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6 MONTHS TO CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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the weather is SOOOO cold!! (:

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i'm happy. just watched My Wife and Kids with parents whilst having a cup of long black.

my first coffee in over 2 weeks.

mainly cos my home stock finished and i've been too lazy to get some. and i stopped working at the coffee heaven.

don't get me wrong, i didnt suddenly arise from the lazy stupor. baby got me a big bottle of my favourite German coffee.

yupp, before the comedy, i had just come up from meeting thanaskodi and kuga.

(okay that was weird. calling him kuga. these days he's just baby to me. using that name's weird. haha.)

after work, thanaskodi wanted to buy some stuff cos he's going to thailand for a holiday tomorrow. till friday. WILL MISS HIM.

anyways, kuga baby was nice to accompany him.

and after that, both of them came over. (:

baby bought me lots of stuff. like all of a sudden! heex.

including my coffee, and favourite dark chocolate.

and he also bought me a new bracelet!

the few i always wear broke last week. ):

after like one and a half years.

but i love the new one baby bought me.

 

 

when he does stuff like this, i just can't believe how sensitive he is to me. i mean like. when i just met him, he was a total pain in the flesh. totally rude, insensitive and introverted. and at that time, sensitivity was a total impossibility in my opinion.

and now, he's taking me on his lap and speaking softly into my ear, putting bracelets on my wrists, arranging strands of my hair that strayed.

i feel like a pet. (:

 

 

anyway, couple of months back, i recall blogging about the qualities that dumbledore and ms quek shared. 15th January 2009 that which i admire, but didnt have the courage to undertake.

but last night, kuga really talked to me. and i realize, he also displays these qualities..

and i realize, i can be this way. it's not as impossible as i think it is.

simply by not worrying so much about the future.

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kuga came by after work.

we went to downtown to get my coffee, but everything was close. of all the days.

so we walked home, and got coffee on the way...

then we talked at the park awhile. lucky we didnt go for a movie. kuga was like already drifting in and out of sleep just sitting there.

so we continued our conversation via international calling.

and just ended, at 5.30am.

now i'm just enjoying the company of vivian and ben online.

today, sunday, parents, vicente and i went for mass. then after mass, we had lunch at century square...

okay my post is all over the place, i think i shall sleep soon.

 

lovebite 14th June...

 

it's very cozy having a man in my life. one that really knows how to take care of me.

today i got scolding. for always asking him to leave. because he says he'll stay no matter what he has to go through.

but the scolding was in a nice gentlemanly way. (:

 

sadness is like rubbish that we have to throw away.

 

cute, baby, like small girl.

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I'm happy. You're amazing. I ask so much questions. But you never get annoyed. You answer me patiently. You're right when you say, 'i never get tired of you...' I'm sorry if i ever said i'm tired.. :)

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i stayed home all day today... missing kuga.

reading.

was in bed a lot.

daydreaming about you.

just spent his break time talking on the phone.

i am going to watch casanova tonight.

 

you take your time with me.

you make me feel special, how you want everything to be perfect for me.

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i haven't slept. since 10 am yesterday morning.

that means, i've officially been awake for 36 hours. and counting.

but surprisingly, today, i'm not having one of those headaches i usually get whenever i don't sleep.

amazing.

maybe cos i've been too active and busy to let the fatigue sink in.

or maybe it's just cos kuga's in my life.

i pretty much stayed home all day yesterday. with family... ate... biscuits... did a bit of housework... set myself up a tumblr. only cause vivian's look so pretty. it's so not popular in singapore.

nevertheless, THANK YOU VIVIAN for quelling my stupidity. i know i kept whining over and over again about how i'm so damn confused and totally dont understand anything.

THANK YOU.

so anyone who's curious, you can check me out at www.frenchkisses.tumblr.com

where i try to be as creative as vivian.

hopefully i'm diligent enough.

oh guess what! i've linked the rss feed of my twitter to my tumblr. so now my tweets also get shown on my tumblr. just in case i'm too stupid to make my tumblr look nice, at least there's something there.

SEE VIVIAN. I MERGED MY BELOVED TWITTER WITH TUMBLR. hehee. but my twitter still remains though. at http://twitter.com/louizastarr i'm still there. tweeting about the air i breathe.

yes i know i'm lame.

but also obsessed with perfection.. and "taking down things"

apart from displays of creativity, i'm also using my tumblr as like a place to note the status of my relationship. i like to go back and observe the changes. good or bad.

are you starting to get the whole "taking down things" obsession now? haha.

don't say i didnt warn you.

anyhows.

in the evening, delilah daddy and i went to white sands to get some food. got like SO MUCH of kfc.

at night, i met kuga at 12 plus.

brought him to watch TRANSFORMERS!

but he fell asleep like during the last hour. (stubborn boy that didnt want to listen to me. i told you that you'll be to too tired to meet after work)

never mind. that didn't stop that silly boy from proclaiming at work that MY GIRLFRIEND BROUGHT ME TO SEE TRANSFORMERS LAST NIGHT!!!!

i give that movie 5/5.

then we walked home... i came home at like 7.

didn't really sleep because at 9 i had to make my way to tpjc to collect my A level cert... to pass to Broward College.

yup! i'm an undergraduate there now.

went to college to give the cert... then walked so much around cbd doing american banking. the weather was effing hot. i was shiny in sweat. and i was wearing a tube.

okay maybe the jeans didnt help.

and the fact that the whole get up was black.

ANYWAY, at 2, i made my way to tanglin to see baby!! by the way, i dont work there anymore. since sunday.

brought him out to lunch.

macs. as usual.

had fun amusing him with my personal notebook and my academic stuff.

and and and we had a really really funny conversation. i think i'll use tumblr to post it.

so go check it out kay!!! at www.frenchkisses.tumblr.com

:D

baby started work at 4 again. so he walked me to the station... where we spent the last 15 minutes just standing at the corner and talking like we always do.

and baby kept amusing me with his fierce face. making me giggle and go all shy and everything.

then he had to go. but he made me walk at the side where he could see my through the glass panel. haha. sweetness you.

then i went to college to sign a couple of documents.

THEN, my day got better.

vivian and i started a text marathon.

and she made me smile throughout the journey back to pasir ris. despite how my feet were hurting and my hair so messy and i felt so dirrty after the long long afternoon.

where the next shocker happened.

i passed the new coffee club where they were apparently hiring.

feeling all tired, i just randomly walked in.

and 10 minutes later, i'm an employee.

yes i'm shocked too.

i start on the 6th. cheer for me yeah!

i know baby is cheering for me. (: thanks for the support.

then i went home. like finally.

and had like hours of talk with daddy. (:

ate, play and now i'm here.

OKAY OFF TO DO THAT CONVERSATION.

go see! (:

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i made a resolution beginning of the year that i shan't be lazy.

i think it's time to reinforce that resolution because of late, i've been procrastinating quite a bit.

 

I SHALL NOT BE LAZY

 

There. that ought to do it.

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just realized i left my ipod on pause for like hours.

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they always say the best philosophy to living is live life as if it was your last day.

and i always thought, how cliche.

anyway, let me begin by blogging about yesterday. my day ended at 5 am this morning. so naturally i was too tired to blog if i was going to blog lucidly.

as usual, i reported to work at 11 sunday morning. worked with eloisa and muraly. and aunty.

by an unexpected string of events, yesterday turned out to by my last day working there.

and no, whilst working, i had no clue of that.

it was fixated in my mind that the following day - monday - aka today, was going to be my last day.

i had it all planned out.

i would relish everything i did, every detail, soak in every bit of environment. and most importantly, say an appreciative goodbye to EVERYONE i knew. because really, if there's anything i enjoyed very much from that place, was the friendships i've made with everyone.

so, no. because i didn't know that it was my last day, i didnt get to do all that.

and now, leaving that place, i feel like a significant part of me is heavy.

i guess that normal. the nostalgic immediate phase when one leaves an association, school, etc.

but i was lucky.

firstly, pardon the outright manner, i have good memory.

so, i can recall almost everything that happened yesterday. they're still fresh in my mind.

and secondly, most dearly, yesterday for almost 2 hours, i got to work with both thana and kuga.

thats like the dream team. minus selvam. but he also came up for a bit.

well, i couldnt have asked for anything more as a last day that i wasn't even aware of.

it was SUPER fun.

thana and i were fighting fighting as usual.

kuga was being his cute self, entertaining our nonsense.

and operation was so smooth.

i was inside the bar, and kuga outside.

he took orders and ran the items. i did the drinks. thana the food.

and i moved so fast, thana kept making fun of me.

but the 3 of us handled everything.

NO JAM.

and i'm very proud of that.

so i didn't know it was my last day, thana didn't get to make for me a fluffy. (go to mc cafe and order a fluffy. you'll know what i mean.)

BUT, most fortunately, thana made me an AWESOME (as usual) sandwich. and if that's the last food of his i'm going to eat for a long time, then i cant be any happier.

and at 5, i walked off, not taking the trouble to really say bye to everyone. because they were busy handling new orders, and i had no idea i was never going to walk there as barista/waitress ever ever again.

(okay suddenly my breathing's getting heavy and painful)

 

*takes a few deep breaths

 

moving on,

it was later in the evening. 10pm, that muraly called and told me he shifted the roster around. which meant i didnt need to come in for work today. (monday)

and so then it hit me, that i didn't have the last day i wanted.

and i was pretty bummed about that.

but it was even later that night, that my two favourite boys decided to show up!

yup! thana and kuga came down!

and i don't know whether it was cos they knew i was sad, but either ways, i was EXTREMELY happy!

from my place, we walked to the pond. where we had drinks and talked.

and the WHOLE time thana and i were bickering and fighting as usual. sometimes people at work find it hard to believe we're best friends.

and everytime at work when we fight, eloisa will scold us.

haha.

anyways, we had some fries and burger too.

it was really peaceful. we were like the only ones there.

then we took the long route home.

talked along the way....

i really felt extremely happy upon going home. like even though they ended late, they took the trouble to come over.

i entered my house beaming like a crazy person.

and so, the saying goes live life as if it was your last day.

i finally realize how precious that saying is. cliche is but miles away.

and i did tell my boys, that i really felt down that i hadn't known my last day had passed. i didn't get to do the things i wanted. didn't get to say goodbye.

and then baby said, it's never too late to go back and change that.

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thank you thana for talking to me. you really made me very very happy. juxtaposed to the day i was having.

then kuga came down at 1am!

we can read each other's minds.

i love u.

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Baby and shakespeare.

 

(louiza and kuga sees couple wearing identical teeshirts.)

kuga : do you like wearing same stuff like that?

louiza : hmm... not say i like or don't like. i'm neutral. if it happens, i think it's cute. but don't worry i won't force you to do anything.

kuga : for me it's not whether i like or don't like. it's what you like. then i'll do.

louiza : hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

 

haven't blogged in a while. haven't really used the computer lately. been either out late, or catching up on sleep. kuga's been amazing to me - as always.

late night suppers... dates... even though he's like super exhausted after working till late.

ILOVEYOUBABY.

being the nice nice awesome gentleman.

 

like yesterday, we worked at terrace again. second time as non-enemy.

and he called me baby!! haha like while working!! like in front of everyone. even manager.

like "baby can you help me do blahblahblah..."

made me really really smile!!

then when i asked "okayy now what you want me to do?"

then he says "do whatever you want."

made me feel so so so special. even though we were at work.

 

and he's so sexy. how he's like in-charge and everything...

and so strong. so sexy and tall carrying the super big tray.

 

haha okay i sound crazy.

 

and how he calls me the captain. - "anything let louiza handle. she's the captain."

and give me authority to let people go toilet.

hehehex.

even though i'm just a lousy part-timer.

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my perfect little gentleman.

i'll blog about today tomorrow. it's 5.30am already at the moment. think i had better get some shut eye. but first, of course i'll write starr a letter.

he deserves it, after being so awesome today.

but before i forget...

(louiza had asked for a straw at lunch today from the waiter. after a few minutes, it became apparent that he had forgotten about my request...)

kuga : i think if i walk over there, it'll be faster...

louiza : never mind! maybe he just forgot.. it happens. he's very nice.

kuga : he's nice? how can you forget the order of a beautiful girl?

giggle giggle giggle.



you'll only understand a book after reading it.

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you're so cute when you get jealous.

 

i love you ONLY. and ONLY you gets my attention.

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"i miss you."

                   "i don't miss you."

"huh?? why???"

                   "cos if i miss you, then i'll feel really sad. if i miss you, i won't be able to do anything in life. i'll be too sad."

"okay i don't want you to be sad. so don't miss me."

 

how selfless is that.

if it were me, i'll already be fussing and getting angry that i'm not being missed.

 

 

but baby, you know that even though i don't want to miss you, i can't help myself but to miss you dearly.

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from the moment you cut your hand, i felt like i wanted to be close to you.

 

i know i told myself i wouldn't think of you.

but you keep calling me, reminding me of the love that is missing right now.

and last night, your kisses were so soft.

they always are.

light. never heavy. never deep.

you leave me wanting more.

but last night, was exceptionally soft.

like the way you love me.

and though you're far, just thinking of them makes me feel your warmth.

but its ironic intensity gives me goosebumps. still.

and just, you made me remember something random. but precious.

you'll always check my burger whether it has been done properly whenever you bring me to macs.

and you may be captain at work,

but that doesn't mean a thing to me.

cos you're already captain of my heart.

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today's first day of kuga's leave

yesterday, went to work late. then muraly couldn't go meeting. =/

after work went home with susan and wendy.

asam girls. haha. we kept eating asam while walking to the station.

went home, took care of delilah, watched a bit of transformers. (:

at 12 plus, kuga came over. brought me to macs... where i showed him my blog. (this one)

and the conversations i had with vi and cher about him. (super embarrassing.)

i love you baby and you're the best for me. no one else.

at like 2.30, we walked home. which was nice. cos baby kept TALKING AND TALKING.

and i kept smiling cos i love to hear him speak. it's the only thing i wanted to ever do when i just met him. well, except of course, not the rubbish attitudes he was giving me at that time.

so i just kept soaking in the conversations, looking at him... doing my darnest to remember every detail of him. as i wouldn't be seeing this boy until tuesday. he's going to KL to visit his family. who are really nice people, from the conversations i've had with them over the phone.

"it's like now i'm walking. i don't know if i'm going to fall down over there. but i'm still going to carry on walking." - kuga, upon my question of how he knows i'm worth it.

so i reached home at like 3.15am. kuga kept asking me to inform my dad where i was. something i dont normally do. but i guess its good. cos then when i came home i didn't get any of the usual nagging.

i did research after bathing. and slept at like 5.30. woke up at 1.30. so i'm glad i had 8 hours of sleep. (:

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i want you to die first. i don't want to die first cos if not, no one will be around to take care of you.

                   then??? you're going to live alone??? ):

no after you die, i will die one second later.

 

 

yesterday

from 3 since work ended, i kept talking and talking about the latest happenings in my life. on and on.

then after an hour plus, in the train on the way home, i realized that i had been talking and talking non stop.

why is it that i have so much things to tell you but you like have nothing to tell me. *pout.

                      if you want me to tell you about yourself, sure i can do that.

 

 

 

 

i want you to win arguments. cos i don't want to lose you.

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the weather is SO so hot!

anyways, for record's sake. saturday was i'm sorry thank you day for thana and i. and kuga decided to come and EXTRA also. haha.

nahh he's just cute.

sunday, i did opening all by myself! in the dark. seriously. i feel so proud of myself.

actually, i was supposed to start work only at 11. but i decided to surprise baby who was doing opening at 10.

i came at 9.30 and did opening all by myself!!

first time! *feels proud.

after work, he brought me home. (: then went back for second shift. i love him.

last night talked to elfy.

today, i worked with him again. went to work early as well. we worked with aunty today. very fun for some reason.

after work, as he didn't have any break, i walked to macs to buy him food, then after passing it back to him, i went home.

at home, i had a damn long phone conversation with dad. not unusual. but yeah, awesome just the same.

and now, i'm just waiting to hear from kuga.

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