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yesterday i ate a leaf. thana hid it in my MEAT sandwich. a sandwich with thick layers of 3 different kinds of ham.

i want it again.

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easier to swallow. if you want something smooth instead of the aggressive jacob's creek.

today wasn't that great either... things cant really compare to the happiness of the previous days before yesterday. i don't feel like going work later. i want to finish my uni things. ughs.

work was okay. i only perked up when thana came.

i've come to realize he's really really a true friend and i will do anything i can for him.

but then i ended soon after... so i left.

then just had my usual day. filled with stress from reading.

then, the dream team came down to pasir ris.

with a bottle of hardys merlot and SWENSONS ICE CREAM!!!!

omg that made me loads happier.

thanks for taking care of me lion. i appreciate it.

then talked to jave on the phone. really really fun talking to that guy. we both miss selvam very much.

and now, i'm feeling much better.

but i'm wondering, should i sleep?

i frankly dont feel like it.

ok 5am still talking to jave.

 

6.30! hahaha. gangster.

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i feel much better.

vicente bought for me kfc, cut for me cake, we talked, had fun.

he doesnt judge.

and i owe him a lot for what he did yesterday.

he did a lot that didnt get me into more trouble.

and i've been chatting with bryan. he's been my solace companion throughout my stay here in "suspension dimension".

the only human company i dont mind at the moment.

he doesnt remind me of things i want to get away from. or reality.

comforting how he reminds me of a past. a nice one.

so that made me feel better too.

vicente and bryan.

then there's lion.

he's not having a good day at work too. but its comforting to know i'm on his mind as much as he is in mine.

and thana.

he texted me.

my best friendd of the deli.

made me smile too.

okay and as for the family, i guess it's something i will have to deal with later.

and i will. and we'll work things out cos we always do.

and i'll go back to loving them.

okay its half past 3. it's time for me to walk back outside.

to the life i have,

the good life i have.

the one i wont exchange anything for. regardless of the times i leap over to the greener pasture for a visit.

because this life, made me who i am today. and i am proud of that.

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wishing i lived elsewhere.

wanting a fast forward peek.

its like a vacuum in time. i dont want to get out of my room and face reality. and continue life. not now, not now when i still feel lousy and useless. not now when i dont want to have to do all that again.

i'm in a reflux kinda thing... folding my clothes. to show family that i'm still sane. chatting with bryan. eating ice. scared of coming out.

and glancing at my phone ever so often. hoping for some spark. from work of course.

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sometimes - just sometimes - i don't like my life.

sometimes - just sometimes - i want to be able to live differently.

sometimes - just sometimes - i don't want the pressure, the expectations.

sometimes - just sometimes - i don't want the status.

sometimes - just sometimes - i want to be away.

but if i could have it my way, to make things the way i sometimes want things to be, i still won't change a thing.

except maybe to be sometimes able to live the way i sometimes want life to be.

will all this ever pay off?

or am i just living in a prolonged state of suspension.

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i just woke up like less than an hour ago. (i.e. 11 plus)

sorry if this post sounds airy. i'm still feeling dazed. i hate this feeling. not the physical aspect. but the psychological effects of it on the relationship between myself and family.

yesterday, i got wasted real bad. worst in my entire life. first time i actually puked cos of alcohol. and i can hold my liqueur well. so that's the extent of it.

remember how i've been having awesome days in a row since like 3 days ago?

yeah well the lucky streak stopped at 7pm yesterday.

day started great. was going to work happy. cos was gonna work with selvam and thana. my favourite combi.

then in the train when i messaged that i was going to be late, i got a reply that lion was working instead of selvam!

so another day working with lion!

and i've come to notice that when we work together, the deli's very empty even though it's supposed to be crowded during that time.

its a weird phenomena.

so anyway, lion and thana.

fun as well! they were super nice to me. made me sandwiches... lion was beyond expectations nice. he spread jam on the scones for me. even though he doesnt like being nice.

thana made me a sandwich with vegetable. cos he wanted to get me to eat it. i was whining and whining about it. but i forced myself to eat it in the end. for him. he's my best friend over there. so really, anything for him.

after work, lion and i went for lunch. and he also couldnt believe how nice he was. he was like carrying my bag. and weeks back, we used to quarrel about how ungentlemanly he is. cos he was saying he hate guys who soften up for girls. blahblah.

but really, i appreciated it.

lunch was super fun. again, beyond expectations, lion took out the food for me... arrange nicely...

supposed to go for coffee, but i was running late for dinner with family. aunty evie's birthday. so in the end i just taxied him to work, then i continued down to pasir ris.

and the dread of having to leave him marks the end of my happiness.

cos the party wasn't really a happy thing.

yes i loved seeing my family and stuff. but it was really hard to enjoy myself and be happy when i feel like a betrayer. seriously, i feel like it's my fault that things couldn't have been better. and i was sitting at the main table. i was feeling damn guilty.

so it was hard to mingle, or talk, especially with the main people. so i just mainly haunted the dessert table. and later on the bar.

tried to occupy myself. there wasnt really much for me to do.

then i got drunk.

puked, cried, ugh.

but only cos my family didnt know i was at that state. we got into the cab like normal. and then i puked halfway home.

anyone who knows me will know that when i drink, dont put me in a vehicle. firstly i get road sick very easily. and me having alcohol will just put me in an express flight to pukedom.

so yeah. that really really sucked.

i feel like a loser.

and right now, the only happy joyful thing about my life, sadly, is my work friends. with them, i forget about my cares for awhile. with them, i'm not someone who has to perform. with them, i can be whoever i want to be without worry.

really.

selvam, thana, lion, jave.

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have to blog about the past 48 hours. cos i've been experiencing non-stop happiness.

alright, actually i'm always happy with my position in life. but the kind of happiness i've been enjoying the past 48 hours have been exceptionally different. it has been one long nice exhilarating ride.

okay! so here's how it went. (sorry to bore)

yesterrday, it was work in the morning as usual with elois. wasn't as dyingbusy as the previous day. (wednesday when we were dying and thana was already dead) so it was pretty nice. and i was looking forward to 3. cos i was gonna meet lion who decided to come early.

3 came, but i decided to stay longer and help out. cos jave who was to take over me, was going to be late. elois went break, and SELVAM CAME! louiza loves working with him. :)))) superr fun. (omg i work with him later!!)

so see, even though i wasn't going for the long-awaited meeting with lion and had to work, things continued to be fun.

work work till like 5, then rushed out to see lion who was so patiently waiting outside wisma. i really really felt guilty. but he was really really understanding. telling me that i did what i had to do... etc. did i mention he looked really really nice? (but then i destroyed his nice shirt later on - to be elaborated later)

lion started work at 6. so it was really horrid that we had little time to spend. HOWEVER, the little time was spent really nicely.

we walked.

like a longer route back to the club. and talked. then parted. and earlier, selvam had told me that they were planning a session out after work to surprise jave for his birthday. i wasnt quite sure whether i wanted to go, since it would be really late at like 11 plus when they ended work and i'll be tired from the early day i had.

so to solve the dilemma in the short run, i decided to spend time shopping. till i figured out what to do.

trained to city hall (louiza's fav place to shop hardcore). went to peninsular after so damn long. all the punkrockish days flashed back. SOME OF THE THINGS STILL LOOKED REALLY NICE TO ME!!! HAHAHA.

then walked to marina,

shopped.

then suntec,

shopped.

long story short, i ended shopping at like 10 plus. with lots of stuff to carry.

so i was at this point already more inclined to just go home. since i didnt want to heave my stuff everywhere, i was already on the east-west line, and i was REALLY exhausted from all the walking.

but then, a quiet small part of me was just begging to scream out go meet them!!!! you're already out its going to be funn!!! and lion was also calling and encouraging me to go.

so, whattheheck. i jumped on the train towards jurong east.

i was walking really slowly and zombiefied by the time i reached orchard. walked to starbucks to try revive and calm my senses with a long black whilst i wait for the party to arrive. yeah the dilemma was still racing in my mind. and i wanted to calm things down with familiar comfort.

which came really effectively. i got my long black for free!!

the niceness of the staff there just uplifted my senses and made me cheery. so that helped a lot.

lion came at like 11 plus to get me, then we walked to the meeting place. balcony at the heeran. (a place i personally been hating since sec days) and lion was really nice! did stuff he always vowed and argued with me against. carrying girl's things. that was really really sweet.

we got there first, ordered some food, then shortly, the rest came. thana arun selvam. then real madness began.

i dont know how to describe what happened thereafter, but i can say one thing. selvam has officially become a drinking buddy of mine. if not for his diabetes, we would have continuously bought each other rounds.

and i kept "cheers"ing with iced water. hahahaa. i had a cocktail and two vodka pours in front of me, but i kept irritating them, especially selvam, with my water antics. damn funny. CHEERS TO JAVE IN SPIRIT!

he became "gone" quite shortly after that. i was high. and lion, didnt drink much even though i know he could. said he wanted to stay sober just in case he needed to take care of me. but i keep insisting i can go home myself.

it was really really fun. before long, it was 3 plus. thana and arun decided to bring the spaced selvam back to the club to sleep. lion and i stayed cos i was happily eating ice from a big jug. this part i was high already.

after that, we left. i insisted we walk towards the club. cos i was concerned about selvam. but i dont know if what i really did was walk. i remember walking crookedly and thanking lion for being so nice to me even though he doesnt like being nice.

then the real funn began when we walked past the 24-hour swensons and suddenly i randomly say, "i feel like eating ice cream..."

before i could register things, i was scooted inside and i was blurrishly pointing out all the ice cream i supposedly "loved to have when i was working at swensons"

the reaction i got was just too nice.

i got everything i pointed out.

then it all came, and i was happily eating ice cream!!! at 4 am. and i even messaged my dad "hey i'm having ice cream". needless to say, i was high.

after that, my highness started to depreciate... i realized in disbelief the magnitude of my dessert impulses. but it was fun!! i so wanna do that again.

we walked, sat, and took cab to my place.

in the cab, i dont know what happened. but when i woke up at the highway entering pasir ris, i found that both of us were sprawled dead on the back seat. thats how exhausted we were.

then walked home, and i reached at like 5 plus. just died on bed

WOKE UP AT 8 PLUS, charge to work!

why charged? cos today was a rare time when i get to work with lion. our schedules are almost never together. cos we used to fight too much.

so i went early! i wore specs. eyes too dry from the late night with contacts. (faced lots of questions today!)

anyways, work didnt feel like work. HONESTLY. it felt more like a post-party chillout session.

fridays are always busy at our deli.

BUT TODAY, i can count the orders with one hand!!!

THAT BADD!!! i mean good!!!!

hahahaa. it was really quiet and relaxed. and we got to talk and spend more time together. and this is the first time i'm working with him and we didnt argue once. so it felt really really weird for me.

in a nice kinda way. i could get used to it.

he was really helpful too. more than usual. instead of just letting me do everything.

everything was so so sooo awesomely classic.

thana came, my half-half buddy and now best friend at deli! yay!! he's working with me again tomorrow.

then 3 came so damn fast. i seriously think i was enjoying too much. time flew. reiteration. 100% DIDNT FEEL LIKE WORK TODAY.

had to go home. walked out with archerl. had a nice chat on the way. then kuga came out of nowhere and acoompanied me all the way to pasir ris. even though he started 2nd shift at 6.

then i came home, played with del the whole day..

and now i'm done with the awesome post.

p.s. home team? today i was too tired to dress up for work, i wore fbt shorts and a police dryfit shirt. i was walking to work when a prison van drove past the sidewalk. and both of them saluted at me.

how camaraderie of them.

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have you ever had an i-feel-fugly day out; that was so bad, you just walked into a store and changed into a totally new outfit?

i did today. and felt mucccchhh better afterwards.

no idea why but today whilst getting dressed for work, my style instincts were not working. so so annoying. in the end, i just went back to my alterego-fied style. the standard black spag, jeans, stud belt and vans shoes.

but i still felt unglam.

after work, i decided to go shopping. but cos i was feeling so unglam shopping, i went into mango and came out feeling better. still kept to the style though. just that i felt nicer. hahaa. the retardness of retail therapy.

anyways, work today was KILLER. SUPER busy. to the point one customer actually complained to the F&B head that there was not enough staff at our deli.

KILLER.

[JUST TALKED TO LION FOR HALF AN HOUR!!!]

eloisa - who'd rather be known as elois, pronounced el low weese - and i, were dying together.

thana on the other hand, died already. hahaa.

SUPER busy. BUT SUPER FUN.

anyways, yeah after work, went to shop. but seriously all the clothes suck. i HATE SPRING. i hate the colours. not me. but some are nice, but MOST are too clashy.

i am waiting for FALL/WINTER.

SOON SOON SOON!!!

anyway, then lion came and we ate together.

and crossed road.

okay bye! i wna supper with parents.

and because you called, i threw prada on the bed.

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4 am till now. lj.

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i ate a whole loaf of wholemeal bread today. first time in my life.

bread is suddenly my favourite food.

and here's an ironic thought.

i'm okay with clubbing, sometimes find it fun, but here's the weird thing. i don't want my boyfriend to be the clubbing type. that also includes the clause that i dont want to meet my significant other in a club. call it prejudice or stereotyped, but i just feel that nothing serious can come out of a place like that.

ironic.

i think i just want a good boy. or an ex-bad boy.

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grateful to mummy.

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hahas, waiting for mcdonald guy to come. i decided to buy a mcdonald feast for everyone at home! so we're gonna eat and eat and eat tonight! whee.

i'm feeling much better now. been stressing a lot the past few nights. with uni stuff. well, tonight the heat continues as i read and read to decide on what to do. /=

nevermind. i will celebrate with mcdonalds first.

work's been awesome and funn! people are great. last night had a damn funny conversation with jave at 3am. seriously the people i work with are super fun. and nice.

and another thing, please tell me i speak good english. i feel like i'm depreciating in the quality of my expression.

okay better go toilet before food comes.

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i think i'm on another planet with u?

no no no. i dont think that great.

that would only be for 150% fun and friendship.

which i only had once.

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suddenly i'm confronted by a total different scenario. and the pressure's rising because time is ticking and i NEED to make a decision.

decision.

fine. i can make decisions. not good at making them, but okay i can if i really have to.

BUT this is different. THIS determines the future i am going to face for the next 7-10 years. and this, i cant decide in a flash.

so fine, i wish i could take my time to think. BUT I CANT. cos time is ticking and i need to make a decision before there are no longer any options or worst, a road for me to take.

i'm thinking about the economy. it has a lot to do with the kind of decision i have to make.

this sux.

as much as i want to leave, i want to make sure i have a foothold later in life.

BUT, what if i cant find a foothold?

and (I HATE THIS FACT) if i stay, admittedly, i'll have higher possibility of ensuring a foothold here.

ARGH.

okay. dilemma. really. dont bother trying to understand this post. even i cant sort things out in such a short time span. but in a nutshell, i may decide to not go america sooner than i wanted.

damn. cant they push deadlines???!!

but i guess, in life as we grow older, the kind of circumstances we face require us to be put under pressure.

louiza, just learn to deal with stuff like this. this is just the beginning.

shit shit shit.

economy, america, singapore, uk, singapore, DELILAH. job prospects.

go figure.

and DEADLINES.

chaos in my mind. who knew that the economy would have such an impact on decisions i have to make. amazing huh. that i'm on that stage now. that i'm being affected by the economy and its outlook. no longer a kid, living under the protection of my family, not having to wonder about what i have to do in 4 years. or worry how NOW affects LATER.

okay. yes. i have grown up, and i will deal with this. i always do. i will make a decision and not look back. i trust that i have grown enough to decide on what's best at this point of time. i have to trust myself.

yes, i'm immature and a kid at heart. i like to be taken care of. but i guess, when it comes to matters like this, i have to put up the same strong front i did during A level year. logical and wise. and matured.

phew. okay i feel so much better. i will now handle things. (:

and yes, i'm really grateful for my family, especially my parents. they make sure i'm not restricted in any way in achieving what i want. so what i only have to worry about is the decision i make. they're always behind me.

God, give me wisdom.

 

OMGOMG TALKING ABOUT IMMATURE! lion cub just called! heeee..... from work. and he also woke me up at 3am today. k he just went back to working. bullying my two other friends!!! IDIOT! heheeeeeeeeeee.......

 

ANYWAYS, i feel like clubbing. dancing. not drinking. i just wna move freely for a bit. controlled by music and not the economy.

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lj.

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sarcasm. memory. lack of concern for money.

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time check, 5am. nothing less than i expected, today was awesome. i have pictures, but i can't seem to find my cable to connect my cam to my laptop. i think that's a sign that i should really get down to university applications. since i've gotten the results, i haven't started making choices. it's been more than a week. i ought to get started, which is why i took at off for tomorrow (technically today). i'll stay in my room the whole day and weigh my choices.

bearing the plausible sign in mind, i will not blog so elaborately.

today, went church at 6.45am... went to get my long black and a yoghurt drink at N2... came home... got ready for work, and then left.

worked till 3 plus. the lion cub is confusing. (lj)

rained... so i took a cab to dhoby gaut... had a nice chat with the taxi driver. whole of orchard was jammed. took like 5 mins just to cross one traffic. he was really nice though.

did errands, raced to vivo.

met girls.

ate, walked.

hours at starbucks.

trained to orchard.

picked hadyy.

had cookies (:

went home. (1am)

bathed... blah...

3am: watched Sweeney Todd with Jave. fun fun!

and now, i'm here. but i ought to sleep soon.

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just casually having a long black from Mc Cafe' now. conclusion, it sucks. not strong enough for me. but i had to get my caffeine shots and it was the only option for me on the way home from church.

i went for 6.45am mass, and now i'll have to get ready for work soon.

an adventure awaits, i see vi and cher later. (: been so busy with work and delilah, we haven't met in ages! so that's something to look forward to.

still enjoying the morning chills. hopefully wont get hot later? =/

anyways, yesterday i watched stardust again. on hbo. when it came out, i was in the states. that's where i first watched it. i didnt want to actually. i didnt think it would be nice. but cheryl was gushing on and on about how great it was and how many times she watched it and about tristan yadahyadah. so i decided to give it a shot. well, and also there was nothing else nicer to watch. haha.

but i didnt regret my choice. it was AWESOME. superbly awesome. i give it like 10/10.

so watching it yesterday made me feel all american all over again. hey wait a min, i'm actually kinda american anyways. haha.

but still, it's a nice feeling and i cant wait to get back. hopefully this year? but daddy wants to go BORING sydney to see his friends. yes sydney is boring... but i guess the friends part is nice. oh wells anything for daddy.

okay! long black's done, and i'm running late, i'll catch you later. ciao!

Love,Louiza.

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I know you
I walked with you once upon a dream.
I know you
The gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam
Yes, I know it's true
that visions are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I know what you'll do
You'll love me at once
the way you did once upon a dream

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not going to blog much today.

1. yesterday, mummy del joana and i hung out at white sands. bought loads of stuff, it was rather fun.
2. got to see sous chef today! finally after so long.
3. the french couple are leaving tomorrow. i'm seriously going to miss them. he had such quirky harry potter looking glasses. well i'm glad i made a good impact on their stay here in singapore. they may come back later this year, but i doubt i'll be around... ):
4. on lj for-my-eyes-to-see-only.

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haha together with jave, i feel proud for once being singaporean.

i'm singaporean and i'll do whatever the hell i please. (:

family just lost 1.6K today in our investments. ah well shit like that happens. even though the company we have shares in is rather established. if i had the time, i'll persuade dad to let me handle the shares. yeah like that'll ever happen.

working with selvam is super nice. even though its super busy.

went to watch a movie with hadi today. Bloody Valentine. storyline was predictable, but effect were good. i give it 7.5/10.

okay i'm outta here.

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work today was damn busy. been working till closing for so many days. feet aching like hell. today's like the first day in days that i end early. working with selvam is so nice. eating with hadi is super nice. he knows so many places.

okay. i got lots to do, so laters!

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i'm a workaholic. i dont think i really like it...

well i do actually. i love it. but i cant let today happen again. i put work above faith.

no, i must restrain and set priorities. cos without God, i will not be who i am today.

today break, i sat at secret smoking place and talk and talked. love my work.

and at the terrace, time zooms by. adrenaline rush. it's like fighting a war. as quick as it starts, it ends. and you won't know what hit you.

at the deli, i get to be perfect. and organized.

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not going to blog. just jotting down minutes of the day. for memory's sake of course. feel free to fill in the blanks. (: and you can even ask questions if you're really curious. i dont mind. (: i just dont have the time to really blog. reached home at 1.15am, and i want to sleep by 2.30. still gta bathe and all. so i'm gonna make this short and brief. i just want to remember today.

train to work.

boy in train kept glancing. quite cute. but was busy talking to daddy. finally smiled at him when i was getting off. then an intriguing thought came into my mind... here's someone i may never see again.

work, time flew by. fight.

lunch with hadi and the barman. walked in the heavy rain under ONE umbrella. to far east. fun.

magic mushroom???? germans???

lucky plaza.

barman left. hadi and i had ice cream waffle at gelare.

walked back to club.

was told i had another hour off.

went to staff cafeteria, talking and laughing with selvam, jave and another barman.

terrace. 2 trays.

took bus back with hadi. ear piece.

p.s. i keep bumping into visa.

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today, rushed back to work at 8 plus cos there was an emergency. haha. how professional that sounds.

well the day ended off really nicely. with the 3 people walking to the station. jave, kishen, me. and me eating the sandwich thana made for me.

missed the train though, so i took the bus. jave was nice enough to wait with me till my bus came.

i work again tomorrow, 11. gotta read news first though.. but i WILL commit myself to sleeping by 3.

and i had a nice dinner thingy with daddy at kfc.

okay batt running out.

note to self: i blogged at lj.

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huh? what A levels?

 

i get to see lion cub tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ya.... what A levels....

 

or N.E.W.T.s..............

 

what talking you?

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yay! tomorrow i get to see the lion.

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goodbye to hello-ed sexual tension...

see you soon. ;p

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this post may be quite vague cos despite the happiness i'm feeling from the events of today, i don't think i can come up with the precise words to describe the magic in such a short time. yup, i'm in a rush to read the news. it's already late, and i dont want to be outdated. though lots of people always tell me "you can read the news tomorrow what." but then you see, tomorrow's news is different already. i need to know the process. the path to change. i need to know.

k i sound like a moron.

anyways, apparently results ARE on the 6th of march. thank you russell for letting me know very shortly after it was announced. though on that day, 2.30, i'll still be at work. so i suppose i'll just have to get it like after work. surprisingly, i'm not that panicked or nervous or what. i'm actually quite cool about the whole shebang.

NO it's not cos i think i'm super smart and am damn confident in good grades. i just feel that there's no point stressing... what's done's done. and for the record, i dont think i did that great. we'll see how things go.

so so so. happiness

right well, today i cut my hand with glass for the first time in my life.

sad. ):

pain. ):

i still cringe at the thought of the pierce.

but aunty and kuga were so awesome. they quickly rushed to my aid and helped me. seriously i felt like crying. but they really took care of me.

then i was happy again.

and louiza so does get jealous oh so easily. and whine whine whine. haha.

Labels: ALEXANDER VII, eyecandy, No Reservations

OMG i dont eat vegetables. BUT I WANT TO EAT FLOWERS!!!! so prettyyyyyyy..... and some can be EATEN! i'm so going to a flower restaurant.

Labels: the aftermath