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when i was mugging for my As, i would sometimes listen to my iPod while i studied. especially for math.

and while i write, i’ll like put the ipod on my desk next to me. and i always felt like a deejay adjusting the turntable whenever i adjusted the volume.

and yet again, now when i use the com on my desk, i feel like that. haha.

You were the signet of perfection, full of wisdom and perfect in beauty. You were in Eden, the garden of God; every precious stone was your covering, carnelian, chrysolite, and moonstone, beryl, onyx, and jasper, sapphire, turquoise, and emerald; and worked in gold were your settings and your engravings. On the day that you were created they were prepared. With an anointed cherub as guardian I placed you; you were on the holy mountain of God; you walked among the stones of fire. You were blameless in your ways from the day that you were created, until iniquity was found in you. In the abundance of your trade you were filled with violence, and you sinned; so I cast you as a profane thing from the mountain of God, and the guardian cherub drove you out from among the stones of fire. Your heart was proud because of your beauty; you corrupted your wisdom for the sake of your splendor. I cast you to the ground; I exposed you before kings, to feast their eyes on you. By the multitude of your iniquities, in the unrighteousness of your trade, you profaned your sanctuaries. So I brought out fire from within you; it consumed you, and I turned you to ashes on the earth in the sight of all who saw you. All who know you among the peoples are appalled at you; you have come to a dreadful end and shall be no more forever.

Labels: God, morning starr

God created three leader archangels, who were each perfect and beautiful.

Michael served eternity. Gabriel served awareness. And Lucifer, he served infinity.

Lucifer was not the opposite of God, like what most people think. He couldn't be. Cos he came from God. He was the opposite of Michael.

He pleased the Lord cos he was the keenest, bringing jewels of possibilities before Him. He was created with the greatest light and brilliance.

I guess, he was just darn beautiful.

it was all a dream

nothing happened.

i smelt of your perfume.

it was comforting.

but then it was time to return to reality.

sometimes, i wish i wasn’t so famous.

cos people know me when i dont even know they exist.

sometimes, i wish i was normal.

then maybe people won’t really care about the changes in MY life.

sometimes, i wish i couldn’t feel.

then maybe no matter what shit they contour i wont feel a shit.

sometimes, i think it’s so unfair.

that i have to watch my toes when others dont have to.

sometimes, i wish people did not spy on me.

sometimes i wish people didn’t stalk me.

sometimes, i just wish people could have the kind of lives they wanted so that they won’t have to be dissatisfied with theirs so much as to focus on mine.

sometimes, i wish people just minded their own business.

sometimes, i just feel like fucking my life up so that they’ll all be proven right and will just SHUT UP AND STOP GOING AGAINST ME.

sometimes, i wish i wasn’t so famous.

last week, i threw away 2.5k. today, daddy says he’ll throw 3k for me to stay in the 65.

and a blackberry, and laptop.

should i stay in the 65? or go to the 01.

decisions decisions decisions… zzz…

one thing’s for sure though, i need to clean my table.

first i will wait.

till tomorrow.

if u respond, we’ll take it from there. with me, wearing my heart on my sleeve.

if you don’t, i’m going to lay my cards on the table, and walk away.

Everytime i'm about to step out, you pull me in again.

Labels: boys, Dirty $exy Money, eyecandy

for you, i wear my heart on my sleeve.

Labels: boys, eyecandy

gosh. stayed up all night talking to the twin.

and he’s so nice to accommodate me. most of the conversation was of how crazily cute i find skaterboy.

and really, despite being my ex and an OLD GOOD FRIEND of skaterboy, the twin was so nice to actually entertain my nonsense.

well. 8am now. dying.

 

“whatever’s not cute bores you.” – vivian.

sad fact but true.

i think that girl knows me too well.

Labels: 13 o'clock, boys, eyecandy, fallacy, vivian

What you do to me, it scares me a little you know? But I like it.

Labels: boys, eyecandy, wordsmagicallyspun

you’re the only human that could ever make listen to trance, and actually kind of like it. i hate you for that.

i think it’s safe to say that yesterday i went to 3 clubs.

 

Alcohol doesn’t make me do stupid things. It only makes me do things that I usually would have thought twice about.

Labels: boys, eyecandy, wordsmagicallyspun

so, yesterday was graduation. ho hum, it was pretty fun. but what was more fun was the yi-za afterparty.

and thats probably gonna be our last run of c0-hosting parties. cos she flies off on monday for a month to shanghai, and when she's back i may not in broward.

shitzxx.

anyway, thats a picture of me as a guy. not really meant to be that. that was my last day of school outfit. a girl asked for my number. and a cute guy didnt even look at me cos i think he thought i was butch.

):

never act as a guy again.

anyway,, grad was at sentosa, prety fun. sat with the guys.

then went party at o bar with yi and prc people. omg i felt like i was in china. but that one guy was cute... awwzx. and stupid yi had to happily tell him i found him cute.

not that it mattered anyway. the whole time after that i was shouting about how he's "the hot guy".

but those prc people are seriously damn cool. they have that tycoon aura. haha.

i am going to get his number.

anywayyy,, kenneth came to rescue me from china. so that was cool.

then, i dont know why i was like so damn tired. i guess like i've been up since 7am. plus day before accounting finals.

so i was pretty shagged.

couldnt finish the clubbing escapade.

i took a cab back.

but then skater boy intercepted me. and i spent the rest of the night with him.

till morning. came back 9am.

and that was awesome.

Labels: Angela Ferilli, boys, Dirty $exy Money, eyecandy, jammers, Newport, through lens, WestBev

so those are captures of the aftermath of writing. reminds me of my thesis days in As. the harry potter book. well, today i have another addition to the collection. haha. aztec human sacrifice rituals. soo, if you have no life and want to do some reading, come ask me for a copy. (:

anywayy, the past 28 hours was hellish seriously. research paper and law finals. but i had D on the same boat with me. so i'm cool (: quite fun actually

the song of the 28 hours was Daniel Bedingfield - Gotta get thro this. Hha. over and over and over again man. i'm saving that for future chiong-ing sessions.

today was interesting cos i encountered the big 3, and the other 3.

the big 3 refers to the awesomely smart sexy professors. haha. i'm sorry pardon my explicit opinion. i just really admire smart people.

took the train with THE lance today. and actually texted denny about it. cos inside joke, i'm lance and he's lance impersonator. so actually having THE REAL LANCE right in front of me while i was rushing to absorb my freaking law book was VERY unnerving. i kinda gave up just about at city hall.

omg lawyers. > <

then at school saw tad, but didnt go follow for smoke cos i was really scared about law, so went to panic-study with denny.

and we saw tad and lance talking and walking together and for like 10 seconds we both just stared at the two of them. LOL. damn funny.

but hotness honestly.

the test wasn't so bad. i hope. > <

then after class, talked to mr ethan moore about class and everything. i seriously enjoyed his classes so, thats something i'm definitely gonna miss. all the philo and stuff. he's one smart guy.

then, denny boy and i went home. he grabbed some yoghurt thingy before. then home!~

and thats the end of the big 3. gosh awesome.

then, comes the other 3.

today something weird happened. i spoke to 3 of my exes.

thats it.

haha.

ciao

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, boys, Dirty $exy Money, eyecandy, grey's anatomy, muse, Newport, silver, through lens, WestBev

okay great. deny dear and i are gonna work late again. as usual, we’re always on the same stupid sinking boat. but forgive me, i actually enjoy the chaotic stress.

so lets go!

 

anywayyyy real reason for blogging despite being so darn busy,

you’re so so so so so cuteeeeeeee > <

you’re so atwood seriously. and i don’t know how to get through to you. i think i need to consult an expert. i think i’ll ask elfy. yeah. yeah. after my term, i’ll work on getting through to you.

but u’re so cuteeeee! > <

and seriously if you’re an eyecandy, never give me your pictures!!! cos i’ll be staring at them in happiness for ages.

and seriously if u were my boyfriend, i’ll totally decorate this plain blog with your pictures.

Labels: boys, elfie, eyecandy, Newport

looks like its just going to be me tonight.

maybe the skater? who knows..

but i can’t believe i’m giving up dinner at my fav place for a research paper.

feels like As.

you’re so cute.

how you don’t really scold me.

how you catch me staring at you. not that i care if you catch me. you’re irresistible.

your stubbornness is annoying to most. but adorable to me.

your persistence to stick to the rules is awesomely like me. though i won’t really have the guts to persist and tell people they’re wrong.

how you keep reading my words. quite embarrassing actually.

your teasing. it’s just so weirdly geeky. that you had to explain it to me.

and i was more than happy to play along.

by the way, i hate seeing you walk away.

but you came back for me.

you have nice eyes. did you know?

i dont quite want to stay for summer. thats not how i want our interaction to be.

i may be gone by spring anyway. and no, i can’t do that. i’m too stupid for that.

but you always insisted i’m great.

i really dont see it though. no. but it’s awesome to hear you persist about how nice my words are. you have nice eyes. and i’ll listen to anything you say actually. just to stare at you.

but when you go on about how i write so well, you have that smile that’s just too cute. so though i don’t do well with compliments, i swallow them. just so i can enjoy the picture of you happy.

you’re so random. but really, random’s good in my book. i learn a lot from that.

you complained to me today about the 13 hours. and i’ll gladly burn another stick for you.

you’re so cute when you laugh. i made you laugh. and i think that’s the best thing i’ve done today.

i think that’s all. but i wished you knew how much i like being with you.

maybe i’ll steal a hug one day.

maybe.

Labels: boys, Dirty $exy Money, eyecandy, inspiration, muse, silver, WestBev

i fantasized about a girl today.

i don’t know which is worse. that it was a girl, or that i actually enjoyed myself.

i will seriously turn gay for this. seriously. Gosh.

now i want to be lesbian. with this.

wow.
wow,wow.


i feel like cutting my hair and looking like this.

it's seriously hotness.

Labels: eyecandy

If I ever leave this world alive
I'll thank for all the things you did in my life
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll come back down and sit beside your
feet tonight
Wherever I am you'll always be
More than just a memory
If I ever leave this world alive
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll take on all the sadness
That I left behind
If I ever leave this world alive
The madness that you feel will soon subside
So in a word don't shed a tear
I'll be here when it all gets weird
If I ever leave this world alive
So when in doubt just call my name
Just before you go insane
If I ever leave this world
Hey I may never leave this world
But if I ever leave this world alive
She says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right
She says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right
Yeah should be alright

 

i saw a sexy man today. and he told me it wasn’t raining. to which i replied, i just hate the sun.

but i didn’t stop to smoke with him.