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1. Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?

- ears

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?

- like shit

3. Who was the last person you took a picture of?

- myself

4. How often do you see your ex?

- once 2 months

5. Would you ever donate blood?

- ew. no.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

- yes

7. Do you want someone dead?

- no

8. What does your last text message say?

- i think i answered this before

9. What are you thinking about right now?

- should i eat.

10. Do you wish someone was with you right now?

- no not really

11. What time did you go to sleep last night?

- i didnt sleep yesterday

12. Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?

- nike

13. Is someone in your mind right now?

- no

14. Have you ever been in a hotel room with a friend of the opposite sex?

- no

15. Who was the last person to text you?

- Leon

16. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?

- very

17. What are you listening to right now?

- nothing

18. What's the lyrics of that song in ur mind?

- nothing

18. Did you sing at all today?

- no

19. When's the last time you cried?

- 3 WEEKS

20. Who were you with yesterday?

- Oh LOADS! loads loads loads.

21. Do you miss anyone?

- no

22. Have you ever drank with your number one?

- hahh??

23. If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?

- depends on who

24. Do you want someone you can't have?

- yeah

25. When did you last talk to your brother or sister?

- yesterday

26. Where were you at 2:02 am this morning?

- sleeping

27. What was the first thing you thought this morning?

- why am i feeling like this

28. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?

- no

29. Do you want to tell someone something?

- yes

30. In your opinion,virgin ladies are pure,virgin guys are laughing stock,is it true???

- no?

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, bulletin

Q)If you married the person you last texted ?

-> then i'll have a cute boy to look at everyday.

Q)What did you do today?

-> so far, sleep.

Q)What is one fact about the last person who called you?

-> he's cute that way.

Q)How old were you when you lost your first tooth?

-> 6

Q)Last time you were on the phone?

-> 10.30pm

Q)What's for dinner?

-> don't know

Q)Ever been to the Statue of Liberty?

-> no

Q)How many e-mail addresses do you have?

-> 2

Q)Last time you washed your hair?

-> 6.30am

Q)Do you like Oreos?

-> yeah

Q)Can you ice skate?

-> i think so

Q)Do you have a brother?

-> yes

Q)Do you know how to change a diaper?

-> yes

Q)Do you keep a planner?

-> yes

Q)What kind of mood are you in?

-> stoned

Q)Do you take out the trash?

-> yes

Q)What's the best part about being single?

-> freedom!

Q)Do you watch "The Hills"?

-> no

Q)What are you thinking about right now?

-> should i sleep?

Q)Wearing any bracelets?

-> yes

Q)What are you doing now?

answering this

Q)Who was the last person that helped you stop crying ?

- louiza

Q)If you could change your name to anything what would it be?

-> louiza maria alexandra joseph

Q)Would you move to another country to be with the one you love?

-> yeah

Q)Have you ever talked on the phone while in the shower?

-> yeah

Q) Are you afraid of falling in love?

-> yes

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, bulletin

1) Whose on your thoughts now ?

♥ no one.

2) Would you date anyone now ?

♥ now? no. its 4am.

3) What are you wearing now ?

♥ jersey and shorts

4) What are you plans for tomorrow?

♥ i dont know

5) What do you think of love ?

♥ amazing

6) What is your nail's colour ?

♥ normal

7) What do you think of guys who wear pink ?

♥ cute

8) What are your plans for this month?

♥ dont know.

9) Are you currently working ?

♥ no

10) What do you think about guys who wear extra big sized shirt ?

♥ not nice. unless you're trying to "be cute" before we snuggle to bed.

11) How will you behave infront of a guy you like ?

♥ unusually good.

12) Whose the last contact in ur hp ?

♥ dont know

13) What was the first thing you did once you wake up today ?

♥ check hp

14) Who was the last to message you yesterday night ?

♥ night, would be joseph.

15) Whose always the sweetest to you ?

♥ always.... hmm.. cheryl. she's always there. since 9 years old

16) The last time you cried ?

♥3 weeks ago

17) What are you planning to do about your hair ?

♥ nothing

18) What will you do if president wants to adopt you ?

♥ for what? my daddy's king and i'm princess.

19) Would you dump your boyfriend for anything on earth ?

♥ not applicable

20) Whats your handphone number ?

♥ you wish.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, bulletin

1)When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?

` i look like crap

2. How much cash do you have with you?

` 15 dollars

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"

` for

4. Favorite planet?

` pluto

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?

` russell

6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone?

` i dont have a favourite ringtone

7. What are you wearing?

` jersey and shorts

8. Do you "label" yourself?

` i dont think so

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?

` not wearing any shoes

10. Bright or Dark Room?

` dark room

11. Are you in deep love?

` no

12. What were you doing at midnight last night?

` it was either drinking or dancing.

13. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?

` Louiza when your free or around then just sms me k? till then. :)

14. Where is your nearest 7-11?

` across the street

15. Did you have ice-cream today?

` no

16. Who told you he/she loved you last?

` leon

17. Last furry thing you touched?

` cheryl's bear.

18. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?

` 4 tabs

19. How many times do you shop?

` not much, yet.

20. Favorite age you have been so far?

` 16

21. Your worst enemy?

` the devil

22. What is your current desktop picture?

` volcom

23. What was the last thing you said to someone?

` ya

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, bulletin

i cant cant sleep.

i think i'm gna have to go MOE sleepless.

shit.

Labels: Happy Birthday

sorry for the late reaction, those that added me on lj can now read.

i accepted and opened the post. (:

u wont regret it.

i came home late.

had an awesome day with the gfs. but a late one.

i woke late, like at 4pm plus. when the plan was actually for us to leave for vivo at FOUR! so i was pretty rushed and screwed.

so we went vivo, ate. walked. talked. blah.

then went club with cheryl with her uni friends.

they are super fierce. loving sharmaine.

sorry i'm not elaborating much. its like effing 4.30 and i suppose to be at MOE HQ at 9am. they want my opinion on the history syllabus.

suppose to meet dishon at my place at 7am. dno how the hell i'm gonna wake. think i wont sleep much.

i came home at like 3 plus, and been chatting with steph love from ki.

she's super sweet. srsly.

okay no pix cos i woke late today and had no time to charge my stupid camera. (okay sorry u're not stupid) so i'll have to get pix from my gfs and NTU people. CHERYL!!! I LOVE U!!!

okay, i'm high. not drunk, i dont get drunk easily. but just high. (:

and what do u know, i have a personal cab driver. he gave me his number. said anything call him and he'll come fetch me. HOW COOL IS THAT????

kay i'll elaborate tomorrow if i remember. ciaao!~

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, cher, Happy Birthday, jammers, Newport, vivian

it had rained heavily whilst i bathed just now. it rained so hard, that the world outside my window seemed engulfed in thick fog.

i apologise for the delay. it's been more than like nearly 2 hours since i finished to bathe, and now the heavy rain had succumbed to a calm humming once again; now disturbed by the extra swishing made by passing cars on the puddles that had collected along the road outside.

i've been talking to leon and seriously i cant deny the boy. he's uber nice to talk to. i'm getting used to the regular chats online till the break of dawn. but just now, was talking on the phone.

so now, i'll officially start the post on my 19th birthday. i'll make it as detailed as i possibly can, despite being a tad tired, so bear with me. and i think it's going to be long so if u get bored, exit immediately. i dont like losing readers to boredom. (:

this post will have mini-chapters. so even if u get bored, i encourage u to read the Starhub chapter. it's really interesting to follow and see how the tale unwinds.

kay, i'll start my birthday on the 25th of november. of course, my birthday's on the 26th. but already the day before people had begun to wish me etc.

25th november

at 12am, karl calls me and we talk for quite a bit. and he wishes me happy birthday. so he's like first.

then in the day, russell drops by with some lovely flowers - a rose decorated with wild flowers. its beautiful, and it now stands at my balcony. which is like behind me as i type this cos i'm in the living room now using the isqueeze. haha. thanks a lot russell. (:

26th november, officially 19

at 12am, texts stream in. and i'm so so grateful to everyone that wished me yesterday. (now's 4.25am) wishes are like little presents that come along the way on this day. they're cute and i love em.

at 12am, i also get gifts from the family. i would like to note THE MUG though. i'll put up a picture one day. but i got this mug, from lylah, with her picture on it. and GOSH SHE LOOKS LIKE ME. seriously i've been standing with this proposition for ages. she looks exactly like me when i was her age! except for my birthmark on my forehead. and my longer nose. SHE LOOKS LIKE ME.

so that was just living proof.

after getting gifts and replying messages, i dine for a bit with parents.

then watched comedies with them

then i bathed.

then read the 3rd harry potter novel. (i SO EFFING LOVE TO READ) sorry nerd speaking.

then i went in my room, and chatted a bit.

guess who said hi to me?

Ben

ben. ben the matrep ben. ben the downstairs skater ben friends with the idiot martin ben who followed us to xmas mass 2006 ben. (refer to dec 06 post for more details)

well thats not new, sometimes he does randomly say hi. but i'm not blogging about this cos he talked to me. i'm blogging because after the pause of hi when i dont reply much anymore, he said something that made me fall off my seat.

"louiza have u watched zeitgeist" (sorry i dno if the spelling is correct)

zeitgeist is this movie which is like to me very dry and boring and dumb. i saw the black and white and decided not to watch. But BEN was watching it.

wetrirufhsidhfksjfghs???!?!?!?!?!

so i said no, i found it boring blahblah

and he was like "oh you gotta listen to what they say... about the world and what's happening"....

my

jaw

dropped

further.

he really sounded serious.

seriously.

wow.

BEN.

so from that moment, instead of the usual ignorance that i give him, i actually started talking... asking him about his school... and life.. and blah... then i fell tired, so i bade him gd nite and actualyl said

"it was nice talking to u"

thats my strange encounter with Ben.

the adventures of the morning

woke up to delilah's babbles and screams. happily, i played with her a bit. this was like close to 11.

qashrul calls, he's on his way over with chocolate.

i rush down, and see him.

i miss that guy.

he left shortly and i made my way to shop and save across the street to check on my job application.

apparently i gotta give it till next week.

oh well.

i went to 7-eleven to check out the jobs.

then walked back home.

so as u can see, i walked a lot today. and it was mid-day so the sun was hot. but i kind of liked the heat for the moment there.

lunch

came home, and mummy wants to eat.

so i go back out into the sun to get lunch. daddy worked morning shift today so he didnt cook for us.

i like walking through the market. i get stares. not that i'm egoistic or anything, but its just nice attention. remember louiza's pampered little shit and likes attention.

got the food, decided to take the bus cos i thought i saw a cute guy in it. and louiza likes to look and stare and hotness.

but the guy wasnt that hot after all.

went home, joana had come back. delilah was asleep. had lunch with mummy and joana. it wasnt too bad.

the journey

then i had to unplug the whole cable set from plasma in parent's room.

why?

daddy wanted to upgrade it. so i was to meet him after his work at 3 somewhere and we'll go to starhub customer service together at plaza singapura.

super dusty job!

but i tink i did a good job! i persevered! hehe.

then i bathed, got dressed and left home.

took train to city hall. i read the papers during the trip. yeah louiza cant throw away time without being a bit productive by doing something. harry potter books after novel 3 is thick so i was reluctant to carry it.

had to lunge the whole set to funan by myself where i was to meet my dad. i managed, so i feel proud of myself. (:

met daddy at funan, and we got a new set of speakers for vicente.

then, trained to plaza singapura!!

starhub

PS did some stupid renovations and the customer svs centre ended up at some dark corner of the basement 2.

okay maybe i'm exaggerating. not dark. but still!!! so damn farr from where it used to be.

so we took a Q number and the first thing i noticed when stepping in there was the two hot receptionists. CHINESE GUYS.

daddy's number came pretty quick. he told me i could go walk around PS if i wanted to, but i wanted to stay and stare at the chinese dudes who were now like aware of my existence.

they were cute really. especially one of them. so i entertained myself with sidelong glances at him, and him at me.

then, daddy's consultation was over. so we both went to the collection counter to get the new set.

there were two malay guys there. (adult men la so like i didnt take notice)

AND THEN!!!

HE CAME OUT. this new guy. a guy that totally made me not even consider those two receptionists.

this guy, that looked mixed definitely. thats the thought that came into my mind the moment i saw him.

he looks like ty from 90210.

he's like pan-asian.

the utt kind.

chinese, but u could tell, it wasnt all chinese.

i

was

stunned.

so daddy was talking to the 2 malay men about his set and stuff, and i tried my hardest to pick up all our stuff - speakers, set, papers - without blushing and looking like an idiot.

but i kept giggling! so in exasperation i was like DADDY MY HANDS ARE DYING!!!!! *WHINEEEE

so daddy rescues me but he's still talking to those men.

but at the corner of my eye i can still see him watching with a smile. and i'm helplessly grinning against my will.

i dont dare look at him.

daddy's finally done, and we make to get out of the shop.

but then i stop. as we pass the showcase of phones, i call back my dad and asked him to look at one phone that i was considering on getting to replace my stolen one. and also, i wanted to try get a last glimpse of THAT GUY.

so i stupidly kept asking my dad, "what about this?" blahblahblah. but i couldnt get a view, without THAT GUY knowing cos i could still feel he was looking directly at me.

so giving up, i just walked out with my daddy. i was less than 2 metres away, when i thought "should i turn around and see?"

my mind answered "no dont that will be so despo and lame. u will walk out with your head high."

then! IT HAPPENED.

i heard a whistle.

a whistle that daddy fortunately didnt quite hear. he was too engrossed trying to find the quickest way out.

i turned around. and THAT GUY grinned and waved at me.

glancing at my dad, he was still muttering to himself, so i gave THAT GUY a low wave with my hand, and skipped of with my dad.

i get asked numbers almost every time i get out, but i realised at that moment, as long as my dad was there, i wasn't going to be asked anything. and it was such a pity cos at most times i dont give my number. but THAT GUY made me ready to make an exception!!

okay here comes the point.

ADD ME ON LIVEJOURNAL. i cant say anything about this chapter here in the open. BUT U HAVE TO ADD ME ON LIVEJOURNAL so i'll grant access for u to read.

U HAVE TO. i PROMISE U WONT WANT TO MISS READING ON ABOUT THIS CHAPTER.

SERIOUSLY.

JUST TRUST ME. U'LL BE SHOCKED.

i cant say anything here. but PLEASE FOR THE SAKE OF READING ADD ME ON LIVEJOURNAL.

ADD ME!

next chapter; compass point

i hate compass point, but my dad realyl wanted to go there, so we trained there.

xmas decorations of metro were uber sick.

i cant wait for xmas.

my house is going to be sicker.

tried on some clothes. tho didnt buy any cos they were too big.

dad bought some shirt tho.

then we went to walk around a while.

then ate long john silver's!

nice!

then walked moree

bought me cakeyy. love my cake. my fav flavour. white chocolate.(:

walked moreee

bought more stuff

then took a bus home, where i saw another cute guy, but obviously nothing happened.

but THAT GUY is unbeatable today. SERIOUSLY ADD ME ON LJ i dont care if u even have to create an account just add me. its worth it.

aftermath

came home, mom came home shortly after.

played with lylah, then time for cake!!!

i'll try to post up pictures asap.

went online awhile,

actually quite long.

then 11 plus went for a short walk with jun yuan. then came up before 12. yeah shortest walk EVER.

philo class is actually having a chalet now as i speak. so when i came home at 11.40pm, i was wondering if i should go. as you know, louiza is super indecisive. the dilemma lasted SO FUCKING LONG.

ugh.

but then, I WAS SO GLAD SUBSEQUENTLY THAT I DIDNT GO.

READ MY LJ. ADD ME ON LJ!!!

i went to bathe, then i came out and talked to leon

leon

talked to leon for a few hours. like i said, i'm getting used to it.

but now we know he's a mocker, ignorer, toucher and obese.

listened music and stuff. for a while, it really felt like i was 16 again. irony is, i just got older today.

he's watching the liverpool match now. after much haggling, we put down the phone.

 

and there you have it, thats my birthday.

i really really loved spending time with my dad again. i was happy. the best bday in a long time.

 

i wanted to watch some cashmere mafia after blogging, but it seems too late for that now. i need energy for what's happening later on in the day. ;p

im going to do the lj post, then bed.

YOU HAVE TO ADD ME ON LJ.

Labels: blood ties, boys, eyecandy, Happy Birthday, karl, summer, teenagers

as i type this, i hear the first drops of rain fall.

they get heavier.

i'm going to bathe now.

the pitter patter gets louder.

when i return, i will blog about my day today. my 19th birthday. it wasn't grand, or anything of that sort. it was close to home, and the best i've had in a long time.

it has succumbed to a calming hum.

Labels: blood ties, Happy Birthday

i'm not one to ask for anything

but i think the most practical thing anyone can get me for my birthday would be a bottle of smirnoff. or absolute.

Labels: memory, through lens

ugh u noe wad. i feel so gross and lame.

not liking u anymore.

every chinese girl likes u. (not to be racist or wad, but thats what i've observed)

i dont want to be part of that posse.

the end.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, boys, eyecandy

the last two posts was louiza being boy crazy.

ignore.

by the way, karl is first to wish me.

Labels: boys

you're one reason why i'll consider going prom, even though im effing lazy to.

and if i was still wild and crazy, i would grab u and kiss you. just to reinforce my attention.

but i'm not.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, boys, eyecandy

I EFFING LIKE U AND I WANT U TO EFFING LIKE ME TOO!

UGH~

_ _ _ _     _ _ _

u know what i hate.

when a guy actually likes me, but he doesnt show it one bit cos he's scared of getting rejected.

i hate it cos sometimes i like that guy too.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, boys, eyecandy

did u know. louiza grew up listening to michael jackson? like from toddler. and totally loved him. posters everywhere in her room.

then he disappeared from her life.

and now when i listen to him again, i cry.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII

Are you mad at your best friend right now?

- nopee

Is there any drink that you absolutely MUST drink cold?

- coke

Did you sleep anywhere besides your bed today?

- my parents' bed

Are there framed pictures of you anywhere in your house?

- yeup

Do you own anything you don't want your parents to know about?

- errr no i dont think so... haha.

Are there any colors you will NOT wear?

- cant think of anything right now.

How many different colors are you wearing right now?

- too lazy to count

Whats your current favorite color?

- pink and black; brown.

What is your current mood?

- weird

Is there anyone you would love to see right now?

- yupp i think so

When was the last time you cried?

- last week i think

Where is your mom?

- living room

What was the first thing you heard this morning?

- daddy's voice

What are you thinking about right now?

- a lot.

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking pot?

- i could, but i kinda wna try it once.

Were you happy when you woke up today?

- yup

Honestly, do you like anybody?

- yes, i do.

Excited for anything?

- a handful of things. (:

Do you hate it when people smoke around you?

- HELL YEAH.

Do you have any plans for tomorrow?

- lazy to answer

Do you get along with girls?

- i do

How old do you want to be when you have kids?

- hmm.... late 20s maybe.

Do you have over 200 Friendster friends?

- yup.

What makes you laugh no matter what?

- hmmm a good segment of whose line is it anyway?

Are you happy with yourself?

- yup.

Would you change yourself for the person you love?

- depends on what i have to change

Do you think best friends can be replaced?

- by better friends.. maybe. but i'm holding on to the ones i have now.

What do you do when you have a bad day?

- watch soapies.

Do you really think ex's can be friends?

- only one. Bryan.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, bulletin

friendster bulletins. fun to do, but i dont like spamming the bulletin board.

so i'll exploit my blog.

happy reading louiza trivia.

bulletin 1

n the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy?
` no

Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
` no

Have you ever received a long love letter?
` yes

Do you text message a lot?
` yes

Do you still talk to your best friend from last year?
` yes

Walmart or Target?
` target.

Do you wear collared shirts?
` yes

Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
` sober

Have you ever kissed someone with other people around?
` yes

What was your first alcoholic beverage?
` gin with sprite

Do you hide things from your parents?
` yes

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
` yes

Where were you at 9:30 pm last night?
` home

Have you ever kissed someone you werent dating?
` yes

Anything bothering you right now?
` no

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, bulletin

gonna slp.

LJ private.

Labels: teenagers

i'm learning.

im learning to let go and open up.

baby steps.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, blood ties, boys, grey's anatomy

okayyyyyy the "pro photog" section. yess go on, laugh. i'm noob.

Labels: through lens

fb hates me. it keeps fucking lagging. so cos im such an impatient git, i'll blog what i owe.

sorry if i sound angry. i'm irritated. but the good side is, i managed to delete like a fucking hundred over application requests.

i didnt click ignore all, cos some look quite nice.

but srsly some are just plain lame. like "baby predictor"?? i laughed when i saw that. like hello?? hahaha.

okay so project get hired

i went for two interviews over the past 2 days

one for an admin assist job at the central part of sg, and one at my dream night-shift job.

the first one was boring.

i mean its glam and everything, walking in heels and stockings and carrying my resume and shaking hands and being polite blahblah.

but wad was more interesting was my interview with 24hr shop-n-save.

i went there at 11am yesterday and was greeted with chaos! yeah stocks were coming in, everyone was rush rush rush!! boxes everywhere. i got so excited by the hereandthere!

even the people were friendly, shouting and laughing over the chaos.

so i filled in the form (no need for any fancy resume, or formal wear... i went in my levi's tee and miniskirt and pink skate shoes. i thought it was pretty cute cos my tee, shoes and belt were pink. and i tied my hair in a bun) then the in-charge which was this tall lady, she asked why i wanted overnight. i said i found it SO DAMN FUN AND INTERESTING. and she laughed at me.

at least i made a hyped impression.

so i'll only get to know on monday, so keep ur fingers crossed!

then the mysterious man who put his hand in my - - -

this person put his hand in my bag, and stole my hp.

yes. on my way home from the central job, i was pickpocketed at the platform of city hall.

ugh the irritation.

the train took like 5 mins to come, so whilst waiting i was texting.

then i put my hp in one of the pockets of my bag.

then the train came, and u know the stupid crowd at city hall, plus the train on the other side of the platform came too so the crowd was like doubled as people rushed to catch the east line train. so there was like pushing and pulling and yadah yadah.

i went in the train, and when i wanted to text again, i noticed the pocket of my bag was opened.

which was weird.

and then, i realized.

my hp was gone.

it was fucking gone.

the idiot actually opened my bag while everyone was pushing to get into the train, and he took my hp out,

in a matter of a few secs. which means i've been being watched on the platform while i was texting. he/she took note of which part of the bag i put my cell in so he could carry out the retarded deed in a matter of seconds.

i swear i was so pissed. i was like frowning while standing. fucked up. srsly.

but then, i was also relieved. i quickly checked for my camera and wallet and thank goodness they were still around.

it's lucky that i put my camera in another pocket, and my wallet in another. can u imagine if all 3 were in the same pocket???? i'll just die.

so i was really damn irritated and angry throughout the ride. i didnt even notice the cute guy that was staring at me.

and when i did notice, i didnt entertain him.

but then the train emptied and there were 2 seats available and we sat together. so then i decided to entertain abit. that lifted my spirits a bit. (:

he also got down at pasir ris, but i didnt continue the thing cos i went to the station master to lodge a report. irritably.

so ya. stupid stupid person! ugh.

oh must say this. : i am officially anti-yellow ribbon.

go ahead, sue me if u want. but srsly, i'm anti-yellow ribbon.

u know, ever since martin screwed up, my dad has been asking those people raising-for-ex-convicts to fuck off.

yeah, but im nicer. i actually listen and give money.

like u know at city hall before i got busted, this girl came up to me selling xmas cards to raise funds for ex convicts. i immediately thought of my dad, but i decided to give that girl my time of day, even tho i was in a rush.

so cos i was in a rush, i gave her wadever small notes i had, and told her to keep the xmas cards. then i rushed off to the platform.

where that happend - _ -

so im srsly srsly anti-yellow ribbon now.

i dare anyone to come and ask me for money.

chatting with the 1st starr

on lj private. go see.

pictures will be in another post

Labels: ALEXANDER VII

okay i just woke up.

i intended on blogging.

but now, louiza is determined to delete her stupid appli requests!

ugh why am i talking like that???

hahaha

so i'm watching a lot of fashion on tv today, and i still am! but i wanted to say something.

i just watched this super cute advert!!

i think its the BK one.

you know when the guy's like carrying his gf's super girly handbag while she's in the changing room in some fashion wear store?

yeah then like guys passing him all laugh and snigger at him.

so poor thing!

but then it was so cute! cos then his gf comes out and he gives her the bag obediently. its so adorable.

hahahahh!

just wanted to say that.

Labels: boys

OMG I HAVE BLARDEE SO MANY FUCKING APPLICATIONS.

i think i had no life last year. add and add and add. with martin of course.

kkk gna delete.

and does anyone know how to delete stupid appli requests?? i have hundreds!!!!!

ok! sian.

i just went through like 200 friend requests on facebook. ignored most. and deleted some.

okay my online networks are screwed up due to neglect throughout the year.

yes, too busy with school.

so now, i'm going to update my networks. friendster and facebook.

friendster, i accept anyone - except stalkers.

facebook, is only for a selected bunch - filtered through whether i'm comfortable with u knowing about delilah.

then, making a myspace for when i get back to musictown,

and i spose thats it. (:

and pictures will be regular at facebook... and maybe myspace.

ciao.

love,louiza.

p.s. still got that post. which i'm getting lazy to write. maybe later... update networks first!.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, the aftermath

okay its late, so i wont blog. but i will tmr.

so stay tuned for:

• Project Get Hired
• the mysterious man who put his hand in my _ _ _
• chatting with the first starr (tho this may only be elaborated more on my lj private)
• louiza posing as a PRO PHOTOGRAPHER
• louiza posing as louiza and being a narcissist.as usual

gd nite~

love,louiza.

too tired to do a proper post, so i'll let pix speak for themselves.

Labels: blood ties, chrismukkah, memory, summer, through lens, vivian

admin day.

thats basically what today was.

Mr Ali wanted me to last min write up a list of achievements for my leaving cert or something. so i had to, and then i decided what the hell, might as well do a resume at the same time. i've been too busy with the tv these couple of days to actually sit down and do a resume.

so i did, its all done up...

his achievements thing too..

yup!

then evening went to see jun yuan awhile. helped him mark his physics. and its amazing how i still remember some physics from sec 4. even he was shocked at my memory.

but he's still the best. (:

we ate lobster crackers together. or rather, he fed me while i marked his mcq.

his last paper's tomorrow. he wants to bring me shopping. but then, i dont really go shopping with friends. i shop with either bf or myself. (or of late, vicente) like i said, i dont like doing what i want when i'm out with friends. they may get bored.

and shopping is WORST. cos i can take forever. plus my indecisiveness. totally kills it even more.

so that torture's only reserved for bfs.

so i turned him down.... but he told me he dont mind cos he's VERY PATIENT. haha. something that i sort of agree with. that day i was reading history notes at his place, and he literally just remained next to me, watching quietly as i read.

no complain. or fidgeting. or doing his own thing.

i was like arent you bored??

he was like no... and his "no" was the sort which u could tell was like really weirdly true.

he's like super patient.

and his phone, and com sometimes lags and he can just patiently wait.

seriously, every time that happens to me, i immediately remove the battery and restart. i CANT WAIT FOR SHITS.

anyways, then i sent him home cos i didnt want him dragging all his books up to my house then going down again.

then i went home.

and went out shortly after to run.

came back, bathed, tv-ed... and now im here.

i suppose i'll sleep soon. feel like waking early tomorrow.

maybe.

hahas. these days im like sleeping at 7am?? its so weird. hahas,..

just last night i was talking to visa online till like effing 7. that mean person was like tempting me with stupid pancakes.

oh wells.

oh and today, i talked a lot with daddy. like A HELL LOT. and there were instances i felt like crying so there was like stupid painful lumps on my throat several times.

and now i have a sore throat which i attribute to that.

ugh! can someone give me a scientific explanation?  its so irritating.

ok ciao,

love, louiza.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, boys, Dirty $exy Money, summer

upon request, i'm writing this.

kartik just called, and scolded me about ruining his relationship blah blah... saying that im not grateful for the help he's given me during As.... (what help dont ask me) and how he fought off ill-speakers about me... about how much he cares and i "just dont get it"

and that apparently he in the whole world cares for me the most... cos martin wasnt there for me during As. (people here u must understand to kartik my world means only him and martin)

eh... buT i dont even remember you kartik being around.... how blind of me... OHHH!!! YOU WERE THERE IN SPIRIT!!!!!! i get it now!!!!

so im basically posting this not cos i care, but cos he asked me to... (i think he thinks i was intimidated by THE CALL... DUM DUM DA DUUUUMMMM!!!!!!!!!) you be the judge...

i picked up your call cos i didnt want you hounding my house phone.

and fyi, thanks but no thanks. i dont need your help, care, concern (whatever adjective of altruism you can think of)

you're very rude you know, one reason why i broke up with you. but i spose u were agitated cos your gf's pissed at you.

and i dont blame her. which girl would want their bf caring about their exs?

i wouldnt.

p.s. from this day forth, i lift the duty you have so graciously undertaken. you dont have to err.. defend me and scold others. i think i'm big enough to handle ill-speakers myself. and anyone who knows me, will firstlyy know i dont give a damn.

so yeah, u dont have to call me anymore... i wont entertain even if u did. cos its not nice being yelled at over the phone... =\

MARTIN NEVER YELLS AT ME!

i didnt argue with you, cos im way above that. u're nothing to me, so i dont really care what u wanna think or say or whatevs...

and its amazing how without mentioning any names, your gf already knew it was u i was referring to. what does that say about you as a bf.

when we broke up like 23434234years ago, i told you that i didnt want to have anything to do with you anymore.

to mayshu?: you're amazing for tolerating such a person. but i think like everyone, you deserve better. like the whole-hearted attention of your bf. and not him giving so much "care" to an ex. thats just my thoughts.

to kartik: never for a second did i stop finding you annoying, so dont even think i feel indebted to you cos you hung around even tho i told you to back off...

and kartik, it's simple math. if someone hates you, you stay away. anyone will do that. so why are you still sticking around?? like after 23423423years. yawns.

oh yeah its cos you have a SOFT heart.

ew.

its ok, reserve ur SOFTNESS for ur gf. thanks. (:

louiza trivia

for readers out there, kartik is an ex of mine. and he was such a nice bf, our relationship last for SO LONG!!! like a whole 3 months!! how rad is that.

in comparison, i think martin's such a sweetheart. awww. (sudden random missing)

okiee i think i spent too much time on such an ewwish post. i will end now.

thanks for reading!

love, louiza. (:

Labels: boys, perasaan.com

ok the post is, 12/11/06

Labels: memory

just finished to bathe, so let me account my day.

oh first things first, i want to state a few things

Preamble (p.s. a preamble is an introduction, not really the main gist of what something aims at presenting, but just to start things off) (:

1. one advantage of having a bf i can drag the person to where i wna go. like shop, window shop, visit stupid art galleries, go buy books, sit and read, go to random stuffs, etc. i dont do that with friends cos i dont like dragging my friends to stuff i want to do. usually when i'm out with friends, i enjoy doing what we as a group decide on. i hardly bring up my crazy ideas. i'm not a "lets-do-what-i-want" person with friends. cos i dont want them to be any potentially bored with what i wanna do. hmm. im only comfortable being "lets-do-what-i-want" with boyfriends, and my friends when i was a kid. and the latest girl that i can remember being comfortable enough to be "lets-do-what-i-want" is Cheryl. probably cos i've known her since so young. i so so love that fact. and maybe Debbie. but mostly Cheryl.
2. at present, my bf that i drag around is my bro vicente. so liyana will have to share. i dont care. hmmph! today bro made me sad so he promised to make up with ice-skating. i actually whined to my bro. omg. hahahaha.
3. one advantage of having a bf also is to be able to do weird random stuff with someone. like write resolutions together!~ omg i loved that.
4. one advantage of having a bf is cos we can be crazy together. jump on the bed, chase each other around with "weapons" omg i so have to find that post when martin and i tried to kill each other.
5. one advantage of having a bf is also cos we can fight! like have tickle wars, and try overpower the other, pin the fella down.
6. k the list goes on, i'll stop here.

i went for evening mass cos as u know i woke late and didnt go with family. ):

but today the priest gave an EFFING touching sermon. i actually cried.

ok not cried. but tears did fill my eyes. but i didnt let it fall, cos i was alone and i'll look like some idiot crying. (ADD TO LIST!: can cry on bf.)

(ADD TO LIST: can injure and fight with bf, but never get whacked. (: )

yeah i dont want to forget that sermon.

took bus to hougang. met family at family friend's house. dinner there.

bus was so so crowded, and its so sweet of the guys to offer me their seats. so i didnt have to stand. (:

came home, went pasar malam awhile with mummy and vicente.

then went walk with jun yuan awhile.

bathed. and came home.

ok off to find that post!

thanks for reading

love, louiza.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, blood ties, boys, cher, Dirty $exy Money, God, memory, Newport, summer

the squirrel.

Labels: through lens

just restarted my CHANEL like 3 over times, but there seems to be something wrong with it. i cant seem to start any prog or appli. but i'm too blurred right now to really care so i'm just using my bro/dad com.

i just woke up see.

just ate a bun with melted cheese and a slice of bread.

i'm not a breakfast person, but i'm trying to keep the gastric from acting up again. cos that will totally suck. after last week's torture, i dont think i want to go through that again.

i feel like i'm having a hangover. not from alcohol, but like from lethargy and aches and blank emotions.

picture this.

my hair looks like a squirrel's. its all messed up. my right calve is aching. i think cos of the walk or cos i bathed at 5am. and i feel like i'm having a stomachache. and my gastric's a bit there.

peaky.

obviously i just woke up means i didnt make it for church.

there goes my plans.

wanted to lunch with parents lylah and vicente, then maybe shop around TM with vicente awhile. then if its too boring then town.

i'll have to go church in the evening. maybe i'll do that tonight.

ok thats it for now i spose. i'm gna check on CHANEL.

oh did i tell you, vivian gave me her timetable at 4am. thats so sweet of her.

ok ouch pain.

bye

love, louiza.

Labels: blank, blood ties, Dirty $exy Money, vivian

went for a late beach walk with jun yuan

Labels: Newport, summer

entitled The Hogwarts Handbook, i have converted my philosophy book that i admitted to Cambridge into an Ebook format. decided that i have kept eager readers waiting for too long.

and vivian darling is the first to receive it.

do i have any takers?

p.s. if you dont know that i'm talking about, refer to my lj.

Labels: brain food, hogwarts, vivian

see the overpopulation? and yellow thingy is the vacuum cleaner. dust bunnies were widespread...see... the sorting extended right out to my living room. trash bag 2. and look at the files in the background.... dominating my lovely piano... ok this one a bit random. my sister went to korea. and got the "liger" thing for lylah. apparently a liger is a tiger and lion. hmm...and this is your truly yesterday amidst the cleaning. yes i look like shit. its the opportunity cost of slaving for As. see the tie? thats tpjc tie... i found it amidst the rubble. in year one, i was all wanting to stand out with my red hair and green eyes. so i used the tie to college too. obviously i got bored after awhile. haha.

ooh in that picture u may notice that the curtains, stuffed animals... are a bit small kiddy. yes this is my room, but fyi, those are not my stuff.

see, about a year ago, my room didnt look like this. i had baby pink walls, pink curtains, a nice bed... but i shifted to martin's for awhile, and the family GAVE MY ROOM TO VICENTE AND PAINTED THE WALLS GREEN AND TURNED IT INTO A BOYS ROOM. bleah.

then the whole year, i was too busy with delilah and studies to really change things.

HENCE PROJECT REVAMP ROOM! (:

alright, so you're probably wondering what i did today.

yes i'm not lazy junyuan. i'm not "a pig"

today, i cleaned my wardrobe.

OH i forgot to mention, for the past few months, i havent been folding my clothes. so they just collect in mountains. in the laundry basket and in my wardrobe.

and daddy also said my clothes would have cockroaches. ):

but i made him dump em in the dryer today to KILL ANY FUCKERS.

so its all good.(:

yup! so thats Phase 2 for you.

wardrobe.

i threw out a lot of old clothes too.

time for new ones?

haha definitely.

Labels: Project Revamp Room, through lens

well anyone who knows me well enough would know i am a perfectionist. so i cant let time pass without really doing something. and yesterday talking to Mr Ali, he invited me back to college to teach History next year... i didnt take up the offer (i dont think i'm confident in my intelligence) but that sparked off a whole thought process on the idea that i should work.

so yeah, here are a few ideas.

tuition? i was thinking math. a guy wants me to teach him A Math. but i would really rather E Math. i have more confidence there... maybe english? i'd love to teach KI Logic. the critical thinking, i.e. Paper 2. so if there are any interested parties, please let me know.

i also thought about working night-shift at 7-11. i've ALWAYS wanted to do that. hahahah weird right? i know but i always thought it'll be an interesting experience. all the strange people you can meet at 3am in a convenience store...

then i thought about secretary/admin stuff. yup that'll be quite comfy. 9-5.

and i also toyed with another idea. but i shant say here. may ruin my chances. hahaha. so read my lj private if you want to know. maybe i'll write later.

hmmm i think i'll write a resume tomorrow. how interesting.

any other ideas people? hehe.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII

amused.

ex whom i shant name just sent me a text msg.

i am amused, speechless, and srsly amused. haha.

go ahead, check it out.

Good night. Happy everything has happened well for you. Always know that no matter how hard you search for someone that cares for you alot, no one can replace me. All the best.

LMAO. srsly....

ooo... kaayy.....

seriously, you have a gf, so i think if there's anyone you should be caring about, or bother at this moment, it should be her. 

p.s. i cannot emphasize any stronger. you are so full of yourself.

amused.

Labels: perasaan.com

i seriously need a psychologist. its getting tiresome to line things up.

me.

i commit better, when there's no commitment.

so don't say u want a relationship.

cos then i'll run away.

trauma has taught me well.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, boys, grey's anatomy

this post is gna suck cos im suffering from a super bad headache. nevertheless, i have to note down the thoughts in my mind.

so, sorry for the unglam literary skills.

firstly i love my teachers, most of em.

mr koh has this perpetual cheery way of speaking that makes me smile no matter what.

and i just talked to mr ali (between elfy n i: our friend "ali" the best form teacher ever) for like almost an hour and seriously till this year, i've never thought teachers were humans.

or friends.

in fact in sec school they were one thing.

enemies

or make that two.

people who kept tormenting louiza cos they were goody two shoes with no life and just couldnt "understand" the ways of louiza.

so dramatic huh. story of my life.

so yeah, i really really love my teachers.

oh not forgetting, favouritest. (not a word i noe)

miss quek. note to self, return her book!

and mr tan.

seriously, this year is like a turning point for me in my education life. in a sense that, i actually started liking my teachers. not only cos they didnt give up on me, but i actually realise their super nice people. who are fun to talk to.

omg srsly, they are.

[k if this post is getting too geeky and weird, exit now.]

i mean like mr koh taught me lots of neat tricks. he's still the SMARTEST being around to me! practicality! and we frequently talked about the stuff he studied in NUS. numbers are so magical! and the afternoons spent having fun with vectors. wow. i'm srsly gna miss that.

and mr ali, for talking to me about all the nice stories in history. even though they're not in syllabus. he'll talk about the russian rev. or french rev. just cos i like it and i asked stuff about it. and also about his NUS learnings too. and about coffee. and stress. and the list goes on and on and on.

and miss quek, teaching me all those health stuff! super interesting. and always answering my weird questions. and AND AND SHARING MY LOVE OF HARRY POTTER!!! ok maybe she didnt really love harry potter. but for the writing of my "book" i'd like to think she made herself as interested as i was, to facilitate my writing of it. getting excited at every possible idea i had, no matter how dumb it may have sounded.

seriously i think these people are the best.

wow. this post srsly sucks. i believe i can do a lot better if circumstances (headache, tired) were better. damn. same way i think i could have done my As better.

oh wells.

life's about learning right?

so this wouldnt be the last you'd hear from me about these awesomest people. i'm srsly nevr gonna forget them. especially one of them. those who read my lj private should noe. even from the public posts probably would have some idea.

oh one more update about me. i was flirting with the prospect of becoming a journalist. writing articles. what do u think? but then after thinking about that, i was like hmm... what about something more exciting. like a fashion magazine editor. but not the stupid ones in singapore. like the ones in Milan. like vogue. vanity affair. etc.

wow tt'll be so cool. when i migrate there, and if the time is right, (and circumstances of course) maybe i'll move to new york. (:

ok thats all for now.

p.s. this blog is active again. watch this space for better (i hope) posts.

love, louiza.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, elfie, hogwarts, memory, muse, sick

i'm loving that pic. 27 nov 2006. the punkrock + emo. i think the mix was just sweet.

and i notice all the pix are like night time.

where's the night life??

oh p.s. i'm hating the other person. but i just love that pic!~

gnarly.

Labels: memory, through lens

just a punkrock kid with the tattoo of a starr.

oh jolie jolie, bonjourr!~

i feel high. someone pull me down from the sky.

Labels: wordsmagicallyspun