not a bad day.

dinner was lamb steak.

thennn!!! THANASKODI AND BABY CAME TO MY HOUSE AFTER WORK!!!!

thanaskodi!!!! was so so happy to see him after so so long.

):

then they brought me to mac donalds. at white sands.

we were the only ones in the bus there. and thana and i were squabbling as usual. SUPER FUN! whilst kuga took care of me as usual.

squabbling didnt stop at macs. where kuga had to end up doing the ordering cos the two of us were too busy fighting. haha!

eating also compromised of arguing. i think we miss each other too much already. haha.

and my kuga actually fell asleep while we were arguing.

macs at night is nice. rather tranquil patrons around.

at 1.30am, we decided to leave cos someone was like dying already.

cabbed to my place, thana took the stuffs for the bike. kuga sent me up.

and i got to french kiss my baby after SO long. but pity it was like only a few minutes.

went home, and washed up... talked to parents. and now i'm here.

so,

what irony.

at 9am i thought my day was going to suck.

at 2am, i'm wishing i could play it all over again.

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okay i really have to control my mouth.

I TALK TOO MUCH TO KUGA OVER THE PHONE!!

and now its like 5.15am. ):

i feel bad.

and i really really LOVE kuga.

he really knows how to treat me properly.

and friday, i have a DATE with thanaskodi.

and kuga actually didn't ask to come cos he didn't want to interrupt us.

really i cant believe it.

he's so damn nice. and he trusts me so much.

but i persuaded baby that i wanted him to come... our lives are now joined. one. there's only us. so my outings are also his. and i want him around my life as much as possible.

no such things as interruptions. cos he's louiza as much as i am. (: in fact, he can go as my representative to anything. (:

i spent the whole night watching lipstick jungle. (still am actually)

I LOVE
KUGA.

am i crazy.

i think so.

and delilah was having a fever today. now she's okay. but the whole day whole family was worrying over her.

everyone loves her. (:

and kuga's worried too.

i am content.

LJ.

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"yeah it's (motorbike) getting old. like me."

                                                                     "yeah you're my old man."

"okay young lady."

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