at 9am, i was certain that i was going to have a sucky day.

i talked to kuga till like 6 plus. he said so so many nice things. today's our one month. and things had a funny way of happening.

at 9 am i was sad. and unable to call kuga, i called elfy. who was so nice to entertain my emoness despite being in the middle of a jungle. thank you thank you.

and at like 10 plus, baby called!! and really cleared my emoness and muddled thoughts. so by 11, i felt a bit better.

there was hope for the day.

i spent the rest of the morning watching cartoons with delilah and snacking. fyi to you guys, she's feeling much better from the fever she's been having past couple of days.

at this point of the day, i was neutrally content.

but what made me REALLY REALLY happy, was that as soon as he could, kuga called me again. and spoke to me for nearly an hour from malaysia. and made sure i was smiling and cheery before he hung up to have lunch.

he worked at 2.

i'm off today.

i had lunch that parents bought back, whilst surfing the net. things were rather relaxing today. watched a bit of tv too...

i had a productive day. cleaned room... folded my clothes... ironed my uniform... even helped daddy with the laundry.

not a bad day.

dinner was lamb steak.

thennn!!! THANASKODI AND BABY CAME TO MY HOUSE AFTER WORK!!!!

thanaskodi!!!! was so so happy to see him after so so long.

):

then they brought me to mac donalds. at white sands.

we were the only ones in the bus there. and thana and i were squabbling as usual. SUPER FUN! whilst kuga took care of me as usual.

squabbling didnt stop at macs. where kuga had to end up doing the ordering cos the two of us were too busy fighting. haha!

eating also compromised of arguing. i think we miss each other too much already. haha.

and my kuga actually fell asleep while we were arguing.

macs at night is nice. rather tranquil patrons around.

at 1.30am, we decided to leave cos someone was like dying already.

cabbed to my place, thana took the stuffs for the bike. kuga sent me up.

and i got to french kiss my baby after SO long. but pity it was like only a few minutes.

went home, and washed up... talked to parents. and now i'm here.

so,

what irony.

at 9am i thought my day was going to suck.

at 2am, i'm wishing i could play it all over again.

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"i want to go eat cake"

                                   "okay go ahead."

"but i want to gooo eaat with youuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!! i want you to bring meeee. okay fine! i'll go myself. do things MYSELF!"

                                   "oh! okay okay i'll bring you."

"no i don't want anymore. never mind! i'll ask THANA to bring me!"

                                   "okay FINE! i'll call you next year. BYE!"

"okay!! BYE!!!!! i love you."

                                   "i love you too."

he hangs up phone.

....

....

....

....

4 minutes later....

"hello?"

                                    "i don't want you to do with anyone else. i don't want you to ask anyone else. i want to bring you eat cake."

"haha. okay i wont ask anyone. i love you a lot."

                                    "i love you too. okay i'll call you after work."

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okay i really have to control my mouth.

I TALK TOO MUCH TO KUGA OVER THE PHONE!!

and now its like 5.15am. ):

i feel bad.

and i really really LOVE kuga.

he really knows how to treat me properly.

and friday, i have a DATE with thanaskodi.

and kuga actually didn't ask to come cos he didn't want to interrupt us.

really i cant believe it.

he's so damn nice. and he trusts me so much.

but i persuaded baby that i wanted him to come... our lives are now joined. one. there's only us. so my outings are also his. and i want him around my life as much as possible.

no such things as interruptions. cos he's louiza as much as i am. (: in fact, he can go as my representative to anything. (:

i spent the whole night watching lipstick jungle. (still am actually)

I LOVE
KUGA.

am i crazy.

i think so.

and delilah was having a fever today. now she's okay. but the whole day whole family was worrying over her.

everyone loves her. (:

and kuga's worried too.

i am content.

LJ.

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"yeah it's (motorbike) getting old. like me."

                                                                     "yeah you're my old man."

"okay young lady."

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the weather is really, really hot.

and it has been that way for the past couple of days.

at times, it gets to me, but at others, i try to enjoy it. soaking up the sun means more vitamin D. sorry for the randomness.

anyhow, the day's sunday... here's what i did.

i went for mass at 9.30 with vicente, after which he went for cathechism. i decided to walk home. (part of embracing the sun)

i did take a cool shower thereafter.

watched tv with delilah, then at 1 plus, went to tampines mall to have lunch with family. had cafe cartel. personally i think the standards are somewhat dropping. ah wells. all was good.

LJ.

it's a rather down tuned sunday for me, so after lunch, i just went back with delilah.

now she's having an afternoon nap, whilst i'm here massaging my feet and trying not to let the heat get to me.

did you know? i'm feeling rather stupid. and till i get over this chapter, i think i'm going to continue feeling lost and stupid. HSWW.

i think after this, i will go print out our migration documents. daddy's been asking me to do it for days. and i've been too busy or exhausted to do it.

anyway, i really cant wait for thanaskodi to come back. selvam starts leave today. and he's going to meet thana in ipoh. we ought to go on a trip one day.

just to note, yesterday kuga came down at like 5 plus... we hung out for awhile then went for breakfast at loyang point. then work... where everyone was getting ready for the club party.

i worked at churchill.

then went for macs with kuga.

then home.

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today, is day one of thana's leave.

i went to work, to work with not nice person again... zzz...never mind. the rest of the people were really nice.

i handled almost an hour of chaos.

really proud of myself...

then kuga came and made me happy... then i went home after work.

that's all for work today i guess.

then at home, in the evening went to mass with vicente...

then we went to eat like a hell lot.

didnt know my brother actually has manners. waited for my food to come after so many years before he started to eat.

then we also bought chocolate to eat in the bus on the way home.

(:

thats family for the day....

now on to the main feature.

thanaskodi.

he really made me happy the whole day.

like i was really dreading going to work... working with not nice person... and not having kuga around in the morning.. and thana in malaysia...

but he called me like almost at every point of the day!! from malaysia!

and reallly made me happy.

really.

it's like you're not gone.

(:

thanks.

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just had supper.

started at 3.

before that, talked to kuga for two hours.

i feel sad.

thana's leave starts today. ):

won't be seeing him for a week.

won't be talking to him for a week. ):

and i've grown so accustomed to talking to him on the phone almost everyday.

and also conferencing with him and kuga. the funness. the chaos. priceless.

work's stupid these days in the morning. don't really like who i work with in the morning past couple of days. but i'm trying to belt it in.

i think i'm doing fine.

and either ways, when thana comes, then kuga, they never fail to make me feel loads better.

but i guess for the next week to come, i'll only be relying on boyfriend.

which is awesome!

selvam's going on leave too... he taught me how to set the terrace!! (:

boyfriend boyfriend boyfriend. i miss you.

k wait. need to message him.

k done.

now, my number two. thanaskodi.

okay done.

now back to kuga starr.

okay done. now back to blogging.

so yeah, gonna miss the absentees.

and i love kuga. how he trusts me so much...

LJ.

he's MY man.

p.s. feels guilty that cos of me he waited 1 and a half hours at the roadside.

today, went out with vicente and delilah. we seem to do that a lot often.

fun.

and yeah supper.

daddy put out for me as usual. (: even though he was super tired.

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number 1, i miss thanaskodi. i have his sim card with me that kuga happily took. so i cant contact him. ): despite him working later at the same time as me. 11am. ugh.

all kuganesen's fault.

number two, i didnt sleep. the most i just had a few hours of shut eye. mostly talked to kuga and thanaskodi on the phone in the wee hours of the morning. then at 4 plus kuganesen decided to come over. and i just came home not too long ago.

having breakfast now - a long black and crackers. will have to get ready for work soonish.

blah

oh and i just had a chat with daddy.

i just sorta told him about kuga? i think???! =/

so weird!

cos he wanted to know who i went breakfast with. then i said - kuga.

then he went "that indian guy that day?" (daddy had a glimpse of kuga on the night he brought over muffin - refer to appendix succeeding this post)

then i was like "err... ya..."

"did you ride the motorbike!? you better don't... all it takes is one accident. you either die or become a vegetable" (from young i have been wired to be anti-motorbike, just like anti-cigs. daddy has a lot of friends who died from motorbike accidents. daddy hung around with people like this when he was young. he himself got into an accident. lucky didnt die.)

"i swear to God i didnt. i just went nearby..."

"tsk... i never asked u to swear to God... i just asking..."

"don't worry lah daddy... from young already i know..."

"yeah yeah... you know you know..... this guy, muslim or hindu?"

"huh??!"

"muslim or hindu??"

"err... hindu? why!"

(this is where i start to get a shock...)

"cos if muslim, you better not waste your time... if go in to deep, will have a lot of trouble with converting... if there's ever a future."

*feels weird having this conversation... cos from martin till this moment, daddy has always been anti-whatever guy louiza may like.

louiza goes, "err okay..."

*daddy walks off.

so what does this mean???! daddy dont mind if i finally have a boyfriend?? hahaha.

fyi, none of my family except vicente knows i'm attached.

appendix

when kuga came to give me the muffin at like 1 am, daddy was like "he came all the way here from orchard just to give you that muffin???"

then he asked how was he going home at such a time...

and i said he rode his bike here.

p.s. i tag this under eyecandy as well cos my kuga will always be MY eyecandy.

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awesome awesome awesome day yet again.

morning worked with eloisa and raja... but then, at 2, thanaskodi came!! and i set the high-tea for him. (:

made him happy. and he called me cleverr. haha. (:

then kuga came!

but i went for break.

hung out at the cafeteria with the handsome manager, indra and the barman. talked and talked about stuff... soccer.. malaysia... roller coasters. hahaa. damn funny.

then, at 4, selvam appeared!!! the member of the dream team that has been so MIA for so long.

so the prior party took their leave, and i was left with selvam. and we talked and talked about cake. haha.

i had break till 6 you see.

then the best part.

thana came at 5!!!

so it was like suddenly so damn fun. hahaa. being with them is awesome. those two. always fighting. much to my amusement.

then, 6 came. i went back to work. set terrace for kuga. i think i did quite a good job. (: all by myself.

but then baby came to help me either ways. even though it was his break. haha.

first time i worked at terrace with kuga as a non-enemy.

yup last i worked with him there, we were still fighting non-stop. and today's work was nice. despite having a retarded headache that maintained itself throughout.

was really hungry... thana really took care of me.

then, after work, thana and i took a cab home. i dropped him at his place...

and at my place, kuga surprised me by turning up! hahaa.

i miss that boy so so so much.

came home at 1.30am... talked to thana till 3! then went to bathe.... and now i'm still awake... dont wanna sleep... ):

but i guess i have to. gotta wake up for college day.

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worked with eloisa and raja today. and sy.

then at 2, thana came...

then kuga...

i scalded my hand with hot water...

had briefing at 3...

then went to tangles to visit thana.

which was awesome.

LJ

oh i cabbed to work today. couldnt wake up.

and last night, had so many conferences with kuga and thana.

damn funny and chaotic. many a time, things were so incomprehensible. cos all three of us were talking - or rather shouting - our own kind of things at the same time.

thana: louiza starr maria alexandra joseph!! louiza starr maria alexandra joseph!!! louiza starr maria alexandra joseph!!!

kuga: can i say something? i want to say something first! i want to say something! can i say something!?!

louiza: can you two keep quiet?!! shhhh!!! wait wait!!! one by one!! hahaha! i dont understand!

now play the manuscript simultaneously.

result: chaos.

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super fun. i just finished like almost half an hour of conferencing with thanaskodi and kuga! (; (:

super super fun! i love them really.

anyway, today at work, worked with christina.

then stayed longer with muraly and kuga.

then, kuga brought me to mac donalds!

okay i'm going to clear out my bag.

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midnight went to costa sands to pass jave and friends some tools to fix their mahjong table.

morning, went to work SUPER EARLY. one hour earlier. to surprise kuga baby.

dream team working. THANA and baby.

SUPER FUN. but today had lots of irritating interruptions. but dont worry. johnny and i are good friends. (;

thana was super nice to me today. (:

after work, baby brought me home.

anndd now i was planning to sleep at 12.

but baby called.

then thana called.

then baby called again.

and for a few minutes, we all conferenced!

then i continued talking to thana. who apparently gets jealous easily too. hahaa.

and then, i said goodbye. and now i'm here to record all the happiness down.

and, today at work i was chef. can u please pass the captain's order!

and now i think i want to watch grey's anatomy.

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superbly happy!!!

yes as you know, i was dying for most of the evening in bed thanks to tabasco... BUT! guess what took the pain away?!

thanaskodi!

my bestest friend in deli.

he called and we talked like a lot! and he really cheered me up. as usual. (:

talked about so much! about my merajukness, (i'm still tanglin's baby! yess!) about the dream team, about funness! yup the fun we 4 get into... haha indescribable high.

so really, then he asked me how's my stomach. and... the pain was so minimal! hahaa.! wow amazing.

he has this charm that makes me smile regardless. and the mischief we two get into... haha. priceless.

i still remember, when i was a bit upset with kuga, he actually brought thana down to my house at 5 plus in the morning cos he knew me seeing thana would make me smile.

that boyy... really selfless of him.

kay now i'm missing kuga even more. cos i'm so in love with how he takes care of me and my feelings. he completes everything in life.

LJ

i am going to write him a letter. now.

and thats the end of mother's day.

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about 7.30 in the evening now...

brought mom and family out for lunch. except daddy. he had to work.

dont know what to say about lunch.

was both fun and disastrous.

brother and i ordered these disgusting drinks. thick milkshakes.. well at least mine was a pleasant pink and white... or strawberries and vanilla. my brother's apparent "oreo" milkshake looked like a genuine replica of polyjuice potion.

we couldnt finish them, and also like minutes later we found ourselves suffering from tummy aches.

and i think mine was worst cos i drank more of mine... and also i think another cause of my tummy ache was the fact i splattered Tabasco sauce on everything i ate.

i dont usually eat tabasco. but there was very little chili sauce on our table, and i was lazy to ask for more.

ughhhh......... i really hate the feeling. (i'm still suffering from it.) i think my brother's already cured. which leads me to think that maybe there was nothing wrong with the milkshakes after all. that it's just the stupid tabasco.

after lunch, walked around tampines1 with family, but then really, i started to totally not be able to take the pain...

so i dragged the whole party to BLUE. the bar at century square. to get myself my favourite coffee. illy.

the coffee helped.

a bit.

joana, delilah and mummy decided to go home first, leaving vicente and i at the bar.

vicente ordered shelly temple. that was so not like what we always drink in usa.

then i decided to order a cocktail. yes despite the tummy ache.

i must say after everything, i felt much better.

alcohol runs in the family i think.

BUT NOW I FEEL LIKE CRAP AGAIN! i think the powers of the alcohol is wearing off.

followed vicente to the arcade for awhile. he wanted to play a racing game. i spoke to kuga on the phone...

then we went home.

AND I FEEL LIKE CRAP. REALLLY. ):

i shall tell kuga.

p.s. thank you world for all the mother's day wishes. (:

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had a nice morning. now's 9.50am by the way.

kuga woke me at 4 plus. he actually came over to my place.

i got ready in a jiff and went out.

we hung out.

FINALLY some alone time.

it was raining so so heavily.

finally got to devour my man. after SO DAMN LONG.

dont think i actually really got the chance to really kiss him since we got together. like 2 weeks!

ah wells. just now was satisfying.

nooo no dirrty stuff ohkayy.

louiza is still sex phobia-ed. and even finger phobia-ed. hahaha. still penetratively phobia-ed.

so nothing dirty.

just innocent nice kisses and hugs while the rain was superbly heavy.

i dont think i'm going to do any of the above mentioned till a very very long time.

i already told him. and i'm lucky to have a very nice accommodating boyfriend.

and yes. now i'm being called princess.

after he saw elfy's message to me. cos elfy calls me princess. yes that matrep of mine knows my manja-ness best.

I LOVE KUGA.

okay enough of the kuga fest. time to blog about agendas.

wait... i'm going to shift to room. just finished massaging feet in hall.

kay in room already.

oh and by the way. kuga forgot i'm a mom too. and that mother's day is for me too.

and thats apparently cos, i dont seem like a mom to him. i'm more like his baby.

haha. yeah i'm lousy at taking care of myself. he's my mummy.

okay so, i'm going to end this now. gonna bring mom for lunch later.

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we don't need to go that far, let's hold on to where we are. if it's real, we'll make it through. cos all i need is you.

tomorrow's mother's day. and vivian just reminded me that i'm a mom too.

honestly didnt really occur to me.

let's see how many people remember that.

if you know what i mean.

hmmm.

so, sacrifice.

yeah i think so.

character development?

i think so.

i hope so.

how to cope?

elfy says i still have phobia.

yeah i know.

i'm halfway preparing to bolt as it is.

i dont want pain.

i hate bothering my brain.

think think think.

bleah.

don't worry. nothing that bad.

and maybe that's cos i'm not allowing it to be that bad.

cos of the "phobia"

bleah.

ah wells. lets see how things go.

i'm still waiting for the sign on which path my life will take.

is the freaking sign even going to come?

so... mother's day huh.

sacrifice.

who's gonna even give me credit?

maybe that's why i actually forgot that this day's actually for me too.

=/

so mind-boggling.

why cant i just sit and talk to you.

can i be busy with work.

SIGN AGAIN.

rarh.

yes i'm crazy.

this is so weird.

i'm not normal.

ughhh.

never mind. think, character development character development.

and there are WORSE out there.

*comfort.... k now i sound like cheryl in her blog. with all that finding comfort thingys.

never mind now's just the beginning.

bigger picture bigger picture.

lets take a look at what's passed so far.

saturday

kuga started work at 6. i had no mood to go work. but he came to singapore super early. and surprised me otw to work. i start at 11. so he brought me to work... and waited for me to end at 3. then brought me home.

sunday

kuga started work at 10. i went to work super early. at like 9 plus. bought us breakfast. started work early with him.

super busy day. CHAOS.

went to tangles after work. thana made me a nice sandwich.

monday

worked with kuga again.

rushed home in cab... it's the day i saw cheryl.

tuesday

worked with kuga. this time whole day.

but our breaks were different.

i ate a lot.

people kept giving me food.

stewards gave me some chicken dish and rice...

then i went up, thana gave me a ham sandwich.

then i went down, sat with selvam, susan, rose ann, that guy.

more food. some chinese pastry thing. quite nice to chew.

then thana came down, and selvam, i and him were table top talking. for the rest of my break. happiest time of the day for me. selvam's really nice.

dream team. haha. minus kuga. who wasn't on break.

5, went up. worked with christina for almost 2 hours.

kuga bought me chicken rice during his break.

so i went to eat again... this time sat with indra and the handsome manager.

also fun.

but doesnt beat the dream team.

worked with thana at night. awesomeness.

did closing with lots of his help...

went home together... bus didnt stop at his house. haha!

thats for bullying me.

carried on going home.

kuga was at my house.

wow.

hung out for awhile...

went home.

wednesday

worked with kuga again.

at 3 he brought me home.

at macs at white sands.

thursday

worked with kuga again.

friday

didnt work with kuga. worked with muraly.

saturday (today)

worked with kuga, but he started at 12.

talked to elfy otw to work. he made me happy.

after work, we ate macs at shaw.

then i went home, he went back to work.

LJ

so, sacrifice?

envy?

tolerance?

character development.

let's see how long i can live like this.

why i've been working with him so much?

eloisa, whom i always work with, is on leave.

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trying hard to recall the magic.

Sunday

read a lot of news...

watched a lot of lipstick jungle.

and i vaguely remember the conversation, but i remember i was whining for hours on the phone in the wee hours of the morning to kuga; being petty about something. don't even know what it was. thats how dumb and whiny i was being. haha.

but one thing i definitely remember, was not once did kuga get annoyed. or put down the phone. despite being all tired from work.

and i felt really bad after the call and my sense kicked in. that i kept him from sleep. haha..

so i apologized profusely, and i got scolding for apologizing.

and i got rewarded with a breakfast date. with the dream team. so at 4 plus, i went to sleep contented, anticipating dawn. and regretting the useless long phone call. cos i could have gotten more sleep. instead of acting like a fool.

but it's okay i like. (:

Monday

supposed to leave house at 7. but ended up leaving at 8. cos i couldn't really wake up. no surprise to that.

trained to orchard to meet the dream team before they start work at 11.

yes, i was off.

got there, and found only my boy waiting for me.

apparently the rest died and couldnt wake up. did i mention that the dream team went to bed around the same time? so means they were indirectly kept up by me also. haha!

kuga and i went for breakfast at borders.

and i was happy.

havent spent time with each other since...

hey wait. not that long ago. the last time we were alone was like the previous day he came down with the bear. and we also had breakfast. (hey i didnt realize that!)

never mind, i think i just miss him a lot. that's why seems like ages.

and yeah breakfast was nice! i shall go there again. i ordered this hell of a lot of bread thingy. and made a huge mess eating. haha!

and kuga took care of me... wiping my mouth.. dusting my dress. taking my hair out of my face.

he ordered this omelette thing. and fed me a lot. haha. and yes yes compared table tops. my bread was toasted okay! and the plate was so far away. obviously will have bread crumbs.

okay i was lazy to rearrange the table.

but eventually he also did that for me.

seriously how does he tolerate such a useless person like me? so troublesome.

and this is coming from the guy i used to fight with. the same guy who vowed he hates doing things for girls.

now the most amazing guy i know. after God and daddy.

before my brother.

haha.

anywayyyy, after that, he went to work, i trained to tampines. to visit my girl at TP.

bought her a rose as testimony of my undying love.

and i met her, bf, and a pleasant individual known as shir, and other people who came and went.

they were doing tutorials, and i was stealing vi's stationary (as usual) and drawing. and i was missing kuga, so i wrote him a daily letter then and there. happy to be able to give him something the very next day at work.

and tp coffee sucks.

vi's class started at 2, so i made my way to the library to catch up on the news, and waited for russell.

and headaches ensued.

met, haha. then we went to tampines1.

got a decent coffee (finally)

but i was acting all crazy - sorry for that russell - that was the headache acting.

total 4 cups on this day.

but after that nice coffee, headache was still there (although a little elevated) so i concluded that it's there probably cos i didnt sleep much.

went to bakerzin for dessert. which was awesome. really. i shall go there again as well.

then something happened. to make me ecstatic! despite the shitty headache.

kuga called and asked me to go to work!!!!

i was like WOW okay!

but then i let it slip that i was suffering from a retarded headache. and at that moment regretted. cos then he started saying things like okay then never mind dont come. stay there.

but then louiza whined... and louiza always gets. (:

so, soon after, i made my way home to get my stuffs. russell was nice enough to accompany me home. (:

and i really did enjoy the afternoon of tea. (:

okayy so then! i ironed my uni, (picked out kuga's big shirt) freshened up, and left.

at orchard before walking to the club, i bought for selvam kfc. i heart dream team (;!

then, started work! which was fun! the dream team was around. full attendance. awesome stuff.

night after work wasn't that nice. solely cos i chose to feel ughish.

slept in bus...

house door was locked...

no one could hear me...

hp batt died....

had to walk to 7eleven to use the lan line to call daddy...

then walk back whilst feeling like crap.

so i bought vodka and drank it all the way back.

to numb the dread of having to walk back feeling like crap.

exactly like that time when i had to go work with NONE of the dream team around. NOT EVEN IN SINGAPORE. i intoxicated myself with red wine before work. and yes elfy, stupid thing to do. felt like puking in the train. not nice thing to feel in the morning. 

anywayyyy, i think i slept at nearly 5. talked to jave on the phone telling him why i felt like crap.

made me feel a lot better. well talking to him's always fun regardless.

oh and in my highness, i spammed kuga a lot with text messages. about why i was sad.

rather unreasonable reasons i must admit.

next day.

Tuesday

selvam day! i got to work with selvam!

awesomeness.

oh, i fell down. like after a gazillion years. outside the locker room, some person moped the floor and put too much soap. freaking slippery.

i fell down. on fours. so i wasn't hurt like on my head or something.

BUT, my left wrist was bruised. like blue black.

damn freaking pain.

whole time at work damn hard to work. left hand's my tray carrier.

so i had to work with right. and i vowed to raja that confirm i will drop the tray today. first time in my life.

but hey, whole time i didnt! (:

okay i owe it a lot to the fact that selvam did almost all of the carrying.

and i wanted to work whole day again. cos dream team would be around.

but those dream team people HAD to tell kuga that i fell down and injured my tray carrying wrist.

Dr. Selvam then took some bandage and mummified my wrist.

and then kuga was like no no no dont work again.

but then, i managed to convince MANAGEMENT!

HAH!

so i got to work!!!

:D

from 3 plus to 5, i sat at the cafeteria and wrote kuga his daily letter whilst drinking chicken soup. (: nice.

then at 5, kuga went off for break. so he brought me to far east to eat! (:

damn damn nice.

then brought me back to work... he started at 6, but i still had an hour to go.

went back to cafeteria to read philosophy, but then i really really missed him, so i decided to go work early! HAHA.

we both drew for each other! which is something new cos he doesnt usually draw. (:

work was damn damn fun.

after work, DREAM TEAM and i went out for dinner!! and newton!

damn damn fun.

and thana really took care of me. like i wanted to drink beer but he really didnt allow. i was quite shocked actually.

but really it was DAMN nice!

then kuga brought me home.

we took a long walk at pasir ris, i told him everything, and then, i became his girlfriend at 2.30.

because he's so amazing to me.

and wow, i still cant believe i got through what i've been avoiding. without any wounds.

amazing.

i underestimated him.

the post-lovey dovey conversation went something like this:

(louiza glances at her watch and heaves a conclusive sigh.)

louiza: *sigh... so. 29th april, 2.30am... 29th april.... okay....

kuga: yeah. wolverine come out today.

MAJOR -_-'''

DOT DOT DOT.

0.0

haha. kuga says the darnest things. thats why i love him. yes dear, i laugh not cos u said something stupid. cos u said something darn adorable.

wednesday

kuga brought me home from work!!!!

thursday

WENT HOME WITH THANA!!!!!

really, i love kuga. and the way he treats me.

and now talking on the phone with him for hours!

more darnest things

love is about sacrifice.... i gotta sacrifice some stuff for you... EH NO WAIT. i dont like the word "sacrifice". i want to change. love is about doing what you want... i want to do stuff for you.

i have to trust you first. only when i trust you, then you will trust me.

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