frankly, i’ve been slacking since last thursday, my logic finals.

then i’ve been sleeping like 12 hours everyday, and when the new week started, i was too excited for my birthday to do any real work.

and then thursday was an awfully long day, which ended on friday morning.

and friday was spent bumming.

and sat was spent bumming.

and now today’s sunday.

i have no idea what’s going to happen today, but here’s the thing.

i need to start doing work.

term ends on the 11 of dec.

it’s the race to the finish.

so slacking ends today.

by 0000hours.

then it’s party again.

see you on the 11th.

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louiza

• can’t wait to meet her BOY FRIEND on thursday. muahaha.
• can’t wait to dance with BOY FRIEND on thursday.
• can’t wait to get tipsy.
• cant wait to dance with random hot stuffs.
• hasn’t started accounting
• been music-ing all day
• can’t wait to settle with kuga
• can’t wait to finish her work.
• can’t wait to dance
• can’t wait to turn 20

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Dear all,

it’s that time of the year again – my birthday is approaching. and i just want to put something out on the table.

I DONT LIKE SURPRISES.

yup. i don’t really know why. but i’ve always been like that.

i guess i’m just the kind of person that needs to be in the know of everything.

celebrate, fine.

i like to plan things with friends.

but i DONT LIKE SURPRISES.

unless its from family, or boyfriend (even then i sometimes get irritated at him).

i know surprises are all with good intentions, and yes, i do love surprising others.

but i’m not the kind that likes to be surprised.

so thanks, but no thanks.

NO SURPRISES.

i like to know everything that’s happening around me.

love y’all!

(:

I am, yours sincerely,

Louiza

p.s. vivian i need to talk to you.

p.p.s. vivian i want to make cupcakes with you soon.

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it was yet another prenatal appointment. 7 days to due date. i was having real cramps all night before, but i guessed that was normal at the stage i was.

whilst waiting for our turn, we made plans to eat at pasta mania. our favourite pizza, and you promised to get me the italian soda i loved so much. whilst waiting, i leaned on you and scratched you continuously as the pain kept coming. but we took it once again as “normal”. you assured me that we would get some prescription to make it go away.

our turn came, and it turns out that i wasn’t having the normal cramps. they were contractions. i was in labour. half an hour later, we’re in the labour ward. ahead of us, was six hours which eventually changed our lives. or at least, it changed mine.

occasionally, i think of the day that delilah was born. but on her birthday, that thought is evident. and today, i thought of that lunch. the pasta mania lunch that never was.

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the weather is really, really hot.

and it has been that way for the past couple of days.

at times, it gets to me, but at others, i try to enjoy it. soaking up the sun means more vitamin D. sorry for the randomness.

anyhow, the day's sunday... here's what i did.

i went for mass at 9.30 with vicente, after which he went for cathechism. i decided to walk home. (part of embracing the sun)

i did take a cool shower thereafter.

watched tv with delilah, then at 1 plus, went to tampines mall to have lunch with family. had cafe cartel. personally i think the standards are somewhat dropping. ah wells. all was good.

LJ.

it's a rather down tuned sunday for me, so after lunch, i just went back with delilah.

now she's having an afternoon nap, whilst i'm here massaging my feet and trying not to let the heat get to me.

did you know? i'm feeling rather stupid. and till i get over this chapter, i think i'm going to continue feeling lost and stupid. HSWW.

i think after this, i will go print out our migration documents. daddy's been asking me to do it for days. and i've been too busy or exhausted to do it.

anyway, i really cant wait for thanaskodi to come back. selvam starts leave today. and he's going to meet thana in ipoh. we ought to go on a trip one day.

just to note, yesterday kuga came down at like 5 plus... we hung out for awhile then went for breakfast at loyang point. then work... where everyone was getting ready for the club party.

i worked at churchill.

then went for macs with kuga.

then home.

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okay but our table's not round. just thought the title sounded medieval and cool. nah our table's long.

today is daddy's birthday. 20 mins left. well, to celebrate, we broke Joseph history. first time we had a house steamboat/frying thingy~!!! so cool! like seoul garden at home!

hahaha and it was super fun. veg-free of course.

we just finished eating!! from like 9.45pm to 11.15. i ate like SO SO MUCH. and i like to fry fry. hehe.

either ways, we have vicente to thank. he sponsored everything. (:

xie xie ni.

oh another thing about today.. worked alone with raja today and he was telling me all the damn nice things about london.

aanndd, guess who called while i was preparing for winter's hibernation (aka eating like there's no tomorrow)?

THANA!!! from malaysia!!!! Yeah!! i miss him so so soo much! he's on leave till thursday ):

my deli best friend. my half half! zaarrghghghgh!! come bacck soon!!!

omg but i was seriously so damn happy to hear him.

i cant wait for thursday.

okay i should go get ready or something... lion wants to come down for awhile. for dunno what. stubborn person. hmmph.

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i feel much better.

vicente bought for me kfc, cut for me cake, we talked, had fun.

he doesnt judge.

and i owe him a lot for what he did yesterday.

he did a lot that didnt get me into more trouble.

and i've been chatting with bryan. he's been my solace companion throughout my stay here in "suspension dimension".

the only human company i dont mind at the moment.

he doesnt remind me of things i want to get away from. or reality.

comforting how he reminds me of a past. a nice one.

so that made me feel better too.

vicente and bryan.

then there's lion.

he's not having a good day at work too. but its comforting to know i'm on his mind as much as he is in mine.

and thana.

he texted me.

my best friendd of the deli.

made me smile too.

okay and as for the family, i guess it's something i will have to deal with later.

and i will. and we'll work things out cos we always do.

and i'll go back to loving them.

okay its half past 3. it's time for me to walk back outside.

to the life i have,

the good life i have.

the one i wont exchange anything for. regardless of the times i leap over to the greener pasture for a visit.

because this life, made me who i am today. and i am proud of that.

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sometimes - just sometimes - i don't like my life.

sometimes - just sometimes - i want to be able to live differently.

sometimes - just sometimes - i don't want the pressure, the expectations.

sometimes - just sometimes - i don't want the status.

sometimes - just sometimes - i want to be away.

but if i could have it my way, to make things the way i sometimes want things to be, i still won't change a thing.

except maybe to be sometimes able to live the way i sometimes want life to be.

will all this ever pay off?

or am i just living in a prolonged state of suspension.

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i just woke up like less than an hour ago. (i.e. 11 plus)

sorry if this post sounds airy. i'm still feeling dazed. i hate this feeling. not the physical aspect. but the psychological effects of it on the relationship between myself and family.

yesterday, i got wasted real bad. worst in my entire life. first time i actually puked cos of alcohol. and i can hold my liqueur well. so that's the extent of it.

remember how i've been having awesome days in a row since like 3 days ago?

yeah well the lucky streak stopped at 7pm yesterday.

day started great. was going to work happy. cos was gonna work with selvam and thana. my favourite combi.

then in the train when i messaged that i was going to be late, i got a reply that lion was working instead of selvam!

so another day working with lion!

and i've come to notice that when we work together, the deli's very empty even though it's supposed to be crowded during that time.

its a weird phenomena.

so anyway, lion and thana.

fun as well! they were super nice to me. made me sandwiches... lion was beyond expectations nice. he spread jam on the scones for me. even though he doesnt like being nice.

thana made me a sandwich with vegetable. cos he wanted to get me to eat it. i was whining and whining about it. but i forced myself to eat it in the end. for him. he's my best friend over there. so really, anything for him.

after work, lion and i went for lunch. and he also couldnt believe how nice he was. he was like carrying my bag. and weeks back, we used to quarrel about how ungentlemanly he is. cos he was saying he hate guys who soften up for girls. blahblah.

but really, i appreciated it.

lunch was super fun. again, beyond expectations, lion took out the food for me... arrange nicely...

supposed to go for coffee, but i was running late for dinner with family. aunty evie's birthday. so in the end i just taxied him to work, then i continued down to pasir ris.

and the dread of having to leave him marks the end of my happiness.

cos the party wasn't really a happy thing.

yes i loved seeing my family and stuff. but it was really hard to enjoy myself and be happy when i feel like a betrayer. seriously, i feel like it's my fault that things couldn't have been better. and i was sitting at the main table. i was feeling damn guilty.

so it was hard to mingle, or talk, especially with the main people. so i just mainly haunted the dessert table. and later on the bar.

tried to occupy myself. there wasnt really much for me to do.

then i got drunk.

puked, cried, ugh.

but only cos my family didnt know i was at that state. we got into the cab like normal. and then i puked halfway home.

anyone who knows me will know that when i drink, dont put me in a vehicle. firstly i get road sick very easily. and me having alcohol will just put me in an express flight to pukedom.

so yeah. that really really sucked.

i feel like a loser.

and right now, the only happy joyful thing about my life, sadly, is my work friends. with them, i forget about my cares for awhile. with them, i'm not someone who has to perform. with them, i can be whoever i want to be without worry.

really.

selvam, thana, lion, jave.

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have to blog about the past 48 hours. cos i've been experiencing non-stop happiness.

alright, actually i'm always happy with my position in life. but the kind of happiness i've been enjoying the past 48 hours have been exceptionally different. it has been one long nice exhilarating ride.

okay! so here's how it went. (sorry to bore)

yesterrday, it was work in the morning as usual with elois. wasn't as dyingbusy as the previous day. (wednesday when we were dying and thana was already dead) so it was pretty nice. and i was looking forward to 3. cos i was gonna meet lion who decided to come early.

3 came, but i decided to stay longer and help out. cos jave who was to take over me, was going to be late. elois went break, and SELVAM CAME! louiza loves working with him. :)))) superr fun. (omg i work with him later!!)

so see, even though i wasn't going for the long-awaited meeting with lion and had to work, things continued to be fun.

work work till like 5, then rushed out to see lion who was so patiently waiting outside wisma. i really really felt guilty. but he was really really understanding. telling me that i did what i had to do... etc. did i mention he looked really really nice? (but then i destroyed his nice shirt later on - to be elaborated later)

lion started work at 6. so it was really horrid that we had little time to spend. HOWEVER, the little time was spent really nicely.

we walked.

like a longer route back to the club. and talked. then parted. and earlier, selvam had told me that they were planning a session out after work to surprise jave for his birthday. i wasnt quite sure whether i wanted to go, since it would be really late at like 11 plus when they ended work and i'll be tired from the early day i had.

so to solve the dilemma in the short run, i decided to spend time shopping. till i figured out what to do.

trained to city hall (louiza's fav place to shop hardcore). went to peninsular after so damn long. all the punkrockish days flashed back. SOME OF THE THINGS STILL LOOKED REALLY NICE TO ME!!! HAHAHA.

then walked to marina,

shopped.

then suntec,

shopped.

long story short, i ended shopping at like 10 plus. with lots of stuff to carry.

so i was at this point already more inclined to just go home. since i didnt want to heave my stuff everywhere, i was already on the east-west line, and i was REALLY exhausted from all the walking.

but then, a quiet small part of me was just begging to scream out go meet them!!!! you're already out its going to be funn!!! and lion was also calling and encouraging me to go.

so, whattheheck. i jumped on the train towards jurong east.

i was walking really slowly and zombiefied by the time i reached orchard. walked to starbucks to try revive and calm my senses with a long black whilst i wait for the party to arrive. yeah the dilemma was still racing in my mind. and i wanted to calm things down with familiar comfort.

which came really effectively. i got my long black for free!!

the niceness of the staff there just uplifted my senses and made me cheery. so that helped a lot.

lion came at like 11 plus to get me, then we walked to the meeting place. balcony at the heeran. (a place i personally been hating since sec days) and lion was really nice! did stuff he always vowed and argued with me against. carrying girl's things. that was really really sweet.

we got there first, ordered some food, then shortly, the rest came. thana arun selvam. then real madness began.

i dont know how to describe what happened thereafter, but i can say one thing. selvam has officially become a drinking buddy of mine. if not for his diabetes, we would have continuously bought each other rounds.

and i kept "cheers"ing with iced water. hahahaa. i had a cocktail and two vodka pours in front of me, but i kept irritating them, especially selvam, with my water antics. damn funny. CHEERS TO JAVE IN SPIRIT!

he became "gone" quite shortly after that. i was high. and lion, didnt drink much even though i know he could. said he wanted to stay sober just in case he needed to take care of me. but i keep insisting i can go home myself.

it was really really fun. before long, it was 3 plus. thana and arun decided to bring the spaced selvam back to the club to sleep. lion and i stayed cos i was happily eating ice from a big jug. this part i was high already.

after that, we left. i insisted we walk towards the club. cos i was concerned about selvam. but i dont know if what i really did was walk. i remember walking crookedly and thanking lion for being so nice to me even though he doesnt like being nice.

then the real funn began when we walked past the 24-hour swensons and suddenly i randomly say, "i feel like eating ice cream..."

before i could register things, i was scooted inside and i was blurrishly pointing out all the ice cream i supposedly "loved to have when i was working at swensons"

the reaction i got was just too nice.

i got everything i pointed out.

then it all came, and i was happily eating ice cream!!! at 4 am. and i even messaged my dad "hey i'm having ice cream". needless to say, i was high.

after that, my highness started to depreciate... i realized in disbelief the magnitude of my dessert impulses. but it was fun!! i so wanna do that again.

we walked, sat, and took cab to my place.

in the cab, i dont know what happened. but when i woke up at the highway entering pasir ris, i found that both of us were sprawled dead on the back seat. thats how exhausted we were.

then walked home, and i reached at like 5 plus. just died on bed

WOKE UP AT 8 PLUS, charge to work!

why charged? cos today was a rare time when i get to work with lion. our schedules are almost never together. cos we used to fight too much.

so i went early! i wore specs. eyes too dry from the late night with contacts. (faced lots of questions today!)

anyways, work didnt feel like work. HONESTLY. it felt more like a post-party chillout session.

fridays are always busy at our deli.

BUT TODAY, i can count the orders with one hand!!!

THAT BADD!!! i mean good!!!!

hahahaa. it was really quiet and relaxed. and we got to talk and spend more time together. and this is the first time i'm working with him and we didnt argue once. so it felt really really weird for me.

in a nice kinda way. i could get used to it.

he was really helpful too. more than usual. instead of just letting me do everything.

everything was so so sooo awesomely classic.

thana came, my half-half buddy and now best friend at deli! yay!! he's working with me again tomorrow.

then 3 came so damn fast. i seriously think i was enjoying too much. time flew. reiteration. 100% DIDNT FEEL LIKE WORK TODAY.

had to go home. walked out with archerl. had a nice chat on the way. then kuga came out of nowhere and acoompanied me all the way to pasir ris. even though he started 2nd shift at 6.

then i came home, played with del the whole day..

and now i'm done with the awesome post.

p.s. home team? today i was too tired to dress up for work, i wore fbt shorts and a police dryfit shirt. i was walking to work when a prison van drove past the sidewalk. and both of them saluted at me.

how camaraderie of them.

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russell

cheryl, we must do this again. i dont care. when are u flying again?

alike?delilah looks so model-fied in the following pictures... look at the eyes!! ok but this one looks like she's grossed out. probably by me.

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i cant cant sleep.

i think i'm gna have to go MOE sleepless.

shit.

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sorry for the late reaction, those that added me on lj can now read.

i accepted and opened the post. (:

u wont regret it.

i came home late.

had an awesome day with the gfs. but a late one.

i woke late, like at 4pm plus. when the plan was actually for us to leave for vivo at FOUR! so i was pretty rushed and screwed.

so we went vivo, ate. walked. talked. blah.

then went club with cheryl with her uni friends.

they are super fierce. loving sharmaine.

sorry i'm not elaborating much. its like effing 4.30 and i suppose to be at MOE HQ at 9am. they want my opinion on the history syllabus.

suppose to meet dishon at my place at 7am. dno how the hell i'm gonna wake. think i wont sleep much.

i came home at like 3 plus, and been chatting with steph love from ki.

she's super sweet. srsly.

okay no pix cos i woke late today and had no time to charge my stupid camera. (okay sorry u're not stupid) so i'll have to get pix from my gfs and NTU people. CHERYL!!! I LOVE U!!!

okay, i'm high. not drunk, i dont get drunk easily. but just high. (:

and what do u know, i have a personal cab driver. he gave me his number. said anything call him and he'll come fetch me. HOW COOL IS THAT????

kay i'll elaborate tomorrow if i remember. ciaao!~

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it had rained heavily whilst i bathed just now. it rained so hard, that the world outside my window seemed engulfed in thick fog.

i apologise for the delay. it's been more than like nearly 2 hours since i finished to bathe, and now the heavy rain had succumbed to a calm humming once again; now disturbed by the extra swishing made by passing cars on the puddles that had collected along the road outside.

i've been talking to leon and seriously i cant deny the boy. he's uber nice to talk to. i'm getting used to the regular chats online till the break of dawn. but just now, was talking on the phone.

so now, i'll officially start the post on my 19th birthday. i'll make it as detailed as i possibly can, despite being a tad tired, so bear with me. and i think it's going to be long so if u get bored, exit immediately. i dont like losing readers to boredom. (:

this post will have mini-chapters. so even if u get bored, i encourage u to read the Starhub chapter. it's really interesting to follow and see how the tale unwinds.

kay, i'll start my birthday on the 25th of november. of course, my birthday's on the 26th. but already the day before people had begun to wish me etc.

25th november

at 12am, karl calls me and we talk for quite a bit. and he wishes me happy birthday. so he's like first.

then in the day, russell drops by with some lovely flowers - a rose decorated with wild flowers. its beautiful, and it now stands at my balcony. which is like behind me as i type this cos i'm in the living room now using the isqueeze. haha. thanks a lot russell. (:

26th november, officially 19

at 12am, texts stream in. and i'm so so grateful to everyone that wished me yesterday. (now's 4.25am) wishes are like little presents that come along the way on this day. they're cute and i love em.

at 12am, i also get gifts from the family. i would like to note THE MUG though. i'll put up a picture one day. but i got this mug, from lylah, with her picture on it. and GOSH SHE LOOKS LIKE ME. seriously i've been standing with this proposition for ages. she looks exactly like me when i was her age! except for my birthmark on my forehead. and my longer nose. SHE LOOKS LIKE ME.

so that was just living proof.

after getting gifts and replying messages, i dine for a bit with parents.

then watched comedies with them

then i bathed.

then read the 3rd harry potter novel. (i SO EFFING LOVE TO READ) sorry nerd speaking.

then i went in my room, and chatted a bit.

guess who said hi to me?

Ben

ben. ben the matrep ben. ben the downstairs skater ben friends with the idiot martin ben who followed us to xmas mass 2006 ben. (refer to dec 06 post for more details)

well thats not new, sometimes he does randomly say hi. but i'm not blogging about this cos he talked to me. i'm blogging because after the pause of hi when i dont reply much anymore, he said something that made me fall off my seat.

"louiza have u watched zeitgeist" (sorry i dno if the spelling is correct)

zeitgeist is this movie which is like to me very dry and boring and dumb. i saw the black and white and decided not to watch. But BEN was watching it.

wetrirufhsidhfksjfghs???!?!?!?!?!

so i said no, i found it boring blahblah

and he was like "oh you gotta listen to what they say... about the world and what's happening"....

my

jaw

dropped

further.

he really sounded serious.

seriously.

wow.

BEN.

so from that moment, instead of the usual ignorance that i give him, i actually started talking... asking him about his school... and life.. and blah... then i fell tired, so i bade him gd nite and actualyl said

"it was nice talking to u"

thats my strange encounter with Ben.

the adventures of the morning

woke up to delilah's babbles and screams. happily, i played with her a bit. this was like close to 11.

qashrul calls, he's on his way over with chocolate.

i rush down, and see him.

i miss that guy.

he left shortly and i made my way to shop and save across the street to check on my job application.

apparently i gotta give it till next week.

oh well.

i went to 7-eleven to check out the jobs.

then walked back home.

so as u can see, i walked a lot today. and it was mid-day so the sun was hot. but i kind of liked the heat for the moment there.

lunch

came home, and mummy wants to eat.

so i go back out into the sun to get lunch. daddy worked morning shift today so he didnt cook for us.

i like walking through the market. i get stares. not that i'm egoistic or anything, but its just nice attention. remember louiza's pampered little shit and likes attention.

got the food, decided to take the bus cos i thought i saw a cute guy in it. and louiza likes to look and stare and hotness.

but the guy wasnt that hot after all.

went home, joana had come back. delilah was asleep. had lunch with mummy and joana. it wasnt too bad.

the journey

then i had to unplug the whole cable set from plasma in parent's room.

why?

daddy wanted to upgrade it. so i was to meet him after his work at 3 somewhere and we'll go to starhub customer service together at plaza singapura.

super dusty job!

but i tink i did a good job! i persevered! hehe.

then i bathed, got dressed and left home.

took train to city hall. i read the papers during the trip. yeah louiza cant throw away time without being a bit productive by doing something. harry potter books after novel 3 is thick so i was reluctant to carry it.

had to lunge the whole set to funan by myself where i was to meet my dad. i managed, so i feel proud of myself. (:

met daddy at funan, and we got a new set of speakers for vicente.

then, trained to plaza singapura!!

starhub

PS did some stupid renovations and the customer svs centre ended up at some dark corner of the basement 2.

okay maybe i'm exaggerating. not dark. but still!!! so damn farr from where it used to be.

so we took a Q number and the first thing i noticed when stepping in there was the two hot receptionists. CHINESE GUYS.

daddy's number came pretty quick. he told me i could go walk around PS if i wanted to, but i wanted to stay and stare at the chinese dudes who were now like aware of my existence.

they were cute really. especially one of them. so i entertained myself with sidelong glances at him, and him at me.

then, daddy's consultation was over. so we both went to the collection counter to get the new set.

there were two malay guys there. (adult men la so like i didnt take notice)

AND THEN!!!

HE CAME OUT. this new guy. a guy that totally made me not even consider those two receptionists.

this guy, that looked mixed definitely. thats the thought that came into my mind the moment i saw him.

he looks like ty from 90210.

he's like pan-asian.

the utt kind.

chinese, but u could tell, it wasnt all chinese.

i

was

stunned.

so daddy was talking to the 2 malay men about his set and stuff, and i tried my hardest to pick up all our stuff - speakers, set, papers - without blushing and looking like an idiot.

but i kept giggling! so in exasperation i was like DADDY MY HANDS ARE DYING!!!!! *WHINEEEE

so daddy rescues me but he's still talking to those men.

but at the corner of my eye i can still see him watching with a smile. and i'm helplessly grinning against my will.

i dont dare look at him.

daddy's finally done, and we make to get out of the shop.

but then i stop. as we pass the showcase of phones, i call back my dad and asked him to look at one phone that i was considering on getting to replace my stolen one. and also, i wanted to try get a last glimpse of THAT GUY.

so i stupidly kept asking my dad, "what about this?" blahblahblah. but i couldnt get a view, without THAT GUY knowing cos i could still feel he was looking directly at me.

so giving up, i just walked out with my daddy. i was less than 2 metres away, when i thought "should i turn around and see?"

my mind answered "no dont that will be so despo and lame. u will walk out with your head high."

then! IT HAPPENED.

i heard a whistle.

a whistle that daddy fortunately didnt quite hear. he was too engrossed trying to find the quickest way out.

i turned around. and THAT GUY grinned and waved at me.

glancing at my dad, he was still muttering to himself, so i gave THAT GUY a low wave with my hand, and skipped of with my dad.

i get asked numbers almost every time i get out, but i realised at that moment, as long as my dad was there, i wasn't going to be asked anything. and it was such a pity cos at most times i dont give my number. but THAT GUY made me ready to make an exception!!

okay here comes the point.

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next chapter; compass point

i hate compass point, but my dad realyl wanted to go there, so we trained there.

xmas decorations of metro were uber sick.

i cant wait for xmas.

my house is going to be sicker.

tried on some clothes. tho didnt buy any cos they were too big.

dad bought some shirt tho.

then we went to walk around a while.

then ate long john silver's!

nice!

then walked moree

bought me cakeyy. love my cake. my fav flavour. white chocolate.(:

walked moreee

bought more stuff

then took a bus home, where i saw another cute guy, but obviously nothing happened.

but THAT GUY is unbeatable today. SERIOUSLY ADD ME ON LJ i dont care if u even have to create an account just add me. its worth it.

aftermath

came home, mom came home shortly after.

played with lylah, then time for cake!!!

i'll try to post up pictures asap.

went online awhile,

actually quite long.

then 11 plus went for a short walk with jun yuan. then came up before 12. yeah shortest walk EVER.

philo class is actually having a chalet now as i speak. so when i came home at 11.40pm, i was wondering if i should go. as you know, louiza is super indecisive. the dilemma lasted SO FUCKING LONG.

ugh.

but then, I WAS SO GLAD SUBSEQUENTLY THAT I DIDNT GO.

READ MY LJ. ADD ME ON LJ!!!

i went to bathe, then i came out and talked to leon

leon

talked to leon for a few hours. like i said, i'm getting used to it.

but now we know he's a mocker, ignorer, toucher and obese.

listened music and stuff. for a while, it really felt like i was 16 again. irony is, i just got older today.

he's watching the liverpool match now. after much haggling, we put down the phone.

and there you have it, thats my birthday.

i really really loved spending time with my dad again. i was happy. the best bday in a long time.

i wanted to watch some cashmere mafia after blogging, but it seems too late for that now. i need energy for what's happening later on in the day. ;p

im going to do the lj post, then bed.

YOU HAVE TO ADD ME ON LJ.

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as i type this, i hear the first drops of rain fall.

they get heavier.

i'm going to bathe now.

the pitter patter gets louder.

when i return, i will blog about my day today. my 19th birthday. it wasn't grand, or anything of that sort. it was close to home, and the best i've had in a long time.

it has succumbed to a calming hum.

Labels: blood ties, Happy Birthday