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Just talked to thanaskodi after so long. I really miss him. In fact i miss the whole club now. Feeling so nostalgic. I hate feeling like this. It's so bittersweet. Sweet nostalgia with the bitterness of not being able to go back..

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haven't blogged in a bit... well that's cos i usually blog at night after my day has ended, but for the past few nights, i've been feeling pretty exhausted so, i drift right off to sleep once i'm done living the day. (awfully long sentence. =/) can almost hear ms quek's voice "why is this sentence so long??? one, two, three, four... 37 words!!"

that's what she always did last year when we were working on my thesis.

anyway, now delilah's having her siesta, so that leaves me with time to blog for a bit. so i shall recap a bit about the days.

on tuesday, i went out for a late night walk (super long walk) with kuga after his work.

he came over and we walked for ages. i love walking. long walks to be exact.

been doing that since i was with martin.

then last year, whilst jun yuan and i were studying for As, we would go for super long walks too. (my neighbour downstairs who's also in tampines junior college)

and now, kuga!

so he's super nice to take the routes that i love. the ones i took with jun yuan.

we came back at like 4 plus.

on wednesday, i had a long talk with BOTH thanaskodi and kuga. cos i felt jealous. about an ex-worker at tanglin club. and both of them took like forever to appease me. especially thanaskodi.

i don't know how they're so patient. really.

and yesterday, kuga went back to malaysia. friend having a wedding today. so he's busy with wedding stuff.

last night, i talked super long to thanaskodi. and fell asleep.

but today, he's going to malaysia too. visit his relatives.

so looks like my two boys are leaving me for the weekend.

maybe i'll meet thanaskodi on sunday. gotta ask kuga first.

 

on to another topic, i started work at coffee club @ white sands on tuesday.

i must say, my co-workers are very friendly and nice to me.

but sadly, i will never be able to compare them to my experience with the dream team at tanglin.

they really made the bar for fun at work with friends SUPER high. and i won't be able to replace or find a group like them in a long time.

i even found a new best friend in thanaskodi who manja-s me like hell.

and a boyfriend who's so patient and caring to me.

and a damn funnily cool guy who's so unique. calls me "dear" all the time. and makes me laugh.

 

seriously, i miss them.

but sadly, we've all gone to different routes.

selvam went to wheelhouse, (another restaurant at the club)

thana went to tangles, (another restaurant at the club)

and i left the club altogether.

only kuga's leFft in deli

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i had an awesome day today.

honestly everything went so great, i can't really find an imperfection in anything.

anyway, time now is 4.25am so i'm going to make this quick.

i gotta try to sleep asap cos tomorrow there's a lunch party at aunty evie's place.

looks like i can't watch ice age 2 today.

i watched ice age last night. (:

for kuga of course. cos he wants me to bring him to ice age 3. and i want to know everything about the series first before i watch it.

if not for kuga, i wouldnt even have anything to do with the series. since the first movie, it never managed to even get a silver of my attention. and now i'm so enthusiastically rushing to watch it.

-_-

the things love does to you.

but i must say, i'm pretty impressed. it wasn't too bad. in fact, i think i actually like it. which is so contrary to what i was predicting. A BORING MOVIE. like chicken little. which i must say i give 2/5.

so for ice age, i give it 5/5.

and i'm officially in love with diego. he's so cool and fierce.

and his fangs are like wow.

so i was like all gushing over diego last night, feeling sad that he didn't exist. then i realized, I HAVE MY OWN LION!

then i felt much better. haha.

 

anyway, back to today's story, i went to church with parents.

then, trained to orchard where i was supposed to meet thanaskodi and kuga for their break.

i was early, so i decided to shop at borders.

after meeting up, we ate and mac donalds...

then kuga and i left thana there. we went for our alone time.

(:

 

was raining really heavily so subsequently, we were virtually trapped in wisma/ngee ann. for like more than an hour.

couldnt go anywhere else without risking the downpour. i wanted to go to paragon. but there was just no way. it was raining like mad.

 

nevertheless, i was not bored for a second. being stuck with kuga is fun. he bought me a cranberry bun! hehe. and for some reason, we kept browsing aldo outlets.

i think it's a sign. haha.

 

finally, i got sick of wisma. the downpour had succumbed to rain. (yes still raining)

we had one hour to go before kuga had to get back to work.

thats when i gave up.

screw this, i'm going to walk in the rain. out of here.

 

so we walked out, with no destination in mind.

laughing and playing as we walked. (me shielding myself with a stupid small plastic bag. that of the cranberry bun)

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then halfway still in the rain, kuga wanted ice cream, and i felt the comforting urge for a long black. so i brought him to my usual tcc haunt, and ordered him a double scoop of chocolate ice cream with whipped cream. he was soo cute eating ice cream like that. haha.

 

finally, he had to get back. (it was still raining.) i went back to tanglin too. cos i wanted to get some stuff from my locker.

soo, after kissing him goodbye outside the locker rooms and then parting ways, i took my shoe bag from my locker, and made my way to the gates of tanglin.

 

i was about to cross the gates, when i noticed a familiar shape sitting at the far end of the yard. where people usually hung out during their breaks.

i walked over to investigate and was so damn happy when my beliefs were confirmed. that it was thana!

 

so i talked to him, then ashraf came, talked to him too. then thanaskodi got really jealous about that and actually went one corner to sulk. so cute.

then i left soon after cos someone i didnt want to see came.

 

then, i realized i lost my ipod.

it had been in my front pocket of my jeans the whole day. and i reckon it fell out as kuga and i were walking around town.

with orchard being so crowded on sundays, i knew i would have no chance of finding it even if i tried. i wouldn't even know where to start looking.

so with a sense of retirement, i accepted that fate, and just made my way to the station. was feeling rather useless. sick of losing valuables.

surprisingly though, i didn't really feel damn depressed. i was just exhausted from the occurrence of yet another loss. but i wasn't like sad sad.

 

and then, i realized why.

i had too good of a day to be really sad over this.

and then i realized another thing.

the last time i lost my mp3, i too had a damn nice day. which couldn't allow me to feel a tad sad over the loss. refer to the post on 24th may last year.

 

so i guess, it was a good time to lose a valuable. when i'm happy.

it would have sucked a hell lot more if i lost it on a retarded day in which everything was going wrong.

so i guess, i was marginally lucky.

 

things got a lot lighter in the train on the way home, when thanaskodi called me and started complaining that he didn't like how i kept talking to ashraf. hahaa. that boy. he made me laugh so hard, it was literally impossible to feel anything negative.

 

at home, had dinner with mummy, vicente and delilah.

after delilah had had her bath, we coloured together in her new colouring book. (: funnn

 

then she slept, at like 1 am.

then thanaskodi called, and made me happy some more!

fyi, he had compliments today from customers. really proud of him.

 

he made me happy, and actually said my hair was nice today. very pretty. (:

 

then, i finished up reading One Fifth Avenue. i give it 5/5

 

and now, i'm going to wash my face, and finally sleep.

good night world.

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let me share something with you guys.

something that happened to me today.

something that will probably show you guys the kind of person i am. more specifically, the kind of girlfriend i am.

but more importantly, this event made me realize a lot about kuga. and the kind of boyfriend he is.

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okay so, last night, i didn't talk to kuga after he went back to his house in malaysia.

because apparently, he cleaned his house after arriving home from work, and then was too tired he fell right to sleep.

he did text me though, that he was tired.

then i think he KO-ed.

 

so, louiza's not used to this. cos every night, kuga says good night.

but oh wells, i decided to be reasonable. to not pout, or sulk. i was understanding.

 

you might be thinking, "so why is it a big deal?"

 

reason being, i like to be spoilt like that.

AND ALSO, by some unfortunate coincidence, this wasn't the first time. for the past couple of nights, i had not really gotten regular calls after his work at night because friends have been needing his help with errands and stuff.

and no! i never once felt sulky about that. cos his friends are also my friends. and i'm glad baby's really helpful.

nevertheless, after consecutive nights, the trend of absent communication gets noticed and the pout ability in me gets somewhat triggered.

BUT DESPITE THAT, see! i was understanding. didn't sulk.

instead, i watched movies all night, (chick-flicks) while hugging the big bear he gave me.

 

 

BUT THIS MORNING, his call at 10am woke me up. and while i was still half-asleep, i recalled him talking very sleepily, then suddenly, he just hung up! after saying he has a very bad headache, he'll call me back.

okay, maybe it was because i was sleepy, so my reason wasn't functioning. but at that moment, i began to pout!

yes, his headache might have been really genuine. but i guess, i let the spoilt monster in me take over at that moment.

don't get me wrong, i never ever doubted his love.

it's just the unreasonable brat in me.

 

 

so, at that moment, i started to plot.

plot a plan!

like in my mind were these thoughts. (in no particular order)

why on earth am i waiting for him to call me!

he only calls when he wants to! and i have to wait wait wait wait! (totally not true, but at 10am after only 3 hours of sleep, i was convinced this was the ultimate truth)

he's forgotten me, and i DON'T LIKE THIS!

i dont want to be vulnerable! like the weak one! waiting and waiting and waiting. and being all affected!

CONCLUSION : I AM GOING TO BE STRONG! AND NOT ALLOW THIS WEAKNESS TO ENSUE!

 

 

as u can see, it was all rubbish.

number one, i don't really wait long for him.

number two, even if i have to wait, it's always for a legitimate reason. and he always gets to me as soon as he can.

 

but still, i was already sulking and pouting. so i wanted to RISE UP and be strong and not allow my mood to be determined by whether his calls came or not.

 

so the plan was this.

for the whole day, whenever he calls, i'll say "I'M BUSY! I CAN'T TALK NOW!"

and then say bye.

 

you guys can even refer to my tumblr. cos thats where i updated on the progress of THE PLAN.

 

 

at first, it was very effective.

 

he called one hour later, and i said i was BUSY! and it caught him offguard.

 

but i hated doing it - as i knew i would the moment i started plotting. cos it's painful putting down the phone on my baby.

i always relish every second i get to talk to him on the phone. and now to charge in the opposite direction, was REALLY REALLY sad. ):

 

then he began calling again and again at intervals...

and i said the same thing!

and actually from the first call, he already knew something was up, cos "louiza never says she's busy except if she's bathing. but that one also, u will pick and let me know."

 

so i was glad. the plan was WORKING.

 

and it did for the hours to come. till like 4 plus.

i let my sad emotion waver my determination to be focused on the call routine.

 

i was missing him badly, so i talked more.

then when i realized i was flirting with the ENEMY, i quickly said BYE! and hung up!

 

and vowed to be stronger at the next encounter. (i actually posted about this on tumblr)

 

 

but all this time, baby was such a sweetie and a gentleman. apologizing and already guessing it was about the lack of calls.

 

and i just kept responding this in a whiny , "no, no need to apologize! you don't like to talk to me right?! so never mind! i will relieve you of that burden!" 

 

 

however, the plan finally failed. at 6.45 during his break.

he had gotten hold of me on the phone, and was explaining.

saying that, he really couldn't call, (something i already accepted as true. cos the hours awoke my reason. but i just wanted to see where this plan was going to go. for fun.) that he will improve on calling me, and that it wasn't a burden to contact me... he always tries his best to keep in touch with me.

even at work, he uses the tactics i used to employ to text him.

 

and THIS IS THE FALLEN MOMENT WHEN I LET THE PLAN DIE.

cos, then i excitedly went on and on about how i evaded the system... how i could text him. the tricks i used... where i hid my phone... where I hid to text him..

THEN, he said this. "yeah... i know... it must be so hard for you to lie and put down the phone on me... the whole day... i'm sorry baby."

 

 

and i was speechless.

"what do you mean?" i said, thinking it must be impossible.

then he said, "i know how you always love talking to me... you never say you're busy, you wait up for me to call you, and at work, you do everything to get me... so i know now, you're wanting to show me how you're all merajuk (malay for sulking)... and you're making yourself say you're busy. i know it makes you sad to have to put the phone down."

 

"and i can tell how hard it is."

 

and all i could say was. "omg. how could you have known."

 

cos, that was exactly what i was feeling. and i felt so touched.

here's a guy who, instead of getting annoyed, or just apologizing for his part, he was actually thinking about my real intentions, and my feelings. while i was conspiring to prove a point.

 

and despite knowing all this, he was still humouring me by apologizing.

 

then i pouted and whined, "i don't like this!  you ruined my plan!! " ):

 

and then he said, "haha. baby... baby louiza. you are childish, sweet, and nice. anger is not in you. so next time you want to act, please act more realistically. just now, you let yourself slip. you talked to me. then when you realized you were not in the correct direction, you suddenly said you're busy. soo cute la you."

 

 

"next time, if i know you're doing all this, i will come to your house and talk to you. so you don't need to hang up saying you're busy."

 

:(

 

see how silly i was.

 

i think it's the fact his older. like cheryl and i talked about.

more calm. so i can be the frisky terrier. while, he, the calm Doberman.

 

or maybe it's just me.

sometimes i really underestimate him.

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anyway just for memory's sake.

today i had a lunch at my place so relatives came, and i blackjacked for a couple of hours.

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they always say the best philosophy to living is live life as if it was your last day.

and i always thought, how cliche.

anyway, let me begin by blogging about yesterday. my day ended at 5 am this morning. so naturally i was too tired to blog if i was going to blog lucidly.

as usual, i reported to work at 11 sunday morning. worked with eloisa and muraly. and aunty.

by an unexpected string of events, yesterday turned out to by my last day working there.

and no, whilst working, i had no clue of that.

it was fixated in my mind that the following day - monday - aka today, was going to be my last day.

i had it all planned out.

i would relish everything i did, every detail, soak in every bit of environment. and most importantly, say an appreciative goodbye to EVERYONE i knew. because really, if there's anything i enjoyed very much from that place, was the friendships i've made with everyone.

so, no. because i didn't know that it was my last day, i didnt get to do all that.

and now, leaving that place, i feel like a significant part of me is heavy.

i guess that normal. the nostalgic immediate phase when one leaves an association, school, etc.

but i was lucky.

firstly, pardon the outright manner, i have good memory.

so, i can recall almost everything that happened yesterday. they're still fresh in my mind.

and secondly, most dearly, yesterday for almost 2 hours, i got to work with both thana and kuga.

thats like the dream team. minus selvam. but he also came up for a bit.

well, i couldnt have asked for anything more as a last day that i wasn't even aware of.

it was SUPER fun.

thana and i were fighting fighting as usual.

kuga was being his cute self, entertaining our nonsense.

and operation was so smooth.

i was inside the bar, and kuga outside.

he took orders and ran the items. i did the drinks. thana the food.

and i moved so fast, thana kept making fun of me.

but the 3 of us handled everything.

NO JAM.

and i'm very proud of that.

so i didn't know it was my last day, thana didn't get to make for me a fluffy. (go to mc cafe and order a fluffy. you'll know what i mean.)

BUT, most fortunately, thana made me an AWESOME (as usual) sandwich. and if that's the last food of his i'm going to eat for a long time, then i cant be any happier.

and at 5, i walked off, not taking the trouble to really say bye to everyone. because they were busy handling new orders, and i had no idea i was never going to walk there as barista/waitress ever ever again.

(okay suddenly my breathing's getting heavy and painful)

 

*takes a few deep breaths

 

moving on,

it was later in the evening. 10pm, that muraly called and told me he shifted the roster around. which meant i didnt need to come in for work today. (monday)

and so then it hit me, that i didn't have the last day i wanted.

and i was pretty bummed about that.

but it was even later that night, that my two favourite boys decided to show up!

yup! thana and kuga came down!

and i don't know whether it was cos they knew i was sad, but either ways, i was EXTREMELY happy!

from my place, we walked to the pond. where we had drinks and talked.

and the WHOLE time thana and i were bickering and fighting as usual. sometimes people at work find it hard to believe we're best friends.

and everytime at work when we fight, eloisa will scold us.

haha.

anyways, we had some fries and burger too.

it was really peaceful. we were like the only ones there.

then we took the long route home.

talked along the way....

i really felt extremely happy upon going home. like even though they ended late, they took the trouble to come over.

i entered my house beaming like a crazy person.

and so, the saying goes live life as if it was your last day.

i finally realize how precious that saying is. cliche is but miles away.

and i did tell my boys, that i really felt down that i hadn't known my last day had passed. i didn't get to do the things i wanted. didn't get to say goodbye.

and then baby said, it's never too late to go back and change that.

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at 9am, i was certain that i was going to have a sucky day.

i talked to kuga till like 6 plus. he said so so many nice things. today's our one month. and things had a funny way of happening.

at 9 am i was sad. and unable to call kuga, i called elfy. who was so nice to entertain my emoness despite being in the middle of a jungle. thank you thank you.

and at like 10 plus, baby called!! and really cleared my emoness and muddled thoughts. so by 11, i felt a bit better.

there was hope for the day.

i spent the rest of the morning watching cartoons with delilah and snacking. fyi to you guys, she's feeling much better from the fever she's been having past couple of days.

at this point of the day, i was neutrally content.

but what made me REALLY REALLY happy, was that as soon as he could, kuga called me again. and spoke to me for nearly an hour from malaysia. and made sure i was smiling and cheery before he hung up to have lunch.

he worked at 2.

i'm off today.

i had lunch that parents bought back, whilst surfing the net. things were rather relaxing today. watched a bit of tv too...

i had a productive day. cleaned room... folded my clothes... ironed my uniform... even helped daddy with the laundry.

not a bad day.

dinner was lamb steak.

thennn!!! THANASKODI AND BABY CAME TO MY HOUSE AFTER WORK!!!!

thanaskodi!!!! was so so happy to see him after so so long.

):

then they brought me to mac donalds. at white sands.

we were the only ones in the bus there. and thana and i were squabbling as usual. SUPER FUN! whilst kuga took care of me as usual.

squabbling didnt stop at macs. where kuga had to end up doing the ordering cos the two of us were too busy fighting. haha!

eating also compromised of arguing. i think we miss each other too much already. haha.

and my kuga actually fell asleep while we were arguing.

macs at night is nice. rather tranquil patrons around.

at 1.30am, we decided to leave cos someone was like dying already.

cabbed to my place, thana took the stuffs for the bike. kuga sent me up.

and i got to french kiss my baby after SO long. but pity it was like only a few minutes.

went home, and washed up... talked to parents. and now i'm here.

so,

what irony.

at 9am i thought my day was going to suck.

at 2am, i'm wishing i could play it all over again.

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just had supper.

started at 3.

before that, talked to kuga for two hours.

i feel sad.

thana's leave starts today. ):

won't be seeing him for a week.

won't be talking to him for a week. ):

and i've grown so accustomed to talking to him on the phone almost everyday.

and also conferencing with him and kuga. the funness. the chaos. priceless.

work's stupid these days in the morning. don't really like who i work with in the morning past couple of days. but i'm trying to belt it in.

i think i'm doing fine.

and either ways, when thana comes, then kuga, they never fail to make me feel loads better.

but i guess for the next week to come, i'll only be relying on boyfriend.

which is awesome!

selvam's going on leave too... he taught me how to set the terrace!! (:

boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend. i miss you.

k wait. need to message him.

k done.

now, my number two. thanaskodi.

okay done.

now back to kuga starr.

okay done. now back to blogging.

so yeah, gonna miss the absentees.

and i love kuga. how he trusts me so much...

LJ.

he's MY man.

p.s. feels guilty that cos of me he waited 1 and a half hours at the roadside.

today, went out with vicente and delilah. we seem to do that a lot often.

fun.

and yeah supper.

daddy put out for me as usual. (: even though he was super tired.

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awesome awesome awesome day yet again.

morning worked with eloisa and raja... but then, at 2, thanaskodi came!! and i set the high-tea for him. (:

made him happy. and he called me cleverr. haha. (:

then kuga came!

but i went for break.

hung out at the cafeteria with the handsome manager, indra and the barman. talked and talked about stuff... soccer.. malaysia... roller coasters. hahaa. damn funny.

then, at 4, selvam appeared!!! the member of the dream team that has been so MIA for so long.

so the prior party took their leave, and i was left with selvam. and we talked and talked about cake. haha.

i had break till 6 you see.

then the best part.

thana came at 5!!!

so it was like suddenly so damn fun. hahaa. being with them is awesome. those two. always fighting. much to my amusement.

then, 6 came. i went back to work. set terrace for kuga. i think i did quite a good job. (: all by myself.

but then baby came to help me either ways. even though it was his break. haha.

first time i worked at terrace with kuga as a non-enemy.

yup last i worked with him there, we were still fighting non-stop. and today's work was nice. despite having a retarded headache that maintained itself throughout.

was really hungry... thana really took care of me.

then, after work, thana and i took a cab home. i dropped him at his place...

and at my place, kuga surprised me by turning up! hahaa.

i miss that boy so so so much.

came home at 1.30am... talked to thana till 3! then went to bathe.... and now i'm still awake... dont wanna sleep... ):

but i guess i have to. gotta wake up for college day.

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worked with eloisa and raja today. and sy.

then at 2, thana came...

then kuga...

i scalded my hand with hot water...

had briefing at 3...

then went to tangles to visit thana.

which was awesome.

LJ

oh i cabbed to work today. couldnt wake up.

and last night, had so many conferences with kuga and thana.

damn funny and chaotic. many a time, things were so incomprehensible. cos all three of us were talking - or rather shouting - our own kind of things at the same time.

thana: louiza starr maria alexandra joseph!! louiza starr maria alexandra joseph!!! louiza starr maria alexandra joseph!!!

kuga: can i say something? i want to say something first! i want to say something! can i say something!?!

louiza: can you two keep quiet?!! shhhh!!! wait wait!!! one by one!! hahaha! i dont understand!

now play the manuscript simultaneously.

result: chaos.

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midnight went to costa sands to pass jave and friends some tools to fix their mahjong table.

morning, went to work SUPER EARLY. one hour earlier. to surprise kuga baby.

dream team working. THANA and baby.

SUPER FUN. but today had lots of irritating interruptions. but dont worry. johnny and i are good friends. (;

thana was super nice to me today. (:

after work, baby brought me home.

anndd now i was planning to sleep at 12.

but baby called.

then thana called.

then baby called again.

and for a few minutes, we all conferenced!

then i continued talking to thana. who apparently gets jealous easily too. hahaa.

and then, i said goodbye. and now i'm here to record all the happiness down.

and, today at work i was chef. can u please pass the captain's order!

and now i think i want to watch grey's anatomy.

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trying hard to recall the magic.

Sunday

read a lot of news...

watched a lot of lipstick jungle.

and i vaguely remember the conversation, but i remember i was whining for hours on the phone in the wee hours of the morning to kuga; being petty about something. don't even know what it was. thats how dumb and whiny i was being. haha.

but one thing i definitely remember, was not once did kuga get annoyed. or put down the phone. despite being all tired from work.

and i felt really bad after the call and my sense kicked in. that i kept him from sleep. haha..

so i apologized profusely, and i got scolding for apologizing.

and i got rewarded with a breakfast date. with the dream team. so at 4 plus, i went to sleep contented, anticipating dawn. and regretting the useless long phone call. cos i could have gotten more sleep. instead of acting like a fool.

but it's okay i like. (:

Monday

supposed to leave house at 7. but ended up leaving at 8. cos i couldn't really wake up. no surprise to that.

trained to orchard to meet the dream team before they start work at 11.

yes, i was off.

got there, and found only my boy waiting for me.

apparently the rest died and couldnt wake up. did i mention that the dream team went to bed around the same time? so means they were indirectly kept up by me also. haha!

kuga and i went for breakfast at borders.

and i was happy.

havent spent time with each other since...

hey wait. not that long ago. the last time we were alone was like the previous day he came down with the bear. and we also had breakfast. (hey i didnt realize that!)

never mind, i think i just miss him a lot. that's why seems like ages.

and yeah breakfast was nice! i shall go there again. i ordered this hell of a lot of bread thingy. and made a huge mess eating. haha!

and kuga took care of me... wiping my mouth.. dusting my dress. taking my hair out of my face.

he ordered this omelette thing. and fed me a lot. haha. and yes yes compared table tops. my bread was toasted okay! and the plate was so far away. obviously will have bread crumbs.

okay i was lazy to rearrange the table.

but eventually he also did that for me.

seriously how does he tolerate such a useless person like me? so troublesome.

and this is coming from the guy i used to fight with. the same guy who vowed he hates doing things for girls.

now the most amazing guy i know. after God and daddy.

before my brother.

haha.

anywayyyy, after that, he went to work, i trained to tampines. to visit my girl at TP.

bought her a rose as testimony of my undying love.

and i met her, bf, and a pleasant individual known as shir, and other people who came and went.

they were doing tutorials, and i was stealing vi's stationary (as usual) and drawing. and i was missing kuga, so i wrote him a daily letter then and there. happy to be able to give him something the very next day at work.

and tp coffee sucks.

vi's class started at 2, so i made my way to the library to catch up on the news, and waited for russell.

and headaches ensued.

met, haha. then we went to tampines1.

got a decent coffee (finally)

but i was acting all crazy - sorry for that russell - that was the headache acting.

total 4 cups on this day.

but after that nice coffee, headache was still there (although a little elevated) so i concluded that it's there probably cos i didnt sleep much.

went to bakerzin for dessert. which was awesome. really. i shall go there again as well.

then something happened. to make me ecstatic! despite the shitty headache.

kuga called and asked me to go to work!!!!

i was like WOW okay!

but then i let it slip that i was suffering from a retarded headache. and at that moment regretted. cos then he started saying things like okay then never mind dont come. stay there.

but then louiza whined... and louiza always gets. (:

so, soon after, i made my way home to get my stuffs. russell was nice enough to accompany me home. (:

and i really did enjoy the afternoon of tea. (:

okayy so then! i ironed my uni, (picked out kuga's big shirt) freshened up, and left.

at orchard before walking to the club, i bought for selvam kfc. i heart dream team (;!

then, started work! which was fun! the dream team was around. full attendance. awesome stuff.

night after work wasn't that nice. solely cos i chose to feel ughish.

slept in bus...

house door was locked...

no one could hear me...

hp batt died....

had to walk to 7eleven to use the lan line to call daddy...

then walk back whilst feeling like crap.

so i bought vodka and drank it all the way back.

to numb the dread of having to walk back feeling like crap.

exactly like that time when i had to go work with NONE of the dream team around. NOT EVEN IN SINGAPORE. i intoxicated myself with red wine before work. and yes elfy, stupid thing to do. felt like puking in the train. not nice thing to feel in the morning. 

anywayyyy, i think i slept at nearly 5. talked to jave on the phone telling him why i felt like crap.

made me feel a lot better. well talking to him's always fun regardless.

oh and in my highness, i spammed kuga a lot with text messages. about why i was sad.

rather unreasonable reasons i must admit.

next day.

Tuesday

selvam day! i got to work with selvam!

awesomeness.

oh, i fell down. like after a gazillion years. outside the locker room, some person moped the floor and put too much soap. freaking slippery.

i fell down. on fours. so i wasn't hurt like on my head or something.

BUT, my left wrist was bruised. like blue black.

damn freaking pain.

whole time at work damn hard to work. left hand's my tray carrier.

so i had to work with right. and i vowed to raja that confirm i will drop the tray today. first time in my life.

but hey, whole time i didnt! (:

okay i owe it a lot to the fact that selvam did almost all of the carrying.

and i wanted to work whole day again. cos dream team would be around.

but those dream team people HAD to tell kuga that i fell down and injured my tray carrying wrist.

Dr. Selvam then took some bandage and mummified my wrist.

and then kuga was like no no no dont work again.

but then, i managed to convince MANAGEMENT!

HAH!

so i got to work!!!

:D

from 3 plus to 5, i sat at the cafeteria and wrote kuga his daily letter whilst drinking chicken soup. (: nice.

then at 5, kuga went off for break. so he brought me to far east to eat! (:

damn damn nice.

then brought me back to work... he started at 6, but i still had an hour to go.

went back to cafeteria to read philosophy, but then i really really missed him, so i decided to go work early! HAHA.

we both drew for each other! which is something new cos he doesnt usually draw. (:

work was damn damn fun.

after work, DREAM TEAM and i went out for dinner!! and newton!

damn damn fun.

and thana really took care of me. like i wanted to drink beer but he really didnt allow. i was quite shocked actually.

but really it was DAMN nice!

then kuga brought me home.

we took a long walk at pasir ris, i told him everything, and then, i became his girlfriend at 2.30.

because he's so amazing to me.

and wow, i still cant believe i got through what i've been avoiding. without any wounds.

amazing.

i underestimated him.

the post-lovey dovey conversation went something like this:

(louiza glances at her watch and heaves a conclusive sigh.)

louiza: *sigh... so. 29th april, 2.30am... 29th april.... okay....

kuga: yeah. wolverine come out today.

 

MAJOR -_-'''

DOT DOT DOT.

0.0

 

haha. kuga says the darnest things. thats why i love him. yes dear, i laugh not cos u said something stupid. cos u said something darn adorable.

wednesday

kuga brought me home from work!!!!

thursday

WENT HOME WITH THANA!!!!!

really, i love kuga. and the way he treats me.

and now talking on the phone with him for hours!

 

more darnest things

love is about sacrifice.... i gotta sacrifice some stuff for you... EH NO WAIT. i dont like the word "sacrifice". i want to change. love is about doing what you want... i want to do stuff for you.

 

i have to trust you first. only when i trust you, then you will trust me.

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i had a pleasant surprise today.

lion was waiting for me at pasir ris station in the morning to bring me to work!

and he starts work at 3. -_-.

and i think he was at pasir ris by 9.30. =/

but i was so so happy! cos i've been missing him for ages. (refer to previous posts)

and didnt see him since good friday. ): ):

but today i was happy!

then i worked with thana. who was like pms-ing on me.

but we're still best friends. (:

then, in the afternoon, i visited him at tangles and he was nice enough to show me around.

after the really bullying day we had, it was really nice of him. heee.

lion came to work 1 hour early. (note to self: ask him why so early later)

he made for me scones. (:

and got me evian too.

i went home, only to leave soon after. brought vicente to paya lebar. he wanted to buy some floorball thing.

then we ate a bit, then came home.

really nice day.

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