title: procrastination for personal hygiene
date: Saturday, January 31, 2009
What if you had a baby with the last person you texted?
- hmm... that's interesting. but i don't want to give birth. so he will have to do the honors.
If your ex said they hate you, you say?
- ditto.
Name something you are doing tomorrow?
- interview.
When was the last time you had Starbucks?
- 28th december
What are your favouritecolour(s)?
- brown. white. pink on black.
Are you named after anyone?
- my mom and dad.
What were you to be called if you were a boy?
- hmm... that's interesting. i dont know. but i think that would be what my brother's called? vicente albert joseph. thats espaniol for u.
Anything you want to ask someone?
- hmm... no....
What is on your bed right now?
- pillows bolster blanket tigger
Where were you last night at midnight?
- using the com
What are you excited about?
- sunday's family time.
Do you drink bottled water?
- yes.
Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
- yes
Where is your phone?
- my table
LAST THING:
Movie
- alvin and the chipmunks!! omg! i'm supposed to blog about it.
Phone Call
- daddy
CD Played
- can't remember.
shower:
- 3pm
Time You Cried
- a few weeks back
FOUR,
Have You's:
Dated Someone Twice
- yes
Been Cheated On
- no. i left once i caught the flirting.
Bought condoms
- no. and i dont regret it.
Lost Someone
- yes
THREE Things You Did In The Past Three Days:
Taken drugs
- no
Got Drunk
- No
Eaten Cheese
- yes
So Far in '08:
Laughed Until You cried?
- no
Who Is The Best Hugger You Know?
- deedeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Do You Believe In Love At First Sight?
- i don't know.
Is your bed against more than one of your walls?
- yes
Have you ever been attracted to someone's parent?
- haha yeah.
Do you think you've changed over the past year?
- yes. and i love it. so you should too.
Do you currently have feelings for anybody?
- yes
Would you ever kiss your best friend's boyfriend/girlfriend?
- no.
Would you ever live with anyone on your top friends?
- hahahaa. yeah maybe. if i go NTU. if i'm smart enough that is.
Which do you like better, myspace or facebook?
- facebook
Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours?
- yes. whats with the hugging questions?!?!?!
Who can you blame for your mood today?
- delilah. but its a good thing! haha.
Three days from now will you be in a relationship?
- no...
What is something you wish you had?
- residence in london
Have you kissed any friends on your top friends?
- no... but vi and cher kissed each other without me.
Would you ever become a vegetarian?
-yeah tomorrow.
Who was the last person you hugged?
- deeeeee
What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
- let's not be lazy.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, bulletin
title: that's all it takes
date:
delilah has decided not to sleep early today. so now she's watching strawberry shortcake, and i - who hath given up trying to put her to bed - decided to blog a bit.
the saga hath begun. i had my first dream today.
you know how they always say that before the A level results are released, you will always get dreams blahblahblah. and if you dream this then it means you'll do good or bad or wadever.
yeah all those legends / myths have been passed down for generations.
i never ever believed in that crap. one reason would also be because i try not to think too much about my results. i dont want to scare myself or whatever. cos whatever the case may be, i cant do anything about my papers right now - whether i think about them or not.
so there's no point. what's done's done.
i'm going to take things just like how i took things whilst awaiting my O level results. that is - in crude terms - not giving a crap.
yes. i don't really approve of how i went through my O levels - not studying at all. i REALLY didnt give a crap. this time for my As, i can safely say i actually studied throughout the year.
nevertheless, i am not going to give a crap from now till the fateful results day.
anyway, it's weird cos despite not giving a crap, i had my first dream today. (i think i had a dream waiting for Os too...)
anyway. in this dream, I FAILED.
yes. my history was actually a U.
and i actually felt scared in my dream.
wow....
but when i woke up, the words in my mind was literally, ah fuck it.
so i can safely say i'm back to not giving a crap.
okay at this point, i'm not liking this post. i notice i'm being vulgar and rude. and i think it's cos i'm thinking like me in my O level times. when i was retarded.
okay. breathe breathe.
back to louiza.
here's something i'd like to blog about.
that i actually feel sad for them. that couple i know that broke up.
because, i totally know what it feels like. i've gone through that phase before. and it's just really really a not nice phase to go through. and now that they are each going through it, i really really feel sad. cos i dont want anyone to ever feel that way. i dont think humans should ever suffer from the immense heartbreaks that come after a relationship ends. it's too painful.
so yeah. i feel sad.
i know what they're going through, it's like as if i broke up. ):
okay seriously, i dont ever ever ever want to break up.
okay i'm quite done with blogging. (:
love,louiza.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, dreamdiary, the boy
title: remembering the dead
date: Friday, January 30, 2009
i really miss and love that person in you that went as fast as he came.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, jujubee, memory, Newport, the boy
title: heirs of hitler, beware?
date: Thursday, January 29, 2009
super lame. al Qaeda threatening germany. haha. germany? so random.
Labels: news
title: freeze
date:
What was your dream about last night?
i dont think i dreamt of anything
When someone says "we need to talk", what runs through your mind?
is this worth my time?
Do you need to say anything to someone?
no
Who is the last guy that called you?
daddy
Something you wish for?
for people to think logically
What was the last thing you cried about?
quarrel with parents
What was the first thing you did this morning?
i wasnt awake
Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?
yes
Are you better at math or english?
i like to be on par in both areas
Are you friends with someone who's older than you?
yes
Does it bother you when you text somebody and they take forever to text back?
no
In the past week have you felt stupid?
no
Are you allowed to stay up later than ten o'clock on a weeknight?
yes
Were you happy when you woke up today?
yes
Do you know the words to the song/songs on your Friendster profile?
i dont have a song on it
The person you have feelings for shows up at your house, what do you?
feel happy
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
i always have a reason to smile
Could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
i could.
Where were you at 9am this morning?
sleeping
Do you fall for people easily?
no
Everything happens for a reason?
yes
1)Status of you and the last person you sent a text to.
business advocates
2)Do you have any plans for saturday?
yes
3)When was the last time you got flowers?
23rd december
4)Has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
yeah
10)What is your opinion about your friends?
great awesome interesting people
11)What do you like about yourself?
everything
13)Do you think someone is talking behind your back?
yeah
16)Do you remember your first crush's name?
hmm... yeah i think so.
17)What are you?
a human
18)Did you kiss anyone today?
no
19)Are you a mean person?
no
20)Are you excited for anything?
no
21)Have you let someone down last week?
yes
22)Are you close with your siblings?
yes
23)Do you get along with your parents?
yes
24)Are you in a good mood right now?
yes
25) Who was the last person you spoke for an hour?
rudy.
26) Do you like to make the first move?
no.
27) Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
yes, but i'll politely tolerate
28)Whats something you really want right now, be honest:
for people to think logically
29)How long you've ever talked on the phone?
18 hours
30)Has anyone ever sang to you?
yes
31)Do you get emotional easily?
yes. but i've learnt to set emotions aside very well where i don't want to get emotional
32)Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
yes
33)Is there a person of the opposite sex who means alot to you?
yes
34)Has someone ever made a promise to you and broken it?
yes
35)Do you want someone back in your life?
no
36) Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
` mine
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, bulletin
title: vows
date:
i'm never ever going to break up.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, the boy
title: and they lived never ever after.
date:
omg, they broke up.
title: clive bell's allegory
date: Wednesday, January 28, 2009
jump out of bed and come have breakfast with me
matters not what you're wearing and i pray same goes for me.
our hair tousled by the night of no sleep, won't you oh won't you
jump out of bed and come have breakfast with me
we'll wear the first crazy garments we find
and race out our doors cos we want to beat time
now, it's still dark not for long, but no lets not believe so.
won't you oh won't you
jump out of bed and come have breakfast with me
we'll see each other and grin like kids do
on adventures of make believe
come on, lets go.
eat something, somewhere, and watch day unfold
the people, the rush, while we sit - they don't know
won't you please won't you
jump out of bed, and let's go.
we'll get giddy as the exhaustion creep in
and when the sun's up we'll finally part off to our beds
but for now, oh how i'd love to go
jump out of bed and come have breakfast as we.
ok i'm giddy.
let's order macs.
i'm giddy for real.
Labels: grey's anatomy, JKR, Knights Ridge, Newport, teenagers, the boy, wordsmagicallyspun
title: the cheryl
date:
suddenly i want cheryl.
Labels: cher
title: boyfriend things
date:
but i admit i kinda miss doing boyfriend things.
but it's HELL NOT worth the pain.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, the boy
title: The Only Chinese in the Family
date: Tuesday, January 27, 2009
just watched mediacorp's movie - A Kucinta Family Reunion.
okay, better than i would have expected. i give it like a 7/10. it was rather cliche but the very last second of the movie saved it all. when the girl finally gets her memory back. that was very unexpected. for me, that was the save.
anyway, here's something to think about.
i've known this couple, for almost a year now. i've seen their relationship develop, from the time they got together etc. relationships arent exactly my kinda thing but i was actually kinda rooting for them. they seem so cute together and everything. families both love each other, they just seemed really grounded.
and now, apparently there's some trouble. the kind of trouble that really shakes a relationship. not the periodical tides that come and go. this one's like major. and everything seems so unstable.
and i can really relate to that. i've been through that kind of phase many times before. where everything's so unstable and so undecided. and it's so scary, frustrating and heartbreaking for at least one party. it just sucks.
and then, everything gets thrown away.
i hate it how relationships have a tendency to turn out like that.
who needs a heart when a heart can be broken?i'm so glad i'm not in that position. i would never want to be. its so tiresome.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, blood ties, LA, through lens
title: chocolate buffet
date:
the oversized PE shirt i bought in sec 4 because i didnt bother bring my PE attire for PE that day. but then i had to buy cos apparently NAFA was that afternoon. and i didn't even know. anyway i didnt have a choice. so i bought.
see it's blue house? well actually i belong to the red house. but i decided to buy blue so cheryl and i could be in the same PE section. yup, she's from the blue house for real.
the deliberate mix up was fun and worth every weird stare i got from the delinquent haters.
now it's just a pyjama.
convinced me to please you. make me think that i need this too. Labels: boys, cher, through lens
title: simple wonders
date:
i love the first few moments after watching a great movie. the impact of the closure of such a work just leaves me breathless and spaced out in thought. and for that period of time, all i want to do is stone and be quiet. relishing the power of such an aftermath.
wow.
i just watched danny the dog. it is AWESOME. like 5/5. not really a great fan of action movies but this one had a totally other dimension of meaning aside from the fighting - which was awesome too.
and i'm officially a fan of jet li. his acting in that movie was colourful and super skilful. like he had to change from one personality to another in matters of seconds.
and his eyes in that movie. said a lot about emotion and the position he was in, even though there was no lines for him to say in those parts.
like tarnished innocence.
cute.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, LA
title: slack on economy
date:
damn. i missed the budget. totally forgot about it. and one of my resolutions was to keep updated with current affairs. especially law, politics and business. and i missed the budget.
i have to stop slacking.
needs to sharpen mind.
Labels: the aftermath, this chapter is called...
title: Lunarism
date: Monday, January 26, 2009
had my favourite kind of stay home family day again.
lots of kfc. and now i think my stomach's aching from all the oil.
but me likey!
took things slow today... resting and stuff. but i feel bad for cutting out on elfy. sorry.
my dream
in the lift with family. and he and his friend were there too. (not with us of course)
then they got off.
the lift was blue.
then our floor came. we exited and arrived at aunty vicky's house. like the lift is right in her living room. how cool is that.
cyn and tim were there... aaron too.
dining table. eating some nice biscuits.
then papadi gave us his cookies and cake that's apparently very nice and why aaron was there.
house was quite dark, with a few soft lights.
then suddenly we were all examining the stuff we owned. statues and stone and all.
i love my family. all the relatives.
and i realized the guys in my family are hot.
i like today.
Labels: blood ties, dreamdiary, elfie, eyecandy, fallacy, God, Knights Ridge, silver
title: we shall not be moved
date:
steadfast, i'm just not shifting.
until what can move me shows up.
till then, i'm feeling more than awesome where i'm at.
what can move me, isn't another you.
because you let yourself die in my eyes.
what can move me, is better than you,
because it is unwavering and eternal.
but notice,
what differs you from the superior,
is the life that you did not possess.
only that life.
ironically, it is that only life that parts tragedy and story.
what can move me, is better than you,
sadly, all you did for me was amazing.
more sadly, i'm not settling for less than that amazing - even if it possesses life.
no,
i need amazing and life.
and it could have never been you.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, fallacy, inspiration, teenagers, the boy, wordsmagicallyspun
title: helping words/phrases
date:
grey
cool
imagination movers
baked hashbrowns
giving delilah
rudy
quiet
light snow
long walks across bridges
amusing
"omg! thats so cute!"
eating desires
anti-italian
jokes
tall-and-tiny
kurt
dangling feet over docks
bridges and cars
sir stamford raffles
clocks and london
water
bus talk
we're slow dancing in a burning room.
Labels: blood ties, Dirty $exy Money, Newport, silver
title: comfortable how everyone knows everyone.
date: Sunday, January 25, 2009
i am very content right now. yes, at the moment, at 1.30am. i am in this mood of perfection that's just beyond inchoate. it's just clear. crystal. and it's nice.
i am embracing wellness and recovery. i love having recovered. love feeling normal and better. not labored with unease and discomfort.
this was not the atypical under-the-weather phase and getting past this really sets a significant amount of positivity onto my conscious self. while it lasts, i will appreciate it.
having not blogged for such a long time, i am now in the mood to really write. (:
so today, i decided to spend the afternoon at home. which was really lovely, with the nice winds and everything. did some house-keeping etcetera etcetera.... then at 5 plus, i decided to accompany daddy to church.
so del dad and i went.
remember my boyish mood from afternoon? well i was really too lazy and weak to dress up anyways so i just went all levi's today. i have this favourite pair of levi's jeans. it's my favourite out of my levi's collection. i love it so much cuz it's what i call my flat-ass jeans. it's so straight-cut so it was so boy! but cos it's a girl pair of jeans, so its girly too. like thin. i love it~
then after church we walked over to tm to buy some stuff... super crowded. cny i suppose.
and we had ice cream from swensons! see, i SO love it that my appetite's back. seriously! i can want to eat again! i ate lays today, and all sorts of snacks and then the ice cream! and i'm only getting started.
went home soon after, but what really made my evening perfect, was the movie i watched at like 11 plus after dinner and everything. No Reservations. and i give it 10/10!
it is,
perfect.
That's all.
okay, and now i'm kinda in the mood to sleep a bit earlier tonight.
good night. (:
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, blood ties, daddy, fallacy, God, inspiration, Knights Ridge, LA, this chapter is called...
title: a fresh start
date: Saturday, January 24, 2009
i promised myself, i wouldnt write a proper post until i revamped my blog. it was necessary. for the unenlightened, i have been gravely ill for the past week. since friday. all thanks to that rubbish i cooked. i dont want to really mention it, cos then i'll think of it and i will start to feel nauseous.
yeah. any mention of it, any fragment of memoir that can get me to think of the disaster, i will start to feel like vomiting. so we will just refer to it as it-that-shall-not-be-named. yeah. its that evil. i think even more evil than voldemort. voldemort's hot. it-that-shall-not-be-named is repulsive.
i have been really weak and sick internally. home, no energy to even move around the house. so i have been mostly in bed, trying to sleep with difficulty cos inside, i was feeling really really uncomfortable.
so since my last post had a BIG picture of it-that-shall-not-be-named, i got it removed. obviously i didnt do it, cos i didnt want to look at it. so rudy graciously did the task for me. gracias.
and my blog reminds me of it since i posted a DAMN long post about it, so i decided to flush everything out by also changing the skin.
so i'm going simple this time. i'm feeling boyish.
boyish.
okay so today is my official day of getting well. can you imagine? like since effing friday.
i'm now sitting on my bed by the window... enjoying the super strong wind. so all's good.
i feel like stepping out into the world today. but i dont know if i'll have enough energy to sustain. and also i'm feeling pleasantly lazy.
and i cant wait to migrate.
i'm gonna sit here for a bit.
and thanks everyone for the well wishes while i was dying. especially those that diligently texted me everyday to find out my progress. i really appreciate it. (:
Labels: this chapter is called...
title: sick
date:
dream.
family, (big family), we were all in rome.
i was driving this really small rome car.
we all were walking to a ferry terminal on my directions. but i dont know if we got lost.
then.
in a cathedral-like place with a bunch of people.
cheryl was there.
a girl came on to me and tried to kiss me. started like to french kiss me and i totally freaked out. but i felt quite bad cos she was sad and i hurt her feelings.
then.
back home i think. i was on the com. suddenly, you came online. and then i could feel myself awakening, but i willed myself to stay asleep longer so i could continue to chat with you.
thats weird.
p.s. i'm still sick.
p.p.s. i'm not available for valentines day.
Labels: blood ties, cher, dreamdiary, fallacy
title: the ryan
date: Friday, January 16, 2009
of all the days to be offline. tonight.
ya where's ryan when i need him?
i need to get his number soon.
if i cook tomorrow and if it sucks, i partially blame him.
Labels: blood ties, the aftermath
title: Muses by the Moonlight
date: Thursday, January 15, 2009
trying day for everyone at home.
i just hope i dont get any more frustrated.
i think the educated think differently. then there's the conflict between reason and pure convention. (thinks of msquek)
i admire those that independently go forward with reason despite facing opposition from the close conventional. a part of me wants to be like that. by yourself, and along with the sensible support of fellow intelligentsia, you know you're right. but a bigger part does not want to be that way, even though refusing only welcomes great frustration.
and what's holding me from escaping into reason is the fear of exclusion from something i hold dearest. the ties that bind, that are more valuable than any certainty and calm that reason will offer my mind.
i dont think i can be that cold to ignore the clutching ties.
but i still admire. cos when frustration heightens, that seems like the most superior solution. but the most independent.
hence i admire dumbledore and msquek.
caught in between two schools, two ideologies, i am constantly trying to reconcile the two vastly different realms.
in detail, that mainly consists of me struggling to enlighten the conventional to reason. but convention by nature is hard to persuade. and hence, it is emotionally frustrating for me.
many a time, i just want to conclude that they don't see like i do. anyway, the mechanism of logic fully convinces me i'm not wrong. but it's more complicated than that, cos firstly, there's emotions involved. people get hurt. and yes, i may think better. but, i will never want to live without convention. because, convention is loyal.
and i treasure them. that is why i don't give up. the persuasion, i do cos it's in my nature to be rational. i cannot live in ignorance of logic. i dont see why anyone should. i crave that the people i care about understand like i do.
i crave to be understood.
should convention change? i want to say yes. but then, logic unexpectedly stops my conscious as well. why.. cos, maybe i'm not wise. i've learnt that wisdom is not logic. and, maybe convention is wiser. and maybe thats what counts?
i hope to be wise one day. i guess that comes with time. when i acquire that, i'll have both logic and wisdom. i wonder if they're compatible. instinct tells me no. but then again, something can be "logically wise"....
till then, i am who i am. learning where i walk. reason may be the path i'm taking right now. but i'm not going to lose anything valuable to it. even if that means i go through frustration.
okay. those are my thoughts. and now i think of vivian. about how "every visit to louiza's blog is to figure out what she's trying to say today".
i just had to get all of that out.
guess now i'll just go do something to make myself feel a bit better.
oh and, on a lighter note, i'm pretty touched by the number of concerned responses i got to my msn personal message yesterday - "you really broke my heart,"
just to be clear, no one broke my heart. (:
at least not recently that is.
that phrase is from Coldplay's The Hardest Part and it really hit me yesterday cos it's actually quite meaningful and relevant to my thoughts of late.
like how i'm all relationship phobia cos of him. and then i went to his school yesterday. and how, yet he treated me best.
amazing how someone's prints can last even after they're long gone from meaning.
then that song came into my head and it just amazed me how relevant it was to my mind.
nothing more.
so yes, sorry for worrying everyone. i'm totally fine.
but future bf, BEWARE.
many people will smash you if you break my <3
no pressure. haha.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, blood ties, daddy, fallacy, hogwarts, JKR, jujubee, memory, muse, the boy, vivian
title: the personal message.
date: Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Benjamin Misses You! =( says:
Who broke your heart? I'll break his face.
laughs out loud. people, relax. i'm not heartbroken.
Labels: boys
title: the hardest part
date:
I iDay
today, is iDay.
i own iGang.
vi is iLeader.
other iProducts that i can recall....
iEmerge
iStalk (a big hit)
iBag
II iStpats
st patrick's is officially my favourite school, even if i dont get to teach there.
it's just amazing. historically, and boyishly.
it's a fun school, and thanks again russell for the tour i never had.
III iBoy
finding another you.
you really broke my heart.
but, it was the best i ever had. and for that, the bar is higher than everr. and i feel stupid. i feel bad. i make others feel bad. i dont quite like it, but neither do i wna settle for anything less.
i'm relationshiply traumatized. cos of u.
but u were so good to me.
so i'm thinking, since it sucked in the end, it's definitely not the best out there. so there's definitely better than that.
better than u.
but u treated me so nice. without asking. and now i feel like a demanding freak. asking. for the first time in my life. actually asking.
ah wells. whats the hurry....
and fights... i dont like them.
i dont think i'm budging... till someone daringly paints me the portrait of perfection.
i am iConfused.
(WTF I JUST RECEIVED AN EMAIL FROM APPLE. -_-...)
i want to talk to iRudy for awhile.
oh and, Rudy makes me confused. he's like the first person to seriously provoke me in that area that i havent thought of for more than a year.
and i am iScared.
i will iShutup now.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, boys, eyecandy, fallacy, grey's anatomy, jujubee, memory, the boy, vivian
title: the spoiltness.
date: Monday, January 12, 2009
sleepy. but i'll write this lest it escapes my mind.
not like anything does actually, but nevertheless i dont want the clarity of the situation to be blurred by sleep.
i realize, i mean i know, that i am easily jealous in that spoilt attention-seeking way. and now, i think i'm just going to clarify the matter with words. was wondering if i should even post here, since this is all primarily for my own coercion of self-realization. but i reckoned that why not at the same time maybe people can get to know a part of me.
the following is VERY familiar with people like Martin and Elfy. whose knowledge of my complex personality is just outstanding. i wont say i'm proud of this trait, but i cant really say i want to change it either. cos this is the only way i know how to be since young. so i cant say i prefer other options really.
i am spoilt. like seriously. attention-seeking wise. whoever i'm attached to, CANNOT for a second say that "hey! that girl's quite hot." or etc. or anything.
i just dont like to share attention. even for that one second.
yes i know no cheating may ensue, that it wont mean a thing. but to my brain, it means something cos i get jealous. then i start to whine and get pouty. and sad.
from his observation and all my bitching to him throughout the year, elfy calls it merajuk. and that i'm the sort that needs manja. [thats the melayu way of putting it]
i dont know why i'm like that. i guess growing up, i just had everything. no compensation or short-losses. so even though now i dont expect to be pampered with material (on the contrary i hate that), i guess it has translated to psychological and emotional pampering.
and i admit, THIS is a bad thing about being in a relationship with me.
oh but hey! being into fashion and trends and hair and natural bone structure, i do like to stare at hot/cute people. (martin would know) and then i'll go "hey that girl's pretty!" THEN only my guy's opinion can come in. only after i said it first.
oh and this is the unfair bit. i look at guys. and when i was with martin, i'll even tell him and like point out. my eyecandies they were called. to the point he's so experienced, he can even point out to me the guy i like. when i get all laughy all of a sudden, he'll realise and go *sighs... 'which one now??" that one right!"
then he'll be all "eee why u like sia.. i'm so much hotter. look at his face.. his ... " blahblah. which would make me smile and stuff.
okay i'm not intending to go down some memory lane.... but the point here is, i guess thats how retarded i can get. i like being spoilt that way.
i guess thats the too demanding part maybe?
i may be able to give where i can... but i just CANT share compliments. haha. (:
p.s. dont wonder how i got to thinking about all this. (: it's interesting.
am i letting known too much for my own demise?
Labels: ALEXANDER VII
title: bubbles
date:
Labels: blood ties, through lens
title: 5 minutes more
date: Saturday, January 10, 2009
You have to get a piercing, what do you get?
i have to? well then, i guess another for my ears. another on the right.
You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
left wrist, small star. actually considering that for a long time.
What are you wearing?
pjs
Do you miss anyone?
not really.
Plans for tomorrow?
church
Is anything wrong?
no
Do you have a good relationship with your parent (s)?
yes
What were you doing this morning at 5:30?
texting cher n vi
What were you doing 2 hours ago?
watching bunnytown
Do you like the ocean?
yes. i do. but rudy doesnt.
Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
depends on who
How many windows are open on your computer?
one.
Who was the first person you talked to today male or female?
male
What woke you up this morning?
nothing
Do you know anyone named Matt?
yup
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
yes
Have you ever in any way, been betrayed by someone you trust?
yes, which is why my trust in people is now limited.
How late did you stay up last night and why?
5.45 am. talking to RUDY.
Are you picky about who you give your number to?
yes
What do you prefer:
McDonalds or Burger King?
macs
Would you rather go to Greece or Hawaii?
greece
The person you have feelings for shows up at your house right now, what do you do?
grin and say hi? haha.
What was your dream about last night?
i dont think i dreamt
Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
yeah, i wouldnt have gotten into a relationship with u. (u is not martin)
Where were you at 9am this morning?
sleeping
Do you fall for people easily?
no.
Everything happens for a reason?
yes
Are you too forgiving?
yes haha.
What was the last song you listened to?
i dont know.
What are you stressed out about?
nothing.
In the past week have you smiled?
yes
Do you believe ex's can be friends?
i guess so...
What is more important, happiness or trust?
happiness.
How many kids do you wanna have?
1... maybe 2 if i feel like going through immense pain again.
Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2008?
no.
Do you think two people can last forever?
yes.
Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
hahaha
Do you care what people think about you?
no
If you could move out of the house right now, would you?
i dont think so. depends on where i got to go. but then again, i love my family too much.
Has someone put their arm around you in the past five days?
yeah
Is there anything pink within 5 feet of you?
yes
When did you laughed so hard you cried?
cant remember
You're trapped in a room for 3 days with your worst enemy, what do you do?
escape in my mind
How's your heart lately?
beating
Do you consider yourself creative?
yes.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, bulletin
title: my secret
date:
Dear Rudy,
You are a SECRET!!! hahah
thats Why I say it out loud here. (:
okay have fun like u always do.
title: The Christmas Album
date:
finally done with the editing of the Christmas Amateur Pictures.
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=81326&l=0902a&id=535818199
enjoy~
and now i'm off to bed as i'm meeting cheryl at 5 plus am.
Labels: chrismukkah, through lens
title: lunch
date: Friday, January 09, 2009
going to buy lunch soon again. its like being routine these days since daddy works morning and cant cook.
ah wells its quite fun.
so i'm waiting for mummy to give me orders n money...
just slacking around online for a bit...
OH! i'm on the verge of converting to facebook completely. on the verge cos i'm not sure yet whether i totally want to dump friendster.
but friendster's really being a pain in the ass with its photo limitations.
and the downside is, my facebook's personal. so like am i supposed to like add people? i've been ignoring requests for ages.
i just decided to consider a few, so i just went down the line and accepted some / rejected more.
and also, if i convert totally to facebook, i would want to clear all my stupid applications that MARTIN and i so enthusiastically signed up for last last year. so freaking many.
i dont know! ugh! STUPID SHIT FRIENDSTER.
seriously i've always felt that friendster is so damn convenient and straight-forward, juxtaposed to facebook. but the picture thing is totally getting on my nerves.
title: love?
date:
Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
* yes
Are you in a good mood right now?
* yes
The phone rings what do you say?
* hey
Whats wrong with you right now?
* why dont you tell me?
Are you mean?
* no, i'm not. (:
Who was your last text message from?
* russell
Where were you at 2:02 pm?
* i think buying food.
Are you excited about anything?
*see cheryl darling.
Do you enjoy life?
* yes
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
* of course..
Do you hate the last boy/girl you were talking to?
* haha, no of course not. after all he's sexy.
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
* daddy.
Who was on your mind mostly today?
* You, as i wondered if i was doing the right thing.
How many kids do you want to have?
* 1? haha. maybe 2.
Are you afraid to grow up?
*no
Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
* yes
What were you doing at midnight last night?
* walking with rudy.
Are any of your friends taller than you?
* no, i'm tallest. haha who am i kidding.
Do you flip your pillow to the cold side?
* no
Do you want a small or big wedding?
* BIG
Would you rather help someone out or be helped out?
* help someone
If you found out you couldn't have kids, would you adopt?
* i dont mind adopting even if i can have kids.
What woke you up this morning?
* mummy
Where are you?
* on my bed
What is on your mind RIGHT NOW?
* the answers
Where would you like to live?
* america
Do you like necklaces?
* yup
What was the last thing you drank?
* water
Have you ever taken karate lessons?
* no, but i took taekwondo, and i'm a blackbelt
Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
* i'd like to think so.
Song you are listening to now?
* Britney - Break the Ice
Do you think you would make a good parent?
yes
FACT: About the person you love?
she's cute
WHAT: Happened at 9:00 am today?
waking
ARE YOU: Wearing something you borrowed from someone?
no
WHAT: Is the last thing someone bought you?
a cheeseburger. haha.
WHAT'S: Your current problem?
no probs (:
SOMETHING: You say when you are mad?
bloody hell.
DO YOU: Delete people off Friendster?
no
DO YOU: Crack your knuckles?
yes
DID YOU: Cry at all today?
no
ARE YOU: Ticklish?
no
WHO WAS: The last person you talked to last night before bed?
Ruddddddyyyyyyyyyyy.
DO YOU KNOW: Anyone with the same name as you?
thank God no
WHEN WAS: The last time you really laughed?
12am
LAST: Movie watched?
License to Wed
WHO: Was the last person you talked to on the phone?
daddy
ARE YOU: Afraid of the dark?
no
WHAT: Do you always take with you?
i dont know...
HAS: Anyone put their arm around you in the past 5 days?
yes
IN THE PAST WEEK HAVE YOU: Felt sad?
yes.
WHAT IF: The last person you kissed, saw you kissing someone else?
that will be funny.
WHERE: Were you at 9:00 pm last night?
walking with daddy
WILL YOU: Be up before 7am tomorrow?
no.
WHO: Did you last piss off?
my dad? haha
ARE YOU: Happy with your life at the moment?
yeah
WHAT: Are you listening to now?
Britney - Piece of Me
DID YOU: Go outside for more than 30 minutes today?
HA HA. make that 2.5 hours. but i loved every minute.
DID YOU: See the person you like today?
yes.
ANYONE: You would like to get things straight with?
yes. You.
DID YOU: Wake up in the middle of the night last night?
no
WHAT: Did you do today?
Live.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, bulletin
title: gonna buy lunch
date: Tuesday, January 06, 2009
i'm going to buy lunch soon.... waiting for mom to tell me wad to buy....
anywayy, i uploaded pictures. on facebook. i wanted to upload on friendster but stupid friendster's not allowing 2mb and above.
ugh seriously!! damn damn irritating. i feel like just switching to facebook altogether.
title: I walk the line.
date:
I keep a close watch on this heart of mine
I keep my eyes wide open all the time
I keep the ends out for the tie that binds
Because you're mine, I walk the line
I find it very, very easy to be true
I find myself alone when each day is through
Yes, I'll admit that I'm a fool for you
Because you're mine, I walk the line
As sure as night is dark and day is light
I keep you on my mind both day and night
And happiness I've known proves that it's right
Because you're mine, I walk the line
You've got a way to keep me on your side
You give me cause for love that I can't hide
For you I know I'd even try to turn the tide
Because you're mine, I walk the line
I keep a close watch on this heart of mine
I keep my eyes wide open all the time
I keep the ends out for the tie that binds
Because you're mine, I walk the line
Really. because you're mine, I walk the line.
Labels: ALEXANDER VII, blood ties
title: the best damn pictures
date: Monday, January 05, 2009
Hey! long time since i blogged. just checking in for awhile.
Thanks everyone for your very positive feedback, opinions and understanding regarding the december 31st post. i really really appreciate it.
i'm going through pictures now, that i've taken during the christmas period, but havent really had the time to consider any uploads...
checking friendster.... and my facebook seems to have been neglected again. the thousands of appli and friend requests are so tiresome. makes me just shun from the whole affair.
i think friendster's best. facebook's just nice for photos.
maybe i'll handle facebook later if im not too lazy.
so yup. stay tuned, and i hope your year's working out great.
(;
p.s. louiza's changed.
p.p.s. louiza misses vi and cher.
title: the first page
date: Friday, January 02, 2009
2 hours after the first day.
daddy made a pie-like thing. haha.
thats all i need.
Labels: blood ties, daddy, this chapter is called...
title: F4
date: Thursday, January 01, 2009
"za, please just follow me. i'll buy you whatever you want later."
"ugh, alright. quick, i havent got time for all this," i replied my brother as i reluctantly shut the screen of my laptop, pulling myself out of thoughts.
moments ago i was staring at emails, contemplating on whether i should even consider giving tuition to two people that were totally far away from me. in toa payoh, and jurong west.
grudgingly as mind fought laziness, i pushed myself off my bed where i was lying, grabbed my hp and made to follow vicente. but as i was about to exit my bedroom, i did a double take; having a sudden change of mind. deftly, i slid my IC out of my wallet and slipped it in my pocket. maybe i'll get vicente to pay for a vodka.
after reassuring mom's grumbles of changing vicente's hair "back to normal", vicente and i set off on our walk.
it was a bleak day - though i liked it. rain was pouring without hesitation and it was only seconds before i found myself walking in damp Charles&Keith slippers. having sacrificed my rubber reebok slippers to vicente, i was left in the aid of non-waterproof material that cloth had to offer.
but it didnt matter. umbrella in hand, we walked on; my feet automatically taking the route it knew too well. lazy as i am, i didn't allow my mind to register the walk. instead, i was lost in my mind. just blanking out and allowing my feet to subconsciously drag me there.
before i knew it, i was feet away from the L'OREAL studio. though i was still fazed out, i could feel strings of dread slowly creeping into my awareness.
"damnit vicent... what the hell am i to do while you do your hair....", i muttered. the multi-tasker in me instinctively made my eyes scourge the area for a newstand where i could buy a paper.
but before he could reply, we both stopped abruptly in our stride.
a weird sight stood before us. a queer one, that awoke me from whatever listlessness i was still dwelling in.
firstly, it has to be understood that my family and i are something like regulars in this saloon. and especially of late, with me going pink and vicente going down under, we had become considerably familiar with the group of ah lians and an elderly woman that ran the saloon. they were always there, and they knew us, and they did our hair, and talked in that cheenafied slang of theirs, recommending styles to us.
but today, it was different.
at the entrance where the woman and her posse usually stood, was a different group of people.
four guys. and the moment i saw them, the first thing that ran through my mind was the many Taiwanese/Korean/Japanese or wadever stars that my classmates in school always lavished about.
i can swear that they look like a cut out from a Taiwanese magazine thats brought to real life.
they were dressed that way. their hair was that way. and they were certainly of that age too.
i could feel the confusion diffusing from my brother beside me. obviously he was stunned too.
but obviously i wasn't going to show that i was suffering from sudden mental confusion. so i strode into the holding, followed closely by my brother.
"ohkayy vicente, tell them what you want," i managed; beginning with a short sigh. to my pleasure and relief, i sounded composed.
my brother unfortunately could not mask his uncertainty.
"um.. umm.... ah..... "
eventually he managed, and i walked deeper into the saloon; now following my brother who was being led by one of them.
as vicente sat down at a station, one of the guys said to me, "you can have a seat here". he motioned to a chair next to my brother.
"ah, its okay i'll just sit back here". i chose the seat nearest to me, that happened to be next to the counter.
the guy started to work on my brother's hair and as i settled in, i started to take register of my new-found surrounding company.
the guy working on vicente's hair had vivid blonde hair; the other three had black. nevertheless, they all sported the same kind of taiwanese hair. the thick, all-over-the-place-but-standing-at-some-parts kind.
again i repeated in my mind. they look like the cover of some taiwanese magazine...
any chinese-boyband-loving-chick would definitely find them cute.
me on the other hand, only one seemed to get a flicker of my attention. cos of one louiza-weakness that he had. the fierce ahbeng probably exgangster look.
tall, sharp angles, sharp looks. i'll say that to me, he's probably most noticeable. though like i said, i'm sure other girls will die for everyone of them.
even their clothes were taiwanese-star kind. overdressed much? i thought...
then i felt the contrast. cos there i was sitting in the clothes i jumped out of bed with.
a shabby oversized tpjc orientation shirt, and a pair of sleeping shorts. in my loathe of walking to follow vicente, i had not bothered to look nice.
ah wells nothing i can do about it now, i thought to myself.
then i realized that i wasnt the only one doing a visual examination. i realized that for the past one and a half minutes that i was sitting there, they were conversing in chinese with suspicious tones.
then one of them (not the gangster) broke the silence between me and them.
"you are.... what race?"
"oh eurasian...", i answered reluctantly. the perfectionist in my mind was thinking if i look like shit, i dont want to talk to you guys. this is not how i want to look like....
"mix ah?"
"err yeah."
i stopped there and silence followed. i told you i didnt want to talk if i look like shit.
but they were determined. and they kept asking questions... like my ancestry... how old i was....
and i just kept giving one word answers. cos i really had no mood to converse..
everytime i answered a question, they would have a mini discussion in chinese then one of them will strike another question to me again. but all the while, the gangster didnt ask me anything directly.
i was really starting to feel bored with the situation. they looked like a nice bunch of guys to talk to, but i just didnt feel like it...
then the gangster asked me, "you're not schooling anymore?"
and i said, "no...".
then seconds later, "oh why you dont want go poly or ite ah?"
i felt my eyebrows raise just a fraction.
then i said, "oh no, i just finished my A levels, now i'm waiting for the results..."
apparently his companions were confused. i heard them mutter to each other, "A levels...?"
then the gangster said to them "JC. JC."
then i heard their sudden excited mutters of sudden admiration.
but that wasnt gonna change the fact i still did not feel like talking so i just stared boringly at my umbrella as it left wet stains on the floor.
then i just didnt talk. maybe they got it, cos then a few left the gathering and went about doing their own thing. but still around though.
gangster sat himself next to me over the counter.
"A level, study till 19 ah?"
everyone who had departed now turned back at me. attention reborn.
i looked at them incredulously. i couldnt imagine why would any guy, what more a bunch of guys, take so much interest in a girl dressed in rubbish clothes.
so then i just loosened up a bit. i explained to them, that after i get results in march or april i would register for university (more excited mutters).
more questions came in, i guess they realized i was more willing to talk now... so they asked about my family... about school... blahblah.
then they stopped asking.
in my conscience i felt that they were really nice, to talk so much and ask so much questions about my life, i decided to interact a bit and ask the one question i was curious to ask since i stepped into the saloon.
"what happened to the bunch of ladies that work here?"
then one of them replied, "OH! YOU know them ah!!"
"yeah they did my hair."
"OH thats not extension ah? real pink ah? wow!"
"yup... so what happened to them?"
"oh, we dunno. they just told us to come here. so now they are gone and you have F4!"
i was just wondering who "they" was when that thought was disrupted by the "F4" comment.
i laughed.
then one asked, "you got boyfriend?"
"nope", i said more relaxed now.
"can i have your number?", the gangster said.
"uh... nah.... "
"eh! why no boyfriend!?"
"dunno... i just dont want..."
"sure got guys woo you right!"
"eh you like jap guys?!"
"eeeeeee no!"
"why?? a lot of girls like - "
"yeah!! i know all my friends like but i just HATE. i dont see wads so nice."
"this guy is JAP", gangster points at the blonde one.
"wha - really? for real?"
"NO LA! i just ACTING JAP ONLY"
*roars of laughter.
it was pretty fun i must say.
found out that 2 were 17, and the gangster was 23.
they even wanted to do my hair for free. like dye it black. low-lights they called it.
"what is low-lights???" i asked
"you know, high-lights are lighter than your hair, but low-lights are darker than your hair."
"OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!"
But of course i didnt. i mean i've been contemplating to go blonde why would i wanna go dark.
vicente started joking with them too. they played a whole lot with his hair. spraying some glitter thing in the end. and styling it like jap also.
the saloon soon became busier. from being the only customers, it was now full.
gangster had to go cut some person's hair, so after we paid, i just left.
Labels: blood ties, boys, Dirty $exy Money, eyecandy, JKR
title: Hoist the Colours!
date:
Yo ho, all together, Hoist the Colours high
Heave ho, thieves and beggars, never shall we die!
Labels: LA, Pirates, wordsmagicallyspun
